I dragged my tired body back home, and on the sofa in the living room sat a haggard-faced, sickly white woman, who was my girlfriend Zhao Qian.

I knew that at this moment I had to make a decision.

Zhao Qian is a very gentle girl, I met her after my failed pursuit of Huangsha. I remember that it was a midsummer night, after being rejected by Huangsha, I bought a few cans of beer and came to the river to relieve my boredom, and when I arrived at the river, I found that more than a dozen cans had been lost on the ground, and Zhao Qian was already drunk and cried heartbreakingly.

Perhaps it was Zhao Qian's grief that touched my sensitive nerves, and at that moment, I really wanted to give her the happiest life in the world and protect her with my life. I didn't drink anymore, but carried Zhao Qian to the hotel.

Since then, we have been a role model among many classmates from friends to lovers, and after graduating from university, we also rented a house outside and lived together, but we did not expect that the role model in the eyes of our classmates would come to this point.

My mood is very lost and sad, I really want to keep Zhao Qian and give her the happiest life in the world, but Zhao Qian has suffered with me I know how much I know, I can't do anything at the moment, even my own life has become a serious problem, I have reached a dead end, now I can no longer give her a happy life, and it will hurt her to keep her by her side.

I'm afraid that Zhao Qian will be hurt, I just want her to live a happy life.

"We ...... Let's break up...... I hope that in the future, you can meet the man who is willing to protect you with his life. I plucked up the courage to speak up.

"Li Mingjun, we have been together for three years, do you really want to give up our relationship?" Zhao Qian turned her head and stared at me, I noticed that Zhao Qian's eyes were already red and swollen, probably because she had cried very sadly before.

Zhao Qian is actually a very good girl, she has shared weal and woe with me for three years, although our living expenses are not much, and we have not bought her a decent gift, but she has never complained, has been silently supporting me, telling me jokes when I am lost, silently accompanying me when I am sad, crazy with me, laughing with me, we have actually been very happy for three years.

After graduation, Zhao Qian also found a good job, and it didn't take long for her to get sick, her body was not as good as day by day, and her face was not as ruddy as before, and there was a sickly paleness. I know that Zhao Qian is working hard to earn more money to improve our lives.

I asked her if she was tired, and she kept saying that she wasn't tired and that she was happy. Hearing her answer, I was moved to tears, I secretly vowed to work hard to let Zhao Qian live a happy life. To be able to marry her would be the happiest person in the world.

And now, the happiness I once longed for, the goal of struggle, and the dream in my heart have long been shattered by the cruel life, and I can't give her happiness when we are together.

"Hehe, don't you know that all I want with you is your body? Now that I'm tired of your body, you better get out of here. "I said ruthless words against my will, at this moment I felt that I was really a beast, my heart was like a knife, I turned around and didn't let Zhao Qian see my expression, I think my expression must be strange to me at this moment. I didn't dare to look at her again, I was afraid that if I saw her again, I would be ruthless and leave her behind.

I know that no one in the world loves Zhao Qian more than me, no one wants to give him happiness more than me, and no one wants to protect her, care for her, and love her more than me......

But at this moment, I am so small, so insignificant in a huge city, lack of work experience, repeatedly make mistakes at work and then be fired, two months of resume to hundreds of companies are not willing to be admitted, my life has reached a dead end, even, I haven't eaten a day today, not that I don't want to eat, but I am already penniless.

It is precisely because of this that I am so eager to call my father today to borrow money, who knows that this time the loan completely detonated my father's fiery temper and broke up unhappily.

"Do you dare to say again that you don't love me?" Zhao Qian's red and swollen eyes stared at me, and tears had already burst out of her eyes.

"I've made it very clear, all I want with you is your body, I've never loved you, and now I'm tired of it, you get out of here, don't contact me in the future." I don't know how I felt when I said these words, but at this moment I felt as if my soul had been drained away, my body was empty, I felt as if I had fallen into the abyss, and the feeling of suffocation came over me.

"That's what you said, in that case, let's break up, but I'll tell you, you'll regret it!" Zhao Qian hid her face and ran into the room, slamming the door shut, I knew that she must be as sad as me at this moment.

I dragged my tired body to sit on the sofa, there are a few leftover lunches on the coffee table, since I broke up with Zhao Qian last night, she left, today called to make sure again, we made an appointment to meet at home, I know, she still wants me to change my mind, but I really can't do anything now, I can borrow money friends call all over again, now I know how unreliable friends are to drink and meat, after learning my intention to borrow money, one by one, some even asked directly, Can you afford to borrow your money?

At that time, I wanted to smash the phone, and my mood was extremely bad.

Breaking up with Zhao Qian is a last resort, she has been eating box lunches with me every day for the past two months, which has made her suffer, I can't be selfish and keep her by my side, perhaps, letting her go now is the best choice.

Soon, Zhao Qian dragged her suitcase out of the room, she stood in the living room and looked at me quietly, tears came out of her eyes, I know, she wanted me to keep her, but I didn't know what else I could give her, I silently turned my head to look out of the window, the rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier, the mood of sadness and parting came, I cried silently, at this moment I felt so helpless.

Zhao Qian is not in good health, she will definitely be seriously ill if she goes out in the rain at this moment, I really want to leave her and wait for the rain to stop before leaving, but I don't know how to face her, I am afraid that I will not be willing to leave her, which will only make her suffer with me.

I turned my head silently, Zhao Qian's figure had been lost in the room, the lightning and thunder outside, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, I lost my soul and looked for Zhao Qian in the room, I was afraid that she would be hurt, and I was afraid that she would go out in the rain and get seriously ill, at this moment I panicked, regretted it, and rushed downstairs desperately, and after I went downstairs, I saw Zhao Qian get on a Mercedes-Benz, and soon disappeared in the rain.

I stood in the middle of the rain in a daze, letting it hit me.

I have been dating Zhao Qian for three years, I know that she is a single-parent family, she has been dependent on her mother since she was a child, and the family conditions are not good, I know that she has suffered a lot since she was a child, I know all the friends around her, and there are no friends who can afford to drive a Mercedes-Benz.

"I hope that man truly loves you and can give you a happy life in the future...... I wish you happiness. I looked in the direction of the Mercedes and thought to myself.

I dragged my heavy steps back to the house, and before I sat down, the phone rang, and when I picked up the phone, there was a roar like a chartered woman killing a pig, "Li Mingjun, listen to the old lady, today is Friday, and I will come to collect the rent on Sunday, and if you can't pay it then, you will roll the old lady and get out......"

Putting down the phone, I sat on the sofa weakly, my blank eyes swept across the room, and I could faintly smell the residual aroma on Zhao Qian's body, as if I could still see Zhao Qian's figure.

"Heh, I haven't paid the rent for two months, it's really a disaster, I didn't expect my Li Mingjun to end up being swept away." The grief lingered, and I dragged my heavy steps to my room, found clean clothes, took a hot shower, lay down on the bed, and fell into a groggy sleep.