Because the garment factory is far away from home, the unit arranged a dormitory for Xiao An, and due to the last accident, Xiao An's mother, who has retired, came to live with her, and it is convenient to take better care of her. Although the new dormitory is not as luxurious as the previous duty room, it is also very spacious, bright, elegant and comfortable.

Xiao An is still in charge of the archives here, unlike the previous personnel files, there are a lot of professional textile materials here, and Ang's mother Zang Qing, who is very interested in garment-making, is even happier when she knows it, because it is not confidential, so after the permission of the leader, Xiao An made a lot of copies and took them back to the house, and studied them with his mother, and he was very happy.

Although sorting out the files is still very boring, as long as you like it, you won't feel annoyed, and the leaders here don't put too much pressure on Xiao An. So after being busy every day, she always has time to do something she likes, that is, to find some relevant information on the Internet, and buy a few sketchbooks, and then write and draw freely. It didn't take long for everyone to discover her design talent, and as soon as the leader was happy, he simply arranged her into the design team and let her learn well. She is naturally very happy, but she still likes to sort out the information, and there is indeed no one in the archives department of the garment factory who is more dedicated than her, so the leader allows her to do both, although such a fulfilling life is very tiring, but it makes her very happy, and the previous gloom has gradually faded away.

An Xiaoyang, who was not far from her that day, called her and asked her to come out and meet together.

Well, today is not a working day anyway, and since An Xiaoyang was transferred, the two have indeed not seen each other for a long time, and they only occasionally chatter on the Internet. So after saying hello to his mother, Xiao An came to a water bar that he had made an appointment before.

"Xiao An, I'm sorry, I didn't expect a novel to bring you such a big variable."

"Ahem, don't talk nonsense, what does this have to do with that."

"You haven't been on the chat app for a long time, and I can't find you. Reading your novels, I feel that you are not happy, I inquired with people, and said that you are still injured, and now, are you better? ”

"It's so much better, I've almost forgotten it. Xiaoyang, you don't have to worry too much, this is not something you should bear at all, even if there are some things that are not announced in advance, they will happen sooner or later, and I would like to thank you for opening a window for me and letting me see another world. ”

"So, will you write about this kind of subject in the future?"

"To be honest, I really don't want to write, it's too depressing, if I have a choice, I'd rather write something else."

That's right, it's a kind of gloom, and I can't allow myself to stay in the gloom for too long, even if it's fake.

Xiao An picked up the drink in his hand and took a sip while thinking.

"Well, no matter what, I still hope you can be yourself, the simple and simple you. I don't want to see you unhappy, no matter how cruel life is, we still have to laugh at life. ”

An Xiaoyang is actually the kind of person who doesn't care about anything, unlike Xiao An's sense of responsibility that is always tight, she just needs to be happy every day. If Xiao An hadn't had this incident, she wouldn't have made such a feeling.

"Yes, thank you. By the way, how are you? How are you doing? ”

"Ahem, you don't have to worry about me, whoever has depression in this world won't be my turn, I'm a depression killer!"

"Really? That's really going to invite you to teach you! In this way, there will be fewer people in the world who commit suicide! ”

"Well, I'm afraid it's hard. Many of those who are unhappy are because of selfishness, and the reason why I am so happy is because I am selfish. Ann, I really admire you, there are always so many reasons to force yourself to help others, why don't you enjoy your life when you have this time? ”

"Huh? What do you think? Why, don't you think it's a pleasure to help others? ”

In fact, Xiao An knew early on that she was the kind of person who would never be able to accept her blessings with peace of mind for the rest of her life. When she was in high school, she once took a psychological test with everyone, and she had long forgotten what kind of question it was, and she only remembered that other people's test results were very good, and she was more negative. That question basically says that there are a bunch of treasure chests in front of you that are written as your own, depending on your attitude of whether you take it or not. Most of the classmates took it away without discussion, only Xiao An, who was almost the only one in the class, didn't dare to accept the treasure chest. The result of the test is that everyone can squander their youth to the fullest and enjoy everything they deserve with peace of mind, but Xiao An always doubts this, that, and even doubts "Is this mine?" Can I take it? "I always feel like I shouldn't be so happy. Thinking about it now, Xiao An was surprised, what does a sixteen-year-old child know, how can he already have the mentality of an old man so early, no, I'm afraid even the old man should be more calm than himself.

What was my experience like in my past life? Why do I have such a mentality? I have had no worries about food and clothing since I was a child, and my parents have never abused me, so why do I have different thoughts from others? Looking at An Xiaoyang, who is a few years older than himself, he doesn't do any housework at home all day long, he is responsible for being the eldest lady in addition to work, and he goes directly to play with the computer after eating, and he doesn't even brush the bowl. asked why she couldn't bear to let her middle-aged parents serve her all day like this, but people said, who let them give birth to me? Then they'll be responsible for me! However, An Xiaoyang also has a filial side, because since he has chosen this comfortable lifestyle, he naturally has to give up some dreams. Fortunately, she never chases any dreams, she just wants to keep a good path, so An Xiaoyang has followed the advice of her parents whether she is studying or working, falling in love and getting married, and has never gone against their wishes.

Perhaps, it's good to live like this, there is no big ambition, there is no need to compete with others, and the risk of being discriminated against is reduced.

"That's good, but I still wonder, where in the world are there so many people in need? If you want me to say, there is no strong or weak in this world, the difference is only whether the heart is strong or not. Two days ago, I read a report that said that there is no such thing as depression at all. Some people just feel unhappy in their hearts, so they think that they can't live, and they hold on to these every day, and as a result, they make tragedy. ”

Well, An Xiaoyang understands it this way, but even if unhappiness is just an emotion and not a disease, it can't be denied that this is the most basic harm to people! If we can eliminate or alleviate the emergence of such emotions, will we be able to reduce the senseless sacrifices of human beings? You know, many of the people who died because of this are people who are loved and have contributed a lot! If they can continue to live and live happily, will they be able to help create more value for everyone?

Xiao An remembered where he seemed to have seen a group about suicide intervention, and he could take a look when he had time.

"Oh, okay Ann, let's not talk about this, don't you think life is hard enough? Do you want to suffer any longer? Do you want to learn to have fun with yourself? Don't you also like to be depressed, but you find so many responsibilities and burdens for yourself all day long, just to find yourself nothing to do! ”

"Okay, okay, I'll listen to you!"

Although the two have different outlooks on life, this suggestion can still be adopted, and I can occasionally give myself a vacation.

"Hey, what do you think of this person?"

An Xiaoyang suddenly leaned over in a low voice, pointed to someone for Xiao An to see, and when Xiao An turned around, he saw a handsome guy staring at him, collided with Xiao An's sight, and then turned away in a panic.

"Not bad! He's a handsome guy! Moreover, it looks quite a gentleman! ”

"Not bad, right? People are quite reliable! ”

"Really? So how did you know that? ”

"The place where he used to work was very close to me, and we got acquainted with each other after coming and going, and then he couldn't stand the constraints of going to work, so he opened a water bar here. Don't say it, he really has a talent for this, and he runs this place well! ”

"Well, it's kind of interesting, anyway, I like it here!"

The two Ann seem to have agreed on their love for this water bar.

"Then we can come and get together often, it's not far from where you work, and you can still write your novels here."

"Well, I see, it's a great place to meditate."

Xiao An looked around, although there were a lot of customers, but there was also a private room here, suitable for a person or a close friend to have a heart-to-heart conversation, and there was no need to be disturbed.

Yes, this place can be visited often in the future.

Xiao An took a sip of his drink and took a deep breath, perhaps, with a different environment, he could really start a new life.