Chapter 170: Suicide
Gu Xiaojing and He Fei spent their honeymoon on Hainan Island, He Fei was thinking about Jiang Xueyun in his heart, Gu Xiaojing tried her best to coax He Fei to be happy, but He Fei's happiness was like a fleeting flash in the pan.
Gu Xiaojing couldn't help but examine her marriage with He Fei over and over again in her heart, she thought over and over again, no matter what, she had put so much effort into it, and it was not easy for her to get together with He Fei, no matter whether it was right or wrong, no matter how difficult it was, she would do her best to make their marriage more and more complete.
She didn't know what was going on in her heart, although there were a few times when she felt that she was going to endure it to the limit, but she still comforted herself not to have that kind of hot scene at the beginning of the marriage. But it turned out that she had always thought that He Fei, who was gentle and good-tempered, although she was still so gentle, the smile on her face was significantly reduced, and she often fell into a daze alone.
Sometimes he sat alone on the balcony, looking at the sea outside, and sat in a daze for a long time, if Gu Xiaojing didn't call him, he seemed to sit down like that forever, sometimes he took out his sketchpad and held a paintbrush in his hand, but he couldn't draw anything.
Gu Xiaojing was depressed, ran to the sea alone, and cried a lot in front of the roaring sea, after crying, she restrained her sadness, reorganized her smile, and returned to He Fei's side vigorously.
The two of them lived in Hainan for a week, and He Fei said at least three times in a week that he wanted to go home, but Gu Xiaojing refused.
She said go home, which home do you go back to, now the two of us are a family, and when we go home, we are the two of us, you remember, in the future, I will be your home, and where I am, it will be our home.
Why don't you look at Gu Xiaojing and say nothing.
Gu Xiaojing said I know, your heart is not ready, after all, we have been together for a short time, but I'm not in a hurry, didn't people say that time can heal all the pain? Let the pain and memories of the past, let the blue water take away, yesterday is gone, we can't live in the memories, we have to look forward, no, you know, we have to look forward!
He Fei looked at Gu Xiaojing's somewhat anxious appearance, nodded reluctantly, and then looked at the boundless sea water, and once again entered his state of daze.
He Yiming called, He Fei looked at it blankly for a long time, picked up the phone, and his heart churned like the boundless sea, he didn't know if his son knew about his divorce from Jiang Xueyun, did he know that he was married to Gu Xiaojing, in case his son asked, how should he answer?
He reluctantly picked up his son's phone, and his son's tone was the same as usual, Dad, I called my mother just now, and my mother said that you came out to sketch, where did you go to sketch?
Oh, He Fei breathed a sigh of relief, he heard it, Jiang Xueyun didn't tell his son the news of their divorce, he felt a little lighter in his heart, and he said I came to Hainan.
Didn't you go there last year? He Yiming asked in some surprise.
He Fei paused and said, Ah, I think it's not bad here, so I'll come back again.
Oh, I see. He Yiming seemed to understand, he talked to He Fei about school for a while, and then said Dad, can you promise me one thing?
Why don't you say anything?
He Yiming said that he took time out to accompany his mother, his mother really loves you!
The son's words were like a small hammer, "bang" knocked on He Fei's heart, He Fei felt that the heart that was originally a little numb, suddenly hurt, he didn't know how to answer his son, he only felt that at this moment, whether as a father or as a husband, he was a failure, he felt like the most incompetent emperor who gave up the country to others - Li Yu, the queen of the Tang Dynasty, he felt that he was like Li Yu who was imprisoned at the moment, he reluctantly "um", and then hung up his son's phone.
Gu Xiaojing looked at him with something wrong, and couldn't help but look at him blankly, and involuntarily asked, what's wrong?
I...... My son told me to treat his mother well, but I ...... I...... He Fei was suddenly speechless with excitement, he slapped over the drawing board that was placed in front of him, preparing to sketch, just a wave came over, and the drawing board was immediately soaked by the waves, He Fei got up, grabbed the drawing board, and threw it far away.
The drawing board immediately disappeared into the boundless sea, and He Fei staggered to sit on the beach, then leaned back and lay down......
Gu Xiaojing looked at He Fei, tears gradually burst out of her eyes, she ran over with red circles under her eyes, and dragged He Fei up from the ground.
He Fei was lying on the ground just now, let Gu Xiaojing pull it, and couldn't help but sit up, he raised his eyes to look at Gu Xiaojing, and couldn't help but be startled, Gu Xiaojing's eyes were red, and her eyes didn't know when they became red, and they were covered with dense red bloodshots, Gu Xiaojing grabbed He Fei's arm, shook it vigorously, and shouted in her mouth, He Fei! Wake up, you are now my Gu Xiaojing's husband, where is your previous happiness, why are you guarding me to be sad all day long, where is your previous happiness? Do you say you like me, if you don't like me, why did you provoke me in the first place, if you don't like me, why do you say I love you when I ask you! I love you——! Did you say this yourself, did you?!!
Gu Xiaojing suddenly couldn't control her emotions anymore, she grabbed He Fei's arm hard, shaking violently, she said What did you do in the first place, since you don't like me so much, don't love me, why do you provoke me again and again? Are you really like my son said, a despicable and shameless villain, a coward who dares to do something but doesn't dare to be?! Is he a kind-faced hypocrite?! I married you because you said you love me, but look at your current appearance, half yin and half yang, half human and half ghost, do you live in the yang world or in the underworld? Did God send you to torture me?! Well, in that case, in that case, what's the point of my life!
Gu Xiaojing said, suddenly let go of He Fei, and stood up suddenly, she couldn't stop trembling because of excitement, she looked around, then stomped her feet, and ran desperately like the sea......
He Fei was startled, he watched Gu Xiaojing running like crazy like the sea, and couldn't help but stand up, he watched Gu Xiaojing desperately run into the seawater, the sea water gradually deepened, losing her waist, her chest......
Don't ——! He Fei shouted desperately, and ran over as if he was flying, he just let Gu Xiaojing shout that his brain was already confused, and he felt like a fragment, and now he watched Gu Xiaojing desperately running into the sea, and suddenly remembered that Gu Xiaojing couldn't swim, so he shouted desperately, and then flew like Gu Xiaojing ran away.
Gu Xiaojing's body was already able to completely submerge in the sea, she began to churn in the sea, He Fei rushed over and dragged Gu Xiaojing's body to death, Gu Xiaojing had been choked by the sea water at that time, she closed her eyes and let He Fei carry her back to the shore.
Gu Xiaojing closed her eyes and lay wet on the beach, and people began to run over.
Just now, in order to find a beautiful and quiet place to paint, they found a place away from the crowd.
Now, people have spotted them and started running in twos and threes.
Gu Xiaojing was lying on the ground, her eyes closed, why not press Gu Xiaojing's stomach hard, help her pour out the seawater, someone proposed to put Gu Xiaojing on her shoulders, put her waist in the middle, and jump on the ground.
He Fei was already weak because of the fright just now, he looked at Gu Xiaojing blankly, trying to pick her up, but he couldn't hold her.
A tall young man bent Gu Xiaojing over his shoulder, and then with the help of everyone, he jumped up, and after only a few jumps, Gu Xiaojing began to pour seawater outside.
Gu Xiaojing woke up, He Fei hugged Gu Xiaojing and cried.
When the crowd saw that there was nothing to do, they dispersed.
Gu Xiaojing raised her weak eyes, looked at He Fei, and said weakly, why did you save me, why didn't you let me die, it's a hundred, what's the point of me living?
Woo...... He Fei hugged Gu Xiaojing and cried silently, Xiaojing, why are you so stupid, why are you so stupid......
Gu Xiaojing raised her eyes to look at He Fei, and said weakly, I have been like this since I was a child, what I want...... will desperately ask for it, since God has made us husband and wife, then I can't lose you......
Gu Xiaojing said, closing her eyes tiredly.
He Fei hugged Gu Xiaojing, and tears flowed out.
After returning to the hotel, He Fei put Gu Xiaojing on the bed and let her rest for a while.
Gu Xiaojing was so tired and weak that she felt that she didn't even have the strength to speak, she looked at He Fei, closed her eyes and fell asleep.
He Fei helped Gu Xiaojing cover the quilt and sat on the balcony alone.
If before this, he still had illusions, hoping that his depression and dullness, and that his pain and dullness could win Gu Xiaojing's sympathy, so he was merciful and went through the divorce procedures with him, so that he could return to Jiang Xueyun and his children. So now, he completely understands that Gu Xiaojing is a person with a completely different personality from him and Jiang Xueyun, he and Jiang Xueyun both belong to that kind of gentle temper that has no quarrel with the world, and Gu Xiaojing is the kind of person who dares to love and hate, dare to rob and fight.
He remembered an article about Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman, he couldn't remember the name of the article, but he remembered what Lu Xiaoman said in it: You can't love or die.
He now completely understands that Gu Xiaojing is really such a fierce character of "can't love or die", and he can't tell how much Gu Xiaojing loves him. He knew that Gu Xiaojing was desperately trying to catch him and their marriage, and there was another reason that he couldn't say but could feel, that is, Gu Xiaojing refused to admit defeat, she was squeezed out of her original marriage by Ye Shuilian, so if she remarries, she must marry a man who looks more beautiful and successful than Chen Zhigang, in this way, Gu Xiaojing revealed it before, but now he can't remember clearly.
No matter whether he remembers it clearly or not, he has to admit a fact now, he and Gu Xiaojing are already husband and wife.
It is easy to invite God and it is difficult to send God, he knows that if he is really a great god invited by Gu Xiaojing to his home, then he has no right to leave, unless Gu Xiaojing himself invites him out.
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