Qin Ren opened a private department in the company called the "Psychological Counseling Room".

This is an open to everyone, not just employees of Sanjiangqing, to provide advice to anyone who is confused.

Qin Ren had this idea because one day, he suddenly received a letter. The letter was written by a 16 or 7-year-old girl.

He once went to a high school to give a lecture, and maybe he met the girl. But he didn't care.

What the girl said in her heart was that she couldn't stand the endless pressure of studying, and she had suicidal thoughts, and wanted to ask Qin Ren what he should do?

Qin Ren was in a meeting at the time, and the girl handed the letter to an employee and hoped to help pass it on to Qin Ren.

But the employee didn't pay attention and threw the letter in the trash.

Later, when Qin Ren learned about this, three months had passed. The girl also committed suicide several times, but without success.

The first time she cut her wrist with a knife, her family returned in time and took her to the hospital, saving her life. The second time, she tried to jump from a dozen floors of the hospital, but was pulled back by the nurse who came back halfway. The third time she wanted to take sleeping pills, but the properties of the sleeping pills were so bad that she woke up after only two days of sleep.

After that, she was depressed and was cared for by her family all day. When Qin Ren went to look for her, she had already gone to the United States.

Qin Ren felt that he had become a murderer, although the girl was not dead, and the matter had nothing to do with him, he still had a deep sense of guilt, as if he had almost sent the girl to a point of no return.

So he opened a "psychological counseling room", but he himself was also very conflicted and found it ironic. The answers he has been seeking have not yet come to fruition, so what qualifications does he have to help others? But in order to prevent this from happening, he still started this department.

In fact, even if he founded this "psychological counseling room", it would be useless, Qin Ren may just do this to make his heart feel better.

Why does he feel guilty? He himself didn't know.

Nearly a month after it was opened, hundreds of letters poured in. Most of them are employees of the company, and the content of the letter is nothing more than some things that moan without illness, or praise Qin Ren in disguise.

Qin Ren knew that they were flattering him, and they knew that Qin Ren liked this, so they did what he liked.

Qin Ren looked at the large number of envelopes every day, and had a strange feeling in his heart. Sometimes he would suddenly remember the letter Hua Yan left on the night before he left a long time ago. He threw it in the garbage basket without looking.

Now he felt that there seemed to be something else in the letter, which he had neglected at the time, and had missed something very important. As for what it was, he couldn't think of it, but it was heartbreaking and heartbreaking.

And he couldn't go to Hua Yan anymore to ask about the contents of the letter. Because as soon as he saw Hua Yan, he would naturally think of another person in his heart. The girl, who was as easily shattered as a bubble, seemed to exist only in memory.

Those things from a long time ago are being worn away little by little by the years, but they are as clear as yesterday, but they are very vague. That face, never before. When you wake up, you come back to reality, like a dream......

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Qin Ren received a very strange letter, the letter was not signed, or rather, it was signed. The signature is called "Sunshine".

Qin Ren knew that "Sunshine" was definitely not that person's name, but he also knew that that person must be a girl, a very naïve girl.

Because the content of the letter was completely sunny, Qin Ren read it as if he felt the warmth of the sun. And the handwriting is also very delicate, like the sun.

There was no annoyance in the letter, but it was not a moaning without illness. She would like to ask a question, what is youth?

Qin Ren could feel that when she wrote this letter, she had a faint melancholy and sadness in her heart. Qin Ren felt a trace of inexplicable sentimentality when he read it, and at the same time he was strongly curious in his heart, what kind of person is this girl named "Sunshine"? Is it like sunshine inside? But also with a touch of sadness? Does she have a different peculiar view of youth?

Qin Ren thought that maybe she had the answer she had been seeking.

So Qin Ren asked the employee in charge of managing the mailbox who wrote the letter? What kind of person is he? Where can I find her?

The employee shook his head and said, I don't know.

Qin Ren could only write a very long letter on the reply letter, which was more than 10,000 words. In the letter is all he understands about youth. He wanted to talk about youth with the girl.

He told the employee to pay attention to the person who had come to get the letter, and to notify him as soon as the person came. He also gave the employee a cell phone for that. Tell the employee that whether he's in a meeting, eating, going to the bathroom, or sleeping, call the person as soon as they arrive.

Two days later, Qin Ren was sleeping when he was woken up by his mobile phone. He immediately jumped out of bed and rushed to the mailbox.

After arriving there, Qin Ren was a little disappointed, because the person who came to get the letter was not a sunny girl, but a middle-aged uncle.

Qin Ren walked over and took out the letter and asked, did you write this letter?

The uncle shook his head and said, No, it was my daughter who wrote it. Speaking of this, there was a strange look in the uncle's eyes.

Qin Ren begged the uncle to take him to meet her, he had some questions he wanted to ask her.

The uncle thought for a while and said of course he could. Then he took Qin Ren there.

He walked with Qin Ren for a long time, turned left and right, came to a very old street that seemed to have been abandoned, and took him into a house that had rusted on the iron gate.

As soon as Qin Ren entered, he saw the girl named "Sunshine". She was sitting quietly on the bed reading a book. This made Qin Ren feel that he had suddenly returned to a long time ago. At that time, there was also a girl reading a book very quietly. That familiar, contradictory nostalgia, as if time had reflowed.

"Sunshine" is not reading an ordinary book, and she is not reading an ordinary book. She was "reading" the book with her hands. She is blind.

A ray of sunlight shone on her face through the window, and the sun was shining. Her face was serene and calm.

Sunshine didn't notice Qin Ren's presence until Qin Ren approached her. It was only then that she realized that a strange man had come to the house.

Who? She asked in a panic.

Qin Ren replied, I am the person you want to write to.

Sunshine laughed, as bright as the sun, and said, you are "Mr. Erhua"!

Qin Ren was a little surprised, he couldn't imagine that there were still people who remembered his name.

The uncle told Qin Ren that when Sunshine was 8 years old, he couldn't see anything again because of the tumor that compressed the optic nerve. But she has never given up hope and enthusiasm for life in the past 10 years. She attended the College for the Blind and then at home.

Qin Ren was very surprised, he couldn't imagine why a blind person could write such a beautiful word like sunshine?

Sunshine told Qin Ren that she used a pen to practice calligraphy on a fixed grid every day. There are already many notches on the lattice with a knife, so don't be afraid to write the grid, just like Paul in "How Steel is Made". After she finished writing, she showed the words to others, practiced for 7 years, and has persevered since she was 11 years old.

Qin Ren felt very sad for her, the sunshine, those eyes as bright as stars, blinked, but he couldn't see anything. What an irony this is!

The uncle told Qin Ren that although the tumor in the sunshine head had been controlled in the past few years, it was only temporary. Recently, the tumor started to spread again. Doctors concluded that she would only have more than two months to live. As he spoke, the uncle burst into tears.

Later, Qin Ren learned that Sunshine was actually not the uncle's daughter. She was picked up by her uncle on the road.

After Sunshine was found to have a tumor as a child, her family abandoned her.

The uncle also said that even though Sunshine knew this, she was still very happy to live, smiling happily every day.

At that time, when the uncle saw the sun for the first time, he asked her what her name was. Sunshine said, her name is Xingyue. When she said that, she laughed, as bright as the sun.

The uncle asked her again, where did her parents go? Sunshine shook her head and said that Mom and Dad had left her. When she said it, she was still smiling.

Uncle asked, then would you like to be my daughter, I will treat you like my own daughter. Sunshine smiled and said, "Okay."

So the uncle went home with the sun on his back. After that, he really treated Sunshine as if she were her own daughter.

The uncle's name is Wu Anshi, and he is a person who makes a living by picking up garbage. In the past few years, he has relied on picking up garbage to treat the sun.

He was married once, but a few years later his wife left with all his savings and another man.

That day was the day he met the sunshine, and the uncle said that the sunshine was a gift from God.

However, the gift will soon be taken back by heaven......

Qin Ren asked Sunshine, did she feel happy? From the day he lost his sight.

Sunshine laughed, and when she laughed, not only did her expression smile, but even her blind eyes seemed to be laughing. She smiled beautifully, as if she could see it again just by laughing, sparkling.

Sunshine said that she was indeed a little sad when she first went blind, but it was quickly diluted by time. No matter what, she thought, things were irreparable, and it was better to be dead than to live. She can't see, she can hear, she can touch, she can talk...... There are still many beautiful things in this world, so why bother with yourself?

Qin Ren was moved by her spirit, this girl who is the same as the sunshine, even if she can't see the sun, she still touches the warmth of the sun, she herself is a sunshine-like existence.

The sunlight caressed Qin Ren's face, rubbing it carefully, and suddenly shed tears.

Qin Ren asked her what was wrong? Sunshine wiped away her tears with her hands and smiled and said that she was just a little excited. She had long wanted to touch the face of the legendary "Mr. Erhua". Because at the end of her life, she wanted to understand a question, what exactly is youth?

She didn't know where her youth was, but she wanted to feel it and wonder what youth was really like. She rarely goes out, rarely goes to school, and doesn't know what youth is like in the eyes of others.

Qin Ren's heart trembled, and he didn't know where his youth was? It seems like I had it a long time ago, but then I lost it. Where it was lost, he himself did not know.

Qin Ren asked Sunshine if she would feel sad or sad at the end of her life. Sunshine shook her head and said no, she didn't feel sad for herself, but she was a little unwilling, she didn't want to leave regrets, and she wanted to try to have a youth.

Qin Ren was silent, he didn't say anything, he didn't know what to say. Everything seems to stand still......

Three months later, the sun is gone.

The uncle said that she walked with a smile. The last arc of smiles seems to be a blessing leading to heaven.

Qin Ren didn't know if Sunshine had come up with the answer she wanted at the end of her life, and whether she had her own youth at the last moment. However, it should be said that she herself is youth, a youth like sunshine. Her youth is sunshine, not water, nor foam.

As for Qin Ren, he still hadn't found the answer, something that seemed to have been lost a long time ago. He never found it again, and whether he could find it in the future, he didn't know, he had no way of knowing.

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