(465) Suppose life counts down

"Believe it or not, at that time I wanted to give you the whole world. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 infoIf you are the Daji who has brought disaster to the country and the people, I want to be the mediocre king of Shang. ”

Speaking of this, Qiao Yinan was laughing, and my heart was sad, as if I remembered us in the past, and I almost wanted to cry out of that feeling. But now Fang Jingxian will not cry easily, the kind of disguised strength has always been there, and she has always been the proud, but inferior woman in her bones.

"But what to do, I missed it. In all the years since I left you, I haven't thought about you for a moment, but I don't dare to see you. I'm afraid that I won't be able to control myself when I see you again. Later I learned why. Yan Shaocheng has always cared for you behind your back and funded you to complete your studies, but he has never seen you. I think he must be afraid, afraid to remember the past. I suddenly wondered if you were the person Yan Shaocheng was most concerned about. Although you have only seen a handful of times, you are still the only woman in his life who has cared for him for decades. That's why I'm not surprised, not surprised that Yan Shaocheng will love you. Wang Xiyi is the woman who has been by Yan Shaocheng's side for the longest time, but she has never entered his heart, so I think you are special. So I'm always miserable, but I can't turn my back on the Yan family. It wasn't until I realized that something was wrong, and I saw my father's conveyancing of property, that I suddenly felt that my life was desolate, and that I felt happy only in the days I spent with you. ”

When Qiao Yinan said this, even his breath revealed sadness, which made me feel pain with him.

Qiao Yinan is a person who values love and righteousness, but such a person has been deceived, and you can imagine what kind of pain he has been suffering.

I was in pain, but I didn't show it, and I still looked at him in the best possible light.

Qiao Yinan reached out to hug me, as if it had been a long time, and he hugged me like this when I was nineteen.

That's how I craved the feeling of hugging, and because of this, my lack of security was filled for the first time.

I didn't refuse, and was hugged by him like that. Instead, he reached out to hug him, which felt like a strange opportunity.

"I wish I hadn't let go, so that's fine." He hugged me tight, and my heart ached.

Qiao Yinan's hug was what I had been looking forward to for a long time, and when I was nineteen years old, Qiao Yinan promised me a brilliant life like a star, which finally turned into a bubble. But I don't want to be a mermaid princess, I can't learn her selflessness.

So I can't forget, I can't let go of those hatreds and pasts.

Qiao Yinan ......: "I want to say but stop."

I didn't even know how to speak, it seemed like a long time had passed, and the pain had not gone away.

It seems that Qiao Yinan is very strange today, he always wants to say something important and miss something beautiful. It's as if he doesn't have time to reminisce anymore, as if he'll never have a chance again.

The boy I remember, the man now. It seems that he has become more mature after the metamorphosis of time. But it's no longer Qiao Yinan in my eyes. But it never seems to have changed, he is still the one who is good to me.

"Do what you want, I'll take care of your mistakes." This is what Qiao Yinan said to me, when he said this when he hugged him, he seemed to recall Qiao Yinan. Qiao Yinan wanted to protect me for the rest of my life.

He let go of me and smiled at me instead, as if I had seen his sunny smile again.

Qiao Yinan, I am the flaw in your life in the end, you are the flaw in my life.

Qiao Yinan reached out and stopped a taxi and opened the door. "Let's go back, it's not too early."

He is still the gentle Qiao Yinan, and it seems that he will not change for a long time. The love and righteousness of Qiao Yinan, the man who said that he would guard me all my life.

I got in the car and he closed the door. The car drove away, and I saw him still standing there.

My heart was desolate, because I knew that we had nothing but regret. Because I fell in love with Yan Shao.

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The car went away, and Qiao Yinan's mobile phone rang.

"Mr. Qiao, I'm Dr. Zhang. I advise you to treat as soon as possible, it is dangerous for you to do so, and in this case I recommend that you be hospitalized immediately. ”

Serious words came from the other end of the phone, and it seemed to be urgent.

"Is the treatment necessarily good? Why not just say I'm going to die? Isn't it already an advanced stage of brain cancer? So what's the use of treatment? Can I get my loved one back? Can it make a difference? What is the use if it can't be treated? I have too many regrets in this world. I can die, but I can't have regrets. I'm going to keep the person I love the most and help her do everything. It's done, it doesn't matter if I don't want to. ”

Qiao Yinan seemed to have a somewhat emotional breakdown, as if his pain was mixed in, and there was something in his heart that he couldn't let go.

"Mr. Qiao, I understand your emotions, but don't joke with your life." Dr. Zhang seemed to be tempted to persuade the patient.

"Don't I want to live? I said I would guard her for the rest of my life, but in the end I couldn't. How long can I live with treatment? You can't even say for sure. I don't want to die on the operating table, if I want to die, I have to be next to her. ”

Qiao Yinan's regret seems to be mixed with too many things, those painful things that seem to disappear.

"Mr. Qiao, please don't be so pessimistic. The level of medical care at home and abroad is constantly improving, and you are still possible. ”

There was a slight pause in his words. I can hear Dr. Wang say that he is a good doctor who is responsible.

"I'm sorry, I'm overly emotional. If I had a life to do all this, I would follow your advice. ”

Qiao Yinan hung up the phone, as if his life was coming to an end. And this year's Qiao Yinan is only 27 years old, and he will only reach 28 in September this year.

He looked up at the sky as if the world had never changed. Time is always there, but it doesn't belong to him.

How much helplessness is there in life? And how many shortcomings?

We are not destined to have the person we love the most, and we will be denied even the opportunity to watch from a distance.

The countdown to your life during the holidays, what will you do?

Will you keep the people you love the most?

There still seems to be Fang Jingxian's smile in her memory, and that smile is unforgettable.

The happiness we once had is no longer happy, and the people I love no longer love me. My life is coming to an end, and I just want to keep her until it ends.

Do what you want, I'll take it for the wrong.

This is her last promise, and she will never break her word.

He never spoke, but he always wanted to be the best person in her eyes.