There is no special record player at home, so this precious record cannot be played, but "Goldberg Variations" can be searched on the Internet, Jiang Zhican connected the computer to the stereo, and then turned on the audio, this magnificent variation used to help treat Count Catherine's insomnia was played gently and soothingly, like a light snow unfolding in front of your eyes, covering the winter valley, warming and moist, hiding the cold of the whole season.

The living room was quiet, and Seo Hyun and Kang Ji Chan were all listening to the music carefully. Then Xu Xian got up, went to heat two glasses of milk, and after handing them to Jiang Zhican, she sat down again, crossed her legs, held the cup in both hands, looked at the steaming milk in the cup, and asked softly, "Zhican, is it really okay?" ”

"Yes, don't you know, Nuna, I have a job in an advertising agency, and if I go there in the future, it can be regarded as a serious job." Jiang Zhican took a sip of milk and said with a natural expression.

"Yes, I know." Seo Hyun thought of the Lotte Department Store advertisement, and felt a little more steady, but she couldn't let go of that regret and unwillingness, so she said, "The examiner of SBS really didn't see it." ”

"Nuna angry?" Jiang Zhican asked.

"Yes." Xu Xian nodded, then turned his head to stare at him, and after a while, asked repeatedly, "Really, are you okay?" ”

"Nuna wants to hear the truth?"

"Yes."

"I'm disappointed and sad, but it's really okay・・・・・・ because I still have Nuna!" He reached out to hug Xu Xian, buried his head in her shoulder, and said a little crookedly.

Xu Xian pouted her head burdenfully, but didn't push him away, but there was a little itch in her neck, she couldn't help but shrink her neck, and then laughed, feeling that she shouldn't be low anymore, so Jiang Zhican came over to comfort her.

"Feeling better, Nuna?" Jiang Zhican, who heard the laughter, asked.

"Well, thank you very much for the gift, although it was a little late, I thought you forgot." Xu Xian said with a little annoyance.

"How can you forget, it's just that it's not easy to obtain, so it's too late to send it." Jiang Zhican sat upright, did not tell Xu Xian about the origin of this record, only said that the international mail order process was cumbersome, it was really troublesome, and it was delayed.

"Expensive, right? Gould's original vinyl is a collector's item, and I feel that no one will sell it for money, but you can buy it, which is amazing! Xu Xian picked up the record, which made his heart feel a little lighter, and he couldn't put it down and looked left and right, like a child who got a favorite toy, showing his innocent side, and praised Jiang Zhican.

"If only Nuna liked it." Jiang Zhican sat back and sat back, looking at Xu Xian's silhouette, surrounded by bright light, and soft music in his ears, he couldn't help but smile slightly, then lowered his head, showing a sleepy appearance, and said to Xu Xian to take a bath, and got up to leave. Later, when he came out of the bathroom, he was surprised to find that Xu Xian was already sitting crookedly on the sofa, asleep with his eyes closed.

He went to turn off the music first, and then approached Xu Xian, and saw that her long hair was messy, and the tiredness between her eyebrows could not be erased, and her cheeks, which were originally slightly baby fat, looked up at this moment, but it was unexpectedly thin. He couldn't help but feel distressed, raised his hand to comb the messy hair that covered half of her face, took off the record on her lap, and then gently picked her up and walked to the master bedroom where she usually slept. In this process, Xu Xian didn't wake up, but just whispered a few times, moved in Jiang Zhican's arms, and still fell asleep.

Looks like I'm really tired.

Jiang Zhican muttered to himself in his heart, feeling more and more distressed, put Xu Xian on the bed, and then covered her with a quilt, he sat on the ground next to the bed, looked at Xu Xian's side face, thinking that she should have come to his house after the trip, but unfortunately he was not there, so he could only sit and wait, and then took the lead in bearing the pain that should have belonged to him.

He felt guilty and blamed, uneasy and frightened like a pinprick in his skin. He remembered that he hadn't received a phone call or a text message from Xu Xian throughout the day, and at this moment, scenes suddenly appeared in his mind, maybe in the waiting room, maybe in the restaurant of the TV station, or in the nanny car, when looking at the street scene passing through the car window, the beautiful girl with the mobile phone, the worry and worry hidden in her eyes, but out of the mind that she didn't want to disturb, she silently endured the chaos of up and down, a heart fluttering and restless, and finally when she received the unsuccessful email, The sadness and sadness accumulated in my heart are like a torrent that bursts the embankment, even when I see my favorite gifts, I can't suppress the rumbling down, with tears, venting so many hesitations, so deep losses, so bitter grievances.

"I'm sorry, Nuna, I see, it's really useless."

He leaned against the corner, there was no light on in the room, looking at Xu Xian who was a few steps away, he couldn't see her appearance clearly in the dark, only a vague outline, and the lines were soft and sleeping quietly. This scene reminded him of Ahn Hee-yeon, who had gazed at her curves in the sunlight for a long time, and the light and shadow changed on her, like the water of a lake being evaporated and then turned into raindrops and falling back to the earth, which was the most beautiful reincarnation. But he was powerless to protect it, except for the physical error comfort, a half-finished song, he could only squat silently behind the city wall at the end of speaking, looking at the gradually brighter sky, and let the heart fire in his chest slowly extinguish.

Oh, and the journey a few hours ago that tore his pride in half, he smiled self-deprecatingly, wondering if his brother was also sleepless and irritable, or was he like now, using cigarettes and alcohol to paralyze the unspeakable suffocation caused by the huge gap?

"Toot, toot, toot・・・・・・・"

There was a monotonous chime in the earpiece, he lowered his head, the cigarette butt in his hand was as bright as darkness, the beer cans were messily thrown at his feet, he was in the night breeze on the balcony, looking at the small hook in the dark sky that seemed to be placed on the ice, a thin and cold piece, as if a random cloud could hide it, from the high sky to the depths of the earth that no one knew, and then the night sky would be dark forever, and no one could see anyone's embarrassment.

"Hey." The phone was suddenly connected, and an inaudible voice sounded in the earpiece, as if he was afraid of alarming the flowers and owls sleeping peacefully in the middle of the night, so he deliberately lowered his voice.

"Sister Taeyeon, it's me." He whispered.

"Yes." Kim Taeyeon replied, her voice still pitifully low.

"Sleeping?"

"Not yet."

He picked up his phone and looked at the time on it, it was two o'clock in the morning, and it was supposed to be the time to sleep. If Kim Taeyeon hadn't lied, she had been waiting for his call, and maybe, in another hour, she would still say, not yet?

His heart beat quietly, but soon returned to Cen Lonely, the character analysis that Huang Jiazi once told him was not untargeted, he was indeed going to do what he had predicted now, and Kim Taeyeon whispered: "Although it is very ungentlemanly, but, Sister Taeyeon, you promised me・・・・・・ if I fail, then the end, you can mention it first, right?" ”

There was a slight silence on the other end of the earpiece, and there was a sound like a mosquito fly.

"So, I said, my probationary period is over, and the evaluation is unqualified・・・・・ so we ・・・・・・ no longer maintain the second relationship, or, the simplest relationship between sister and brother, ・・・・・・ Sister Taeyeon, I'm not wrong, right?"

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, and then he hung up, but he held it for a long time, and heard the night wind blowing through the leaves of the locust tree, the chirping of unknown insects, and the sudden sound of shards of glass coming from behind him.

He suddenly came back to his senses, turned his head to look, in the night, a girl with her hands open, looking at him with disbelief and red eyes, her eyes first falling on his face, then sliding to his right hand holding the phone, and finally, she cried, staring at the beer cans and cigarette butts on the ground, squatting on the ground, burying her head in the crook of her arm, whimpering and crying loudly.

This must have been the second time he had seen a girl crying so sadly, but he was still like a fool, and he didn't know what to do. The mobile phone suddenly rang at this moment, and he just thought it was Kim Taeyeon calling back, and he took it to his ear without looking at it: "Sister Taeyeon, I have something to do now・・・・・・"

"What, Taeyeon? Could it be that I made the wrong call? A heavy male voice sounded, with a hint of exhaustion and surprise.

"Uh, wait, I'm sorry Cao PD, I was just on the phone, I thought it was one of my sisters calling back again, I didn't expect it to be you, I'm really sorry." Jiang Zhican was stunned for a moment after hearing the voice, but quickly reacted and quickly explained.

"Oh, that's right, I said." Cao Hyo-jin didn't bother with the name Taeyeon, but said, "In the middle of the night, I haven't rested yet, it seems that I am in a bad mood, because of the defeat?" ”

"Well, it's like failing the college entrance examination." In front of an elder like Cao Xiaozhen, Jiang Zhican did not pretend to be strong, his eyes looked at Xu Xian, and when he saw her looking up at him with red eyes, she seemed to be attracted by the content of his call, and she couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, feeling that Cao Xiaozhen's call was really timely rain, which saved Xu Xian's sad countercurrent and his deceptive lies.

"Zhican, don't pay too much attention to it, after all, at your age, encountering setbacks and difficulties is as normal as eating and drinking every day, it's okay to be sad for a while, but don't be depressed. After all, young people must always have a sense of motivation, and they will get up from where they fall! It's not like me, a person in my forties, who can't even stay up late to work! Cao Xiaozhen laughed and laughed at himself, encouraging Jiang Zhican.

"Well, thank you, I'll do my best, thank you very much for your call." Jiang Zhichan said gratefully, walked up to Xu Xian, helped her up, and sat on the sofa together. Xu Xian stared at him, didn't speak, tilted his head sideways to listen to the call on his phone.

"Hehe, I'm not calling to comfort you, but also to talk to you about serious things. Well, didn't I just tell you, I got up from where I fell, I have a friend who has a new program in KBS, and now there is a shortage of manpower, so I asked me for someone, and I recommended you to him, and he has read your information and the answer sheet of this assessment, and thinks it's good, and wants you to go to his program as an assistant pd. Well, don't think that my brother and I are troublesome, I have already agreed for you, his show is very novel, I think it is very promising, of course, even if it doesn't work, getting acquainted with people is also good for you, coming out of this show, then it is a serious PD, and you can eat anywhere in the future. Naochan, do you know what I mean? ”

"I understand, thank you very much!"

"Well, I'll send you his phone number and the number of his program team on the floor of the KBS office later, you call him tomorrow, and it is estimated that I will go to his place in the afternoon to sign the contract. The time is a little tight, and the show is about to start filming, but Naochan, I don't think you'll lose my face, right? ”

"Well, I'll work hard and never lose your face."

"Okay, then I'll hang up, people get tired when they stay up late when they're old, so I'll go to sleep first." Cao Xiaozhen said with a satisfied smile.

"Goodbye, PDnim!"

Jiang Zhican said goodbye, then turned his head to look at Xu Xian, neither of them spoke, Xu Xian's bright eyes stared at his eyes, a little mist and a light of joy and excitement appeared, just like the gorgeous and dazzling street scene on Christmas Eve, full of happy holiday atmosphere.

"Naochan, congratulations ・・・・・・"

As soon as Xu Xian opened her mouth to speak, she was hugged by Jiang Zhican, feeling the hot breath he exhaled in her ears, her body was close together without a trace of barrier, and a flush soon appeared on her face. She has never been in such close contact with people, she can't help but feel cramped and uneasy, she opened her hands helplessly, stiffened her body, she felt that her chest was pressed a little painful, and the heavy smell of tobacco and alcohol from Jiang Zhican's body made her a little dizzy, and she couldn't help but want to push him away, but the warm and moist feeling that suddenly came from the skin behind her ears made her stunned, and her originally stiff body gradually eased down, and slowly stretched out her hands to wrap her arms around his shoulders and back. She didn't speak, just patted gently, as gentle as a mother comforting a child with insomnia.

"Nuna, did you hear that?" Jiang Zhican asked with a choked voice.

"Yes, I know." She knew which one he was referring to, and when she thought of Kim Taeyeon, she suddenly regretted letting these two meet that day・・・・・・ it seemed that she had added the last fire, and her heart suddenly felt so painful.

"Nuna, I'm sorry I hid it from you. However, now, it's all over・・・・・・ I really don't have the courage to tell her, in fact, I am not unqualified・・・・・・ I stay on the passing line, but what's the use? Really, it's useless・・・・・"

Jiang Zhican muttered in a low voice, the night was too late, he was drunk, and he had been relying on cigarettes and wine for a long time, lying in Xu Xian's arms and falling asleep. Seo Hyun hugged him, just sat on the sofa, motionless, looking at the clock moving mechanically in the living room, and sent a text message to Kim Tae-yeon, writing word by word: Ernie, I am a ridiculous fool, but you are a cruel executioner. If you don't love, why give hope? The longer the blade hangs in the air, the more sad it becomes when it falls! Ernie, I, really, hate you!