Back in the dormitory, Mei Ying took off her shoes and fell to the bed, and Wang Yanling, who slept on her top bunk, was holding a book and preparing to go to class.

"Mei Ying, what's wrong? Look at your pale face, are you sick? Yan Ling still asked her with concern, although there was not much friendship between them.

"It's okay, I may be tired after going to the county town in the morning, just lie down for a while." Mei Ying replied weakly.

"Why, aren't you going to go to class in the afternoon? I see you, you can count the classes you have taken on your fingers. Then you go to sleep, and I'll answer it for you when it's a little while. Yan Ling said as she walked out the door. This girl from Chengdu like her, is lively and cheerful, with a delicate appearance, and her parents are both cadres, and the sense of superiority she exudes makes Mei Ying dislike it very much, but for the sake of every day, she has to smile at Yan Ling.

Mei Ying doesn't like women who are too strong, that kind of aggressive momentum shows her humility even more, every time Yan Ling asks for the address of her home, she is vague, she doesn't want Yan Ling to come to her house to find her, she doesn't want to build her strong self-confidence and pride with her own small body. In fact, she has no interest in rich people, and she doesn't like the philistine spirit that exudes from them. She was also not interested in the poor, for fear of provoking the shabbyness. She just wanted to live an elegant but not luxurious life, but that seemed like a fantasy to her.

"Mei Ying, Wang Dan on the second floor came to you just now, didn't you see her? I think you and her are better than our roommates in the same dormitory, but it's a pity that they both live on the second floor. Let's go, you sleep well. Yan Ling walked to the door and turned her head to her, with some envy and a hint of displeasure in her tone.

Mei Ying and her dormitory originally lived eight people, but later two moved out, and now there are only six people living here, and the other four are all finance and accounting majors, only she and Yan Ling are not many girls in the trade major class, and they are scattered and scattered. Mei Ying usually doesn't pay much attention to them, her bed is against the window, and the desk is next to the bed. Many times she would rather stare at the sky outside the window than talk to them. She hated the sound they made eating, and she felt like she was living in a pigsty. The most disgusting thing is that they eat pickles, she has not eaten this thing since she was a child, and the sour taste makes her sick every time, as long as it is meal time, she usually does not stay in the dormitory.

It's a strange arrangement of the school, the six people in their dormitory are all college students, but the students in the opposite room are all undergraduates, and every time the door is opened and closed, the movement is particularly loud, she is really not used to it, and she will get angry when she turns on the loud volume when she watches TV at home. Most of the undergraduates come from rural areas, they dress shabby, and the food is very simple, but they just look down on city people like Mei Ying and them. They are poor and proud, their seemingly strong self-confidence is worthless in Mei Ying's eyes, they see themselves as rich but lack the ability to express themselves, and every time there is an activity in the school, they are still the students in the city to support the scene. She never talks to them, even when she goes out and bumps into them, she will humbly wait for them to go first, she feels that she has cultivation and quality, but how can no boy really love her. Maybe they're blind, they can't see the sparkle in her. Or maybe they have super eyesight, and they can clearly see that although she is not evil, she is indeed a chubby, round face, and her flesh is not bad, but her beauty is too bad.

Men like beautiful girls, delicate and lovely, with faces like silver plates and eyes like apricots. But Mei Ying obviously can't meet their requirements, since the spring love, she suddenly realized that a girl's appearance is too important, what she says about the beauty of the soul, it's all a deceptive nonsense, the heart grows in the body, and the outer body is not seen, who is interested in exploring your heart.

There was a dormitory where a few boys from an undergraduate class had formed friendships with them, and there were six rural boys among the eight people. It was really ridiculous, she felt that no matter how ugly she was, she couldn't find a peasant, the smell of their bodies always made her sit far away, and they must have brushed their teeth, but they couldn't get rid of the inexplicable smell of smoke on their bodies anyway. I don't know why I don't like farmers, but I feel that every family in the countryside will have a lot of children, and then there are a lot of relatives, she doesn't like the noise at home, seven aunts and eight aunts, and a long list of uncles, it's terrible to think about. She likes to enjoy the world of two people quietly, and if so many people come at once, it is indeed too crowded.

Sister Dan is also like her, she comes to study with the mentality of leaving after two years. There are still quite a lot of college students like them who don't have enough money to make up, and it is estimated that the school is also thinking about the welfare of teachers. Mei Ying doesn't like to study, but her parents' hard work can't live up to it, although her desire to come to Guangzong to glorify her ancestors has been shattered, but she also has high hopes, with a diploma, she can find a decent job at the worst.

When she thought of her parents, she couldn't help but shudder, in her memory, it should be the whip in her father's hand that grew up with her. In fact, it can't be counted as a whip, to be exact, an old belt from her father, but for more than ten years, she has decided that it is definitely a whip. As the number of beatings increased, the belt became thinner and thinner, and the iron rod could be sharpened into a needle, and a belt was nothing. The cold light that came out of the whip was definitely not inferior to any sharp sword. Parents have no culture, the benefits of the factory are average, it is not easy to pull her and her sister to grow up, and her high standards and strict requirements are understandable. She has thought countless times that if she wants to make a lot of money in the future, she must let her parents enjoy some blessings.

It's quiet at this time of day, class after class, shopping for shopping, falling in love, only her, lying in bed alone with a lot of thoughts. She didn't come to study, she didn't seem to be here to travel, she had no intention of viewing this beautiful scenery, she really didn't know what she was here for, maybe she was just trying to escape from her parents' constraints to find freedom.

The mind is very messy, the beautiful love is disillusioned in an instant, and the saddest thing is that she hasn't even tasted the taste of kissing. I remember that winter night, after watching "Hibiscus Out of the Water", Qi Yuanhui sent her back to the dormitory, passing by the "lover", he grabbed her and hugged her tightly, for the first time in his life, he was hugged by a man, he was a little panicked, his body trembled slightly, he felt the strong reaction of his body, and suddenly felt weird. For the first time, I smelled a man's body odor up close, my brain was a little dizzy, I didn't know what to do, I was just blindly nervous, but I was a little greedy for his arms. When he approached her, her round eyes were open, and at that moment she felt that her eyelashes would not flicker, and there was a lot of fluid in her mouth, and she did not know whether to swallow it or spit it out, except for confusion and helplessness, she could not find a more appropriate word to describe the embarrassment of that night. There was a cold moon in the sky that ignored her, but at that moment she was scorching, as if there were nine suns in the sky, and she was so scorched that she was about to melt.

A burst of pain relieved her, and she grabbed the clothes that had been stripped by him, it turned out that so much beautiful love actually started from pain, and the man in front of her gave her the most expensive lesson at the cost of her chastity. Crying and shaking off his hand that roamed her body, at that moment, she didn't think that male and female love was **, except for pain, it was still pain. That night, she was in pain all night, and she thought about it all night, angry that she had to go to see what "Out of the Water Hibiscus", but she couldn't enter the water gracefully, and she became an extremely embarrassed soup chicken.

Later, when Qi Yuanhui looked for her again, she refused on the grounds of pain, unwilling to experience the stinging sensation again. She knew very well that Qi Yuanhui didn't love her, but just coveted her plump body. Gradually, he stopped paying attention to her. But after all, he was the first man in her life, and she still couldn't let go, and when the pain disappeared, she went to the crowd to search for him, but he was already a new love.

In fact, she can't say that she loves Qi Yuanhui, but she was confused by his beautiful dancing and funny conversation, he is too good at coaxing women to be happy, in front of him, she doesn't even have the power to parry. It's rare to be in class just to be able to sit next to him, maybe because he is a few years older, she always likes to listen to him tell stories, tell stories about them as adults. Mei Ying's emotional world is blank, although she has also liked a few boys, but she gave up because of people's ignorance. She knows that she is not beautiful, and it is simply impossible for a boy to take the initiative to like her, so she has low self-esteem, and gradually, she becomes more and more withdrawn. If it weren't for meeting Sister Dan that night, she couldn't imagine how she would have spent these two years.

Every time she thinks of Sister Dan, a smile appears on the corner of Mei Ying's mouth. I didn't expect that there would be so much energy hidden in her small body, the two of them are about the same size, they both belong to the type of flesh, Sister Dan's thick lenses are sewn with small but very shocking eyes, thick lips and neat teeth are always bursting out of laughter. She loves to wear bright red clothes, like a seemingly small but very lethal red pepper. A girl with glasses is supposed to be a reserved lady, and Sister Dan is obviously the opposite of her. She has a lot of strength, she loves to fight, she doesn't like to quarrel with people, she only chooses the most direct way to end other people's chatter, and often goes to group fights with the boys in their class, but she is very good to Mei Ying, and her righteousness makes Mei Ying very ashamed.

I still remember that winter night, when she was about to get up and go back to the dormitory after a supper in the snack street, a person ran out of nowhere and knocked her down, and before she had time to have a seizure, the man helped her up and said to her breathlessly, "Sister, do me a favor, hide this for me, someone will chase me behind." After finishing speaking, he looked at her again, "Hey, sister, I've seen you, you were dancing with a boy in our class last night, I live on the second floor of the Panda Pavilion, I'll look for you later, remember, don't let the school security guards behind you see it." As soon as the words fell, she ran away. Before Mei Ying came back to her senses, a heavy, bright kitchen knife arrived in her hand. Fortunately, she has always been afraid of the cold, and she wears a lot of clothes inside and out, so she covers the knife casually.

Later, every time I talked to Sister Dan about that night, I would laugh non-stop, Sister Dan said that she had the potential to be a spy, and she clasped her hands into fists and called Sister Dan a heroine. Although the boys in Sister Dan's class look fierce and vicious, the chivalrous complex in her bones makes her very willing to befriend them. The two of them hate those pretending girls very much, and every time they see the girls at the entrance of the panda pavilion who are playing petty with their boyfriends, they make faces next to them. Once in the bathhouse, the two of them deliberately pulled the shower curtains, causing the girls in the hall to scream incessantly, making the whistles in the boys' bathhouse next door endless. Later, they became the target of public criticism, and the girls of the panda pavilion rolled their eyes when they saw the two of them, but they never cared and went their own way. Mei Ying doesn't like to make friends with girls, and Sister Dan is definitely an exception.

The college campus is not as pure as she imagined, she feels cheated, all the campus life and love described in the book are not like this, she thinks she will be like a rose, blooming shyly, or like a water lotus, not too shy to cool the breeze. But what is the reality? She became a stump before she even opened, ridiculous, ridiculous! She was deceived by Qiong Yao, deceived by Xu Zhimo, deceived by Xi Murong, where are those beautiful poems, shy faces, and romantic and graceful love stories?

Aimless thoughts fiddled with the ticking of the hour hand, and the sky gradually became cloudy, and I didn't have the heart to sleep. She was imagining the cold operating table and those strange scalpels, and since she was a child, she hardly got sick, even if it was a little troublesome, she was taken to the infirmary of their factory by her mother. She has never seen the operating table, but she has only seen the description in the book, it should be similar to the single bed she slept in, when she thought of the terrible face of the doctor in the morning, she couldn't help but be a little afraid, and she didn't dare to imagine what the scene would be waiting for her, and she had to bring her family to sign before she could operate on her, there was no way, only Sister Dan was to do this family.

I vaguely heard the lively in the corridor outside the door, I guess it's all over class, the water in the bathroom began to flow non-stop, and there was an endless stream of people washing clothes and rice bowls, she didn't like to wash clothes, so she soaked them in laundry detergent for two days when they were too much, and then turned on the water faucet and rushed to finish. Not to mention the rice bowl, she just wiped it with paper a few times and rinsed it again, she didn't feel that she had to spend her time on such boring and boring things.

"Bang" The bedroom door rang, and those who should come back came back, and the girls in the accounting class knew that the twittering was endless, and they said that the whole way was endless, Yan Ling probably went to her boyfriend's dormitory, and she was generally not seen until the lights out time. Mei Ying roared angrily, "Can you be quieter, I didn't see any patients." ”

"It's funny, you're not a patient one day, except for sleeping or eating, we don't want to be a pig if you want to be a pig, I don't like to talk and interfere with others." Tang Hong, who came from Meishan, said with a disdainful face.

"Who are you talking about, stinky, see if Lao Tzu doesn't tear your mouth, don't you owe a beating?" , Without waiting for Mei Ying to speak, Sister Dan rushed in.

"Let's go, the two of them have a nest of snakes and rats, ignore them, let's eat." The other three pushed Tang Hong to pick up the rice bowl and muttered away.

"Shadow, are you feeling better? It's time for these stinky women to fix it, and call them in one day to scare them. In the afternoon, I only took one class and went to Cao Bin, he is about to graduate, he spends all day writing papers in the dormitory, and it is enough to eat a few steamed buns a day, anyway, they northerners like to eat this, he gave me all the living expenses for this month, and I also have some on me, you see, is it enough? ”

Sitting up from the bed, she didn't put those women at ease, she never knew them in general, and she was the only one in the entire dormitory with short hair. In the face of such an upright sister, looking at this scattered and somewhat crumpled banknotes and some coins, my heart swelled, how could I not teach her to be excited!

"Sister Dan, I'm ......" Mei Ying couldn't speak, tears rolled in her eyes, and she couldn't find better and more words to express her mood at the moment.

"Want something to eat? I'll go to the snack street to buy some, eat and have a good rest, tomorrow when they have morning exercises, I'll call you, you and your bunk will say let's go to Leshan to play for a few days, don't say leaky. ”

"Sister, I don't have an appetite, there are cookies in the drawer, I'll eat them when I'm hungry."

"Okay, you sleep, don't think nonsense, our road is still long, I'll pack a few clothes for you, it's hot and cold this day, it's not good to fall into any illness."

"Thank you, sister, you can eat, I cleaned up slowly, my waist was sore after lying down all afternoon, and I just got up to move."

"Well, it's okay, let's get up and take a walk, it may also be good for the operation, then I'll go, see you tomorrow."

Sister Dan closed the door and left, suddenly remembering that she hadn't smoked all day, and took out the Hilton with half a pack left from under the pillow, at this moment she should roll all the unpleasantness into the cigarette, light it slowly, inhale it slowly, and spit it out leisurely. In this way, all the troubles disappeared like this cigarette smoke.