Chapter Seventy-Three: Guilt
After the car ran a few blocks, Yuxin looked at the bath towel he was wearing and realized that the thing was still in the cabinet of the swimming pool.
"Yan Qing, can you take me back to the swimming pool? My stuff is still locked in the cupboard."
Seeing Yuxin sitting in the passenger seat with an embarrassed expression, Yan Qing drove the car directly to the swimming pool without saying a word.
Back in the locker room, Yan Qing and Yu Xin took their things and sat back in the car.
"That'...... Chen Weiwei's things, won't you help her get them back? ”
Yuxin sat in the passenger seat and said to Yan Qing, who was about to start the car.
"Besides, I still don't know what size her cabinet is, and I don't know where she put her keys?"
Yuxin didn't say anything more, just fastened her seatbelt, and Yanqing drove back to the door of her apartment with Yuxin in the car.
"I have to rush back to the hospital, I won't go down, don't blame yourself too much, you can't blame all this matter, don't think about anything when you go back, sleep well, I'll call you on your phone if something happens"
Yan Qing kissed Yu Xin's cheek, which was considered comforting.
Yuxin didn't say anything, just dropped the word thank you, pushed the car door and got out of the car and left.
Yan Qing drove a special trip to the Walmart supermarket, and when his hands touched the shopping cart, he seemed to be able to feel the scene of shopping with Chen Weiwei before.
Thinking of this, Yan Qing let go of the shopping cart, this time he just picked up a shopping basket, bought some nutritional products and left the supermarket in a hurry, afraid that staying in this familiar environment for a long time would make him even more sad and sad.
Yan Qing, who returned to the hospital, went upstairs with a large bag of nutritional products in his hand.
Pushing open the door and walking into the ward, Yan Qing put the nutrition on the table, he didn't dare to say anything, he knew that as Chen Weiwei's parents were already very sad at this time, and they didn't need more words to stimulate him.
From the eyes of Chen Weiwei's parents, he can no longer see any feelings for himself, except for a cold and piercing hatred.
He felt that standing in this room was superfluous, and looked at Chen Weiwei's parents sitting on the hospital bed with apologetic eyes and withdrew.
The medicinal power of Demerol was still very strong, and the effect of the medicine continued until the evening when it gradually subsided, and Chen Weiwei woke up from her sleep again, her chapped lips slightly half-open.
"What about water? I want to drink water."
Hearing that Chen Weiwei woke up, her parents, who had been guarding her bedside without leaving, burst into tears of excitement.
Yan Qing hurriedly found a water cup, poured a cup of warm water for Chen Weiwei and brought it to the bedside.
"Vivi, you're awake"
Hearing Yan Qing's voice, this time Chen Weiwei was not as excited as before, nor did she respond, but just twisted her face to the other side.
Chen Weiwei's mother glared at Yan Qing and took the water glass.
"Stay there! Didn't see my daughter and didn't want to see you."
Chen Weiwei's mother saw her daughter become like this, and choked Yan Qing angrily.
Chen Weiwei, who had drunk water, was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze, she couldn't move because she could feel it at the slightest movement, and the pain caused by the unhealed scar was unbearable.
She lay on the hospital bed and kept muttering, "My baby is gone, it's over."
This half-crying, half-laughing and chattering expression really frightened Chen Weiwei's parents who were sitting on the edge of the bed.
Yan Qing avoided the bed, stood near the door, and silently repented in his heart that he had caused her irreparable damage because of his brain-dead mistake, and his heart was full of guilt.
"It's all my fault, I'm not and don't deserve to be a qualified mother, I'm not qualified, they all blame me"
Chen Weiwei couldn't stop repeating the same words in her mouth, and kept blaming herself.
Such cruel words came out of Chen Weiwei's mouth, collided with the surrounding walls and couldn't disperse, and finally returned to the ears of Yan Qing and her parents.
In the dead and silent ward, the walls around it were soaked in a mixture of cruelty and sadness, and the miserable white and spotless and even clean were a little creepy, although the single room was decorated luxuriously and decently, but there was no warmth at all, I don't know how many people had come and gone in this ward, and I don't know how many souls and bodies had been left on the hospital bed, and they had been bound and could not escape.
There was an indescribable smell in the whole room, which was very choking, and this smell was simply a lawless rape of people's olfactory organs, which may be the unique body odor of places like hospitals...... No, it should be body odor accurately, just like the animals in the courtship period, in order to mate and exude an irrepressible smell that attracts the opposite sex to go crazy, such a smell is destined not to attract bees and butterflies, but it can make everyone who comes to the hospital remember this smell that can make people sober up instantly, let people remember that health is more important than everything, remember to come to this kind of place less often.
In this single room, Yan Qing, Chen Weiwei and his parents all felt that there was an invisible dirty hand that was choking his throat, and he would feel difficult to breathe when he opened the window, and the whole room would always fall into an indifference that was more lonely than silence.
Chen Weiwei has woken up, lying quietly on the hospital bed, expressionless and silent, such a daughter is really about to make her parents not know, Chen Weiwei, who is introverted and even makes people feel a little autistic, at this time, even the only smile that can express emotions before has disappeared from her face, and it can be seen on her sallow face that she has shed a lot of blood in the emergency room just now, and her whole body is weak and paralyzed like a sponge.
"Seeing that your weak body is soft, I'll go to the supermarket to buy a chicken and stew some chicken soup for you to drink to replenish your body"
Yan Qing saw some tenderness on Chen Weiwei's mother's face, it was a kind of tenderness that could not be pretended, emanating from the maternal instinct, she gently stroked Chen Weiwei's face with her hand while talking.
This fierce woman in Yan Qing's eyes revealed her tenderness and care as a mother at this time, and the soft words made people feel that a warm and pleasant sunshine shone into the cold.
"That's it, Weiwei, your vitality is too depleted, you really need to make up for it, you still want to eat what you want to eat, you tell me, I'll go with your mother to buy it for you"
Hearing Chen Weiwei's mother say that, Chen Weiwei's father, who was sitting on the other side, couldn't hold back his silence and asked with concern.
Hearing her parents' concerned inquiry, Chen Weiwei, who was lying on the hospital bed, just shook her head.
Chen Weiwei, who was lying on the bed, didn't want to say anything, she hadn't been out of the operating room for a long time, and she was not used to such pain, the white belly was sewn up with a knife wound, as if she had had a caesarean section, but who knew that it was the doctor who had to take out the child from her womb who had formed and was not breathing, this injury may cause her to be unable to be a mother for life, after pushing out of the operating room, the doctor informed Yanqing of this risk, It's just that Yan Qing didn't dare to tell Chen Weiwei such cruel news now, he was afraid that she was already seriously injured in life, and there was no way to accept such a reality.
The scar left on the belly, like a brand of shame, was engraved on Chen Weiwei's skin, and she felt that between every inch of breath, she would be implicated in the pain of the knife, and she wanted to stop but couldn't do anything about it.
"Don't ...... Don't really go, I don't want to drink anything, I really don't have to buy"
Chen Weiwei saw that her mother was about to get up and leave the hospital to go to the supermarket, so she grabbed her mother's hand and didn't let go.
No one will know that the weak Chen Weiwei, every word that comes out of her mouth is about to run out of energy, her dry lips are faintly closed one by one, and she finishes this sentence with difficulty, her voice is very small, if it weren't for the silence in this room, I'm afraid no one would be able to hear what she was saying clearly.
Chen Weiwei could only drag and pull, holding her mother's hand like this, at this time, it was impossible for her to even want to turn her body sideways.
Chen Weiwei's mother looked at her daughter's expression and movements, and her distressed tears kept rolling in her eyes, she didn't dare to cry, for fear of affecting Chen Weiwei's mood that she had fallen to the bottom of the abyss.
She just gently patted the back of Chen Weiwei's hand with her right hand and nodded.
"Okay, let's not go, we're here with you"
Chen Weiwei's father held Chen Weiwei's left hand, forcibly endured the sadness in his heart, and pretended to have a very flat expression and said.
"Mom and Dad, I want to be alone for a while, okay?"
Chen Weiwei looked at her parents left and right, and just said this.
Chen Weiwei's mother heard her daughter say this, turned her head to look at Chen Weiwei's father who was sitting opposite the hospital bed, and the two didn't need to say anything but stood up in each other's eyes.
The two walked towards the door in unison, and Chen Weiwei's parents were within a few steps of the door, and looked back at Chen Weiwei for some time.
"What are you doing standing here! Go out, my daughter wants to be quiet, are you stuffed with hair in your ears"
Chen Weiwei's mother, who was about to walk out of the door, saw that Yan Qing was still standing at the door and was indifferent, so she stepped forward and grabbed his arm and said viciously, every word floated past Yan Qing's ears, making him feel a chill on his back with the wind swishing.
Between speaking, Chen Weiwei's mother grabbed Yan Qing's collar with her thick arms, ready to carry him out.
"Forget it, Mom, if you don't want to go, you just let him stand there, I'm just treating him as air"
Chen Weiwei's mother was very surprised to hear this, but she still respected her daughter's wishes, Yan Qing knew how much Chen Weiwei hated herself in her heart at this time, but she couldn't do it, when she said this sentence just now, it was estimated that she was a waste of physical strength if she let herself fart.
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