Hello everyone, my name is Park Chulong, well, when I was a child, I had a not-so-nice name - Pu Caoliang.

God knows how my parents would have given me such a name.

Now I have officially debuted on April 19, 11 and become a newcomer idol.

As a newcomer, Yiqiē is naturally different from us when we were trainees, and we have to appear in front of the screen with a more demanding appearance than before.

Because of the problem of combination positioning, as soon as we debuted, we were known as the "second when we were young", and we have been acting with the reputation of the second time.

As the captain of the team, I also had problems with my physique when I debuted, and I was a little greedy, so I was completely a little fat man in the early days of my debut.

To be honest, looking at the sneering gazes of others, I really want to use my Aikido three-stage grasping and throwing skills to teach those hateful guys a hard lesson!

But......

As a junior, I can only endure silently.

Although I am only 23 years old, as the captain and the oldest member, I can only suppress the pain in my heart, even if I am criticized and abused, I must puff up a smile and swallow a qiē.

Although I cried more than once, it was only after the end of the day, after falling asleep alone at night, hiding under the covers and crying secretly.

But the next day, I will definitely face a new one with a more enthusiastic face!

I don't say this to show how selfless I am, nor how considerate I am.

I'm just saying what I really think.

In the early days of the group's debut, as a newcomer, especially the group that has always been called "the second in the youth", naturally received more attention, but also brought endless trouble.

I don't know how I survived that time, maybe because of ...... He's right?

He is the son of my neighbor who grew up.

Well, if you really count it, we should be considered childhood sweethearts' little playmates, right?

Between me and him, there really seemed to be nothing to say, neither as brilliant as fireworks, nor as sweet as others.

Well, if you really talk about it, he should be my punching bag, right?

(*^__^*) hee hee ......

Ever since he was a child, he has been thrown around by me, and it seems that the strength of my aikido third stage was trained from him?

o(╯□╰)o

In '09, I studied for three months with Yang Jeong-mo, a vocal trainer in Chungju, who had coached Kim Tae-won, and was selected by JYP in Korea to become a trainee of the company.

When I found out that I had been accepted, I was very happy.

It's true!

That's JYP!

JYP, one of Korea's three major talent agencies!

The thought that as long as I can make my debut, I can become a big star, that feeling......

I remember being so happy that I couldn't sleep all night, and in the end, I had to call him to disturb him when he was asleep, and I didn't fall asleep until I woke him up.

As for whether he won't be able to sleep......

I don't know...... (*^__^*) hee hee ......

However, just as I had been planning for my future countless times, a terrible news came.

Because I took a fancy to me, I was transferred to CUBE at the request of President Hong Seung-sung, who ran away from JYP and founded CUBE.

Well, if I can accept the change of company, then I am really sad that the head office of CUBE has been transferred to the branch ACUBE!

I still remember when I learned the news, I had a feeling of collapse!

I still remember that I used to hide in my home, afraid to see anyone.

Later, I found out that I was suffering from depression.

During that time, I felt like my whole person was gray!

Whether it's yourself or your surroundings.

I don't want to pay attention to anyone, and I don't want to touch anyone!

A person is locked in his own world, unable to extricate himself.

But just as I was giving up on myself, he appeared.

As I remember, that was the first time he lost his temper with me.

That day, he was so angry that he even raised his palms when he saw that I had repeatedly refused to listen to them.

I know that in the next second, I may be beaten, but ......

At that time, I stubbornly bit my lip, lowered my head, and did not speak.

(*^__^*) hee hee ......

Now that I think about it, he was going to be blown up, right?

But...... But that guy is a bad man!

He...... He......

Hum!

When his palm was about to slap my face, all the strength of his hand had disappeared inexplicably, and then, the next moment, I felt my cheek lifted by him.

At that time, I was in a state of confusion, and I saw his star-like eyes at a glance!

When I noticed that his eyes were getting closer and closer, before I could react, he kissed me directly in my state of complete bewilderment!

He kissed me!

I......

I don't know what kind of mood I should use to describe my feelings at that time.

Are you secretly happy?

Still confused?

I've forgotten what it is.

Over the years, I have long forgotten what the reason we were together in the first place, but in my mind, I have always had the memory of that kiss.

Since then, our relationship has grown by leaps and bounds.

And I, too, finally came out of the symptoms of depression.

When I reappeared at the company, the only thing to be thankful for was that because of my age and Xingge (not in front of him, of course), I was chosen to be the captain of the new group.

To be honest, I was happy to hear that I was able to make my debut, but on the other hand, I was also a little disappointed.

The company won't allow me and him to continue.

As a debuting artist, especially a newcomer, I definitely can't be able to show any signs of love, so at that moment, I hesitated.

I was happy with him, but reality forced me to say sorry to him.

But no matter how naughty I used to be, but in this regard, I am just a girl, and in my opinion, I am not rich in life experience, I am so reluctant.

After a lot of going back and forth, I decided to hide my relationship with him from the company.

I never thought about what I would be in if I was found out like this.

Will it even affect my future?

Maybe.

Yes, it will be!

But......

So what?

At that time, I could really do it, and I could pay a qiē for him!

It is said that the woman in love is Pabo, and it seems that this is really the case.

To my relief and guilt, he agreed to my request without any hesitation.

I knew that he was for me at that time, so that I would not be so embarrassed.

In fact, we once discussed privately why the two of us were together.

But most of the end results ended with a kiss that made people blush and beat heartbeats.

This scoundrel!

After our debut, the time we spent seeing each other gradually decreased, but the contact has never been broken.

Every time I secretly go on a date with him on the grounds that my mother came to visit me in Seoul, although it was thrilling, I was happy to do it.

However, there is never an impermeable wall in this world, and it was at the end of 2011 that my relationship with him was known to the company.

The result was completely unexpected.

I originally thought that the sky was falling, and I originally thought that our relationship would finally end because of this, but I was surprised to find that President Hong just called me over, asked me where I was going between him and me, and told me not to give myself to him before marriage, and that's it...... It's okay!

It's okay?

How can it be?

Obviously the contract says that within three years of debut, it is forbidden to fall in love?

I'm still the captain, especially when I haven't even been around for a year since my debut!

Shouldn't such a relationship be cut off as soon as possible?

But......

Why?

Why is the company so strange?

Just when I was puzzled, he finally appeared in front of me excitedly, and said that his script had been approved, and now the filming has officially started!

At that moment, all my doubts were gone!

No wonder!

No wonder the company's attitude is like this!

It's just because he's now a screenwriter!

Although the future is uncertain, although I don't know what the final result will be, but no matter what, at this moment, he is a screenwriter!

Being able to establish a friendly relationship with a screenwriter, and such a close relationship, is also a good thing.

Of course, the most critical point is because the two have not yet made any substantial breakthroughs in their relationship, and if it is proved that this "screenwriter" is a parallel commodity at that time, then it is easy to get rid of it.

I only figured out this truth later.

But to the disappointment of the company, they would never have imagined that he would become a god!

The youngest screenwriter in history!

He created the myth of the ratings at the beginning of 2012, and he was praised like this!

At that moment, I felt a deep sense of pride and a deep sense of pressure.

He's ...... Am I worthy?

Sure enough, not long after, he broke out the scandal with the predecessor of Han Jiaren, the heroine of "Embracing the Moon", who was a god in the drama.

And the scandal has intensified, and there are even rumors that Han Jiaren's predecessors divorced because of this.

To be honest, whatever the facts, I was too wise not to ask him.

I want to see when he's going to sue me.

Sure enough, not long after the news broke, he finally confessed to me.

To be honest, I was very sad at the time and wanted to accuse him of cheating and also wanted to accuse him of selfishness.

But in the end......

I remembered that kiss at the beginning.

In the most difficult and uncertain time of my life, it was he who gave me courage and gave me a new life.

So I was thinking, am I really going to break up with him?

So let's predict what will happen between the two of us after I break up with him.

What about me?

will feel sorry for themselves, will be sad, will be broken, will completely lose their love for men, and may even have symptoms of refusal to contact men.

Even if I can meet a man who really treats me well in the future, so what?

At this moment, I am sad!

And what about the other way around?

Maybe I'll be sad for a while, maybe not, but under the care of Han Jiaren's predecessors, I believe he will soon forget me.

And then......

They will have a happy family, they will have a beautiful child, and they will have a happy home......

It's not fair!

I don't want it!

I definitely don't want that!

Why do I have to break up with him sadly, and then I'm the one who is bruised all over my body?

Why is he necessarily happy, and has a woman who loves him, and a perfect family?

No!

I don't want this to happen!

So my reaction at that time was that I didn't quarrel with him, nor did I break up with him, but smiled and offered to meet that Han Jiaren senior with my own eyes.

At that time, his expression was playful, (*^__^*) hee-hee...... Even now, I still want to laugh when I think about it.

His mouth was wide open, his eyes bulging, and he looked ridiculous as if he had been a frog.

I still vividly remember that after he came back to his senses, he was inexplicably moved to hold me in his arms and tell the panic in his heart.

At that moment, I knew I was doing the right thing!

After that, I finally met with that Han Jiaren senior.

Contrary to my expectations again, Han Jiaren's predecessors were very restrained, and even a little humble.

You know, she's a senior!

And if you simply talk about the time to meet and fall in love, she is completely ahead of me!

Subsequently, I finally knew why.

He told Han Jiaren, I, Park Chulong, have been his girlfriend all my life!

To be honest, I was taken prisoner even though I knew he was just talking about love.

This damn bad man!

Since then, I haven't minded, but he's always tried not to show us both at the same time.

Seeing him tired and tired, I was happy anyway.

It's time to watch a monkey show.

(*^__^*) hee hee ......

Hopefully OPPA won't be angry.

That's right, I've been calling him Oppa ever since.

In South Korea, this is a very intimate name, and it is generally only called when a female xing calls her lover brother, or a man who has a very close relationship.

Of course, he belongs to the former.

Because of his unexpected popularity, his career is also busy, and we, as newcomers, are also in the period of unknown newcomers, although we have won one at a time, but the development prospects of the group are not optimistic.

It even got into trouble for a while.

But fortunately, he was my boyfriend, and with the company's acquiescence and my own initiative, I invited him to plan our new reunion.

Sure enough, as I expected, because the company released the news that he was our group planner, our group was completely stained with his light.

Although the final rating was not high, only about 1%, but fortunately, we also gathered a lot of popularity.

And taking this as an opportunity, I finally received the first endorsement.

Well, I've forgotten what it was, but luckily we finally got the money.

I remember when we got that paltry income, all of us cried.

17,801.5 won, which was our first income at that time!

In fact, according to the exchange rate at that time, it was less than a hundred yuan of soft sister coins.

It's ridiculous, but it's not ridiculous.

Since then, we have finally become famous, and with his help, Eundi starred in "Please Answer 1997", which was not favored by the outside world, but in the end, it became a classic Korean drama for nearly 20 years!

Subsequently, the combination became completely popular, although the popularity is a little strong, but the company has been trying to achieve average resources.

All kinds of variety shows, CF, and auditions have never stopped, although I have never been the main artist, but I have nothing to be sad about, after all, in terms of acting skills and singing skills, there are those who are better than me, and because of xingge, they are not suitable for variety shows, so even if there is nothing to do at home, it doesn't matter.

After all, I'm the most special one in the group!

(*^__^*) hee hee ......

The feeling of being able to fall in love openly......

That's nice! (To be continued.) )