(464) The untouchable world

"If you want to go to hell, you can go, I will not accompany you. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info "My eyes are on Qiao Yinan, and I have no reason to accompany him on an adventure.

"Are you accusing me of extremes?" Qiao Yinan looked at me in turn, as if his eyes were all dark, and it seemed that the world in his heart had long since ceased to grow.

To be honest, I understand him, but I can't agree with him. I didn't think I'd spend my life in prison on charges of premeditated murder. But obviously Qiao Yinan doesn't care about anything anymore, he is now more like a person driven by hatred, because he can't be loved, so he has become no longer self-loving.

But I hope he doesn't keep making mistakes, even if I know it's a wrong step, there's no way he'll be able to stop.

I think of Qiao Yinan in the past, that sunny smile always makes me feel that he is a good person, he used to be my sunshine, but now it seems that he has fallen into a darkness darker than me, as if I can't touch his world.

"Are you going to punish yourself for Su Su's sin? What if Yan Shaocheng told you the other way around? What should you do? Do you want to see the fish die and the net is broken for so long? ”

I asked him in turn, just because he was Qiao Yinan, the best person in my world.

"Before I go to prison, I will not let go of the Yan family, and I also remind you not to forget that your hatred is that we are the same kind of people, and from the moment the light falls into darkness, we have solidified all our humanity. I can only hug each other to keep warm. So you can't forget that I have made myself look like you, not to make you a better person, but to make you remember hatred more deeply. What the Yan family has given us is a cold night, the night is difficult to inhabit, and we are destined to not be able to see the happiness of others. ”

Qiao Yinan's face was serious, as if he was trying to construct a more perfect world. His blood seems to be cold, and he is trying to get close to me to keep warm, but I have already given the warmth to Yan Shaocheng, and he is no longer the Fang Jingxian he used to be.

Maybe Qiao Yinan is relying on me at the moment, just because I was the one who really did a lot of good things.

It seems that life is really a very interesting destiny and it allows us. Meet, but can't hug each other, it makes us miss the subtlety, just so little at the right time.

I used to think that Qiao Yinan was the only one in my life, but he abandoned me, and now? Did Yan Shaocheng and I abandon each other?

It seems that we have been through a lot, and those past are enough for us to feel painful.

"Qiao Yinan, you don't look like you anymore." I laughed, laughed at this world of creation and man, if this world was not so cold, would we not live so painfully.

"I want to become you, but you have become the person who loves Yan Shaocheng. Jingjing, we've been missing it all along. Maybe it's debt, and the inseparable feelings in my life have been buried by me. So everything is deserved now, but Jingjing, don't love Yan Shaocheng. I don't want your love, but please don't love Yan Shaocheng. He is the culprit who dismantles us, a bystander to our tragedy, never a redeemer. ”

When Qiao Yinan said this, I could see the sadness in his eyes, this Qiao Yinan seemed to be even more vulnerable, even if he did a lot of wrong things, it was to protect those things he cared about.

Qiao Yinan, is your pain making you more tired, why did Qiao Yinan, who used to be the best in my eyes, become like this?

Why did the story all change later, and we became the disgust of each other, the pride in our eyes?

"I've taken care of everything for you, and you can get what you want back. What I want is the misfortune of the Yan family. ”

Qiao Yinan put down the water glass in his hand, it seemed that the coldness in his heart could not be changed anymore, it seemed that in Qiao Yinan's world, he had been buried in the deepest sea, and he would never appear again.

I looked at him, as if he was still the same boy he was at the beginning, as proud and confident, optimistic as a god. At that time, I kept wondering why this boy had a different world that people wanted to get close to. Is the most desolate place in Qiao Yinan's heart me now?

My heart was pinched together in inexplicable pain.

"Come with me, just like you used to." Qiao Yinan looked at me, condescending, but I saw that loneliness.

The loneliest person in the world is probably the desolation of forced laughter.

I got up and looked at that best Qiao Yinan, and I think I understood him. He said that he was a hard-working man, and he was grateful, so he was very good to the Yan family. He gave up on me because of his promise and came back to help Yan Shaocheng. It is such a man who lives behind others like a shadow, standing in the corner without regrets. He tries to be the best person in everyone's eyes, but finds himself living in a scam, and the Yan family, who he thinks is kind to him, destroys all the happiness in his life.

So Qiao Yinan has become not like himself, he used to be an absolutely kind man, but now he doesn't know who to protect, and his heart is desolate.

It seems that each of us has a difficult wound, I am, Yan Shaocheng is, Qiao Yinan is, and so is Shen Muyang.

The pain of this world, everyone seems to have tried. We have our own pains, but I believe that if you were to choose all the pains in this world, you would still choose your own share. Because we can't separate our own pain, we only feel that taking is an instinctive pain, and if we don't suffer, we don't seem to be alive.

It was getting dark, the street lamps were lit, and the two of us were left in the cold night. It seems to be back to the memories I once had.

"Because Yan Shaocheng asked me to come and see you, that's why I appeared in front of you. At that time, I was thinking about why you were so relieved by Yan Shaocheng. Later, I learned that you are the person Yan Shaocheng wants to make amends. At that time, you were cold, but you had a good heart. I was thinking about why there are such girls in this world, arrogant and arrogant, but also living with inferiority and pain. So I'm close to you and want to hug you and give you warmth. At that time, although your words were cold, you were kind. I have been good to you, and you will be good to me. Then I thought, why can't I hug you and give you warmth? ”

Qiao Yinan's memory is very good, and the words in his mouth are something I haven't heard for a long time.

But I seem to understand, understand Qiao Yinan's words. Commemorate our already decaying love.