I closed the book, lay on the bed and looked at the chandelier on the roof, my mind was completely empty, I didn't think about anything, I just felt deeply depressed. The whole morning went by like this, and feeling hungry at noon, I got up and walked the whole street before I saw a ramen shop that was open.

I ordered a bowl of ramen and sat by the window looking out in a daze. A very familiar figure walked over, and I was stunned for a few seconds before I reacted, it was actually Zhang Yuxin.

Zhang Yuxin pushed the door and walked into the store, only to find me. She came over with a happy smile, sat opposite me, and said to me happily, "Happy New Year, Chen Ze." ”

"Happy New Year." I looked at her expressionlessly, and I wanted to smile at her, but the muscles on my face seemed to stiffen, and I couldn't smile.

She sensed that my affection was not high, and smiled apologetically at me, reining in the joy that came from the inside out.

"Boss, bring me a small bowl of ramen."

Zhang Yuxin waved to the boss behind the counter.

…………

In the entire ramen shop for the Chinese New Year, Zhang Yuxin and I were the only ones sitting opposite each other, quietly eating their respective ramen, I didn't speak, and Zhang Yuxin didn't make a sound.

I finished eating quickly, looking at Zhang Yuxin, who was still eating noodles slowly, in a daze.

Zhang Yuxin seemed to sense that I was looking at her, stopped eating noodles, raised her head and looked at me with a red face and confusion.

"If it's okay, go out with me." I said to Zhang Yuxin.

Zhang Yuxin looked at me in surprise, and then nodded happily.

Zhang Yuxin and I walked along the quiet road one after the other, and the shops along the way were all closed, and there were actually no good places to turn.

But Zhang Yuxin is still very happy. Along the way, she started looking for topics to talk to me.

"The re-opening of the school is the 100-day countdown to the college entrance examination, how about it, are you sure about the entrance examination?"

"Yes." I whispered.

Zhang Yuxin looked at me enviously: "Of course, you study so well, if you can't even be admitted to Tsinghua University, no one will be able to pass the exam." ”

"Did you spend the New Year here?" Zhang Yuxin asked again.

"No, I went back to my grandmother's house for the New Year, and I came back in the second year of junior high school." I say.

"Oh." Zhang Yuxin nodded.

……

Zhang Yuxin kept taking the initiative to find topics to chat with me, and I noticed that she was sincerely happy, but her joy could not infect me.

I walked the whole street with her, and then turned and walked back.

She suddenly looked at me a little seriously: "Chen Ze, you received two love letters at school, right?" ”

I nodded.

Zhang Yuxin looked at me with a red face, trying to make herself appear calm: "Actually, I wrote those two love letters. ”

I looked at her in surprise and stopped.

Zhang Yuxin smiled: "Actually, it's nothing, the feelings of high school students can't be taken too seriously, I just like you, and I don't mean anything else." ”

I nodded and replied, "I understand." ”

"That'...... I confessed to you directly, what do you think of me now. Zhang Yuxin was a little shy, but she still looked at me bravely and asked.

I shrugged: "Study hard and make progress every day." ”

Zhang Yuxin was stunned for a moment, and then laughed again: "I know, haha, I will study hard and strive to be admitted to Tsinghua University." ”

I didn't explain anything more, but said to her, "I'm tired from walking for a long time, so I'll send you home." ”

Zhang Yuxin smiled and said, "Thank you, that's the best." ”

…………

After sending Zhang Yuxin away, I walked alone on the empty street, and her sudden confession didn't make me think too much. Because now, my brain is completely in a state of stupidity, and I can't think about anything.

When I got home, I lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling. Time slipped away quickly, and night fell, and the house was pitch black.

My phone rang, and I didn't look at who was calling, so I put it in my ear to answer.

"Hey." A deep voice came from the phone.

I didn't say anything, just listened.

"Chen Ze, I'm Dong Jiangshan."

I still didn't say anything.

"Open the door, I'm outside your door."

I took a deep breath and fumbled to turn on the light, the light was blinding, and I covered my eyes with my hands and opened the door.

Dong Jiangshan stood outside my door in the dust, looking at me with an inexplicable look.

"She's gone?"

I knew that this "she" was referring to Gu Yue, so I nodded and sat on the sofa.

Dong Jiangshan put a bank card on the coffee table, which was the one I gave to Gu Yue.

"Gu Yue sent me a text message and asked me to pick up this card at a fixed location and send it to you. She said she was gone and should not contact her in the future. What the hell is going on between you? ”

I looked at Dong Jiangshan expressionlessly, Dong Jiangshan sighed, put the phone in front of me, and showed me Gu Yue's text message.

I took a brief look, and Gu Yue took 10,000 from my card. She asked Dong Jiangshan to help return the card and told Dong Jiangshan not to contact him in the future.

Does she completely want to cut off all the past?

"She's leaving, going to a strange city and starting over." I say.

"You guys quarreled?" Dong Jiangshan asked.

I shook my head.

Dong Jiangshan sighed: "I understand. In fact, from the time I learned that the two of you were together, I knew that this day would come sooner or later, but I didn't expect it to come so soon. ”

He patted me on the shoulder and comforted me, saying, "Put it down, it's good for you and her." ”

I looked at Lao Dong and said, "I thought you would be sad to know that she was gone." ”

Dong Jiangshan smiled self-deprecatingly: "As long as she can live happily, let her be." ”

I shook my head and leaned back on the couch.

"Don't be sad, have you ever heard the saying, 'The less energy a man puts into his feelings, the more successful he will be.'" Things have already happened, and no matter how tangled they are, it's useless. Look at it, there are many more things in this world that are worth pursuing. Dong Jiangshan enlightened me.

"You should tell Guo Ziming this passage, he really can't see it." I say.

Dong Jiangshan shook his head: "He's a lover and can't understand." I always thought that the two of us were the same kind of people, and feelings were dispensable, just keep them as nostalgia, don't be too distracted. ”

I nodded: "Thank you for your enlightenment, but don't scold me." ”

Dong Jiangshan looked at me in confusion.

"I'm not the same kind of person as you, a businessman who smells of copper." I say.

Dong Jiangshan smiled and patted me on the shoulder: "Okay, it's going to be a joke, and you'll be fine when I see you." Let's go, don't get bored in the house, go out for a drink. ”

I nodded, "Okay." ”

In fact, I didn't feel sad all the time, just emptiness from the inside out. It's like there's a big, big thing missing in my heart, but there's no way to find something to make up for it.

Now I'm in a mess and I need a big drunk to wake myself up.

On the way to find a place to drink with Dong Jiangshan, Dong Jiangshan took out his mobile phone and made a call.

I know who he's calling.

I just don't know if that person will come.