13. His back on
"You really want to know?" Mo Lun looked down at the desire in front of him in a daze, and the last slanting light hit him. "Sheng Xiao Xiao, he is such a character, in fact, I don't know much about him, even if we grew up together."
Suddenly, he leaned down, and the dim light around him surrounded the two of them, and his face was covered with a faint shadow, and his eyes were brighter in the haze.
"It's not enough to get to know someone in a few words, let alone someone like him who doesn't reveal his thoughts...... So, come on. He smiled lightly, patted her on the back, straightened up, and a few obscured rays of obscured light shot straight in, and his face turned red, come on? β¦β¦
"It's time to go back." As she walked down the garden path to the top floor, she followed him in the setting sun, and she couldn't help but feel the afterglow dazzling, and blocked it with her hand, stepping into the hazy darkness of the golden stone path.
The curtains moved slightly, and the sun crept in, hitting this lonely and cold place. A man entered the room, walked flexibly in front of Sheng's bed without waking him up, leaned over to look, I don't know what to look at, and the corners of his shallow lips actually raised an arc. When he thought he was leisurely, the already awake Sheng Xiao was staring at him with his eyes open. The man shrank abruptly and smiled wistfully.
"Get out." Sheng Xiao turned his face and stopped looking at him.
"I'm kind enough to wake you up. You're still telling me to go out, it's really impersonal. The man walked to the balcony, the same mysterious man who had been in the dim light of the basement that day, and now in the bright daylight, he didn't think there was anything wrong with him.
Sheng Xiao turned over and pulled the quilt on.
He looked at the childlike man on the bed and shook his head. He jumped onto the bed, tore off the quilt and wrapped himself in him. Then there was a violent commotion, and there was no peace in the quilt, only to see Sheng Xiao jump off the bed and stumble on the edge of the bed, with a bad face, and glared at him a little seriously, "Don't think I dare to clean you up." As he spoke, he tore at his loose pajamas and walked out of the room.
The man leaned comfortably on the bed, his eyebrows furrowed to indicate that his goal had been achieved.
The man leaned against the door of the bathroom and watched the messy hair of Sheng Xiao washing, "You should go to the hospital today." β
Sheng Xiao was silent, only listened to the sound of the water rushing by and clicked to stop, and then avoided the man and walked out of the toilet with his hair indiscriminately, "There's no need." β
The man didn't wait for him to turn sideways and pulled his sleeve up, bright red scratches were exposed one by one, and several dark purple wounds that were about to heal were covered with several bright red scratch marks, these were not terrible, but the two hideous old scars that surrounded the entire arm made people feel terrifying, and the whole scar still had the traces of the knife edge at that time.
He was taken aback and looked into Sheng Xiaoxiao's eyes, "Relapse?" β
"It's fine." Yan Xiao broke away from his hand, paced out the door, lowered his sleeves and hid behind him.
ββ¦β¦ It's all to blame for that. The man muttered indignantly.
"Don't blame her!" Sheng Xiao glared at him from afar, "I'm going to save her." β
Looking at the slender and lonely figure, the man's brows couldn't help jumping.
The wind leaked in, gently stirring the tightly closed eyes of the saint. His brows furrowed slightly, he was already asleep, his hands were on his forehead, and he turned over from time to time......
It's that familiar sunset again.,It's on the campus of junior high school again.,It's not very similar to the current Abbaton School Park.,I'm sitting on a bench.,Next to me is Melun.γ The hazy picture, I don't know if it's a dream, he thought, it's this dream again......
"Who are you looking at?" The dream self asked Mo Lun curiously, his face was so childish, and he looked at the playground with Mo Lun's eyes. Merren blushed and withdrew his gaze. Yan Xiao couldn't help laughing, "It's Lan Momo again, right?" That senior sister in the first year of high school? I've long found out, and you've been keeping an eye on her. Mo Lun looked at the girls playing basketball on the playground stupidly, handsome and energetic. Under the shade of the tree, two ignorant young people talked in a voice, as clear as the blue sky......
Mo Lun liked Lan Momo so much, and when she entered her second year of high school, he couldn't bear it anymore.
He took Lan Xiao's hand and stood outside an unfamiliar class door, and the sound of Mo Lun's rapid breathing made him nervous. Yan Xiao accompanied Mo Lun to confess to Mo Mo, these two boys, the first time they touched love, they were still so simple at that time. I miss my sunny self, my cheerful self, my simple self, but I can't go back. There was a pang in my heart...... I sank into a dream again.
"What are you? ......" finally waited for Mo Mo, she went out with her schoolbag on her back, her youthful and beautiful ponytail behind her, Mo Lun could see that she forgot the words. Thinking of Mo Lun at that time, a shy and sunny boy, he seemed to be very well-behaved and obedient, but he was very assertive and thoughtful.
"Senpai." Mo Lun smiled faintly, his face slightly red. Mo Mo couldn't help but warm up and looked at the two of them.
Since then, they have become friends, regardless of age, probably because the boy's mind matures faster, but even more mature than Momo. The three of them spent more time together, and Mo Lun's affection for her became stronger and stronger, I don't know if Mo Mo noticed Mo Lun's feelings for her at that time, she always didn't think too much. Thinking about it, she looked into her eyes, looking at Merlen's eyes with a sparkling light, and her thoughts were full of thoughts.
Mo Lun, Sheng Xiao Xiao's strength was slowly revealed, his results jumped up, and his advantages in all aspects exploded together, it was like a rocket that had ignited and rushed upward, and no one could stop them. A chic and capable temperament wrapped around the two of them, and they finally looked no longer so childish. The boy will always transform, but the heart will not change. Sheng Xiao is not like now, so closed, cold, numb, and has lost interest in everything.
Gradually, Mo Mo blushed when he looked at them, and also shifted his attention to Mo Lun to Xiao Xiao. At that time, I didn't understand why Mo Mo deliberately restrained her feelings for Mo Lun, and even deliberately transferred it to herself to dilute her feelings for Mo Lun, and now I know that Mo Mo is Mo Lun's aunt, this is a fact that only Mo Mo herself knows, and she has a lot on her shoulders, who knows the truth is not very heavy. Mullen's grades are on par with Mollen, hovering at the top of the grade, Mollen is steady, Mollen is active in thinking, Mollen is good at piano and computer programming, and Mullen is good at English, French, and chemistry. At that time, Sheng Xiao didn't care about anything like he does now, he was always fighting with Mo Lun.
Hazy, the dream became more and more unclear...... The sunset was particularly dazzling, and on that day, Lu Xiao always remembered very clearly, Mo Lun's tear-staining eyes were confused in the sunset...... On that day, Mellen's heart was deeply pierced, and from that day on, Mellen also changed.
The three of them sat on the benches, watching the sparsely dispersed students walk out of the campus, Momo swinging his legs freely,
"Momo. ......" suddenly whispered in his ear. Merren called out to her with his eyes down. Yan Xiao's heart tightened, knowing that he was going to confess, she couldn't help but sweat for him, and looked at him - Mo Mo turned her face sideways, the sunset was imprinted on her face with clear outlines, she bent her eyes and smiled, and Lan Xiao couldn't help but feel a heartbeat. She looked at Mo Lun, waiting for him to speak, and at that time her eyes flashed with uneasiness, and she watched quietly, all her mental activity was in full view, and Mo Mo seemed to be worried about something, untilβ
"Momo, I've always liked you." Melun's voice was hoarse, and he lowered his eyes. For him, how much preparation and how much courage he had to say. Mo Mo's eyes darkened, and finally, it came to this point. She looked at Mo Lun with her head down, and her heart ached, I'm your aunt......
Seeing that Mo Mo was silent, Mo Lun looked up at her, his eyes flashing, and people couldn't bear to hurt or touch it......
She smiled, still so casually, despite the pain in her heart, "Thank you." I...... I've always liked ......" Mo Lun straightened his back, his broken hair was scattered by the breeze, looking forward to the second half of Mo Mo's words-
"I've always liked Shengluoxiao." After speaking, she looked back at Lu Xiao, who was unaware of the wind. At that time, only Lu Xiao saw her eyes, almost shining with tears, she was already crying...... Mo Lun's eyes suddenly lost their brilliance, and he may never be able to find it again, that kind of beautiful eyes, he stiffly looked at Mo Mo who seemed to be smiling at Xiao Xiao, and couldn't help it, the corners of his own mouth also picked ...... Yan Xiao didn't know why Mo Mo did this, but he realized that Mo Mo said that she liked herself in order to reject Mo Lun, and she actually liked Mo Lun.
Turning around, Mo Lun looked fixedly at a corner in the distance, his eyes drifted away, and the warm and sunny breath was withdrawn...... That side face has been imprinted in the bottom of Yan Xiao's heart, and the dream is extremely clear, and the seemingly peaceful eyes have flashed with cold light......
At that time, it was the season of falling flowers, and the petals scattered by the wind caressed the campus and returned to peace. I don't remember what happened after that, but Merren continued as usual, but he didn't speak much anymore.
That day, it still came.
"Xiao Xiao." A familiar voice sounded behind him, slightly hoarse. Yan Xiao turned around, and Mo Lun was looking at himself with a smile, smiling as before. Yan Xiao breathed a sigh of relief, he finally came out of the shadows. It's just that smile, more helpless, more air-conditioning, no longer clear. He pulled himself to the corner and stopped, and was silent for a long time, looking up at his eyes, still smiling, but losing his luster and being hollow.
"She gave it to you." He took out a letter and smiled at Xiao Xiao. Sheng Xiao looked thin in the dim light, took the letter, and slowly opened the envelope. "She really likes you." Merren hooked the corners of his mouth and leaned against the wall. Reading every word on the letter, I couldn't help but be shocked, and every word of Momo's thoughts fell on it. I didn't realize that Momo really had a good impression of himself these days, but I still don't know when it started.
Leaning half-against the wall, he took back the letter, his eyes were full of thoughts, and he was quietly in a daze.
"Xiao Xiao......" Mo Lun put his hands on his shoulders, his eyes suddenly tightened, and he was dull, "Please do something...... All right? He let go, "Can you try dating her?" The words drifted past his ears, and his hand holding the letter suddenly tightened.
"I'm sorry...... I know it's unfair to you. Merren seemed to be holding back, tilting his head slightly, and his hands propped up the wall. After a while, he looked back, and his eyes quickly returned to calm, and there was no trace of thought in his eyes. He lowered his eyes and waited quietly. What kind of decision is this, whether it is the person who makes the decision or the person who is asked.
Yan Xiao raised his hand and touched his head, the broken hair slid through his fingertips, extremely soft. You're really ...... Why do you have to bear it alone? Mo Lun looked at Yan Xiao in surprise, and stepped back in a daze. Yan Xiao smiled, "I'll try." At the end of the sentence, the hearts of the two people were stirred, and the two people suffered this pain respectively. Mo Lun can't say whether he is happy or sad, maybe he has both, while he is surprised at this moment, maybe he is more sad and lost, and he feels guilty about Xiao Xiao. And Sheng Xiao is not gentle, everything is for this brother, and he uses his youth to complete an agreement, how can he not be sad, he doesn't like Momo, wouldn't it hurt the two of them. Really, providence makes people.
Yan Xiao turned over, his constricted brows stretched slightly, his broken hair hung messily on the side of his face, and the tip of his nose was symmetrical with a sharp chin, and his sleeping face was charming......
"Xiao Xiao! ......" The self in the dream looked back, and in the haze, a bright girl ran towards him, it was Momo, and he looked at her with a light smile. Since agreeing to date her, he plans to hide the secret of being with Mo Lun, get along with her sincerely, and live up to her and Mo Lun. "Let's go!" She gently grabbed her wrist, the cold touch shocked her heart, looked back at her side face, it was so beautiful in the sun, she tried to adjust her smile, and smiled naturally. I know that it is shameful to do this on the one hand, playing with her feelings...... The dream gradually receded, and Yan Xiao put his hand on his forehead, slowly soothing his tight brows, I don't know if he was awake or half-confused, this dream has been entangled in his heart and can't be dispersed......
Under the slanting sun, the two figures are close together, constituting a beautiful scenery on the campus, which can't help but attract some onlookers. Yan Xiao's body shook, he didn't have any wonderful feelings, his heart may be gradually numb. Yan Xiao knew that Mo Lun was actually very uncomfortable in his heart, but if he did this, Mo Mo would be happier if Mo Mo was doing well, and it would not be in vain that he was so well-intentioned. Who of these two people is not very selfless?
I remember that since I dated Momo, I often went to the band's rehearsal room with her. It's a very quiet place.
It's this dream again...... The small teahouse in the dream, but the small teahouse in the dream does not always belong to Momo, it belongs to another girl. It was a somewhat arrogant, frivolous girl, who impressed herself at the first sight of her, but always forgot her appearance in her dreams. In the tea room in my dreams, the sound of the piano always lingers in my ears. It seemed that I saw a girl sitting in the distance, holding a harp, the sound of the piano stopped, the girl turned her head, she looked well-behaved, but she couldn't see her face clearly, and she faintly felt familiar...... Sheng Xiao breathed rapidly in the dream, beads of sweat faintly appeared on his back, and he turned over, still beating in his heart. Good noodles are cooked...... But she's not Momo, this girl who appeared in her dreams a few times, and when she woke up, she forgot who she was, this time, she must see her face clearly......
The dream self walked towards her and stopped beside her. The sound of the piano was cut off again. She looked back again, looking at herself with a proud smile on her face. The girl walked out the door, and I couldn't help but cry out, "What's your name?" The girl looked back and smiled, "I won't tell you." "The glow of the setting sun fell on me, the deep blue sky outside the window was very appropriate, everything was so familiar, it happened at a certain moment...... Awakened from the dream again, Xiao Xiao held his forehead, beads of sweat covered his palms. This scene is so familiar. Small Tea Room ...... Desire. Cang Desire, it turned out to be Cang Desire...... I couldn't help but hook the corners of my lips, it was actually her, I had been dreaming of her. Looking out the window, I couldn't help but laugh, I was crazy...... In my subconscious, it was actually her. Yan Xiao gasped and touched a fine bead of sweat.
That day, she was bullied by Qin Luo, and I rushed over uncontrollably...... Although in the end, it was still preempted by Merlen. The first time we met, I actually left her a mobile phone number, which I forgot to notice. He touched his heart and felt it beat powerfully...... The palm of the hand stretched out to the ceiling, so close to it, but it couldn't be touched, so peaceful, but it was always pressed down, pressed into his empty heart, and he was never satisfied with the emptiness in his heart.
I don't know when I became such a character. Since junior high school, he is still cheerful and alert. The self in the dream will never be found again. Is it really that the boy is mentally mature, or has he experienced too much and endured too much in the past two years...... I couldn't help but laugh softly, stretched out my hand to cover my eyes, and fell asleep like this......
"A car overturned and fell on the east bank of the Xihe Bridge, and the accident is under investigation......"
"A black Cayenne fell into the river, and after several hours of salvage, the body was seriously deformed......" "The vehicle fell into the river 12 hours before the salvage, no one noticed, this morning a group found an unknown object and called the police, and the police later confirmed that a man and a woman in the car were ......killed"
A year ago, the announcer on the TV was babbling.
"All have been killed...... It's all ......" a teenage boy was stunned in front of the screen, "how is this possible...... She was still ...... yesterday Impossible, won't! The corners of his mouth twitched, and he wanted to smile, but there were endless tears on his face. That's impossible! β¦β¦ Mother! ......" The boy in front of the TV roared loudly, fell to the ground, tears poured out of his eyes from the bottom of his heart and from his whole body, "Mom ......" desperately confirmed the license plate number on the TV over and over again with tears that had long been unable to see clearly, and the cold broadcast sound pierced his heart one after another, "Mom......"
He was fourteen years old. The accident happened just over a year ago.
The rain was pouring down...... People dressed in black and black dresses gathered together in a scattered manner. Under the umbrella, a lonely teenager listened to the cries around him, real or fake, in a daze.
"May this innocent and pure soul rest in peace, and the world sings to you about your goodness, rest ......in peace," he stood in front of his mother's coffin, quietly listening to the priest's chanting, while his eyes were hollow, parched, unfocused, and devoid of energy. His father did not come to the funeral on this day. His brother was drunk in the private room. Only the Shangguan family accompanied him, and some celebrities who were friends with the Holy Family on weekdays. Mo Lun held the umbrella, quietly came to his side, put his hand on his shoulder, the temperature of the palm quickly melted his cold and desperate heart at the moment, only to feel his shoulders rise and fall, and there was a choking under the umbrella...... He was the only one who said goodbye to his mother, and he alone closed the curtain on his mother's life on behalf of the Holy Family. The unexpected death of the hostess of the Holy Family received a lot of media attention, and they managed to sneak into the funeral, surround this fragile teenager with no skin, scramble to grab the closest place to him, and then asked themselves with a sad face, what do you think of this car accident? Is your mother good to you? Aren't you sad? Where is your father? Like a hungry wolf, I want to dig out some articles from his mouth, find some tear-jerking highlights, I can't wait to make him cry, seeing the glorious Holy Family in the past have fallen to this point, and the second young master of the glorious Holy Family is so downtrodden that there are bright spots, the audience feels sorry and happy, people always like to see the unfortunate side of others.
"Enough of you!" Mo Lun on the periphery of the crowd desperately squeezed in, stretching out his hand to reach Sheng Xiao Xiao. He stood under the umbrella, unable to see his face under the black umbrella, and stood there quietly, as if he had grown on the land, like a plant, numb, not saying a word.
"You inhuman fellows! What monsters you are! ......" a childish roar came out of Merlen's mouth. How painful should it be now...... Merlen's hair was stuck to his face by the rain, and he was already soaked without an umbrella, panting heavily.
"Hurry! Shoot him! He is the young master of the Shangguan family! β
"The only son of the Shangguan family, who is good friends with the second young man of the Holy Family, came forward to speak for his friend and solve his worries, so may I ask Young Master Mo Lun, do you usually know anything about the Lady of the Holy Family? Do you think the crash was an accident or man-made? β
Surrounded by a group of hungry iron-faced media, the flashing lights kept flashing, and the tears of resentment in his eyes were carried away by the rain. "Please answer!" "Tell me what you think! β¦β¦β
"Enough is enough......" On the side, he made a hoarse voice under the umbrella. The attention of the media shifted back and they all looked at Sheng Xiao, who had been silent for a long time. He took the umbrella, and the black cloth arced in the air and finally fell back to him, and the raindrops that fell fell on his face. He walked out of the crowd with a blank face, blocking in front of him with a sharp umbrella tip, and facing the media who came to ask him one by one, the media did not dare to speak out, let alone step forward to confront Sheng Xiao who was holding a sharp umbrella, and naturally opened up a way. The tip of his blade had not yet been lowered, his hollow eyes were unfocused, and no matter who came forward, the spike would not hesitate to poke straight through.
Walking to Mo Lun's side, his footsteps did not stop, and his other hand stiffly grabbed him and pulled him out of the crowd, "Let's go." β
Mo Lun looked at the young man walking in front of him in a daze, no longer the saint Xiao he knew. His sleeves were wet against his skin, and cold droplets of water ran down his arms and fell on his hands, without temperature. He kept pulling himself to Shangguan Xun's side, "Go, find your mother." After he finished speaking, he turned around and put on the umbrella and walked away, the umbrella was meaningless to him who was already soaking wet.
"You wait! Do you want to go back alone......" Merren caught up with him, and he didn't stop.
"It's okay, someone is waiting for me-"
Looking at the lonely back in front of him, Merlun stopped panting in the rain.
On the lawn not far away sat a boy, who looked a few years older than Xiao Xiao, and in a few years he would grow into an adult, and a scar on his neck was eye-catching.
He looked solemnly at the expressionless Sheng Xiao coming over, his mouth opened slightly but he couldn't spit out a word, just open his arms, and it was best to give him warmth. Sheng Xiao bypassed him and walked towards the black car parked in the distance, "If you don't leave, I'll get in the car first." A hoarse voice came from under the umbrella.
In the car, he didn't say a word more. Just stared into the distance in a daze, his eyes were calm and infiltrating, his expression was calm and terrifying, and his snort was even. It's like there's no soul.
"Look at me!" The boy shook Sheng Xiaoxiao's body, "Look at me! You're crying! Cry! He turned his head and looked at him blankly.
"It's good if you cry...... Don't hold it back! But he didn't react at all, and even turned back to him and told him that he was fine.
He never shed a word again.
Wake up from your dreams! Yan Xiao gasped, this dream again...... A nightmare that haunted me for two years. Cover your head with your hands and calm your thoughts. It's so lonely, even if I sleep, I will only have those dreams endlessly, and the endless cycle over and over again is like falling into the abyss...... Is there any pain that can overshadow the loneliness at this moment?
At the same time, on the top floor of Shangguan's house, Cang wanted to listen to the words that came out of Mo Lun's mouth and was stunned, and listened to him talk about Lu Xiao's life experience and the death of his mother. She sat on Mellen's bed and listened to him talk about things she had never known, that she had never experienced. It is also something that I have always wanted to know from Sheng Xiao.
"Now you understand, don't you?"
Cang Yu stared at the glass window blankly, it seemed that he and I were the same kind of people. She choked in her throat, and he could get through this pain. Like me, he was lonely, hurt, and had a lot to do on his own. I think I'm getting more and more understanding. She looked up at the starry night sky, reaching out to touch it, wanting to get infinitely closer to him, to get closer to his heart.
I'm sorry, I've been misunderstanding you before, thinking that you are pretending to be cold, and that you are a stubborn child.
"Then what happened to him and Momo...... "Cang Yu's eyelashes flashed slightly, and his heart became more and more uneasy. She was a thief, and now, she felt that her liking for him was based on someone else's love. Moreover, that time, she lied to Momo. The night before I went to Mo Lun's house, Mo Mo called and wanted to ask Sheng Xiao if she had come back to look for her, but somehow I lied to her. Yes, I'm selfish...... Cang Xiang closed his eyes tightly. After she learned about her background, she felt more and more guilty about Momo.
She told Mellen what she had done.
"Could it be that if I tell Momo that Sheng Xiao has come back, Momo will not leave, and she will not go abroad to start her new life? Did I end their love? Cang Xu stared at Mo Lun's eyes tightly.
"No, it won't." He smiled lightly, "He didn't go back that time to get back together with Momo, he just wanted to take one last look at this place." Perhaps, it is a good thing that Momo did not meet him. He can finally get relief, in case he relents again, do you have to continue to play with Momo. He sighed. Mo Mo never knew that Sheng Xiao was lying to her, she thought that Sheng Xiao had liked herself a little bit, even though she had seen that she and him were not like a couple a long time ago, but she still kept lying to herself.
Cang wanted to exhale slowly, relieved a lot. She propped her chin and was thinking about something again, staring into Merlen's eyes and slowly speaking, "I want to hear the story of him and Momoma." Cang Xiang swallowed her saliva, she was actually very entangled, while not wanting to listen to their past love history, but on the other hand, she was extremely curious about them and extremely longing.
"What romantic love history can they have, it's just plain, it's just that a smile from Xiao Xiao can make Mo Mo happy for a long time." Merlen's eyes darkened as he spoke.
"That's it! You also know about them, so it's up to you to do it, come on and chase it! Mo Lun poked the weakness of Cang Desire.
Cang Xuan was not annoyed, she was still thinking about something, "Don't go slowly!" She grabbed Merlen's arm, "You still have something to say, do you?" β
Mo Lun hesitated for a second, he didn't finish speaking, "What?" I've told you the story of me and Momo, what else do you want. β
Mentioning this, Cang wanted to snicker in his heart, hey, infatuated Mo Lun, when he caught the photo of Momo in his room, he knew that there must be a story. turned his face and became serious again,
"Saint Xiao, is it ...... on your body What's the problem? β
As soon as the words came out, Mo Lun was stunned, and she ...... How to see it. Lai Xiao's old injuries have been well hidden, except for those close to him, no one notices, how can Cang Yu know.
"When I talked to him on the phone, I always felt like he was in the hospital...... Also, he was absent from school for three days and two ends, and I was not stupid. What the hell happened to him, what's wrong? Cang Yu kept dragging Mo Lun's arm and swaying from side to side, his expression full of pleading. Mo Lun secretly thought, you also have a time to ask me, and you will also care about people. I'm used to seeing her always half-good, and now it's really uncomfortable.
"He's been in a car accident." Merren let out a breath and finally told her.