When I got home, it was almost dawn, and the summer dawn had come earlier. She didn't dare to disturb anyone, she opened the door cautiously like a thief, took off her shoes and slipped into the house, didn't even dare to turn on the light, groped her way into bed, washed her face and brushed her teeth, she didn't want to alarm her family because of these noises. Lying on the bed in frustration, a burst of heartache hit, I really wanted to howl at the sky outside the window, "Fuck you, love!" ”

Can't sleep, this early morning, she and Leng Xu can't sleep, this state should last for a long time.

"Shadow, when did you come back, it's good to be back, if you don't come home at night, your father won't forgive you no matter how good the boy is." Mom came in at some point, and it looked like they were getting ready for work.

"Mom, don't talk about it, he's going home, today's train." Mei Ying has no habit of explaining, and her speech has always been crisp, and she is still immersed in the sadness of the early morning.

"What kind of song is this? Isn't it your birthday today, didn't you come all the way to celebrate your birthday? I told your dad last night that this young man is good, he is very polite, he respects his elders, he is still mental, and he looks much more pleasing to the eye than Aunt Zhao's nephew, and your dad also said that he doesn't know which life you have cultivated. ”

"There are more beautiful boys in this world, and he is not very good, and his temper is very strange, so I will find you a better one in the future. Go to work, I'll get some sleep. I remember to buy a roast duck in the evening and come back, I haven't eaten it for a long time. Mei Ying didn't want to tell her mother more, she tried her best to hide her pain.

"You damn girl knows how to eat all day long, I think other boys think you're too fat, and you don't know how to lose weight, look at how good your sister's body is."

"You're embarrassed to say I'm fat, who told you to make me like this, you think I want to, and I'm going to be angry, today is my birthday." Mei Ying was really angry and annoyed in her heart, she turned nineteen years old today, and she dared to argue with her mother, who let them give birth to her without her consent, really.

"Okay, you can sleep, get up and mop the floor in a while, and come back at night to make you something to eat." Mom closed the door and left, vaguely hearing what Mom and Dad were talking about in the living room, too lazy to care, think about how to relieve the pain of falling out of love and how to spend the time with a year left.

From Leng Xu's birthday to her birthday, in just two months, another love ended without a hitch. Her nineteen years of life experience also seemed to be too much, and she graduated in one year, she really didn't want to fall in love anymore, she had an aging heart like a ninety-one-year-old lady, matured prematurely, fell in love and induced labor prematurely, peeled off her best years like the wall of the hospital, leaving only musty and bloody smells.

The whole holiday is still rewarding, her mahjong skills have improved a lot, and her parents no longer mention Leng Xu, only her sister feels deeply regretful, after all, girls have no reason to hate a handsome guy. Her parents didn't expect much from her, if she had a job in the future, she would just find a man who would be good to her, and her mother still said the same thing, "Beautiful can't be eaten." It's time to leave for school again, with some expectations and some grievances in my heart. For the nineteen-year-old, she really doesn't know how to face a boy who once treated her sincerely.

Everything seems to be the same, everything is different, the bamboo forest around the panda pavilion is verdant as usual, and the lovers are as always, like glue knees, very affectionate, one by one like moths to the fire, for that glimmer of light, in exchange for tragic incineration. Every time she passes by the path, Mei Ying no longer stares at them, let them enjoy the sweetness of love first, and then taste the pain of falling out of love.

I haven't seen Leng Xu all the time, and he doesn't go out to eat, and he asks Qiangzi and them to help when he cooks. There were several times when Qiangzi kindly asked Mei Ying to send it over, but she refused. A man's heart is so small, what big can he do in the future. So if you like a girl who is pure, let him find it slowly. Sister Dan has never mentioned it, and she also knows that those things can't be hidden, so it's better to break it off early, if it's really the wedding night, then something big will happen. However, Sister Dan and Qiangzi still felt deeply sorry for the two of them, and for some reason, everyone in their class felt that Leng Xu would only laugh if he was with her, and only her Meiying could bring him happiness.

There is no need to fall in love, and there is no need to worry, Mei Ying also warms up her books from time to time. The sky gradually became cooler, and on this day she was rummaging through the cabinets looking for her winter clothes, and Sister Dan rushed in.

"Shadow, it's not good, Leng Xu and Qiangzi went out to fight, this time there are quite a lot of people over there, and a few of them are afraid that they won't be able to parry. Now Leng Xu's temper is very violent, I think he has a long iron rod, and he won't die. ”

Sister Dan and the people in their class are all from a factory, there are only thirty people in the class, and they are the special recruitment class of the school. A group of them have played since they were young and have a very strong cohesion, and the school has no problem with them. There are often girls from outside the school who come to school to dance, and they take advantage of the situation, which is also a consensual thing, but the men outside the family don't follow, so they often come out on the whole thing. The people in their class are very righteous, and they all go out with a whistle, there are definitely few people today, even Sister Dan feels that the situation is not right, then something must be wrong.

"Where? Hurry up, take me to take a look, report the case first, how can we persuade it. Mei Ying's previous prediction came true, and she knew that sooner or later there would be this day from the time she saw Leng Xu fighting for her.

"I reported it all, I don't feel good this time, I've never seen Leng Xu so fierce, and he looks open."

I ran all the way to the outside of the school, almost to the cinema, the whole alley was covered with bloodstains, the police station and the school security guards were at the scene, and the three outer floors of the alley were full of people watching the excitement. Mei Ying was stunned, pulled out of the crowd to find Leng Xu's figure, only to see a large group of people were subdued, she saw Qiangzi's very conspicuous bald head, he and Leng Xu were actually handcuffed and squatted in the corner, and several unknown men were also handcuffed and squatted with them, a row of policemen stood in front of them with batons, there were several moaning in pain on the ground, one man's leg was broken, and the medical staff of the nearby health center were carrying a stretcher to prepare to pull the injured away.

Mei Ying is afraid of blood, but this time she is very brave to look at all this, at this moment, there is no black and white in her heart, there is no thought of right and wrong, her mind is full of Leng Xu, she is concerned about him from head to toe, these days there is no day that she doesn't miss him, and she doesn't want to secretly follow Qiangzi to see him in the dormitory, but her stubbornness hinders her, she loves vanity, she wants to save face, she can't let go of her body to find him.

But at this moment, she couldn't care so much, she desperately squeezed forward, and shouted "Leng Xu, Leng Xu" with all her strength at the noisy crowd, like a wild goose that had lost its mate, and wailed bitterly. She wanted to rush over and hug him again, she wanted to say something to ask him to forgive, she wanted to tell him that she didn't blame him, that she had always thought of him in her heart, and that she would be willing to return to him if she could. She didn't care if he would be sentenced, she could wait for him.

Leng Xu heard her shout, turned his head to look at her, although he held his head, she had already vaguely seen Leng Xu's eyes no longer resentful of her, he actually shed tears, her arrival made such a strong and aggressive man cry, she couldn't hold back anymore, and tried her best to squeeze in. For the first time in 19 years, I saw a boy who liked her crying, and she had to say a few words to him, but she was stopped by the police again and again, and was warned that this was a disturbance of social order. Mei Ying's heart was torn to pieces at that moment, and she sat on the ground, unable to hold back her howl anymore, and her spirit completely collapsed. Sister Dan gently hugged her, "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay if you don't kill anyone, it was the other party who provoked it first, and they stayed inside for more than ten days before they came out." ”

If she didn't come, she knew very well that Leng Xu wouldn't cry, he used to say that the man who shed tears was the most wretched, but just now, he cried, he heard her calling his name, he saw her trying so hard to rush over and talk to him, all her actions touched his heart that was still soft to her, he still liked her, he couldn't forget his first love and first kiss so quickly. His tears dripped into Mei Ying's heart, and she had to store them well, as if he were still alive in her life.

The blood on the ground is too dazzling, she has only seen this kind of scene in police movies, could it be that she can't do without blood in her life? It was as if the damn blood would never be evaporated by the sun, and would always flow in her memory.

Mei Ying spent the next few months almost in a trance, except for talking to Sister Dan and drinking, she didn't even go to the dance party on the weekend. Qiangzi and Leng Xu were expelled from the detention center, and I heard Sister Dan say that his parents also came, and they should have lost a lot of money, maybe they are still students, and the sentence is much lighter. I don't know when they left, but I didn't even see him for the last time, and she didn't even have a chance to wave to him. She didn't know what kind of affection she had for Leng Xu in her heart, but at least she was still very attached to him, after all, he was the first boy to give her true affection. No matter how long the years passed, she could never erase his youthful and handsome face, and the sunny smile he gave her.

This is Mei Ying's last days in college, because the computer has not passed, and her parents have to send some money to make up the exam. After many twists and turns, she finally got the graduation certificate that her parents dreamed of. Without the slightest joy, she was dragged by Sister Dan to Baoguo Temple to take a few parting photos to be finished, or Sister Dan is blessed, Cao Bin has already found a job for her, Sister Dan will go to Shandong to settle down in the future, the world is far away, I don't know when we can meet again. The parting night banquet is inevitably sad, except for the constant drinking and smoking, Mei Ying can't raise a trace of pride to say those words "The green mountains do not change, and the green water flows forever". Parting is not a farewell, but it is better than a farewell!

An address does not represent eternity, and everyone will be busy in the future, and once they get married, the address will be invalid. There are always countless possibilities and unpredictability in human life, as long as it does not stop, the wheel of fate will always turn. Mei Ying didn't dare to imagine that after two years of college, she didn't learn anything, even love was a mess, her heart was empty with Leng Xu's departure, she no longer longed for love, and even Lin Yumo's charming voice seemed to be blurred.

With Leng Xu's departure, her heart is like ashes, she doesn't know what will happen in the future, and she is afraid that it will be difficult for them to get together. Sister Dan is also going to settle down elsewhere, and the idea of going to Leng Xu has also disappeared. She had never believed in fate, but now she had finally accepted it. In the future, let's listen to the arrangement of my parents, let my parents worry about it, work, love, and marriage, she is too tired, she doesn't want to support herself on her own, she needs the support of her family.