I'm annoying, Lin Xi is also annoying, my family is annoying, and everyone involved is annoying.

It's as if the world has become black and white.

The witch is back, and I'm back, because. Because I didn't know anything, anyway, I went back. It's just that there seems to be an iceberg between us, and it's hard to melt.

The rain outside the window began to trickle, I don't know why this year's rain is so much, the mobile phone next to the pillow rang inexplicably, and I picked it up before I knew that it was a reminder that I was going on a business trip today, and my mind was all messed up with these messy things, and I almost forgot about it.

I packed up a few clothes in a hurry.

She didn't talk to me at all, and looked at the cold room, no matter how she saw it, it wasn't a good feeling in her heart. I think that Lin Batian broke us up like that, naturally he didn't like me, but the witch was desperate to come back to live in this house, and Lin Batian had no choice. If I want to save this relationship, it is impossible not to go home to live, otherwise, she will think of which woman I will be with.

The witch walked past me coldly, changed her shoes, closed the door, and left.

I am reminded of Stephen Chow's classic movie, his wife in "Secret Agent Zero", played by Carina Lau, holding on to the door frame, then wiping away the tears from the corners of her eyes and barely squeezing out a smile and saying: Are you hungry? Cook a bowl of noodles you eat? And along with this sentence full of infinite tolerance, there is also a slight nodding motion, which is an expression of affirmation and touching others to the extreme. This dialogue scene appears twice in this movie, and I believe that this scene will be remembered by all viewers who have seen this movie, and will also imprint this scene deeply in their minds.

It is true that this is a movie, and in the finale, the director is also using nonsensical methods to tell everyone in the form of an award ceremony that it is the need for performance, but have any audiences been moved by the true feelings of the people in the play before?

I have to say, I was moved.

And at that moment, I also thought about finding such a wife in the future, and finding such a woman who can give me infinite tolerance and can accommodate my faults to spend the rest of my life.

Life is like this, when the person you are trying to find has been silently by your side for a long time, and you are so pathetic that you don't notice it at all, and you don't even have a trace of understanding, this probably can't be explained by the word pathetic alone, right?

Of course, this is a later story, and if it continues, it may really be a bit messy, or at that time.

Almost left home on the run.

At the entrance of the highway, I pulled over the car.

Stayed quietly for a while.

A feeling of wanting to cry lingers in my heart, but after all, I am a big man, and I am still in the traffic coming and going, even if I close all the windows, I feel that crying in the car is a difficult behavior to understand.

I drove home again.

At the door of the house, I couldn't help it, and I closed the door and cried.

I'm terribly troubled.

When I returned to my home, I was still the same, and the mess when I left was still present.

In the study, the table is a mess of cigarettes, fireworks, and unbrushed cups, and on the balcony, the notebook is still open, and the power is not cut off, and there are still water stains on the table in the bathroom, and the kitchen has changed.

Of course, this is just the beginning.

Lin Batian came to make trouble with me again, saying that I used any method and drug to make his daughter die and was unwilling to leave me. I yelled at him and slapped him, but I wanted to fight back. But is it possible?

In the next few days, I basically didn't go home, firstly, there was no one to cook when I went home, and secondly, the house was empty, and the feeling was not very pleasant, so I simply found those fox friends to drink and play cards every day.

At this time, I do have a feeling of breaking the jar, and it basically doesn't matter how much I win or how much I lose. If you win, you will be invited to drink, and if you lose, you will be invited to drink, and so on and so forth.

When she was drunk, she wanted to call Lin Xi, but she didn't even look at it. I called Saori again.

"Hello?" It took a long time for the phone to ring, and Saori picked it up.

"Saori, are you sleeping? I miss you, I'm going to find you! "Drunk, I climbed into the driver's seat.

"You've been drinking?" In my imagination, it seems that Saori is lying on a big bed listening to the phone with her eyes closed, and her voice is normal, so she should be home alone.

"Well, I've drunk it, but I miss you very much, I'll go find you, right? Let's go now! ”

"Drink too much, huh? Didn't you tell you not to drink so much? ”

"I'm in a bad mood and want to drink. Shall I go find you? "I'm thinking about it when I'm drunk.

"No kidding, what are you doing with me?" I guess Saori has already opened her eyes.

"I miss you, so I want to go."

"Pull it down, you say it's nice, you don't usually reply to your text messages! I quarreled with my wife again. ”

"It's been a lot these days, and it's not comfortable!" There has always been a strong urge in my heart to express those unpleasantness, so I use this wine.

"If you're not feeling well, rest early, and go home so late!"

"You're really missing me!"

"Hmm." Saori's sure voice replied calmly and affirmatively.

"I don't believe it, you won't be so ruthless! I'm going! Start your car now. ”

"Tsk, you're not a kid anymore, why are you like that? What are you doing on this big night, I said I won't see it, you can go home quickly! I could hear Saori's voice a little impatient, after all, everyone was resting this big night, and I tossed her on the phone to listen to a drunken man's babbling.

"I don't, I'm going to find you! Let's go now, it'll be there in a while, you wait for me. I persisted, because I really wanted to go to her, so I twisted the key to start the car.

"Forget it, don't come, I won't see you when you come!" Saori's voice grew louder.

"I don't care, I'm going, I'll be there in a while, you wait for me!" I have some meaning of curing my anger and playing tricks, and I can't control so much when I'm drunk anyway, but the tone I use is still gentle, and I don't dare to be too tough.

"I told you that I will never see you, you go home and go to sleep!" Saori was tough and impatient.

"I'm going!"

"I don't even know how to say you're good, why are you so tough?" Although she was impatient, Saori still didn't hang up.

"Saori, I really miss you, I have a lot to say to you."

"Let's talk about it another day, okay? I have something to do tomorrow, and I'm not here, and you can't find me when you come, and besides, after you drink so much, it's not safe at night, can't you do it another day? Saori changed her tone patiently, but she was still trying to persuade me.

"And you promised to see me?" I'd like to reconfirm Saori's commitment.

"I'll give you a call another day, okay? Go home early and rest and drink plenty of water. ”

"Oh. Oh well, actually. "I want to say it and I can't say anything.

"Don't say it, go back quickly, stay safe on the road!" Saori interrupted me.

"No, I'm downstairs!"

"Oh, let's go upstairs, don't stay outside, it's cold, remember not to sleep in the car."

"That. Well, you rest. Have a good dream! ”

"Hmm!"

"Wait." At the moment when I was about to hang up. "Would you like to kiss me?"

A few seconds later, a soft kiss came over the phone.

I could tell that Saori didn't really want to show me those affections on the phone, and that deliberate coping was the premise of my advice, and if she didn't, then I would really be on my way. I don't blame anyone, let alone Saori. Because, it wasn't her fault in the first place.

Men who drink and men who don't drink are probably the most visible to women.

Because often when I wake up, I regret the ridiculous things I did the next day or even for many days, and I am no exception.

I wanted to call her again, but remembering the ugliness I had last night, I really didn't have much face to explain anything.

Today is the weekend again, and I want to see what time it is from my lapidary, because the alarm clock on my phone will not ring on the weekend I set. I slept in the room next to the witch's room. She said that I won't go to the villa, it's not interesting.

Although the days are dull on weekdays, there is always a taste of home, so I sat up and looked around.

It's a bit of a mess, and it's not an ordinary mess.

Although he doesn't look like that kind of sloppy man, this kind of situation rarely appears at home.

The clothes worn were casually put on hangers, there were a bunch of things on the balcony, the windows had not been closed for several days, and there were a lot of water stains on the floor, which had not been wiped for a long time.

The couch in the living room was full of their own things, and the shoes and socks were not where they should be.

I had some headaches and drank too much last night.

It's already ten o'clock.

Maybe it's time to clean it up, it's such a mess, and I'm not used to it.

Turn on your computer and there is no internet connection. I deliberately did this, and I didn't want to have any network contact with the outside world.

I found a few songs to play and did my laundry by the way.

Except for those that need to be dry cleaned, the rest of the clothes are thrown into the washing machine.

At this time, it occurred to me that I didn't know how much laundry detergent to put in.

Forget it, let's wash it by hand.

Doing laundry is a great pleasure for me, at least that's what I think.

There is a lot of work in the hand that comes from the process of washing clothes, soaking in the water and rubbing, feeling the slippery feeling brought by the laundry detergent into the water is indeed not a painful thing, on the contrary, it can also give yourself a special mood.

Of course, this was all in the past, and today's me, my brain is full of episodes that I haven't carefully sorted out after getting drunk.

In a closed space, it is easy for people to think about some things that make them pessimistic, and in this short hour, all the imaginable things such as divorce, remarriage, and aging are carefully imagined in the brain.

Some people may say that it is their own thinking that has determined that they want to divorce. That's right, I think any man in this situation will imagine it, but everyone imagines it differently, but the psychological starting point is the same.

But when you think about it, it doesn't mean that it has to be the direction.

From the witch's point of view, it seems that she has something to tell me, which is based on what I know about her, but it is not excluded that there are some unexpected decisions, and the things she left behind last time surprised me a little.

She came back and slept quickly, I had a bedroom by myself and slept very late.

It's a day's life, and it's basically repeated every day. The witch came home to live, at least, she still retained the possibility of the future, and did not give up all, I don't think she would be reluctant, but what can be done to reunite if a mirror is cracked? I lay on the bed, smoking a cigarette and watching the hour hand go step by step......

I couldn't take it anymore and went home again.

My mother came in from the yard with a basket of vegetables, saw my car outside, and walked in.

"You came on your own? What about Lin Xi? "After looking around for a week, my mother looked at me.

"I'm busy."

"How's going on in her house?" Like her father, her first problem was still the situation in Lin Xi's family.

"It's more troublesome to solve, and it probably will take a while, so it's more difficult to do."

"Lin Xi hasn't spoken to you since then?" Mother puts down the basket.

I didn't answer my mother's words, I turned and went into the dining room, where my father had already cooked and poured himself a glass of wine to drink.

This is my father's habit, he has been drinking alcohol for most of his life, and he has a lot of alcohol addiction, and he used to drink not much every time, but today there are some exceptions.

A newly opened bottle of wine with two glasses on the table.

There's one of mine.

Every time I went home, I would have a drink with my father, talk about work, talk about other things, and even play a few chess games with my father, in short, my father enjoyed the situation.

But today, it's just the two of us in the huge restaurant.

The dining table is relatively large, and it is a dining room specially set aside by my father when he built this house, "Sit down!" "My father filled the glass in front of me.

"I won't drink it, I want to vomit when I saw the wine I drank last night!"

"Drink some, it will definitely be uncomfortable the next day if you get drunk, and you can press it down by drinking some wine, I have more experience than you." Father didn't stop as he spoke.

The wine was full, and I thought my father might want to come here for a long talk with me. Otherwise, he wouldn't have persuaded me to drink like that.

Of course, this can't be regarded as persuasion, maybe my father knows that men always have to drink before they can say some things from the bottom of their hearts, and after coming out of their hometown for so many years, when their thinking is mature, they have a lot of secrets, some secrets that can only be told to friends and classmates, but not to parents.

My father used to say this to me, so he understood my age very well.

"What are you going to do?" The moment my father took a bite of food and then put down his chopsticks.

"I don't know, let's see." I didn't move my chopsticks, but pulled a cigarette out of my pocket.

"You can't offend anyone?" Father of the Dawn after a brief silence.

"Didn't you?"

"After all, you are not his biological child, just a son-in-law, and a son-in-law who they don't like in their eyes. Whatever you do is offending them. ”

"What do you want to do." Father turned the other cheeks.

"Let's see what to say."

"Listen to what she says, and if her family says and does, don't take it so seriously."

"Can you not feel at ease?" Hateful, drank a big sip of wine, choked. So, I think you can break that little thing, don't think that what happens if you find a good one, it's not the same after a long time? You have to live a down-to-earth life, what's the use of just playing with all those bells and whistles all day long? In the end, it's still you who lose, you know what's good and what's bad at your current age, and you also know how good it is, think about it more in the future, don't drop the plate and smash the bowl at every turn, and you won't be able to find a place when you regret it. ”

My father counted me down in one breath.

My silence basically seemed to my father to listen to his words, but in fact, my mind had already flown to imagine how my colleague dug this hole for me, so that I couldn't hear a lot of what my father said later.

"I'd better go back first." After taking the last sip of the glass and explaining to my father, I turned around and went out.

The father followed.

"Go and talk to Lin Xi well, shake off your own affairs, and live a good life. Do you hear that? ”

"Got it."

"I'm free to bring Lin Xi back!" The moment I stepped up and left the house, my father shouted instructions.

I have never dared to disobey my father's words, but if I do not disobey, I will not disobey, which stems from his education and strict discipline since I was a child. But there is always a kind of resistance in my heart, after getting married, my father's criticism and discipline of me has been greatly reduced, one is because I have also married a family, and the other is that our child can achieve such success after graduating from college is very rare, my father has always felt that I am very proud of him, their generation may be looking forward to this, as long as the work is smooth, it is very satisfying to be able to take my wife home on the weekend, all they enjoy is that the neighbors around them talk about whose children are how promising, Now, how to persuade my own children to go to school in the future, and strive to be the same as other children's children in the future, etc., so, in the past, when I came home, my father was always happy, and from today's conversation with me, I can also see that the phenomenon of my father's harshness and scolding and even beating and scolding when I was a child has long been gone, and some are just persuasions, even if they seem to have made a very strict mistake, they will no longer be as bad as before.

When I got home, I was again unable to lean back on the couch, and there was the sound of footsteps outside the door. From the sound of the steps, there is a faint hint of crispness and heaviness. I didn't expect Zihan and Bai Jie to come too, Lin Xi needed someone to accompany her, I asked Zihan to accompany her, just because I was afraid that she would do something in case. Actually, I really am one. Scum. However, without Zihan's help, Lin Xi would not be willing to come back here, it was Zihan who said that if you don't go home, he will do something messy, Lin Xi is afraid, come back, Zihan is to give me a chance to reconcile the two of us. But is this really an opportunity?

"Have you eaten?" Where the footsteps stopped, Zihan pushed open the hidden door, and after looking around the room for a week.

"Nope." I sat on the couch and didn't move, flicked off the soot, and said calmly.

Bai Jie seemed to want to say something, but she seemed to feel that this atmosphere was not too suitable for her to make any remarks. I think Lin Xi is willing to go home, Bai Jie also has a certain amount of hard work, Bai Jie's words are more acceptable.

Lin Xi walked past me, took his mobile phone back from the coffee table, and after a cursory glance at the screen, leaned against the windowsill and stopped making a sound.

Silent.

None of the four knew what to say to break the scene.

"Why don't we go first, I still have to be on duty at night!" Bai Jie finally couldn't help it, after Chong Zihan gave him a look.

"Then we'll go first." Zihan understood and stood up from the side.

"Hmm!" Almost at the same time, the voice came from the mouths of me and the witch.

The sound of the security door closing, making the room quiet and dull again.

I didn't know what I should say, and I didn't find the right topic to talk about, so I just sat on the couch and smoked a cigarette, waiting for her to say something.

Silence began again.

There were already several cigarette butts in the ashtray.

Lin Xi was probably tired of standing, picked up a cup and left the windowsill and turned around and walked into the kitchen.

After a long time, there was still no sign of her coming out, but there was a sound that seemed to be cooking.

"Don't do it, let's go out to eat!" I pushed the kitchen door and leaned against the frame, after making sure she was indeed going to cook.

"I'm not going!" The witch didn't look at me, and went on with her work.

In this fog, I don't even know what the witch is going to do.

Outside the window, it was starting to get dark, and I reached out and turned on the light in the kitchen. Taking a few steps back, I sat on a stool in the dining room and watched her busy in the kitchen, a figure I'd been looking at for a few years, familiar but also unfamiliar. Familiar because we seem to have never happened and are very close, strange because I haven't seen her in the kitchen for a long time.

Simple four dishes and one soup.

It's all some weekday dishes, and they are served to the table one by one by the witch.

"Have a drink!" This sentence was uttered by the witch with a commanding question, and I could not shirk the situation.

I don't know what she's going to do, the Last Supper? A kind of pathos suddenly appeared in my heart.

Or what?

You can't try to put some poison in it to kill me, do you? Fight like Kilkenny cats? once said that he did not seek to live together but to die together, but this is such a way to die together. It's really unacceptable. Love you to the point of killing you.

Of course, I have to admit that these expressions of the witch are a bit abnormal, although she has changed a lot over the past few years, and sometimes she is a little submissive, but the stubbornness and extremeness in her nature still exist and take root in a certain way. She is the kind of person who picks up a knife and slashes her wrist directly to her wrist without saying a word, and her determination and resistance are quite strong.

So, although I think this is a bit too villainous, after all, this is a real psychological activity at that time, so there is no need to hide it, and I will tell the truth.