(348) What is considered to be alive?

So I may really be as Qiao Yinan said, and I can still see the kindness in my heart. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I didn't want to do that, but I don't know why I'm afraid of the death of the people around me.

Ren Shuyan relies on this Fang Yewei to live, so I must hold on to the inheritance. Because that's her hope to live, and I'm not relying on them to live. If I don't live with hatred, then what's the point of my life?

At the end of the day, we're all poor people abandoned by fate, so the hope of being alive is actually ridiculous.

Pan Wanlin, my mother, have you seen it? See how many tragedies there will be in our lives?

What do people have to live on in order to be truly alive?

reminds me of Lu Xun's words in "Sadness". People must live, and love will be beautiful.

And how are we going to live?

Isn't life meant to be enjoyed? Why do we all choose to endure?

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When I and Yan Shaocheng brought their love to the surface, Yan Shaocheng began to get used to not returning at night.

This made me a little passive, so it was already past one o'clock in the morning, but I never saw Yan Shaocheng's shadow, Yan Shaocheng didn't even say a word to me at the moment and disappeared.

What is Yan Shaocheng going to do now?

It is said that marriage cannot stand the test, but now our marriage is only half a year. Yan Shaocheng is so arrogant, and it really makes me bow down.

I was going to call Yan Shaocheng, but as soon as I finished the call, there was a busy signal.

I don't know if someone hung up on purpose or what, I couldn't sit still and immediately got up to go out to have a look.

But because I didn't know where Yan Shaocheng went, I had to sit down calmly. stared at the clock on the wall in front of him, and there were wedding photos with Yan Shaocheng on the side.

In the photo, I was wearing a wedding dress, the wedding dress was torn, and then one leg was on the bench and the other leg was on the ground, holding a poker card in my hand and Yan Shaocheng playing at the gaming table.

This should be Yan Shaocheng's favorite one, otherwise it wouldn't have appeared here.

I sat quietly and watched, and I couldn't help myself. What does Yan Shaocheng want now? Why do I feel like everyone is becoming abnormal at this time?

No, absolutely not now.

In order to prevent myself from falling asleep, I took out instant black coffee from the kitchen and poured it for myself, and my whole spirit was a little broken.

I waited for Yan Shaocheng until about 3:40 in the morning, and Yan Shaocheng finally came back.

I'm in a state of high spirits and haven't been very sleepy. I think if this continues, I need to go to the psychiatric hospital to report, and I don't have to fight, Yan Shaocheng will become my legal guardian.

I turned my head to look at Yan Shaocheng, he was still in a suit and leather shoes, as if he had just finished something, Yan Shaocheng seemed to be very curious that I was still sleeping here, and I could see it from his eyes.

"Where have you been?" I don't know that I look a little like a wife in an ordinary family, but I only know that I can't lose Yan Shaocheng at this moment, he is now my important weight, I must not lose him, otherwise I will definitely lose completely, and I will definitely end up in a miserable defeat.

"Why aren't you sleeping now?" Yan Shaocheng looked at me and walked over, frowning when he saw the black coffee I was drinking.

His whole state seems to be much better than mine, and he smells of cigarettes and alcohol, so he should have gone out to talk about things.

Maybe I've become a little suspicious because of recent events.

"You haven't answered me yet." I don't want to pay attention to these things, but things always come to me and I have to face them.

Don’t wait for prosperity to care for the things important to you.

"Talk about business." Yan Shaocheng's answer was simple. "Go to sleep. Don't drink black coffee again in the future. He reached for the instant coffee on the table, and I grabbed his hand.

Of course, I admit that I didn't ask him once before he came back late, and this time I asked him purely because I was suspicious.

My hands gripped him coldly, as if they were grasping at my lifeline. I don't know why I suddenly started to get scared, afraid that everything around me had changed.

Maybe it's because of Ren Shuyan that it makes me feel that the things that people have lost their clinging to will become like this, and let me know that I was like this when I lost my mother.

No matter how I got into this game, I can't give up now, let alone be strict. Yan Shaocheng must not be lost.

Why do I think I have Yan Shaocheng, love can be pampered and proud, but why am I still like this at the moment? Why is everything I once thought was changing?

Is this what the so-called insecurity looks like? What if those things that are stuck to change at all?

"Why don't you answer the phone?" I calmed down, no matter how panicked I was in my heart, I definitely couldn't let Yan Shaocheng see half a point.

My reason tells me that losing Yan Shaocheng will not do me any good.

I tightened Yan Shaocheng's hand and turned to look directly at him.

"Is that what you're talking about?" Yan Shaocheng took out his mobile phone, and the entire screen of the mobile phone was broken, which looked particularly hideous.

I let go of him and calmed down a lot.

Everything is my subjective fantasy alone, and I am a lot calmer when I think of this, at least my heart is a lot calmer.

In fact, I never want to admit that Fang Jingxian is not so strong, Fang Jingxian's appearance is just a skin piled up with the illusion of self-confidence.

But he was grabbed by Yan Shaocheng, so that my eyes had to look at him.

"What's wrong? You never waited for me to come back, why did you suddenly ask me so seriously today? What are you thinking? "Yan Shao's results are not so easy to deal with.

But I don't know why, when I heard Yan Shaocheng's questioning, my heart calmed down a lot.

Maybe it's because I have returned to the old pattern, which has allowed me to ease my emotions a lot.

I turned to smile and looked at Yan Shaocheng with a smile. This smile is superficial. I also know that there is no point in lying with Yan Shaocheng, in his eyes, if I lie, I will be like a clown, but I still have to lie about some things.

"I'm worried you can't?" I spoke calmly and with a smile in my eyes.

Sometimes, I almost believe that I love Yan Shaocheng. But I will always be unconsciously awake and awake what kind of man this man in front of me is.

My words are not lies, because Wang Xiyi, I am indeed a bit of a soldier. Now I am more afraid of being abandoned, and I am even more afraid of being abandoned by Yan Shaocheng when I abandon Yan Shaocheng.

It's better to worry about me than to worry about him. (To be continued.) )