(350) gilded filth

"It sounds like you're smiling if I stab you with a knife. www.biquge.info"I don't like Shen Muyang's words as if I am very important, and I don't like this, so I deliberately said this to sarcastically mock him."

I'm not alarmist, I'm a guy who will stab him, he should know what kind of person I am.

I'm a guy who can stab him countless times, so there won't be any good for someone who loves me, only an endless price.

"Will you stab me?" Shen Muyang really didn't know where the confidence came from at the moment, thinking that I wouldn't stab him, but there was no doubt that his confidence was too much.

I'm a person who doesn't even let go of myself, how could I let him go?

My eyes looked directly at Shen Muyang, it is good for men to have self-confidence, but it is not good to be overconfident, especially for women, self-confidence is extremely ridiculous.

"Yes." My answer was very clear, there was too much clarity in the words, and I stabbed him in a normal way.

Shen Muyang didn't seem surprised to hear me say this, but his eyes asked me very seriously, looking at him extremely serious, it was difficult for me to ignore him.

"What about Yan Shaocheng?" Although Shen Muyang's words were calm, there were waves in his eyes. His brown eyes seemed to be turbulent, as if they were going to drown me in the deepest sea.

I smiled, the corners of my mouth were filled with the most beautiful curvature, even if Yan Shaocheng asked me this question, I would not hesitate.

"What do you say?" I replied to his words, corresponding to his horrified gaze. Whoever loves me will not end well unless I love him.

I seem to have only loved Qiao Yinan in my life, but the past tense is always the past tense, and I will not fall into the same whirlpool again.

"Is there any difference between stabbing me and stabbing Yan Shaocheng?" Shen Muyang seems to be very serious about this kind of thing, and I can't even answer the question if he is more serious.

If someone threatens me, I'm going to stab someone, not who it is, and how different it is.

I thought that only women would care about things, but now it is no exception to look at men, just to see what kind of feelings this man has for you. There is no doubt that Shen Muyang loves me, but I don't feel lucky, I just feel a burden.

I've heard that people can only love one person in this life, and if they talk too much, they will become unfortunate and even cruel. What we despicably think is happiness is actually far away from us.

"Does it make sense to discuss this now?" With a casual look, I looked at Shen Muyang who was scheming at the moment, I don't know what a man's definition of this is, but I know what my definition is.

There is nothing more ridiculous in this world than feelings, and the most humble thing is love. I don't want these things, I'll live better.

"Fang Jingxian, when will you learn to love people?" Shen Muyang's words revealed a little helplessness, and his lowered gaze seemed to be a little sad.

But why do I feel that I should be the one who is sad at this moment?

Is it because I'm the kind of person I have that life? I don't believe in love, because all the love I have ever given me is only harm, should I believe it?

"I can't learn." I don't want to have any illusions about the people around me, I clearly expressed my opinion to Shen Muyang, I can't learn, and I won't learn. To hell with the so-called love. Whoever wants to find a sense of presence in this kind of thing is a fool.

"Then how did you fall in love with Qiao Yinan?" Shen Muyang's words were full of ridicule and doubt, and he questioned me with his purposeful eyes. He seemed to be laughing at my determination at the moment, as if he was curious about what I was like in the past, humble or always proud.

I don't dare to guarantee Shen Muyang's thoughts, but I feel like I have already lost my lover to my nineteen-year-old self, and if I lose it, I will never be able to get it back.

"In the past, Fang Jingxian wanted to seize the sun, but now Fang Jingxian is covered in bruises, but she is not poisonous. What do you say are going to make Fang Jingxian love now? "I smiled so brightly that I was telling someone else's story.

And my story has long since disappeared, and I have no feeling. It seems that the moment Qiao Yinan left, the sunny Fang Jingxian was already dead. Mourning is greater than dying, that's probably what it says.

"Despair? Seems like a good reason. So Fang Jingxian, do you think I haven't despaired? I heard sadness in Shen Muyang's words.

It's just that I never thought that Shen Muyang also had wounds, I always thought that he was a gold-inlaid teenager, and he had always been a perfect appearance from the beginning to the present.

But I seem to be wrong, and sure enough, we abandoned children always like to live with a shining skin, giving others the illusion that that it is the real self.

It turns out that we always like to lie to ourselves.

"Since I was a child, my father has been strict with me to be a good boy with excellent character and learning, even if I don't like it, but I still work hard. I thought my parents were in love, but everything was fake. He didn't love my mother at all, he had a lot of women outside. During a quarrel, I realized that I was not my mother's child at all, and I was simply an illegitimate child. Ridiculous, right? The arrogant and impudent son in front of you is a veritable bastard. My birth mother abandoned me, but my mother couldn't have children. Fortunately, I was lucky to be considered my own.

It's just that I didn't think that my birth mother died on the operating table, and I was picked up on the operating table. I went to investigate afterwards and found that my father at the time had never thought of saving her, let alone my mother. I have my birth mother's blood on my body and I have to pretend not to know, have you ever thought about how it was to face your parents who once ignored your birth mother? The mother never asked about the father's private life outside the home, because there was no affection between them. So I swear that I will definitely find the person I love, and I must give myself a home so that I can be happy forever and not continue to play stupid. ”

Shen Muyang was smiling when he said this, but I could see the bitterness behind his smile, with a little parting.

This is the first time I have heard about Shen Muyang's life experience, and it is also the first time I have changed my eyes to look at Shen Muyang. It turns out that none of us have ever been lucky, because unfortunately we are always gilding ourselves, thinking that this will cover up our fragile souls.

It's just that the soul is dirty, and there won't be a clean moment. (To be continued.) )