"What's the difference? Aren't they all going to the Qinglou to spend and have fun? I interjected.

Ning Zijin glared at me fiercely.

"Of course it's different, there is always a faint sadness in his eyes, and his attitude towards everything around him is indifferent, indifferent, although I am the number one brand in the whole city, and my appearance is one of the best in the whole capital, but he has never looked at me more. But I could see the thirst for power beneath his faint exterior. ”

"And then you fell in love with him?" Qi Yan asked curiously.

Ning Zijin's face flushed slightly, and said: "Sort of, but he didn't have me in his eyes at that time, and he was in a depressed state at the time, so he fooled around with those sons and brothers, but he didn't want to fall like this." I guessed what he was thinking, so I talked to him, and he gradually opened up to me. It was a different time than now, and it wasn't that if you were talented, you would be appreciated and you would get the opportunity to display your talents, and you would abandon your failure to achieve fame in your life as a human being, until you finally became a lonely spirit with me, who practiced spiritual arts, longed for power and power, and even dominated the world. ”

"But why did he suddenly disappear again?" Qi Yan asked.

"Because he was afraid, he always lived in infinite fear. So he hid in his illusions, paralyzing himself and deceiving himself. I've always hated him for that and argued with him, but he still didn't change his choice. Actually, I wasn't happy when I was with him, and we had such different views on a lot of things. Maybe it was wrong in the first place, we shouldn't have had any intersection in the first place. At the beginning, I thought I was smart, and happiness should be fought for by myself, but now I understand that the real fate cannot be earned, and what is forced is only bad fate. ”

Ning Zijin laughed, but it was a wry smile.

"So you're going to stay here forever and never see Forsaken again?" There was a faint regret in Qi Yan's tone.

"I don't know, maybe." Ning Zijin's eyes were a little sloppy.

The sentence "I don't know" exposed all the secrets of Ning Zijin, and she still loved it. But it is indeed a scarred and helpless love. And this kind of love is precisely the cause of abandonment.

Qi Yan and I glanced at each other, what should we do now?

"I know what you're thinking. Let's go, you've relieved my boredom, and I'm tired, and I want to take a good rest. ”

Ning Zijin did look very tired, and his eyes were empty, like the me in the dream just now. It's just that she was not devoured by blood flowers, but by her own heart that gradually became empty and old.

"Maybe we shouldn't force Ning Zijin to come out and see you again, if you really like Ning Zijin, why doesn't he do anything? It shows that he doesn't love Ning Zijin so much, maybe he is really as Ning Zijin guessed, he just wants to kill Ning Zijin at all. I whispered to Qi Yan.

"But these are just speculations, abandoning this guy to let us come over without saying anything, when I am Chen Yuan, I can guess what he wants. Did the secret he asked us to bring back refer to Ning Zijin? Qi Yan said.

"A man's heart, a cloud in the sky. If Ning Zijin is unwilling, I will not force her to go with us, human rights come first. I said.

"Please don't discuss human rights with a lonely soul who has been dead for thousands of years, Miss Meng." Qi Yan said helplessly.

"Don't you really want to come with us and see you?" I asked Ning Zijin. I subconsciously don't want Ning Zijin to abandon the same reason to see each other again, there is always a bad premonition.

"What can you do when you see it, wait for him to kill me with his own hands again? I'm going to keep alive and torment him with that nightmare that stayed on him. I will not die for a day, and he will rest in peace. Alright, alright, you go quickly, and when I change my mind in a moment, you will have to stay here with me forever like those dead lonely spirits. Ning Zijin waved his hand and turned around.

"Wait a minute, would you like to hear the story of me and Esi? Anyway, we've come all the way here, and you've told us your story, and we've got you back a story, no, it's three. Qi Yan smiled.

I have some bad feelings in my heart, those are the past that I don't want to recall, every time I mention it, it is a heart-wrenching pain, for Qi Yan. Why should Qi Yan expose his scars for people who are irrelevant.

Qi Yan is a very good storyteller, he tells the whole story, from the first time he saw Qiu Mujian, to become Lin Xuejing's lonely spirit, until finally found me as Meng Yishi, his emotions are always calm as water, as if he is telling a story that has nothing to do with himself.

I listened quietly, capturing every detail, the details that I had forgotten by Qiu Mu Hibiscus and Lin Xuejing.

"Do you know you're pulling hatred right now?" Ning Zijin said with a tense face, but I noticed that she had just listened very carefully. She's not crazy, she just doesn't want to be sober.

"I also hate Meng Yishi, Qiu Mu Hibiscus doesn't love me, Lin Xuejing doesn't love me, knowing that I became Meng Yishi's art teacher in front of her, she still only has An Yin in her eyes. Her every word and every move is like a sharp knife hitting my heart, but I can't control it so much, I only know that I love her, if you still love to abandon the reason, at least go to him and ask clearly, you once dared, why don't you dare now? ”

Ning Zijin cried loudly, without trying to suppress his emotions at all, so sad, heaven and earth were moved, and a sour feeling appeared in my heart. Although I didn't like Ning Zijin, Ning Zijin's tears made me feel heartbroken. I know that feeling, and every girl I've ever loved knows that pain. Even thinking of that person makes you feel heartache, you can't let it go, you can't take it up.

You watch the boys you like talk and laugh with the beautiful girls in your class, and you have to pretend to talk to them casually; You waited all day, couldn't learn, couldn't eat, and finally waited for an obviously perfunctory reply, but you were still sadly happy. You watched yourself stab yourself one after another, and finally turned around and left, and it was still him in your heart.

"Qi Yan, you don't understand, the price that a woman has to pay for loving a man is far greater than the price that a man pays for loving a woman. You shouldn't say that about Ning Zijin, she's already sad, don't you make up the knife anymore, okay? "My eyes were a little moist.

I actually want to agree with Ning Zijin now, at that time in the Qinglou, she shouldn't have stepped forward to talk to her, and there would no longer be so much pain later. Ning Zijin needs love and security more than anyone else, but these are things that cannot be given.