(499) Always be a good person

She seemed to be thinking, even though it was no longer out of her control. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

"It doesn't matter what mistakes bring us. Jingjing, we are still alive and have a lot of future. Yan Shaocheng grabbed Fang Jingxian, as if she was afraid.

His heart is also dripping blood, and fate has been fair to him for a while.

"Yan Shaocheng, how long are you going to lie to me?" Fang Jingxian's words seemed to be beating his soul.

It is impossible to be perfect unless you are deceived. But how long can a lie last?

"How long are you trying to hide it from me?" Fang Jingxian seemed to be sneering, and there was cruelty behind that smile.

"What do you know?" Yan Shaocheng's gaze paused, and he became more rigorous.

"What are you afraid I know?" Fang Jingxian had a smile in her eyes, and that smile only made him feel cold.

"Jingjing......" Yan Shaocheng hurriedly grabbed Fang Jingxian's hand, but was thrown away by Fang Jingxian.

This feeling seems to have been cut hard in Yan Shaocheng's heart.

"When my mother died, didn't you say that you were there watching me suffer? Didn't you say that you were the one who supported me from childhood to adulthood? Didn't you say you were paying off your mother's debt? Didn't you say you said you had kept me for twenty years? Why is it that in your mouth, you are always such a perfect and good person, it seems that you have never been involved in all the mistakes, and you are always a good person? ”

Fang Jingxian asked him with a smile, the words were scorching, as if she wanted to tear off Yan Shaocheng's hypocritical face.

"Jingjing, I ......" Yan Shaocheng's heart was a little flustered, he seemed to be a little helpless, and his eyes seemed to be a little overly afraid of losing.

"Yan Shaocheng, no one is that perfect person. No one in this world can do it so well, Yan Shaocheng, why do you want to disguise yourself so perfectly? Don't you know that's the problem? ”

The corners of Fang Jingxian's mouth rose to become worse, as if those eyes had penetrated Yan Shaocheng's soul.

"Yan Shaocheng, how can you pretend to be so kind, as if all the mistakes were made by Su Su." Fang Jingxian's questioning left Yan Shaocheng with no place to hide.

"Jingjing, what do you know? Who told you that? Yan Shaocheng's hand clenched Fang Jingxian's shoulder, as if he was the one who was drowning and struggling.

"What are you afraid of me knowing? Do you know that you changed the last sleeping pill my mother took? ”

When Fang Jingxian said this, Yan Shaocheng seemed to be flustered. He was suddenly torn open the mask that he thought was perfect, and this mask was worn for a long time, so long that Yan Shaocheng thought that he was like this.

"How do you know?" Yan Shaocheng looked at her as if she was dying.

"How do I know, you ask?" Fang Jingxian smiled, as if there was a lot of things in those eyes. "Who made you so perfect, so perfect that I thought you were a downright good person. But there are no perfect good people in this world, and your kindness to Yan Shaocheng makes me feel strange. You are really smart, so clever that everyone thinks that it was a suicide stimulated by Su Su, and almost I believe it. Despite my countless doubts that my mother would not kill herself, she still had me. ”

Fang Jingxian smiled when she said this, and the smile in her eyes was terrible.

"But my mother didn't have sleeping pills, and I used to think that the medicine was given by Su Su, but Su Su didn't seem to know. I always wondered where the medicine came from and why it came out of nowhere. Qiao Yinan's gift to me yesterday included not only the documents and materials for you, but also the email information. In that document, a neighbor from the year saw you, a twelve-year-old boy. You didn't leave after Su Su left, you were lying. All people have no possible time, only you have. ”

Fang Jingxian's eyes couldn't tell whether it was hate or love, as if the love-hate entanglement was more painful.

"So it was the sleeping pill you brought, and under my mother's mental stimulation, she didn't distinguish it, and she poured a lot of it in a hurry and ate it directly. Therefore, side effects began to appear, and a large dose caused ataxia tremor, and only then did he pick up a fruit knife and cut his wrist to cause pain, but it became deeper and deeper. And you should have been outside the door at the time, right? Therefore, the atonement for your mother is simply a statement of atonement for your own sins. Am I right? Yan Shaocheng? ”

Fang Jingxian's words had a smile in them, but they seemed to be more painful. She knew it was true, but it was a fact she didn't want to believe.

"Jingjing, you believe me, I didn't know it would be like this. At that time, my father had just died, and my mother was hit hard, and I didn't know what to do, and I didn't know the consequences at the time. I didn't know what was going to happen, I was outside the door, but I didn't know what was going on inside, and I was scared. I know it's my fault and I've been trying to figure out how to make it up, but ......"

Yan Shaocheng grabbed Fang Jingxian's hand tightly, and that feeling seemed to be a little afraid of losing.

The twelve-year-old was young and ignorant, which made Yan Shaocheng bear a mistake. I was wrong once, and I followed it for the rest of my life.

"You don't have to be afraid, there is no evidence, how can there be evidence of what happened twenty years ago? You can put the blame on Su Su, anyway, she can't escape the blame for Qiao Yinan's matter. You should learn to be at ease. ”

Fang Jingxian's hand shook off Yan Shaocheng, and the calm in her words made Yan Shaocheng feel uneasy.

"No, Jingjing, Jingjing. I knew it was my fault, but I was only twelve years old, and I was scared of helplessness, and I didn't know what to do. By the time I knew the consequences, it was too late, and I punished myself. When you went to the orphanage, I went to see you more than once, and I watched over you every day. I am with you when you are hurt, and I am with you when you are in pain. Even when it's time for class, I'll run over to see you after class. Until I went abroad, I was still worried about you. I asked Qiao Yinan to watch you for me, and I was with you the night Qiao Yinan left your pain. Since that day I have said that I want to let you go, I want you to be well. “

What Yan Shaocheng said is a fact. It was also from that day that Yan Shaocheng let go of her. I met again in Fangzheng many years later, and recognized her when we met for the second time.

Yan Shaocheng only missed once in his life, but this was the only time he carried a bigger wound.

He tried to make amends, and no one seemed to be able to see it. The reason why he stood on Su Su's side was because he was afraid that Su Su would be exposed, and his secret would be revealed. He thought that if the price of keeping the secret was for her to leave, then at least with love for him. But he couldn't let go, he couldn't leave her anymore.

"Jingjing, I love you, I really love you. Because you're festering here. I've been trying to be a good person in front of you, and I also want to think that what happened at the beginning didn't happen, but I can't help it, it's there, I can't help it. ”

Yan Shaocheng didn't want to let go, every word he said was the truth. He was wrong once, but he couldn't hide it.

He proposed at the cemetery to apologize in front of Pan Wanlin. also wants Pan Wanlin to accept him, and he can give Fang Jingxian happiness.