The journey of life is not very long. But it's not short. Everyone experiences childhood, adolescence, youth, prime, middle age, old age, ......

Youth is a certain period of time mixed with it. However, what exactly is youth? No one can give a definition.

Perhaps, after many years, Qin Ren will suddenly understand what youth is. However, when that time comes, will it be too late? Did what he wanted not exist in the first place, or maybe he had missed it......

Qin Ren sometimes thinks about his future. Where would he be at that time? With whom? Has he come to a conclusion about the answer he has been seeking?

Qin Ren was invited to a wedding, which was a completely Western-style wedding.

The priest asked the bridegroom, would you like to be with the person in front of you for the rest of your life? Whether she is born, old, sick or dead......

Sina replied without hesitation, I do.

Qin Ren thought, what is hidden in that "I do"? Is it true or false? And how many people can do it?

Once a person gets married, does it indicate that he will face the end of his youth? If not, where will the end of youth be? When will it end?

One morning, the employee who managed the mailbox suddenly handed Qin Ren a book called "Heaven and Dragon Slayer". Qin Ren's face changed suddenly, and his body trembled.

The employee said he found it in his mailbox. At that time, he was still very puzzled, how did such a big book get in?

Qin Ren didn't have the heart to pay attention to this, he hurriedly asked the employee, who stuffed this book? Where is that person now?

The employee shook his head and said he didn't know. Maybe Uncle Wang, who is on duty to guard the gate, knows.

Qin Ren went to find Uncle Wang, who was on duty to guard the gate, but Uncle Wang also shook his head and said that he didn't know.

Qin Ren kept looking, but he quickly gave up. Because he knew that this was Shanghai, and the book might just be stuffed into it by some naughty child.

Qin Ren went to the bar to drink, this bar is called "Xingwei". Qin Ren drinks vodka, vodka with a high purity. A long time ago, he stopped drinking "three-flowered alcohol". Although he still thinks that "sanhua" is the best drink in the world, vodka is more likely to get drunk.

Qin Ren drank a lot of wine, cup after glass, he couldn't remember how much wine he drank, he just drank and got drunk.

When he woke up, he was already back at home. It was bangs that brought him back. Bangs knows where he often goes to drink and what he likes to drink with.

Liu Hai still remembers that when she brought Qin Ren back, Qin Ren made a fuss like a child, asking Liu Hai to give him candy to eat and read him "Heaven and Dragon Slayer".

Liu Hai couldn't be entangled, so he could only read him a paragraph of "Heaven and Dragon Slayer". But while reading it, Qin Ren suddenly squatted on the ground and cried, crying like a child.

This man who is already in his thirties, bangs suddenly found that his temples were already gray.

She hugged him very distressedly and comforted him like a child, and then Qin Ren fell asleep. Something was muttered in his mouth all the time. Bangs couldn't hear clearly, just hugged him and felt his body temperature.

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Xu Yanling is a prostitute. Female, this can be directly reflected in the letter.

The letters she wrote to Qin Ren were full of things about youth but very depraved and negative. She believes that money is everything, and for that, she pays a big price.

Qin Ren hated her attitude towards life, but he very much agreed with her understanding of the difference of youth.

She said that youth is a game, everyone will have a different ending when they play, and her end is depravity.

Qin Ren thought that there was no truth in this sentence, but it was inexplicably convincing.

So, he wanted to meet the woman.

He followed the address given in the letter to Xu Yanling's apartment, which was a filthy place full of garbage and sewage.

Xu Yanling lives on the second floor.

Qin Ren was stunned as soon as he opened the door, Xu Yanling was doing that kind of thing with a man.

The man was startled at first, but after making sure that it was not the police, he became angry and shouted, get out of here!

Qin Ren stayed there and felt embarrassed.

The man let out a rage and lunged at him.

Xu Yanling suddenly picked up an alarm clock from the bed and threw it at the man.

The man froze.

Xu Yanling said to him coldly, you get out of here. The man was still there. Xu Yanling took out a small treasure from the side of the bed, took out another three hundred yuan from it, threw it on the ground, and said coldly, This is for you upside down, hurry up!

The man's face became very strange, and he did not pick up the money, but picked up his clothes and walked away.

Qin Ren was also stunned, Xu Yanling smiled and said, sit down. Then he gestured to a chair next to him.

Qin Ren sat down, and then saw that there were tissues all around, and there was a perfume mixed with the smell of ** in the air.

Xu Yanling got up from the bed, took a shirt and draped it on her body, and said, I'll pour you a cup of tea. Then she went and poured a cup of tea for Qin Ren.

Qin Ren felt embarrassed, because the shirt Xu Yanling was wearing was almost transparent, and the buttons in front of her were not fastened. The soft snow-white color in her body was almost all presented in front of Qin Ren's eyes.

Qin Ren took the tea and twisted his head to the side.

Xu Yanling caught his movements, and after Qin Ren finished drinking tea, she suddenly grabbed her hand and pressed it down on her full chest.

Qin Ren felt a soft and fiery touch, panicked in his heart, and hurriedly withdrew his hand.

Xu Yanling said with a strange look in her eyes, am I ugly?

Qin Ren looked up at her face, people who do this line of work will never be ugly. You are beautiful, Qin Ren said.

So what are you afraid of? Xu Yanling said resentfully, and there was a hint of seductive charm in her tone.

Qin Ren didn't know what to say, Xu Yanling picked up his hand again and put it on his chest, Qin Ren suddenly felt the same hot and soft touch as before, but there was another feeling, like a spring breeze. His mind was flustered, and his mind went blank.

Then they began to zuoai, first very polite, tentative, and then crazy, in full swing......

Until he was done, Qin Ren was still in a state of ignorance.

Xu Yanling snuggled into his arms, smiling deliciously. Somehow, Qin Ren suddenly thought of Hua Yan. Between Xu Yanling and Hua Yan, there seems to be something in common.

I want to die...... Xu Yanling suddenly said faintly, Qin Ren looked at her in a daze.

Xu Yanling got out of Qin Ren's arms and said desolate that every time she did that kind of thing with a man, she would want to die. She felt that some important things in her life were passing away little by little.

Qin Ren came back to his senses and said, since this is the case, why do you still want to do such a thing?

Because you want to live...... She still laughed and laughed, but there was a kind of desolation in her voice.

Qin Ren said that there are many paths in life, and it is not necessary to choose this path.

Xu Yanling said miserably, do you think I want to do this? There is that woman who is willing to sell her body, if it weren't for helplessness, even death would not have done such a thing!

Later, Qin Ren learned that Xu Yanling was from Guang. Xilaiguang. A rural girl who works in the east is forced to drop out of school to work because her younger brother has to study.

The first time she entered a black factory, the factory director not only owed her wages, but also cheated her body away. After she left the factory and was taken another day. The people of Tsu have deceived them. Sea, throw it away when you've had enough.

She's on it. With no one to rely on in the sea, he had to enter a "Limei" hair salon in order to make a living.

So she lived a corrupt and depraved life of wine and meat ** every day after that.

She has a boyfriend in the countryside since she came on. After nautical miles, they lost contact.

But recently her boyfriend came to her, and that's what she wanted to consult. Her boyfriend didn't know she was doing this kind of work.

Qin Ren said, then don't do this kind of thing again, go back and continue to live with your boyfriend, and live like this for the rest of your life that you don't know.

Xu Yanling took a puff of cigarette, smiled miserably, and said, impossible, there is no going back.

This sentence made Qin Ren's heart tremble, and a sense of melancholy arose. Can't go back? Once you miss it, you can never go back. He felt a lot of heartache, and his heart felt like a knife.

It wasn't until later that Qin Ren understood why Xu Yanling said that it was impossible to go back.

Xu Yanling got dressed, threw the cigarette butt on the ground fiercely, and then cried.

Qin Ren could only comfort her softly, if the matter could not be turned back, then let it stop now. This was the only way Qin Ren could think of to help her.

Xu Yanling pounced on Qin Ren and continued to cry, when suddenly there was a message outside, the cat was coming! The cat is coming, the cat is coming......

Their faces changed, and Qin Ren hurriedly got dressed.

When the cat comes, the police come. Qin Ren knew that this was the code word of this kind of place.

Qin Ren wanted to run downstairs, but Xu Yanling stopped him, threw a broom to him, and asked him to pretend to be a cleaner.

Then the police came, and sure enough, they didn't even look at him. Qin Ren returned to the company.

Later, Qin Ren found Xu Yanling's rural boyfriend, the man named Fang Jianzhong.

Qin Ren learned that Fang Jianzhong and Xu Yanling met through introduction. They haven't been in touch for three years. Fang Jianzhong came to Shanghai this time to find Xu Yanling.

Some people in the village say that Xu Yanling does that kind of work. He didn't believe it and insisted on coming. Hai, he wanted to take Xu Yanling back and take her away. The sea is a land of right and wrong.

In fact, when Xu Yanling wanted to come out to work, he already vaguely felt that such a day would happen.

There is a saying in the village, "As long as a rural girl goes to work in the city, she will definitely become bad." But what makes them bad? Qin Ren thought, but he couldn't figure it out. Isn't the bustling city and the abundance of material resources to make people's lives better?

Qin Ren asked Fang Jianzhong, if Xu Yanling really did that kind of work, would he still love her and take her back?

Fang Jianzhong replied very firmly, love, no matter when something happens, he will take her back. He still loves her. Whatever she becomes.

Qin Ren transferred his words to Xu Yanling, and Xu Yanling immediately threw herself on the bed and cried.

At that moment, Qin Ren felt guilty, not because he had hurt Xu Yanling's body like many people in this city, but because he felt that he had played the role of an executioner. He felt that everyone in the city was an executioner, killing a girl full of youthful vitality.

Later, Xu Yanling and Fang Jianzhong returned to the countryside, and Fang Jianzhong also knew that Xu Yanling was a prostitute. Female, but he didn't dislike her. He kept his promise.

As for what happened later, Qin Ren also found out a few months later.

They all died, first Xu Yanling couldn't stand the pointing and talking behind her back from the villagers, so she committed suicide by jumping into the river. Fang Jianzhong was grief-stricken, and in the end, he died of hatred in just a few days.

This is indeed a tragedy, but Qin Ren can't understand why it is a tragedy? Things have come to such a plot, shouldn't the two of them go back to the village and live happily? However, something like this happened, where did the link go wrong?

Qin Ren suddenly remembered Xu Yanling's bleak words before, and he couldn't turn back......

Qin Ren knew that on the day of the news, he drank a lot of alcohol until the next morning when he went directly to the hospital.

Why? He still can't figure it out, is youth really just a game of depravity?

After Qin Ren was discharged from the hospital, he closed the psychological counseling room. He didn't want to witness the tragedy anymore, and he hadn't figured out the answer in his heart yet.

If something has been lost in the years, he wants to find it again.

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