This night is the craziest night since I met Gu Yue. From the bed, to the sofa; From the bedroom, to the living room...... Every corner of the house leaves our traces. She leaned on my arms and smiled charmingly, her face like a peach blossom; I stroked her hair, gasping softly.

Tired, I hugged her and fell asleep, and in a half-dream, I saw Gu Yue sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at me with eyes like water.

"Hehe, this is ...... For the last time. ”

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When I woke up, I found that Gu Yue was no longer in the room. At first, I thought she had gone out to buy something, but when I called her phone, I found that her phone had been turned off; When I saw the closet again, the few clothes she usually wore were gone; In the bathroom, her toiletries were gone.

I suddenly recalled that I heard what Gu Yue said when I was half-asleep and half-awake. Suddenly I had an ominous premonition.

On the coffee table in the living room, I saw the letterhead that Gu Yue left for me. Fly-headed, neat and delicate, just like Gu Yue was still standing in front of me, chatting with me softly.

"Chen Ze, I'm leaving, don't look for me."

"I'm going to a place where no one knows and start living again."

"My time with you was the happiest time of my life. I will always keep these good memories in my heart and savor them slowly for the rest of my life. ”

"Thank you, my little man."

"You know what? The real me is nowhere near as good as you think. In all the time I've been with you, there are two things I've never told you the truth. ”

"Number one, my mom was actually an addict. When she was pregnant with me, my father divorced her because she secretly took drugs; After I was raped, the Public Security Bureau did not believe her confession because of her drug use record; When she was seriously ill and had no money for treatment, her neighbors refused to help because she was on drugs. ”

"So, my miserable experience is a great deal of blame. And does not deserve your sympathy. ”

"Second, I haven't forgotten about Lin He. Even when I get along with you day and night, even when I share a bed with you, I still think of Lin He often. He was my first love, and I poured so much affection into him that I think I will never forget him in my life. ”

"So I knew early on that we would never be together forever separated by a forest river."

"I know you're a very possessive man, you may not care about my past, but you must not allow me to be with you, there are other men in my heart. If I tell you in the morning, I can't forget Lin He, and we can't walk together at all. ”

"So I'm sorry, it was I who coveted the happiness of being with you and deceived you in this matter."

"In fact, the more I get in touch with you, the more I find you excellent. The most important grades for ordinary high school students are nothing in your case, you can easily get the top spot in the exam, and Lin He will lag behind you by fifty points in the monthly exam even if he studies hard. You can make money writing best-selling novels, you can write a website, you can start a company. If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn't have believed that there were such great peers in the world. ”

"And the more I find you excellent, the more I understand that I can't be worthy of you. I mentally planned the time to leave you again and again. It wasn't until Chinese New Year's Eve that I finally made up my mind. ”

"Today is the day I leave."

"Thank you, my little man. I've never been happier with you. I have learned a lot from you and changed myself a lot. ”

"When I leave, I beg you for one thing. Help me take care of Su Jing, I know that she walked with Chu Baifeng in a fit of anger, and I don't worry about her. She is my only friend, and I am sorry for her, but there is no way to get it back. I beg you, help me this time. ”

"I don't know how you'll react when you read this letter I wrote. Will you be angry? Will you hate me? Or will they look for me everywhere? Hehe, I'm dreaming again. ”

"I'm just the most insignificant passer-by in your life, after all. I hope you forget me. ”

"And I, on the other hand, will always remember you."

"When I believe in me, I wish you peace. A spring dream, without a trace. ”

"Go, bye-bye."

Not a long letter, I read for more than an hour.

At the end of the letter, Gu Yue said goodbye very freely, and I could read between the lines that she was relaxed from the bottom of her heart. Finding a strange city and starting over may mean a new life for her.

The city was too heavy for her, the past was too heavy for her, and even my extraordinary excellence was too heavy for her.

She had endured enough of these heavy things, and she chose to escape from here and find a new place to start a new life.

Relaxed, clean, brand new life.

I'm holding this letter in my hand and I'm sticking it all the time. I don't know what kind of mood I feel now, my anger at Gu Yue's deception? Reluctance to leave her suddenly? Do you still miss Lin He's vinegar intention for her?

Neither.

Actually, my mind is completely frozen now, and I don't know how to think.

Gu Yue left, the whole house was empty, and I felt as if I had lost something very important, and a large part of my whole life was missing at once.

I lay on the bed in a daze, took out my mobile phone, and wanted to make a call, but I looked at the contact for a long time, and I didn't know who to call.

I should be looking for someone to ask where Gu Yue has gone now, right? But what's the point of me asking? She is so resolute to go, even if she finds one that can bring her back?

And she has been cheating on me, even if I find her, how should I face her?

The soul of my thirty years of my previous life was almost blank in terms of feelings. Even if I can write the high school exam paper silently, even if I can memorize the "Tomb Robbery Notes" with good punctuation, even if I can make a lot of money in the stock market, but in terms of feelings, I will still be as overwhelmed as I am now.

I saw the seven-colored scarf that Gu Yue gave me at the head of the bed.

She named it "Colorful Memories".

No wonder it's called memories, in fact, she had already hinted to me that she was leaving.

The four copies of "Notes on Tomb Robbery" that Gu Yue bought were not taken away, they were still on the windowsill, and I opened them gently.

I noticed that in the margins of some pages, she left scribbled handwriting:

"If you find it, I'll tell you a little secret. In fact, before the Chinese New Year, you want to ask me to go to your house for the New Year, I am very excited, if you insist a little longer, I may be cheeky to go. ”

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"The fireworks are so beautiful, they just are too short. I wonder if all good things don't last. ”

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"Spending the New Year here alone, it's a little scary to be surrounded by darkness. Chen Ze, I miss you. ”

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"The moment you call me baby, I really want to be by your side forever. But I know it's impossible, if you can be ordinary, if my body is still clean, I must stay. ”

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"Actually, my cheap sister Jiang Yu is still pretty good, I was jealous of her before, and I hated her mother for snatching my dad, so I kept saying bad things about her. Seriously, Jiang Yu is the most perfect woman I have ever seen. Come to think of it, only she is worthy of you. Hee-hee, if you're interested, you can take her down. ”

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In the four books, there are such nonsense words recorded intermittently, and it seems that Gu Yue wrote whatever he thought of when he was here alone for the New Year.

On the last page of "Tomb Robbery 4", different from other scribbled fonts, Gu Yue wrote a line very carefully:

"To meet you has used up the luck of my life."