The travel matter is decided in this way, and everyone is busy preparing the travel items after work. Sun Hao would come back every night with a large pile of belongings, and Lu Xue would sort them out. I could only let out a helpless sigh as I watched them go about their busy work with a vague sense of anticipation, and it was hard to understand why they were so anxious about a journey with a clear purpose, which could only fatigue the body and not calm the mind.

I asked them this question, and Lu Xue didn't answer me directly, just smiled at me, the focus in her eyes slowly dissipated, and whispered that she was looking forward to it, it felt like she was looking forward to her future. And Sun Hao's answer was as cynical as ever, he asked me with a wicked smile, have I been to that place? I've never been there, and I don't want to. In fact, everyone, like me, doesn't know why you want to travel, maybe it's just for, you've been there, you've been there, you've been here.

The night before we left, I went to see Xiao Shuai, originally Sun Hao was going to go with me, but that night Zhang Hui prepared some things, and Sun Hao had to go and pull back the items to tidy up.

I met Xiaoshuai in a small restaurant that we used to go to when we used to go to school, the restaurant was small and the environment was not elegant, but a few very characteristic home-cooked dishes made many customers linger. The layout of the restaurant is very simple, there are a few old and simple tables and chairs in the small space, and a row of mirrors are inlaid on the yellowed walls with the edge of the table. At first, the store was rarely visited by students because of its decoration, but since a story has been circulating here, it has become popular.

That happened when I was a freshman in college, and the store had just opened. Legend has it that one day at noon, two girls came here to eat, and after the two sat down, one of the girls found that there was a boy at the next table looking at her female companion without blinking, and her female companion may not have stopped because of shyness, or maybe for other reasons, she found that her female companion was staring blankly in the mirror. After the two finished eating, on the way back, she asked her female companion why she didn't stop it, and the female companion sighed faintly and said that people always hesitate because they are afraid of failure, and then they will regret and blame themselves. He didn't know that I was looking at his reflection in the mirror all the time.

I don't know what happened to the story, and many people wanted to know the ending, but the story came to an abrupt end here, and no one knew the end of the story, and many people would talk about it in passing when they were talking about the story with interest, so it started to become popular. Everyone comes here not only for a few side dishes from the owner, but also for the hope of seeing the reflection of the person they like, or their own reflection.

When I arrived at the store, Xiaoshuai had already arrived first, probably seeing that I hadn't arrived yet, so he ordered a few side dishes, a few bottles of beer, and was pouring himself a drink. I sat across from Xiao Shuai's table, he picked up the wine glass, filled it, handed it to me, I took the wine glass and touched it with him, and drank it all. We put down our glasses and looked at each other, not knowing where to start for a moment.

"You're here." In the end, it was Xiaoshuai who broke the deadlock, he looked at me, and as if he didn't look at me, and said lightly.

I nodded, in response.

The shop is still the same as before, with the same dilapidated tables and chairs, the same owner's craftsmanship, and the mirrors that line the edges of the table, and the old wall clock that clicks on the opposite side. Maybe it's only the people at the table.

"What have you been up to lately?" I asked.

"Play." He replied.

"What to play?"

"Stimulus."

"Your parents don't object?"

"I've listened to them give up one thing, and that's enough." Xiaoshuai looked at me and laughed at me.

"Someone is worried about you." I said.

"You're here to teach today?"

I nodded.

Xiao Shuai took a sip of wine, looked at me, curled the corners of his mouth and said, "Oh, then tell me about my current state, what is this called in your words?" ”

I looked at him, and then at the reflection of the pendulum in the mirror, "Pendulum." I replied.

The higher the initial position of a pendulum, the higher it will be able to reach the opposite position after passing the lowest point. When a person is absolutely hit in one thing, then he will pay more in another and be more paranoid, in the expectation of more rewards and attention. I thought.

"Constant swaying, wandering?" Xiao Shuai still curled the corners of his mouth, as if he was saying something interesting that had nothing to do with him.

I shook my head slightly.

"Xiaoshan, you're not a very good preacher." Xiao Shuai smiled, picked up the wine glass and gestured to me.

"Guan Ling went to our party." I said.

"I know, she shouldn't go, messy girl."

I picked up my glass, saluted him back, and took a slow sip.

"Then why did the girl do this?" He seemed to be asking himself and me.

"Pendulum." I said.

The more resources a person gets in life, the more he gives, and the greater the impact on the state of affairs, good or bad.

"I've known her since I was a child, but I don't know why I just don't like her, why do you say that?"

I looked at Xiao Shuai and then at the swinging pendulum in the mirror, and said lightly, "Pendulum." ”

If a person gives absolute affection to another person, it is difficult for him to give a corresponding degree of affection to others, just like first love. I thought to myself.

"Not only are you not a good preacher, but you're also a terrible drinker." Xiao Shuai chuckled.

"Don't talk about me, let's talk about you, Xiaoshan, I haven't seen you laugh since I met you, how long have you not laughed?" He asked, squinting at me with interest.

"I've laughed." I replied.

"No, it's not the laughter of the other party, it's your real heartfelt laughter."

"Why are you laughing?"

"It's not why, I've heard people say that a person who can't laugh can't cry."

"I forgot how to laugh." I shook my head slightly, looking at myself in the mirror and the swinging pendulum.

Pendulum, if a person has a major change in a certain period of time and suffers serious emotional suffering, then he will use some means to make himself no longer have the same emotional reaction to other things and become numb, which is a protective mechanism of people. But when a person reduces the intensity of his reaction in one emotion, he will have the same reduction in all other emotions. If the so-called negative emotions are reduced, the positive emotions will also be reduced, just like the pendulum, if the amplitude of the pendulum is reduced to one side, the amplitude of the pendulum to the other side is also reduced. I understand the reasoning, but I can't go back.

"I can't go back." I said softly.

Xiao Shuai nodded lightly and repeated the same, "I can't go back." ”

"Don't talk about unhappy things," Xiao Shuai sighed and said, "I know you're worried about me, don't worry, I won't play when I've had enough, it's okay." It's you, Xiaoshan, you won't notice it, will you? ”

"What?"

"Luxue, she likes you." Xiao Shuai looked at me seriously and said.

"I know." I didn't look at him, I just looked at myself in the mirror and the pendulum that kept swinging.

"Don't miss it, I'll feel sorry for you if you miss it." Xiao Shuai smiled and said softly, with a hint of regret and expectation in his voice.

The pendulum in the mirror is swaying and lingering, just like the little handsome now, just like now