It was very late, I came home, and I didn't go to find a place to drink, I just went home alone. Lying in bed, memories come back slowly, if I had made a choice or been brave, then it should not be a memory now, but it is only maybe.

Pick up the phone and dial it, at least tell him that I'm home, or tomorrow I don't know what will come out of his circle of friends, because we have to have the same circle of friends, "Are you still drinking?" "It's been scattered a long time ago, are you going home?" "No doubt is going home." "No, brother! I doubt your ability to be a man now! "Damn, stinky boy, don't talk nonsense, I'm principled!" "Cut, you're now in remorse!" "Forget it, don't talk about me, I have to lie down." "Hey, hey, brother??????" Without waiting for him to finish, I hung up the phone decisively, and without saying much, I just went home.

After thinking about it, I called Li Jun again, "Did you sleep?" "No, what's wrong? Got something on your mind? "Alas, I didn't expect this at night, and it delayed your drinking." "Feng, what are you talking about, what are we polite? I just want to know what happened? "Well, what can it be? Send it home. "Oh, go home, go home, fine, where are you now?" "I'm at home, lying down." "Feng, let's go over the past, don't think about it, I guess you still can't let it go." "Oh, maybe a little, maybe not, I don't know!" You should find a partner in your current state, get married, and you should get married. "I can't find it, it's so easy to find!" "Yes, I'll study it for you, and you can wash and sleep." "Well, okay, go to sleep!"

Can the past be treated as the past? I don't know the answer, I can't pretend to be very free and easy, don't think about anything, what happened at night is like a pebble jumping into the memory, making countless ripples. I'm still not sure if this is the past or the present.

Tossing and turning, I thought of her again, this is my only spiritual sustenance now, and I gradually poured my energy and emotions into her, and it is also the only life-saving straw for me who drowned in the ocean of love, as for how the future will develop, who knows that!

"I miss you, this dark night, lifeless in the desolation. Close my eyes, it's your figure, I want to indulge in this dream, but reality wakes me up, because you are not by my side! After waiting for a while, she replied, "Is it a fever and confusion?" Don't sleep in the middle of the night? "She doesn't know I'm out drinking, so don't say it, I know it's not good, but there's a voice in my ear telling me that I can't say it, even though I hate it." I can't sleep, I miss you! "Hehe, what do you want to do?" Send a picture, I want to see you! "No, I'm sleeping and turning off the lights, the effect is not good, tomorrow!" "Let's have one." I added another pleading emoji, maybe she will be moved by compassion, come to a picture ah turn off the light and go to sleep, it should have a good effect, I thought stupidly. "Wait!" There's a play! After a while, the photo came, I looked at it, it was different from what I imagined, this is a photo of her in KTV, not taken now, it should be stored in the mobile phone after the photo. "Beautiful! But it's not now, if you come now! "It's annoying, everyone is sleeping in bed, give you one and pick it up, hurry up and go to bed, don't you have to go to work tomorrow?" "Hehe, this one is good, sleep, and then miss you!" "Well, good night, remember not to think about others!" "Well, well, sleep well! Thinking of you! "I know it's not good, I shouldn't have cheated on her, but sometimes I still can't hold it because I'm not sure what will happen in the future, at least now I don't want to lose her!

The night passed like this, and I set off after breakfast. Today's weather is not as good as expected, a little haze, as soon as the heating season arrives, the days are basically like this. A meeting was held in the morning, basically emphasizing that the end of the year should be checked, and everyone should hurry up with the work at hand, so that they could not write anything in the work report at the end of the year.

During the meeting, Xiao Jiang sent me a text message, saying that she wanted to come out for a meal at noon, and I told her that there was a meeting and I would reply to her later. I was conflicted when I received the text message, to go or not to go there, this is a question worth thinking about, think about it or go, she should still have something to say.

I made an appointment with the location, and I drove straight over at noon. This is a small western restaurant, on the outside is the store room, but the decoration is very chic, the high frame of the room let the boss separated the second floor, there are not many people in the house, we chose a second floor by the inside of the position to do a good job, here can see the street scenery, and outside and downstairs can not see this, think this is a safe location. Why choose a safe location that? Who knows, maybe I shouldn't have come out for this meal. Her makeup today is very light, but it is difficult to hide her beauty, wearing a light blue coat, which is my favorite color, but the heel is a little high, a bit like a professional woman, presumably carefully dressed.

I ordered a few dishes and I knew she liked fruit salad, so I told the waitress to put less salad and borrow a flavor, she still likes to eat fruit. She smiled and watched me order, just waiting, just like she had back then.

I asked her, "How did you come to dinner at noon?" She pouted, "Isn't it okay to have a meal with you?" "Okay, why not, what else do you want to eat?" "Almost, you've ordered quite a bit." "You've got to be full, you see you're so thin that the wind blows away!" "I'm not thin!" At this time, the dishes began to come up one by one, and I said, "Let's go, you're welcome, what you like is ordering." "Yes, okay!" After eating like this for a while, she suddenly said to me very solemnly, "Feng, thank you yesterday." I put down the knife and fork in my hand, and looked up at her inexplicably, this expression is hard for me not to think, "Why thank you?" Besides, do we need to be so polite? Poof, she was happy, and I was getting more and more inexplicable, "Really, I still can't pretend to be serious in front of you!" "Alas, you scare me, it's cold and hot for a while, and my heart doesn't know what to do!" "Hmph, you still have a bad heart, I don't know if it's someone's inexplicable excitement when riding a roller coaster!" "Hehe, it's also about exercising." "Well, I really want to thank you, if you hadn't sent me home last night, I don't know what would have happened, I'm really broken." "Sister, I still want to ask you, where did you go last night? Why do you come out alone to drink so much! ”

"Why? It's not because of you! "Now it's my turn, what's going on? What's wrong with me! Looking at my surprised expression, she was happy to "tease you, look at your stupidity!" "But you have to be clear, I'm blindfolded!" "Actually, it's really your business, we quarreled, I was in a bad mood and came out to drink, but I didn't expect to meet you, what a coincidence!" She lowered her head, played with the fork with one hand, and said yesterday's events in a weak voice, it turned out that his husband happened to see a photo of the two of us, and then he tore up the photo with vinegar, and asked her what was going on, when was it taken, and who was the man in the photo? And when she found out, she had a big fight, and said that she would look for me at night, but what she didn't expect was that she really found me. Fate? Surprise it!

Actually, it's all understandable, and I don't want my daughter-in-law to keep photos with other men, not to mention that there are really stories between them. But when he went back last night, his husband cried bitterly, knelt on the washboard, and did a full set of housework, absolutely truly reflected and admitted his mistakes, and vowed to respect her well in the future, so everything is still the same! I think the two of them still have a relationship.

"Oh, that's understandable, the seniors did the right thing, if I had to do it too." "Senior, what senior, it's just a vinegar jar!" "Hehe, man, prove that he still loves you very much!" "Feng, actually, I'm thinking what would have happened if you hadn't been so ruthless and didn't want me at the beginning!" After I heard this, I really couldn't sit still, I was stunned, what do you call me ruthless, obviously you said that you are going to get married, okay! "Let's still talk about it, let's talk about it, it's clear that you have a partner first, okay!" She looked at me and smiled, "You're still so stupid, but it's not cute anymore!" "Well, what's going on? Yours make it clear! "What to say, I said it clearly." I was shocked, could it be that she lied to me in the first place, yes or no! She sighed and looked at me, "It's all gone, isn't it, I'm fine now, and I hope you're okay too!" I nodded silently, yes, it's all gone, isn't it? I also hope that she is well, as I can see, she is also really good, isn't she?

For dinner, she didn't let me go to see him off, and we also wanted to be old friends, blessing each other, this time we can hug, if we let go, what is there to worry about. She told me that I really should be looking for someone, and I laughed and told her I would. I watched her go, looking at the once familiar back, and I knew that the past should go with the wind, and sometimes it's a good choice to forget, because it's also good.

In the past years, we were still young, and that ignorant love also occupied my heart. Now everything is flat, but there is a faint joy, and letting go is also a relief, because the struggle is still a quagmire in the end, and it is better to meet the new dawn freely. It dawned on me that I was now really thinking about her - the angel in my heart.