September, it seems, always occupies an important place throughout the year. September means the Mid-Autumn Festival, it means a good harvest, it means that the earth will turn to the other side of the sun, and it also means that I will be seriously ill.

I don't know when I have had a very bad cold every September, and no matter how much I take injections and medicine, it will not improve. I remember an illness when I was in college, Sun Hao and they took me to a small clinic on the street for treatment, but after the doctor tossed for a while, he suggested that I go to a big hospital with a shocked face, as if to say, I tried my best, and I really couldn't be helped. Speaking of that time, I am really grateful to the few of them, I am grateful that they did not listen to the doctor's advice and left me on the side of the road, but unanimously approved my request and carried me back to the dormitory and back to the bed.

The symptoms of each episode were very similar to those of a cold, with a persistent high fever, fatigue and drowsiness. But the effect of drug treatment on it is minimal, Sun Hao said that I am a freak, Xiaoshuai is at a loss, Zhang Hui pondered and said that it was just a cold during the change of seasons plus my strong psychological defense resisted the effect of the drug, the doctor said that it may be a genetic disease accompanied by cycle and sexual latentity, and long-term treatment may cause great harm to the body, but I think that it is just the revolution of the earth to the other side of the sun, the body's self-adjustment caused by the transformation of the sun's magnetic field, as long as it takes a while, As the body adapts to the new magnetic field, the body functions will work again in earnest. Everyone scoffed at my statement and was extremely disdainful.

At that time, Sun Hao and the others would prepare plenty of food and quickly stay away from it for a few days to avoid the unknown virus that might exist in the room and emanate from my body. People are always afraid of the unknown. I prefer to be quiet rather than someone else's clueless concern, and lying alone in a quiet room will make me relax and sleep peacefully, as long as I lie still like this for a day or two, my body will recover again.

Regarding the cyclical phenomenon of my sudden onset and sudden recovery, Xiaoshuai once asked the doctor, and the doctor's answer was that his own body mechanism suppressed the spread of the virus, so that the virus was latent again, and it would break out in full force when the time was right, and he might not be very lucky next time. He still advised me to go to a big hospital for a full set of tests to find out the real cause. Regarding Xiaoshuai's worries, Zhang Hui said, it's just an ordinary seasonal cold, but I am more accustomed to a regular life, so the onset of the disease is also unnaturally fixed. And I still believe in my magnetic field theory. Regarding our argument, Sun Hao still used the same sentence to evaluate, he said, I am such a freak.

"You're such a freak." Wang Huan said.

This is her opinion on how I keep drinking boiled water to fight colds.

"I don't have a cold." I said.

Wang Huan gave me a blank look, and continued to scan the goods on the Internet with twelve points of energy, in her words, "second kill". I don't understand,Why is it a word on the online game but it has become a trading term,Wang Huan's explanation is,If you want to get something in someone else's hands, the best way is to wait for him to be anxious,Hesitant to prepare to put a position,So that you can buy more things,What you have to do is to concentrate,Attack quickly,One hit,This is not a "second kill"What is it? I was puzzled by her statement, "spikes" seem to be very similar to wild animal predation, both of which are about using all their strength to obtain resources, but wild animals will show rapid physical weakness after attacking, which also limits the number of times they can attack each time. I don't understand why Wang Huan likes the act of "seckill" instead of making himself stronger? Wouldn't this be more able to alleviate the rapid fatigue after the "flash sale"? In the face of my question, she unexpectedly rolled back my eyes.

"Don't you eat? Hill. Aunt Liu looked at the lunch box I didn't open and asked.

"He's sick." Wang Huan replied angrily. "Aunt Liu, have you ever seen a cold that can be cured by drinking boiling water?"

"I'm not cold, I'm just sneezing." I sneezed.

Aunt Liu looked at me strangely, and said with concern, "You better go buy some medicine, I think you are really sick." ”

"I'm fine, I'm just sneezing."

"Are you sick?" Suddenly, a girl's roar came from the Internet café.

We followed the sound and it was a girl, very delicate, who was wearing a headset and yelling at the screen.

Aunt Liu looked at me suspiciously, and then looked at Wang Huan.

"Let's go online dating." Wang Huan whispered.

"I said you're not the type I like, stop, stop, don't say before, I don't like you now, you understand?" The girl said again.

"Another poor child." Aunt Liu looked regretful.

"What is pitiful about that man, if he doesn't like it, he will break up." Wang Huan was unimpressed.

"I'm talking about that girl, if you let others know, how will you marry in the future." Aunt Liu shook her head helplessly.

"Cut, what's there, men don't have it, if you don't like it, change it."

"Hey, young people nowadays, they don't know what they want." Aunt Liu sighed.

"Of course we know what we want, and no one knows what we want better than ourselves." Wang Huan still looked unimpressed.

"There are many kinds of needs, and it's not a sneeze." I sneezed again.

"All I need now is that you don't pass on the cold to me." Wang Huan lost another eye.

"That's your warning of danger in real life, the so-called chromophobia, seeking advantage and avoiding harm is a human instinct, everyone hopes to live a better life, more superior, this is also a life instinct. However, human beings are social creatures and have a social nature, and people often hope to be appreciated and recognized by others, which can also be understood as a kind of social morality. In life, people often choose between these two states, but they are different in the network. I said.

"What's the difference?"

"When people face computers, people will subconsciously reduce their biological instincts to a minimum, because computers cannot bring people instinctive enjoyment and harm, so people's defensive and aggressive will be dormant, and at the same time, the morality of society will be maximized, and everyone will show the most perfect self, and expect to be appreciated and recognized by others."

"What's wrong with that? Who doesn't like the appreciation and recognition of others. Wang Huan said.

"The problem is not this sneeze" I sneezed again, shook my head and asked, "Did you do anything bad in your dream?". ”

"Dreaming? When I dreamed, I didn't seem to have done anything bad. ”

"Dreaming does not require the participation of biological instincts, so in dreams it is not necessary to do bad things spontaneously, and even under the premise that the bodily functions are oppressed, there will be no intrusive things on the grounds of satisfying biological instincts. The self in the dream will always show the most perfect posture, no matter what kind of thing you do. After waking up from a dream, will people agree with their choices in the dream? No, but not either. Mentally, that's just an incomplete understanding of things. ”

"I don't understand, but what does this have to do with the Internet." Wang Huan continued to ask.

"There are similarities between the Internet and dreams, they do not need the participation of biological instincts, so they will also cause an incomplete perception of things, and what is manifested without the participation of biological instincts is not really a complete self, that self is just to be appreciated and recognized by others, in order to show a more perfect self, even if there is controversy and abuse, it is for this purpose. Both parties in online dating have shown their perfect selves, which is why people easily identify with each other and fall in love, but in reality, after the two meet, most of them will end in a breakup, the reason is that the long-suppressed biological instinct has found an outlet, and the power that erupts causes social morality to crash instantly. The suppressive victory of biological instinct causes the previous perception of the other party to be reversed in an instant. ”

"Does that mean that the person we look for online isn't necessarily the person we're really looking for?" Wang Huan asked suspiciously.

I shook my head and sneezed again, "No, it's not on the Internet, it's completely idealistic, and it can be understood as a good wish." Sigmund Freud said that dreams are the fulfillment of wishes, and the Internet has the same effect. It's just that it's a bit cruel to say, and only a few people know how to integrate ideals into reality. In fact, we should not ask whether this method is right or wrong, but why people need this way to achieve an illusory wish, maybe it is only because it is difficult for people to achieve a real wish in reality. ”

"No one thinks that their opposite choice is wrong, for them, they are just trying to achieve a good wish, that's all." I said again.

"Today's children are really, they would rather have online dating than have a real love in reality, I really don't know how they face life." Aunt Liu shook her head and said.

"It's good that I'm not dating online." Wang Huan was fortunate and continued to scroll through the webpage.

"Everyone will be in online dating, and everyone is more or less living in their own virtual world."

"Don't you think you're sick?" Wang Huan fanned the air in front of him vigorously and said disdainfully.

"I'm fine, I'm just sneezing."

Wang Huan looked at me helplessly and shook his head. I took out the phone again, and I don't know who I called.

Aunt Liu also shook her head and continued to go to her work, while I was still sitting on the chair and drinking boiled water, which cured all diseases. The delicate girl's expression seemed to be much better, and she was whispering and laughing at the screen, I don't know if she was facing the same person. There are times in life when it is really helpless and boring. I slowly closed my eyes and let myself relax as much as possible to ease the symptoms.

"Brother Xiaoshan, what's wrong with you?" Suddenly, I heard Lu Xue's panicked cry behind me, I opened my eyes suddenly, and looked back, only to see Lu Xue walking towards me quickly, and behind her was Sun Hao, whose expression was a little stiff.

"Why are you here?" I asked, sniffling.

"I was afraid that you would die here, so I called him." Wang Huan said angrily.

Lu Xue turned her head to stare at Wang Huan, then turned back and asked eagerly, "Brother Xiaoshan, what's wrong with you?" ”

I looked at her and whispered, "It's okay, every autumn when the body self-regulates itself." ”

Lu Xue hurriedly reached out and touched my forehead, I wanted to dodge, but my body in high fever was always a step slower.

"It's so hot and it's okay? Brother, take Brother Xiaoshan to the hospital! ”

"It's okay, I'm just sneezing."

"The doctor can't treat the freak, so let him go back and lie down." Sun Hao shrugged.

I shook my head, "There are only two people in one class, I go back, and Wang Huan will be left alone that night, and the risk factor will increase." ”

"What about you? If you work in your current state, will your risk factor increase? Lu Xue yelled violently, and then quickly turned her head away.

"You better go back, I'll be here for you on duty." Sun Hao said helplessly.

Wang Huan glanced at Sun Hao, "Do you know how to repair computers?" ”

"No, it won't." Sun Hao pouted.

"Won't? What class will you work for? Get out of here, I'm annoyed when I see you. ”

Sun Hao looked at me with an ugly face, patted me on the shoulder, and forcibly helped me up, "Brother, you better go back, I am here." ”

I looked at Sun Hao meaningfully and nodded.

"Brother Xiaoshan, I'll accompany you to the hospital." Lu Xue said eagerly, reaching out to help me, but I hurriedly dodged.

"It's okay, just go back and lie down for a while." I said.

Lu Xue withdrew her hand unnaturally and looked at Sun Hao beggingly.

Sun Hao shrugged and said with a smile: "The hospital doesn't treat freaks, he will be fine if he goes back to lie down for a day or two." ”

"Brother, can you be serious?" Luxue seems to be really anxious.

"He? Serious about him? Sun Hao patted me on the shoulder, "Brother, you have to live seriously, because we have to die for a long time." ”

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I wanted to rest quietly after returning to the apartment, but Luxue was busy in front of and behind me, and I wanted to tell her that it would be good for me to lie quietly alone, but seeing her panicked eyes, I couldn't say anything. I slowly closed my eyes and fell asleep in a daze. In the past, I had to plug in the door when I was sleeping, and sometimes the very light footsteps in the corridor would wake me up, especially when the disease occurred, the nerves were extremely sensitive, even if there was no one in the room, I was half asleep, but this time I was really asleep, very peaceful, very down-to-earth, very reassuring.