This night has passed for a long time, returning to a moment of peace, but my heart is as usual, it seems that the so-called peace has nothing to do with me, dawn comes, some cold sunlight pierces the sky, I walk a little lonely on the shore of Erhai Lake, the Erhai Lake at night and the Erhai Lake that comes at dawn are really different, but the mood is so similar, my mood is not happy because the sun shines on my face, and I am not happy because of the fresh air.

On a new day, I need to lead my tour group to play in Dali, but I am already absent-minded, how to concentrate on such a tour group leader, my heart is chaotic now, is confused, those few simple words have been echoing in the ears, and every time I hear a familiar but unfamiliar voice, my heart is a tingling, as if committed angina, the woman I love deeply in my heart, will abandon me like this, I never thought that something happened after all.

I didn't go into the hotel room all night, I was afraid of feeling the lonely atmosphere, I was afraid that the richly decorated sea view room would become vast, I was afraid that the white walls would become gloomy, I had too many fears.

The morning is to take tourists around the Erhai Lake, I am a little sleepwalking on the country road, the simple villagers of the sincere smile I did not respond, the scenery around me as if not seen, such as a lost soul of the walking dead walking on the path trampled out of the crowd, the place in my heart is his home, the person I think of is the person who talks to him.

The day's work is finally completed, the night is coming again, but today's night is different from yesterday, today's vast sky lacks moving colors, there are no bright stars in today's sky, there is no curved moon, the so-called bright moonlight can not be swayed around Erhai Lake, the towering Cangshan Mountain is covered by dense rain, the lake in Erhai Lake has found compatriots who are not the same as each other, and began a fierce confrontation, the ripples on the lake surface are getting bigger and bigger, and the resistance is becoming more and more intense.

I held a black deep umbrella, and this night completely integrated, I held the umbrella around Erhai Lake for a circle, and then unconsciously came to the place where I came last night, stepping through the gate of the community, I heard a voice roaring like calling me, guiding me to a building downstairs in front of the door, I looked up to the dark third floor room, paused, the rain wet my cheeks, I smiled and strode into the unit door, step by step, every step is so heavy, I was like a messenger from the night, or pretending to be a coercive, walking into the corridor, or holding an umbrella, a little couple who passed by me, looking at me with a disdainful look, and walking through and talking not so quietly.

"Isn't that guy stupid?"

"I think he's a pretend."

I heard the blatant talk, and instead of turning around to roar angrily, I took out my phone, took a selfie to look at myself, and smiled self-deprecatingly.

Then silently put the mobile phone into my pocket, went up to the third floor, I once again stood in front of this red door with the blessing, hesitated again and again, struggled again and again, swayed again and again, stretched out a trembling palm and rang the extremely piercing doorbell, a doorbell rang, all so that I could not press the next doorbell, I wandered at the door for a while, after all, no one opened the door for me, just when I was about to turn around and leave, I suddenly heard the sound of the soles of my feet stepping on the stairs, and I also heard a very familiar voice, I hurriedly went up to the fourth floor, in fact, I wanted to go up to the front to face, but in the end I chose to temporarily escape, when I went up to the fourth floor, from the thin slit in the stairwell to look down, I happened to see the smiling figure, and then I saw the woman lying on the back of the smile, at this moment my heart is stagnant, at this moment my love is collapsed, I can no longer keep calm, if yesterday was hearing is false, then today must be seeing is believing.

The distance between the fourth floor and the third floor is only a few dozen steps, but for me it is the distance between Erhai Lake and Cangshan, the woman I have been missing in my heart is close in front of me, but it is like a winding asphalt road across the road, I have always thought that she is not really breaking up with me, but there is something unspeakable, but the integration of yesterday's hearing is false and today's seeing is believing, my feeling is self-defeating, my intuition is wrong.

Xiaoyan really changed her mind, she came to Dali to look for a smile, I even think that she has been associated with a smile since the last time she came to Dali, my heart is crying, crying is not water but blood, a silly boy like me has always been stupid to think that there is a reason for a qiē, and now at this moment I see the reason.

"What do you want to eat today?" Braised pork? Or preserved egg porridge? ”

With a smile on his back, he stood at the door of his house, and asked Xiaoyan while opening the door.

"Egg noodles."

Xiaoyan on the back replied, very light and calm, but standing on the fourth floor and looking down, I really felt that kind of bland happiness.

"Okay."

smiled and agreed, and then the door opened, and then carried Xiaoyan into the house, the door was closed, I just watched the two of them walk into the room, the footsteps never moved, what I heard, saw, felt will not let me ask like a stunned young man, since the fact has become a fact, no matter how I hold on to it is useless, this time the door is tightly closed, but I am still standing on the fourth floor like a sculpture, and the cold wind blowing from nowhere swept my body, My slightly thin bangs blew up in an instant, and I felt the erosion of the rain, but when I touched my face with my hand, I realized that it was hot tears, and at this moment my steps were no longer motionless.

I retreated very quickly, until I leaned against the wall and did not stand still, my hand touched my chest, some quiet tears, my clear ears heard the sound of heartbreaking rain falling, yesterday's ears were a fluke, but today I believe, but after believing that the heart is no longer normal, as if this heart is no longer mine.

It's been lingering for a long time, it's time to go, the staring eyes finally closed for a moment, and when I opened my eyes, I slowly walked down to the third floor, the footsteps are vain, slowly come or leave slowly, when I come, there is still expectation in my heart, when I leave, my heart is dead, the road of the community seems to have a line, this is a line that belongs to love, I once again experienced sad love.

I really want to ask Xiaoyan if the oath she said became bullshit? Ask her if the phrase, 'Where you are, I will be there, I will be with you' is just a casual remark?

When I came, I had a black umbrella, and when I left, I didn't know where the umbrella went? My hair was wet in a moment, and some crazy rain hit my face hard, and even my body, I couldn't compete with the rain, I couldn't compete with the sad feelings, I was just a stupid boy, stupid in the end without a hug to run to.

Walking alone on the rain-soaked road, looking at the still brightly lit Erhai street, I unconsciously came to the store that was close to our hearts when I left, when I first wrote this, neither of us knew what the other party wrote, when I left, I thought to myself who I would come with when I came here again, but no one came to me, I was just a person.

Standing at the door of this bar, I looked at the rain-soaked floor-to-ceiling windows, paused for a moment and finally walked into this bar, this bar is relatively quiet, as if everyone who came here has fallen asleep, the long-haired beauty sitting on the chair on the stage is talking about the guitar and singing, I stopped when I heard this song, standing in the bar, looking at the stage under the spotlight, listening to the vicissitudes of singing.

"You think you didn't choose a single qiē, and what you got didn't match what you wanted. You think that time can be restarted, and someone else will be the protagonist, and love can grow old forever, you don't know who is good to you in the world, she can do nothing for you, no matter whether you mix well or not, whether you give him glory or not. She is willing to work for you and accompany you to old age.

It's not easy to have someone who loves you, how can you hurt her heart so much, she thinks about the only you she loves, and she doesn't work hard now, it's not easy to have someone who loves you, why don't you cherish it, when you miss the loss of repentance, can you get that kind heart back. ”

To be honest, this beautiful woman who seems to be only twenty years old, sings a song that is really vicissitudes of life, very good, of course, the reason why I only stopped the pace is because of the meaning of this song "It's not easy to have someone who loves you", the woman sung in the song is exactly the same as Xiaoyan in the past, but a qiē is just once, it is not easy for a lover to live with someone else, my eyes are a little red and swollen, a little uncomfortable, the long-haired beauty's singing voice fell, I want to see what is the open secret that Xiaoyan wrote down at that time?

I took a big stride and quickly came to the secret wall, because the wall was full of stickers, and I couldn't find my and her stickers for a while, we didn't stick too far at that time, looking at the fonts of love and hate, my heart was heavy, and I was even more curious, I looked for nearly ten minutes on the wall, and the long-haired beauty sang two songs with vicissitudes, I finally found the secret written by Xiaoyan, looking at the dense and neat font, I immediately read it silently in my heart.

In a moment, I finished reading the secret that Xiaoyan had left behind, but one time was not enough, and I began to read silently in my heart again, again and again, and the women on the stage were singing one song after another, and people from all over the world in the audience were drinking different types of wine.

I saw Xiaoyan's secret and smiled, and the smile will be even thicker when I see it once, but this kind of smile is bitter.