looked at Wan Boyi in front of him, and really felt the existence of death, which made him feel how unwilling he was.

No wonder his kiss felt cold from the first time, it all started the moment my soul wandered to the lake and fell into the icy water!

It's ridiculous, my so-called "life" is actually only a few minutes, and it is so short!

Now, whether in or out of the play, I will be separated from him......

"Ruolan! Ruo Blue! Wan Boyi held my hand tightly and put it on his cheek, maybe he could also see that I was about to leave, and I only felt my palms full of hot tears.

"Ruolan, you promise me, wait for me, okay?"

I know what he means by this, let me wait for him in the Netherworld, and then reincarnate together, so that we can be of the same age in the next life.

But......

I tried my best and said slowly, "Wait? Can't you just die with me......"

"I want to too, but I can't", Wan Boyi's voice choked: "Suicide will stay in hell for a long time, and our encounter is even more distant."

"Then I'll kill you!"

"It's useless, you can't fool the Grim Reaper!"

"Then why don't you learn from Doctor Ma......" I cried almost silently......

However, before I could finish speaking, I suddenly felt an inexplicable strange feeling......

These conversations...... These conversations with Wan Boyi at this moment...... How...... How do you seem to have heard it somewhere? Exactly the same, word for word!

I remember one of them in my own "dream":

When we fell behind and someone died, Shanshan took advantage of the fact that there was no one and there was a cave, so she attacked me and pushed me off the cliff! And I came to the underworld after I died, but in the end I didn't die, I lost all my memories after waking up, and I have been in the neurological hospital, I can't get out, and finally found the so-called "exit", that is, jumping from the top of the building, when I fell in the process, the memory was evoked little by little, and finally remembered all the past!

Then when I woke up again it was in the third hospital of the city, and then ...... I was discharged from the hospital and went to school...... And then......

That's right, and then I went to the psychiatric hospital to see my grandmother! But just as I was about to knock on the door, I heard a voice inside! A girl's conversation with a boy!

Yes!

That's the conversation I had with Wan Boyi just now!

Same! Word for word!

The girl's voice was full of helplessness and pain, with a crying tone, the boy was choked up, and finally the girl cried silently when she said the sentence "Then why don't you learn to learn from the horse doctor", revealing a kind of regret that she could not be consummated until death.

Isn't this what we're in at the moment?

At that time, I was eavesdropping on the door, and the nurse happened to see me, so I had to ask in embarrassment who was inside.

Here's how the nurse replied to me, "You don't know? This phenomenon has always been there, she has a severe split personality disorder, often talks to each other between different personalities, and she never knows that there are other personalities in one body, and they all think that they are independent. ”

At that time, I didn't dare to go in, and my grandmother was the only one in the house, but I heard a conversation between a young man and a woman, so I didn't dare to knock on the door......

I remembered the voice that seemed to be talking to Wan Boyi at this moment...... Oh my God, I can't even hear myself! I was about to open my mouth and try to pronounce it again! But my body couldn't move, and my throat couldn't make any sound! Is Death already on my side?

And my mind pulled back there......

At that time, I hesitated outside the door for a long time, but decided to knock on the door.

But just as I was about to knock on it, the door was pushed open a crack!

Thinking of this, I tried hard to turn my head to look in the direction of the door, but I couldn't control my body at all, but fortunately, my eyes could still turn, so I ...... I couldn't help but look over the door......

This...... The door does have a crack! Is it that it was not closed in the first place?

Still is...... Still is......

Or is there another young self outside the door, slowly pushing the door open?

The thought of this makes my whole body creepy! At this moment, my eyes are fixed on that door!

The door is getting bigger and bigger! There's definitely someone out there pushing them away! That slow speed was exactly the same as the speed at which I pushed open the door of my grandmother's room when I was young!

I held my breath......

From that small crack just now, I felt that there was a faint light outside, and now that the door did not open a little bit, I could clearly see the light overflowing from the crack in the door outside! Yes! An intense but not dazzling light!

Then...... I pushed open the door and went in, obviously I saw such light in the room! I can't see anything, the room is full of white! It was all white, like a light of fog, a peaceful soft light, like heaven......

At that time, I saw the inside of the house, how did I ...... Why is it now...... Outside!

But as the door opened, the light filled the room.

Isn't there a female college student shouting grandma at this time?

But...... I didn't wait, it's just that it's getting paler and paler, I can't see anything, I can't hear, I'm cut off from the world......

Suddenly, my body became very light, as if I was floating, but all around me was white and blue, and I couldn't tell the direction, and I wasn't sure whether it was sinking or floating.

I understand! I'm supposed to be dead......

He's dead......

But is it really dead? What is death? End? What does "end" mean? I thought I was dead a few times, but when I woke up, I found myself in another environment, and this time the "wake-up" was even more exaggerated, it turned out that I was my grandmother! Grandma is me! I was just a dream of my grandmother when she was in a coma.

Will it be when he dies this time, where will he "wake up"? It could be another scenario, or it could be another identity......

I know......

It turns out that what people call "reincarnation" is just that! It's not that mysterious.

Maybe when we die, we will wake up in another world and find ourselves dozing off in class, or wandering away in a meeting, or squinting on a stranger's shoulder in the subway. When you "wake up", you will find out why you have had such a long dream in just a few minutes, or even a few seconds.

It's a pity that almost all of us will completely forget after waking up from a dream, and the brain will only keep a few fragments to fool you, so "reincarnation" has become so mysterious.

I don't know if this diary is written by me in a dream or by me outside a dream, it doesn't matter anymore, life is like a dream, whether it's a dream or a nightmare, it's an illusion after all, you don't have to take it seriously...... (To be continued.) )