The night was very deep, it was suffocating, and in the quiet night, the pain that even breathed seemed to pour into my body like a thousand horses, and the pain went to the bone marrow.

Say goodbye and stop missing it

Say sorry if you can understand a qiē

Tears kiss my face instead of you

My world suddenly became snowy and cold

There is still your yesterday between your fingers

How to collage piece by piece completely

The melody of this song echoed in the dark night when my reality and dreams alternated back and forth, until the sky was slightly white, and I saw a new message from colleagues and friends in the company, wishing me a happy birthday, and I didn't reply because it was already four o'clock in the morning when I saw this message.

I should be happy to be born in Japan, but I am so sad, I hope that the next birthday will be happier than today, at least don't let my wife cry, I don't want to cry, but we have already felt the helplessness between us.

My birthday passed, and when I woke up the next day, I was the only one in bed, and Lin Xi had already gone to work. The curtains were drawn tightly, and the sun was shining outside the room, but inside the room it was so dark that I couldn't find my shoes.

The phone rang, and then his wife's gentle voice said, "Husband, are you up?" ”

"I just got up, and I'm looking for slippers."

"Pig, so you can sleep"

My wife sometimes called me a pig, and I stopped resisting, firstly because I was used to it, and secondly because I did have some of the habits of a pig.

"Husband, I want to eat steak, from Earl's Western Restaurant."

"No problem, I'll go pack"

"But it's far away."

After a quick wash, we set off after getting my hair done, and arrived at our destination in 10 minutes.

It was meal time, the spectacular scene of the Western restaurant full of seats surprised me, ordered, found a table by the window, the spicy sun outside the window made me hot, I took out my mobile phone, thinking that sending a message to harass Lin Xi might be cooler.

"There were too many people to eat, and it took 2 hours to eat"

"Oh, it's okay, hard husband"

"It's not hard, it's just a little sun." After thinking about it, I pressed the cancel button, and the information was nipped in the bud.

More than 20 minutes later, the steak was out of the oven and the inspection was paid. On the way there, I thought, "It's good to do this every day." ”。

I saw a lottery shop on the side of the road, and several customers were very involved in betting on it, and suddenly thought that maybe the wish of buying a lottery ticket and getting five million for nothing would come true faster. Or like those colored balls in the United States, if you win a prize of 100 million dollars, you will not be so bitter in this life.

Lin Xi ate very deliciously, obviously eating more than before, looking at her satisfied smile, she thought: "Paying for your dear people, who says it's not a kind of happiness?" ”

In order to improve my mood, she promised me to accompany me to the streets in the evening, and so many of my good memories are in these streets. Whether it's arguing or giving flowers, or going to the movies or going to the bar, or I go to see Bai Jie's stomach ache, or disrupting the occasion between me and Saori.

I held Lin Xi's arm, enjoying the coolness and memories brought by the evening breeze. Lin Xi was wearing a light red dress, quiet, generous, and elegant. Lin Xi's appearance, or when she appears with me, is always easy to attract the attention of passers-by, especially men, and I have gradually become accustomed to the courtesy of being noticed by the same sex when walking on the road.

At about 8 o'clock in the evening, I had dinner at a familiar restaurant that I forgot my name, and I ate for two and a half hours, perhaps the guests who ate at this speed were not very popular with the boss, who from time to time paid attention to the movement of our table with eager eyes, but I was ruthlessly pushed back by my resolute gaze.

"Boss, give me another bowl of rice, I found that I didn't eat enough after eating for a long time", if it was a QQ chat, when I said this, the boss must have dragged me into the blacklist in despair. It was already 11 o'clock in the evening when I returned to the room, and I felt more energetic after taking a shower than in the morning.

The witch was asleep, and I was lying in bed watching TV, and my mind was a mess. The heart is even more messy, it's a mess with melancholy, the kind of mess that people are worried about, why? Looking at the witch, I knew the answer: how far can we go.

When I woke up in the morning, Lin Xi was not there, and the space between the two people suddenly made me face it alone, and I was a little uncomfortable, so I continued to sleep, and when I fell asleep, the world would disappear, and when the world reappeared, she would come back.

There was a typhoon today, it was raining, the weather was a little cold, and when I was sleeping, I still kicked the quilt as unscrupulously as always, and I only remembered after I woke up that she was not around, and only took care of herself. The quilt warms my skin, my wife warms my heart, pillowing the past and memories, the sound of wind and rain outside the window is getting blurred and blurred, and the world is slowly disappearing again, but in the blurry picture I seem to see Saori, she is very dark around her, looking at me from a long distance, quietly, very sad, very sad, and when I walked towards her, suddenly she disappeared into the night.

When I woke up again, there was no sun outside the window, no more rain, the sky was cloudy, and it was unbearably depressing.

I glanced at my phone, and there was an unread text message, sent by Saori: Your phone is down, I will help you recharge.

It was a very light sentence, but it was like a sharp knife inserted into my heart, and it hurt so much that I couldn't speak, and I couldn't straighten my waist.

I try to keep my emotions hidden, but you always put it on the table with ease. I thought that if I hid it, I would forget it, my heart would be quiet, the pain and sorrow would be nowhere to be found, and the love debt I owed you would slowly disappear, but I found that no, as long as you said a faint word, all my defenses would crumble, and my heart would ache, like bone marrow.

I always thought I would get used to the guilt that came from hurting you in the past, no matter where, who I met, and how it started or ended. But your simple words, but make my guilt overturned, I know, if I give you care, you will definitely be sad to tears, so I would rather give you sadness, I would rather you hate me, the more you hate, the better, so that you will no longer care about me.

I held back my tears and replied: You are insane, you have nothing to do! Then I turned off my phone, I didn't dare to think about it anymore, I was afraid that you didn't hate me, I was afraid to see your eyes that hesitated so much that I couldn't cry anymore.

In fact, anything can be replaced, love, past, memory, happiness, disappointment. , can be replaced, as long as you want, you will find the one who replaces me and start your life again.

Many people don't need to say goodbye, because they are just passing by, and forgetting is the best memory we give each other. The tears and pain we have given each other have drifted away with the wind, and if there has been happiness, happiness is only a fragment of a moment, a small piece. So, I regret it, regret why I didn't give you a little more happiness in the first place, although it was destined to pass by.

I closed my eyes, tears were squeezed out of my eyes, but the sorrow went round and round, and I couldn't disperse.

When I returned to the office after visiting clients, it was already seven o'clock in the evening when I arrived at McCho's office. As soon as I walked in, McCho beckoned me to sit down and said with a gloomy face, "Your team's performance is 30% worse than target!" What are you going to do? ”

McCho finished speaking, and closed his mouth and stared at me. I felt as if my heart was blocked by something, and my expression became strict, I lowered my head, thought for a while, and said, "I need a little time, and we haven't relaxed." ”

"Hey, wait." McCho interrupted me, "You say it takes time? How long will you need? Those people of yours have been here for a long time, and I have given you less time? I choked on McChok's words, and I had to lower my gaze on the table.

"Tomorrow, please give me your forecast for the next month, where do you think your best chance is?"

"I think Hengtong's customer is very promising, and if it happens, it may be about five million." I was forced to do no choice but to pick up the biggest opportunity in front of me to sue Sù McCho.

"Hengtong? Why are they buying next month? And not later? Are there any opponents? ”

"Because they will add new equipment at the headquarters before they expand their plans. And this is just the beginning, and more equipment will be purchased in the future in the Huping area. The opponent is still Chase and several other peers. ”

"What if Hengtong loses? You're nothing, right? You can't just stare at a big deal, you have to learn to spread the risk. So your chances are still too few. I was speechless and continued to listen to McCho.

"Of the ten people in your team, who hasn't performed yet?" McCho picked up a sales report and asked Holly as she looked at it.

"There are four people who haven't yet. Yan Ning still has. ”

"Okay, I think Yan Ning's ability here is the worst, I don't know what you think?"

"I haven't seen it yet." I was worried that McCho was going to attack Yan Ning.

"Which of these people do you think is the worst?" McCho asked impatiently.

"I think it's going to take time to see."

"As a sales manager, you can't be too kind. We are not a welfare institution, we want to create a performance for the company. You need to make a decision now to fire someone, to make everyone nervous, and you think about who that person should be? ”

"I don't know."

"I think it should be Yan Ning! He is responsible for all the big customers, in the past, he could often place orders, but now he has no orders, I think he has a problem with his ability. At the beginning, Xinyang was brought to you from Mr. Ji, just to balance the quality of customers, but look at your performance! With such a big customer in Xinyang, there must be a lot of opportunities, but we can't get into it. By the way, how is Xinyang lately? ”

"Do you know, the few people you fired and Chairman Ji are talking about comprehensive cooperation with Xinyang, Yan Ning must be in trouble."

"Oh?" McCho was a little frustrated, like a speculator who had sold a stock that continued to soar. But he immediately regained his composure, and looked out the window as if nothing had happened.

I know McCho is helpless, but I'll never admit I'm wrong. Seeing that McCho stopped talking, I made up a lie: "Yan Ning has some sales opportunities recently, if you fire him, it will affect our performance." ”

"Oh, really? When? ”

"Just next month."

"Then why don't you have that chance on your prediction? Are you going to protect him and joke with me? Mike asked.

"I only learned today that there was progress on this opportunity, so I can now add to next month's forecast." I continue to justify myself.

McJoe was skeptical of my words, but he only wanted results, so he commanded me: "Okay, if Yan Ning doesn't have an order next month, I'll fire him for you!" ”

"OK, if he doesn't sign the bill, I'll fire him." I just let it go. I thought: If you blindly press down like this, you don't know how many people will leave! So he said to McCho, "Boss, I don't think you should put any more pressure on the salesperson now." We want to boost morale, and they need encouragement so much. ”

"Signing an order can improve morale, but how can you improve morale without an order?"

"I agree, but signing requires counselling and support. Therefore, I think it is hard to stress and support them more and exchange sales skills more. ”

"It's your responsibility to counsel and support, I just want results, understand?" McCho felt like I was confronting him, and squeezed a few words out of his teeth in displeasure.

McJoe looked at the forecast I reported again, and suddenly asked again: "What are you going to do with those lists in Longyang?" You should do your best to help Xu Meimei and Wanzhou make a performance, otherwise they may also resign themselves. ”

"I think Xu Meimei Wanzhou is very satisfied with this job and will not leave lightly. We should find some way to support her. ”

McCho nodded, rubbed his face with both hands, put his arms behind his head, held his head in both hands, his face showed tiredness, thought about it and said, "Okay, that's all for today's conversation, you make a plan, help them do their best, give it to me next week!" If you don't get any more results, you'll all be gone! ”

I'm upset, expelled, expelled! There was a fire burning in my heart, but I nodded and prepared to leave. He also advised: "Remember, if Yan Ning has no orders next month, I will fire him." Tell the other salesmen to pay attention. ”

My heart sank, and I thought: this stubborn McCho, it seems that there is nothing in this world that can move him except orders. But he promised: "I know, I will do my best." ”

Walked out of McCho's office, lit a cigarette, returned to his office, looked at his team, and sighed.