Some messy nights finally came, the stars bloomed and brightened, this dark world is their home field, if there is a leader, it is the moon that has nothing to do with the sun, the bright moonlight is a little sad sprinkled, and those who cry and are sad alone in this deep world ruthlessly lift up the scars.

And I am the one who has been scarred, I have had dinner with Tom, but I am still wandering in the town, with strange children, walking lonely, walking in the endless night, the cold street, even though it is the hot season, even if the town is lively at night, but I am shivering, and the gentle cool breeze has turned into a biting cold wind, which keeps eroding me.

I don't dare to go back, I don't dare to face what happened today, and I don't dare to face the consequences of this qiē, in the middle of the night I can't help but think of Manqing, maybe Manqing only has the potential to be a lover, but there is no fate to be a husband and wife, even after a few hundred minutes, a few hours, my heart is still painful, if you use one word to describe it, it is painful.

Ever since I ate, I've been thinking about what to do.

Looking at Tom, who is very curious about the world, I can't help but laugh, it seems that I have made a decision, and I understand what my next path is?

In any case, I have to help Tom find his cruel mother and hand it over to her, I am not a ruthless person, I can't be as ruthless as Maria to abandon my little life and let him wander and mourn

This night, I took out the only few thousand dollars of private money in the card, spent dozens of dollars, and stayed in a hotel in the town, watching Tom, who was tired all day and almost left this world, fall asleep, but I didn't feel any sleep.

I don't have my laptop with me, and I can't finish today's novel update, so I can't even get the hundreds of dollars of full attendance, which is obviously bad news for poor Jingle Bell.

Unable to do anything and unable to sleep, I called my college classmates in Hangzhou.

The phone rang for a long time in the terrible middle of the night before it was answered, and it was answered with some anger.

"Hey, who's it, it's the middle of the night."

Luo Meng's howl came from the phone, and I faintly heard the girl's gasp, a little weak.

"Dead man, who?"

And the fucking woman's voice came, the voice was so crisp that it almost made me vomit, I was suddenly full of black lines, it turned out that this girl was there, I was really drunk.

"Damn, you're a girl, it's more than two orders now, is this going to be seven times a night?"

I said angrily.

"Fuck, it turned out to be Xiao Liang, are you nervous? Call me in the middle of the night. ”

Luo Meng's unhappy words resounded in the quiet room, and I couldn't help but keep my phone away from my ears.

It's normal for Luo Meng to be unhappy, if I was also disturbed by the phone while doing that, I would be more unhappy than Luo Meng, because this did happen.

"You still have the face to talk about me, don't you remember when you were in school, when I made people in the middle of the night, did you beat me, I was fucking drunk."

I hit back immediately.

"Okay, okay, Xiao Liang can say anything about it, and I'll continue to talk about what I should do."

"You pervert, I'm going to go to Hangzhou tomorrow and stay at your house for a few days."

"Uh, with Manqing?"

"No."

"Okay, call me when you come, I'll hang up first, you're a bitch."

Luo Meng hung up the phone without waiting for him to finish, I listened to the melody of Dudu, and couldn't help but laugh bitterly, not laughing at Luo Meng's urgency, but laughing at the ending of his own egg pain, if a qiē according to the development of the plot, I should spend candle night in the cave room now, right? The more I think about it, the more heartache I feel, the more sad I become, the sad thing is not that I am jealous that Luo Meng is bathing in love, but that my heartache is that Manqing has left.

I didn't sue any of my friends about getting married, and Luo Meng's brother didn't sue sù, because my marriage ceremony was too fucked, so I didn't sue anyone, and now I think about it, it's right, it's very right.

called Luo Meng, I sent another text message to my mother, and wrote all the things that should be said into the text message, the content of the text message is that I want to take Manqing to the city, don't look for me, the village is not my world, tell my dad not to be angry, just let me go out and break in.

I didn't tell my parents that Manqing had left me, just because I was afraid that they wouldn't be able to stand it, what would happen? This lie will definitely be exposed, so leave it to the future

Early the next morning, I took Tom to the town's bus station, saying that I was leaving, but in fact I was fleeing, cowardly.

"Father, where do we want? Is it to find your mother? ”

Tom, who had been walking in front of me curiously, suddenly turned back to me and asked.

"Yes."

My feelings are not high, because I am leaving, even if there is sadness here, even if I want to escape, but this is my hometown, and it feels really uncomfortable to leave my hometown, but I have to leave.

I took the shuttle bus from the town to the county seat, and came to the overcrowded train station, I was really leaving, I didn't have anything, no luggage, no suitcase, no notebook to write novels, not even my cheap guitar, I was helpless, I didn't even have a coat, I could only wear a big vest and big pants, fortunately it didn't change, but it was unusually hot, giving me the opportunity to wear strange cheap clothes.

I took Tom, who was also a little sad, and got on the train to Hangzhou, which was also the train to leave my hometown.

Looking at the people who saw off the car window, looking at the people who left home with suitcases, looking at the lovers who were reluctant to leave and hug each other, I wanted to cry, such a picture invisibly reflected my loneliness, my helplessness, other people's departure from their hometown has a farewell, there are tears of reluctance to hug, but my departure is an escape, there is a strong reluctance but no tears of farewell.

I left alone, maybe I can only wait until I have a partner and a career before I can return to the hometown I fled from, right? Can you meet your parents who may be sad and angry now? Maybe you can straighten your chest and walk in front of the feudal villagers, right?

Although the sun was very strong at this time, it could sting my dry eyes through the car window, but I felt that the sky had darkened, and I didn't want to fall into the darkness, such darkness could not illuminate my heart, I panicked and rubbed the window glass with my palm, hoping to let the short light shine in, which could brighten my gray heart.

But the train has moved, is slowly moving forward, slowly skimming over the platform, the picture of inseparability has disappeared, my dry eyes have become moist again, my mind is all Manqing's appearance, I really can't accept this ending, but it is already sad and helpless, since Manqing went to the so-called Passat, I already know that our love and affection have come to an end.

"Father, what's wrong with you? How do you wipe glass? ”

The lame words sounded, but I didn't feel the so-called joy, a person's heart is gray, even if Chaplin and Bean are coming, what can they do?

"It's okay, I see the glass is a little dirty."

I didn't have the heart to tell Tom not to call me Daddy, I just replied in a low tone.

"Oh, father, how long will it take to find Mom? I miss mom. ”

Tom's little hand grabbed mine, I turned my head to look at the inevitable tears in my deep eyes, I could only touch the blonde hair with my palm, and comforted: "I will find it, sleep well, wake up, we are here"

When I had finished speaking, I turned my head and looked at the fading landscape, wondering what Tom was going to do. Do you just take it with you?

I thought: No, I can't send it to a welfare home, I'm a jobless vagrant now, I don't even have luggage and clothes, it's a problem for me to survive, how can I still have a child? ――

Bingbing continues to ask for support, and needs free flowers, and collections, that's all