Chapter 40: Confusion
"Didn't think about it?" Shen thoughtfully handed over the stack of papers, "Then you might as well think about it now." ”
Yan Shuxue felt that her mother seemed to be serious and was teaching herself to read.
It's just that this content is very inconsistent.
Is it because she has changed too much in the past period of time, and her mother and relatives have begun to feel that they are too out of line?
Yan Shuxue raised her eyes and glanced at Shen, and saw that Shen's smile was not stern.
Yan Shuxue had to take the things she copied and flipped them up one by one.
Shen was not in a hurry, and drank tea there by himself, very leisurely.
After a while, Yan Shuxue finally finished reading it, and her expression was quite entangled.
"Women's Training" is okay, teaching people to pay attention to cultivating the mind, and exude beauty from the inside out.
Just like Yu Wenlan often said in the previous life, the beauty of the soul is far better than the beauty of appearance, you can't judge people by their appearance, and judge a person by their appearance alone.
Among the unkempt people, it is not without people who are deeply talented and downcast; Among the glamorous people, there is not no sanctimonious and hypocritical.
Yan Shuxue agreed with this, and Yu Wenlan also gave many examples at that time, which made Yan Shuxue convinced, and his worship rushed to a new height.
However, a few days after Yu Wenlan finished speaking, she accepted a widow who was not very glamorous and had a child in the backyard, and insisted that she was a beautiful soul......
That incident had made Yan Shuxue sad for a long time, a widow with a child could enter Yu Wenlan's eyes, how bad was she, the original partner?
Even so, every time Yan Shuxue thinks about it, she still feels that what Yu Wenlan said is very reasonable, but what she did is not right, and she can't say what is wrong.
As for the seven chapters of the "Female Commandment", Weakness, Husband and Wife, Respect, Woman's Conduct, Concentration, Qu Cong, and Uncle and Sister.
Since its inception, it has been passed down for nearly a thousand years, no matter which dynasty or generation, it is always promulgated by the imperial court, and women should learn.
Moreover, it is also teaching people to respect their husbands, tolerate their in-laws, brothers-in-law, and sisters-in-law, and be obedient, virtuous and humble.
It doesn't seem wrong.
Do what is written in the "Female Commandment", and you will have a harmonious family and a harmonious husband and wife.
However, in Yan Shuxue's past and present lives, she has seen too many inner house battles.
In her previous life, it was Bai Ling'er who violated these things and used some unsavory means to climb into Yu Wenlan's bed, and then the matter was suppressed, and she gave birth to a child within a few years, and was named a side concubine.
This is not an exception, in Yu Wenlan's backyard, she seems to be the only one who knows etiquette and keeps etiquette, and she is very disliked by Yu Wenlan.
After being reborn, I saw Aunt Chun, who was like a rural shrew, being favored by her father in Yan Mansion.
I saw that the old lady Yan, who was full of vulgarity, was the most noble person in this mansion because of her seniority, and she did whatever she wanted.
Yan Shuxue was confused, she felt as if her mind was about to explode.
There seems to be nothing wrong with what is said in the "Female Commandment", but in her previous life, she lived in the way stated in the "Female Commandment", and she was disliked by her father and rejected by her husband, but those women who never paid attention to these lived one by one and were loved by thousands of people.
So, should she abide by these things or not?
Shen gently clicked the table a few times, pulling back Yan Shuxue's thoughts that were getting farther and farther away.
Yan Shuxue came back to her senses, blinking her two moist eyes, full of entanglement, she didn't know how to express it, "I think these words are right, but ......"
"But you see that everyone is not doing this, are you?" Shen answered.
Unexpectedly, my mother said what she wanted to say at once, Yan Shuxue nodded hurriedly, "Mother, why is this?" Why, this is right, people who do not do it according to it, on the contrary, live better. ”
Yan Shuxue asked the question that had been tangled in her heart for two lifetimes.
When she was just reborn, Yan Shuxue rebelled against Mrs. Yan and Yan Jinfeng, relying on a resentment from her previous life.
It can be said that sometimes Yan Shuxue is just unwilling to repeat the tragedy of the previous life, so she tries her best to make herself look different.
However, deep down, she still felt that women should not be like this, while feeling guilty that she was falling, and on the other hand, she forced herself to be strong and bold, and no longer obeyed.
Yan Shuxue's heart has always been full of deep uneasiness.
If it weren't for wanting to find out the cause of Shen's death in the previous life, and not letting the Shen family go early in this life, Yan Shuxue even wanted to fight for an unfilial reputation and cut her hair to be a sister-in-law.
That way she wouldn't hear her father say the things she was embarrassed about but had to do again and again.
In that way, all entanglements with Yuwenlan can be cut off, and the Green Lantern Ancient Buddha can steal a few years of purity.
Shen kept shaking his head and sighing, "I don't understand, you might as well take a look and think more." I don't know what you have read and written over the years. ”
Sure enough, he shouldn't have compromised to let Yan Jinfeng teach his daughter in the first place.
Shen often wondered if she hadn't neglected her daughter's upbringing in a fit of anger because of that incident, so that when she remembered her daughter, her daughter had been filled with half-hearted three obedience and four virtues by Mrs. Yan, would it be better.
It's a pity that the past has passed after all, and no matter how annoyed she is, she can't do it again.
Fortunately, after all these years, my daughter finally got the hang of it.
As for what Master Nine Days had said about his daughter's incomplete soul, Shen always had some doubts in his heart.
Master Jiuri is a highly respected monk who is known throughout the country, and his Dharma is profound, and he is often even the guest of honor of today's saints.
But all this could not erase the deep doubt in Shen's heart.
I can't say why, it's just a simple intuition.
Shen looked at his daughter, who was confused and confused, but was thinking seriously, only to feel that the first ray of sunlight before dawn was sprinkled in front of him, and the whole world suddenly lit up.
Yan Shuxue watched it for a long time and thought about it for a long time.
I vaguely seemed to understand something, and when I thought about it carefully, I didn't know what it was, and I was so anxious that I almost scratched my ears and cheeks.
The scenes of the past and present lives flickered in front of me, those sweetness, pain, grievances, sorrows, and even shock, loss, and despair......
Yan Shuxue's expression was inexplicable, sometimes sad and sometimes happy.
Soon, Shen began to be unsettled.
She just asked her daughter to think more and use her brain more, but what is the rhythm of her daughter's current situation that looks like an epiphany?
Shen felt the need to talk to her daughter, and she seemed to have a lot to hide from herself.
How can a little girl who has never been in the world make people feel a sense of sadness that has seen all the vicissitudes of life?
What happened somewhere you didn't know?
Shen Shi looked at Yan Shuxue faintly out of control, and hurriedly interrupted her memories.
She wanted her daughter to think more, but she didn't want her daughter to go mad and fall into obstacles.