It only takes a few seconds for a person to make a decision, but it is not so easy to implement this determination, and they always think about how to complete it to achieve perfection without embarrassment.

One day at the end of October, it was raining heavily outside the window.?? I was lying on my desk doing the English test paper, and the raindrops made a "popping" sound on the glass of the window mercilessly.

I just came back from the dormitory and some broken hair was wet and stuck to my forehead, so uncomfortable, my eyelids were a little itchy, I rubbed my eyes, and suddenly felt someone gently poke me with a pen in my back.?

I tilted my head, and a note came to me.

This is a trick we often play in self-study classes, between good girls and boys, use notes to whisper, and the classmates who help pass it in the middle will also be very conscious not to peek, as if it is an unwritten public agreement.

Behind me sat Chen Ning, and she was usually the only one who passed notes to me, because Hu Jing talked to us again during a class and was caught by the teacher and transferred to the front, which was far away from us.

I opened the note and saw unfamiliar handwriting on it.?

"I wrote to him to confess."?

I was a little stunned, wondering if someone had made a mistake, and turned my head to look, but behind the diagonal was the girl we rescued in the girls' dormitory, and my memory is really good, I still remember that I actually remembered, if she wasn't wearing the clothes printed with the Teletubbies pattern, I also forgot, she looked at me and blinked.?

I really didn't expect it to be her, I didn't even know she was in the same class as me for almost two months.?

Perhaps, she is the legendary skipping king Zhang Qian in our class!

I looked at the delicate handwriting on the note in a daze.? He??

Is it him.?

I put a question mark and handed it back.?

There are a lot of words coming back this time.?

"He's now the president of the student council, and a lot of female classmates have come to him for reasons to join the student council. Although I was beaten by his girlfriend last time, I still didn't want to regret it, and I didn't want to regret it, so I sneaked into the crowd again and gave him the letter, no matter what the outcome, at least I did. What about you? I confirmed that she was talking about Xiang Chen.

I also wanted to go to the student union, and many of the girls in the class went, so I took the speech and looked at him from a distance, and suddenly lost interest, he already had a girlfriend, so it seemed a little inappropriate to confess to him, right?

My hand pressed the half of the language book under the test paper, although this is a high school textbook, but I have always carried it with me, it has been carefully wrapped by me, from the outside, no one will notice anything unusual.

This is my most tender secret, the first time I was so selfish that I didn't want to share it with anyone.

In the early stage of the college entrance examination, even my mother found out that I was holding that language book when I was eager to eat and sleep recently, and she was so moved that she boiled chicken soup for me for a few days in a row.

In the third year of high school, the make-up class was too tiring and boring, and I thought about giving up, but whenever I saw this book, I thought of him, and the book had his close breath to make me more motivated to study, and I was able to perform well in the college entrance examination and get in with the belief that I would be admitted to the same school with him.

I opened the Chinese class again, and on the first page of the book, he drew a very cute bird, with a chubby body pecking hard at the cyan worm on the ground, and a big drop of sweat on the top of his head.

Here's his word: Industrious birds have worms.?

I seemed to see him show a juvenile mischievous smile, which was a rare expression for him on weekdays.?

The pages are clean and tidy, but not new, almost every page is full of marks, and notes and hints are everywhere.

I seem to see him working hard at night under the shining halo.

If Xiang Chen in the past was a smiling shadow standing in the sun, now he is a neighbor who sits quietly beside me, sometimes grimacing, sometimes frowning, and sometimes patting my head.

In the summer, I'm right here.?

I will be waiting for you in front.?

I'm often startled by the sounds I've imagined, but then I'm reminded of the hygienic wishes that I never dared to imagine before.

When I was a child, my mother took me to the market, and at a stall selling toys, my eyes were attracted by a doll in a red dress, and my mother found out that I liked it and wanted to come forward to help me buy it, but at that time, money was a luxury at home, and I obviously liked it to death, and I insisted on telling my mother that I didn't like it, I just thought that the skirt on the doll was so ugly, of course my mother didn't believe it, but I used my best strength to drag my mother away from the stall.

You don't have to get what you like, that's something I've learned since I was a child.

It's Xiang Chen, let my barren youth start to throb.

I'm ready to move, and I want to be reborn.? I looked carefully at the note from the girl again.

I think, she has been beaten, but she still bravely stepped forward to show her heart to Xiang Chen, why can't I be like her? ?

Pluck up the courage to put an end to the dreams you had in your youth, that's all.?

One day when I look back, I can smile and say, ah, that's the story of my youth.

Such stories have no beginning, they are already over, they are green, confused, pure white, and fantastical.?

I guess this is the last choice of most people in the heart of youth.?

But I don't want to.?

I know, I've always known, that I'm not beautiful, I'm not smart, and I'm not even brave enough.

But at that time, I gradually began to confirm one thing, I like Xiang Chen, and I will definitely last longer than anyone else.

I'm alone, and I've only used my life for one place.? At the end of the earth, never give up.?

I replied to the girl on the note: "Well, I'll go too." ”?

Draw a smile on her face, we know each other, right?

After class, I told the Serenity duo what I thought, "Are you really going to do such a stupid thing?" Chen Ning was lying on my desk and shaking his head weakly.

She recently dyed her hair in spite of the school order, although it was not an exaggerated style, but the slightly curvy maroon short hair still made her a little more charming and bright at this age.

At that moment, I don't know why, comically remembered something.?

At the last school sports meeting in her junior year of high school, Li Na participated in the women's 800-meter running event.

As soon as the starting gun sounded, everyone rushed out. At this time, I don't know which class's radio script was clearly broadcast from the loudspeaker: "The guns rang out, and the athletes marched forward like wild dogs on the loose......"?

Li Na, who was known to have a certain chance of winning before the competition, obviously stumbled after hearing this, and the rhythm was chaotic, and she actually tripped with her left foot and fell with her right foot.

Then everyone was shocked to see that she quickly got up, threw off her long legs, turned around, and walked across the entire playground to the radio station.

She didn't do anything violent, she just ran carefully to look at the signature on the radio script.

After the school sports meeting, the nickname of a boy in the neighboring class "Wild Dog" has spread all over the upper and lower grades.

But what's even more bloody is that instead of being angry at Li Na's nickname, Wild Dog's classmates have become Li Na's most enthusiastic suitor.

Once after the school sports meeting, he ran over to send roses, only one was forgotten, the most amazing thing was that when he was dressed in white like the male protagonist in the idol drama of the last century, he suddenly stretched out his hand behind his back to Qichun with affection, and he didn't have time to read his lines, and the only rose fell from the branch under everyone's eyes.

The flowers smashed on Li Na's small shoes, and the crimson ones suddenly spread out desolately, and the bare flower stems were still held in the hands of the wild dog classmates.

Obviously discounted roses are not reliable.?

There is no doubt that this scene was collectively pounded to the ground and laughed madly by the onlookers after a short silence. That time, Li Na chased the wild dogs from this class to the other class with a chair, and the wild dogs' barks alarmed the Academic Affairs Office.

"I'm most afraid of fools in my life, especially stupid bubbling" Li Na also maintained the same posture as Chen Ning at this time when she said this, shaking her head weakly on the desk.

I miss Li Na so much, suddenly.