Coming out of the hospital, Mei Ying's face was pale, as if she had just watched a thriller, and she didn't know what she was talking about, her hands and feet trembled without rhythm, although she tried her best to hide it, but her steps were still a little staggering, like a drunk person, although her steps were vain and dizzy, but she muttered "I'm not drunk, I'm not drunk."

She did her best not to let herself fall, and last night's suspicion was confirmed, but she didn't want to believe it. She felt that the doctor's handwriting was like a book from heaven, and even if she couldn't read it, she had to believe that it was an excellent handwriting. She didn't dare to doubt the doctor, she didn't even have the courage to look up, and at that moment, she was like a prisoner in a prison, receiving the contemptuous eyes and endless interrogations of the prison guards. She is more like a fool, and she still honestly says that she is a student, and she can't just fill in the list as married, it turns out that it is so difficult to lie.

It's really a bit confusing, this is the biggest incident she has encountered in more than ten years, and she still lacks the ability to solve it. She felt like a kite in the spring, broken by a sudden wind, and fell on the branches, powerless to ascend to the heavens, and to go down to the ground, and just like that, fluttering and trembling, a thunderstorm was enough to leave her bones.

But after more than an hour, Mei Ying felt that she had changed from eighteen to twenty-eight years old, and this sudden increase of ten years made her look very haggard. She was much fatter than when she first entered college, and the straight bangs that had been styling with hairspray and gel water forcibly added to the sense of maturity she had been longing for, but the confused eyes betrayed her again, and let her ignorant immaturity blow to the ground. Since she was a child, she has never experienced what it is like to have long hair to the waist, forever short hair, and never the same denim outfit. But today, her short hair didn't make her vibrant, and the denim clothes only wilted around her plump body, so as not to expose too much fat all over her body. She is not tall, and she is less than 1.6 meters in high heels. The heavy upper body made her weak and slender legs a little shaky, and due to gluttony, as she gained weight, she looked more like a middle-aged woman who had passed and stood and was bloated.

Mei Ying walked slowly towards the school, her steps were staggering and a little stagnant, the April day was very pleasant, the sun was very close to her, the sky in the mountains was so pure that there was no trace of dust, she put her hand in her trouser pocket, the left side contained the pills prescribed to her by the doctor for a day, her right hand seemed to have some cold sweat constantly oozing, she clutched the diagnosis certificate tightly, as if as soon as her hand was loosened, this thin piece of paper would fly away, and be picked up by a passerby, or by a very attentive alumnus, then everyone would know her name, It will be known that she is pregnant, and that she is still five months pregnant, and her upcoming abortion is undoubtedly the biggest scandal in the school. She should be ordered to drop out of school, what awaits her will be her father's whip and her mother's painful reprimand, she will have to accept the contemptuous eyes of the teachers and students of the whole school, even the handsome boy she has always had a crush on will spit on her, and she will never be able to look at him from afar in the future, and she will no longer be able to find all kinds of excuses to talk to him. Mei Ying felt that she was about to go crazy, her mental state had always been very good, but at this moment, she was really about to collapse.

Such a clear and beautiful day was pleasant for anyone, but she suddenly hated the blue sky and the warm sun, and she hated the halos of light, which were full of ridicule and ridicule, and the warm sunshine of April made her dare not look directly. She only felt the cold, the coldness of the skull was slowly moving up from the soles of her feet, she was frozen, she didn't have the strength or the courage to go back to the campus.

In April, the wind and the sun are warm, the grass is green and the sand is soft, it is a good time to go green. Mei Ying sat on a stone on the side of the road dejectedly, she didn't have the heart to appreciate this full spring, in front of the main entrance of the school, you can see the huge plaque of Southwest University in the distance, she walked in from there happily last year, and she has left her youthful figure and smile there many times, and now, she is sick when she thinks of those photos, and wants to tear them apart and scatter into the wind. All the good and painful things she had suffered in the past eighteen years would end here, she didn't want to think about the days to come, she had a strong premonition in her heart, she had no future, her girlhood was over forever, a cone pain made her chagrined, she had not really tasted the taste of love and was deprived of the right to love, and no boy would like her anymore, because her unclean body would make them feel ashamed.

Mei Ying stood up in a trance, it is useless to think more, the most important thing at present is to solve the burden in her abdomen, she has some doubts about whether she is a woman, she has not come to her period for five months and did not notice the abnormality, a while ago she also participated in the 800-meter race of the school Spring Games, in addition to being more and more able to eat, the longer she grows fatter, she does not even have symptoms of nausea and vomiting, if it weren't for the fact that she skipped class and returned to the dormitory yesterday and forgot to bring the key and had to climb through the window and fall, the pain in the night reminded her of this Yan Jun problem, she suddenly realized that she seemed to be pregnant, and she always felt that her pants were too tight recently, and she still laughed at herself and gained weight again. However, she was glad that she didn't tell anyone, not even the best Sister Dan.

Walking all the way, thinking, unconsciously went around to the "famous mountain in the world", and then went up is a path leading to her dormitory, there are many tourists, the narrow road is full of vendors selling souvenirs, and the rows of small restaurants that are smoking, the whole path is filled with restaurants, inns soliciting customers, the vendors are full of efforts to sell their own things, the sound of bargaining is endless, Mei Ying feels that she is about to suffocate, she finds the world too noisy for the first time. This trail was originally paved with mountain roads, and the more she walked, the more tired she became, she struggled to support her heavy body, and for a while she felt sick to her stomach, she began to hate everything she had ever eaten, and she clutched her chest as hard as she could, she didn't want to have a seizure here, and when a person did something wrong, it seemed that the eyes around her were looking at her. Her heart was full of shame, and she even wanted to climb the cliff that could not be seen, and when she jumped, her heavy body disappeared in an instant, leaving only a light soul, all her troubles were gone, all her worries were gone, and she would melt into the beautiful mountains.

A chime sounded, Qingyue's bell pulled Mei Ying back from the vast sea of clouds of the cliff, and she began to cherish this mortal fetus again, whether the legendary martyr has become an immortal She doesn't know, but the solemn temple in front of her doesn't seem to allow her to despise her life.

Baoguo Temple is the closest temple to her school, surrounded by red bricks, Nan tree covers the sky, she often goes to wander around, Mount Emei is the dojo of Fuxian Bodhisattva, the Buddha is in front of her eyes, but she never worships, although there is also the idea of compassion, but there is no quiet heart. I remember last winter and Sister Dan climbed on this red wall to steal plums, and were scolded by the monks in the temple for a while, and she and Sister Dan also said a lot of disrespectful words, and now I think this is probably retribution. There is a lot of incense here, but the curling fireworks never burn into her heart. Mei Ying doesn't believe in Buddhism, she feels that she will never be able to cultivate the mind of a Buddha, it can be said to be accurate that she doesn't have any faith, she doesn't know what to believe, and now she doesn't even believe in herself. The frequent sound of bells echoed in the mountains and forests, startling the birds in the forest and waking up the chaotic thoughts of Mei Ying.

She couldn't delay any longer, she had to speed up her pace and go to Sister Dan to discuss how to solve the expensive surgery fee for her, in this school, except for Sister Dan, she didn't trust anyone and didn't dare to tell anyone. She has no time, there are still more than two months to go before the summer vacation, she can't go home with a big belly, and she must finish it as soon as possible.

The afternoon trail is full of students from their school, and the trail is known as the "Lover's Path", and is lined with dense bushes that are evergreen all year round. In the spring, some nameless flowers emerge, white, pink, yellow, purple, like a feast prepared by nature, all kinds of exquisite dishes and mellow wines, waiting for couples in full costume to taste.

No matter day or night, you can see people in love everywhere, and she has also walked hand in hand with boys here, and she is quite familiar with every grass and tree here. This is the only way back to the dormitory, seeing a couple flirting and resentful, she deliberately coughed loudly, raised the voice of high heels to a higher tone, and saw a couple kissing as if no one was around, she finally couldn't help it, "In broad daylight, Lang Lang Qiankun, you are doing something bad here." After speaking, she spat on the ground, but she didn't pay attention to her at all, continued to be affectionate, and continued to be reluctant.

"It's good to make your belly bigger one day, huh!" Mei Ying walked to herself, passing through a bamboo forest, and the panda pavilion was in front of her. She didn't know why they called their girls' dormitory the Panda Pavilion, but it was speculated that it might be because of the bamboo forest around the dormitory, or because there were more wolves and less meat in the school, so they girls were precious.

Just about to go into the dormitory to change her shoes and go to find Sister Dan, she saw a red shadow in front of her, and Sister Dan was standing in front of her with a water bottle. Mei Ying felt that this red shadow was extremely brilliant at this moment, just like a person who had been sentenced to capital punishment was told that it had been changed to indefinitely, and secretly breathed a sigh of relief in her heart, and grabbed Sister Dan and walked to the root of the wall.

"Shadow, what's wrong with this? Look at you panting, where did you go, I didn't see you when I went to dinner with you just now, what happened, the people in your dormitory said that you went out early in the morning, it wouldn't be that you went out with that person again, right? Sister Dan said a lot, she is always so popular, she is really a typical Chongqing girl, so spicy that it makes people breathless.

"Sister Dan, help me, only you can help me, I don't know who to go to, let alone tell my parents." Mei Ying cried as she spoke, and she fell helplessly into the corner.

"Shadow, what the hell is going on, it's okay, you say, no matter how difficult it is, I will help you." Sister Dan's eyes flashed with determination, and her round face was full of questions and love.

"Sister, I'm pregnant." Mei Ying said tremblingly. Sister Dan was stunned for a moment, and the air seemed to freeze at this moment.

"Let's go, let's go over there and say, there are people up and down here, in case someone listens, do you want to study in the future." After all, she was still three years older than Mei Ying, and Sister Dan immediately realized the seriousness of the problem. They walked briskly all the way to an open place.

"Shadow, it's useless to say anything now, hurry up and go to the hospital to dispose of it, or what will you do in the future? You're still studying. That's it, I'll accompany you early tomorrow morning, do you need money, don't worry, I'll figure it out. Mei Ying choked up a little in her heart, if it was in ancient times, Sister Dan must have been a chivalrous woman who helped the world, she spoke very crisply, and always hit the nail on the head.

"Sister, I'm five months pregnant, and I can only do labor induction, which is a bit much." Mei Ying finished speaking, looking at Sister Dan with anxiety.

"My God, five months? Why didn't I see it, don't you even know it yourself? What a sin this is, tell me, is it a good thing that Qi Yuanhui did, the old lady has long seen him unpleasantly, and he is a playboy at first glance, saying how many times you don't listen, and saying that he has a temperament, I see, he doesn't even have a fart, he has such long hair, and sings? Really. Sister Dan was a little angry, and rolled up her sleeves angrily as if she really wanted to fight with Qi Yuanhui, but her eyes were clearly filled with pity for Mei Ying.

"I don't have to go to him, he has ignored me for the past two months, he should have a new love. I didn't bother to tell him this, I was angry with myself for nothing, this kind of man only makes me sick now. Mei Ying suddenly didn't want to cry, she felt that she was mature, and she would not be carried away by love from now on.

Sometimes, a firm word will indeed inject energy into the body, make a vague state clear, and make some uncertain factors clear, Mei Ying is like this at this time, she said that Qi Yuanhui is disgusting, then he must be disgusting, a failed love should make her grow gradually, her so-called love, only love, no love.

"Shadow, do whatever you say, I don't want to see that rotten person, I get angry when I see it. In this way, you go back to the dormitory to rest first, look at your face is pale, I will go to Cao Bin to get some money at night, he doesn't dare to disobey me, rest assured to go to sleep for a while, let's go to the hospital early tomorrow morning. ”

Looking at Sister Dan's distant back, Mei Ying felt that many words of gratitude were pale and weak, she told herself in her heart that men are the most unreliable species in the world, they despise feelings, they just want to taste the fragrance of meat emanating from a woman's body, and she is undoubtedly a martyr on the road of love pursuit, and her sacrifice is extremely tragic.