Autumn is gone, winter is over, and Mei Ying is looking forward to the days when spring flowers will bloom. She had gathered her mood and was ready to hit the road briskly. Although her resignation was not accepted, she had already lost interest in work, and she did not want to be confined there for the rest of her life, and she was overwhelmed by the tall building. She had to get out there, with wings that would allow her to fly lightly, and a blue sky that belonged to her.

He never went back to Zhou Kai's house again, and even returned the key to his house. Zhou Kai came to accompany her every day, and even regarded her home as his own, and learned to cook for her. She also used to buy some snacks for his dad to bring back, never mentioning his mother, he always followed her. But some feelings are innate, no matter how grateful she is, how touched, it is not love after all, she is not a person who can force herself, and she does not want a love to have a far-fetched heart. She couldn't love him, she couldn't give him the happiness he wanted.

On this day, my sister was not at home. Again, she rehashed the old words.

"Zhou Kai, let's get a divorce!" Mei Ying said calmly.

"Xiaoying, you're here again, aren't we okay now? Didn't I agree to your agreement? In the future, when I divide the new house, we will hire a nanny, okay? As for the children, I'll ask for them in a few years. ”

"Zhou Kai, didn't you understand what I meant? It's not a matter of a few years, it's that I don't plan to have it at all, I can't have children in my life, if you continue to be with me, you will be charged with unfilial piety. Find a pure and good girl to marry, you don't understand my world, we can never be a person of the world! ”

"Xiaoying, I can't control what your world is like, but I'm trying very hard to squeeze into your world, I want to see how many secrets of you are still buried there, I don't want to occupy all of your heart, even if it's just a little space for me." Zhou Kai's tone was almost pleading.

"A person's heart is not something you can squeeze in if you want to, because my heart can't be integrated with you, my ideal man is not you, it's really not you! As early as a few years ago, I promised him my heart, and when I was with you, my mind was full of him, and I didn't want to deceive you, and I didn't want to torture myself anymore. Your kindness to me touched me and made me feel guilty, but there really isn't a trace of love in it, you know? ”

"You have given your heart to someone else, who is he? Is he a devil or a wizard? Did he snatch your soul or put a trick on you? Don't think I don't know that you think about other people all day? When I was with me, I was listless and in a trance, and I was refreshed as soon as I wrote a letter to your Shandong sister Dan, is it Leng Xu mentioned in the letter? Everyone knows that you are married, do you think they will still want you? I don't know if your body has been trampled by a few men. ”

Zhou Kai was angry, he had never said such ugly words, he clenched his fists, and his body trembled slightly. Mei Ying is unwilling to hide her heart anymore, she has to be brave enough to look directly at her emotions, and she will never allow him to despise herself like this.

"Zhou Kai, we said it before, if you are married, you still have the right to **, why are you peeking at my letters, it's so despicable! I'm on good terms with him, but he respects me very much, unlike these foul words you say, please don't blaspheme me and his purity, he is not the kind of person you say he is. ”

"Xiaoying, I'm your man, you'd better figure it out for me, you're still protecting other men with me, is your heart made of steel? How can you be so cruel, I am so good to you, and I can't match his smile at you in my dreams? I'm your rightful husband, am I not even as good as a shadow that survives in your body? What if I read your letter, you are my wife, I want to know what you think all day, I want to know why you always put back and hold back when you fulfill your obligations as a wife, is this also wrong? ”

"I don't want to say more, you can think as much as you like, everything is my fault, I'm sorry for you, okay. Love is consensual, marriage is not a reformatory home, not how good you are to me I will fall in love with you, in the past two years, have I ever said a word of love to you? You are a good man, you are also very good, I have already eliminated all distractions to treat you well, but there is really no trace of love secreted in all these good. Zhou Kai, go find a gentle and gentle girl, I'm really not suitable for you, and if we continue to walk, we can only hurt deeper and more severely. ”

"Xiaoying, let's not talk about this today, okay? I'll cook for you, eat and rest, you see you've lost weight again, I'm afraid it's only more than eighty pounds, Yang Yuhuan is about to become Zhao Feiyan, don't become a white bone spirit, because Wukong's fiery eyes are too painful. ”

Zhou Kai hugged him gently, he still didn't want to divorce, he said that he would not beat her again, even if she was unforgivable. For that slap that day, he had repented countless times. He still remembered her reply in the past, Mei Ying's eyes were wet again, this man really loved her, but due to various factors, it was difficult for her to join hands with him. He loves children so much, he deserves a perfect home. Mei Ying knew that he would not sign the divorce agreement, she could only wait, waiting for his enthusiasm to be exhausted, waiting for the day when his heart cooled.

There are too many impurities in this marriage, since her parents left, she has become more and more difficult to face, and her sister has also applied for a job in another company, they don't want to owe anyone, and they don't want the superposition of favors to make the future road more difficult, they are too strong, so strong that they can't even accept a look of pity.

Zhou Kai still comes to see her every day, and sometimes goes to the unit to wait for her to get off work, Mei Ying tries to avoid meeting with him, and the locks at home have also been changed by her, she is for his good, and if it drags on so far and indefinitely, their young hearts and bodies will collapse and age. She didn't have to divorce for anyone, she asked Sister Dan to tell Leng Xu that she was married, because she didn't want to delay him, she never thought she had much charm, but she just understood Leng Xu's heart, he was a dead eye, and even she felt that they would never meet again in the future. She just wanted to live more calmly, she despised herself for all the pretenses she had made, she forced herself to laugh in order to get a job, she hated herself, she hated her despicable behavior, and she wanted to re-examine her life.

Sometimes, facing the boundless night sky, she will hear the sigh in her heart in the face of life's encounters, maybe she will not be able to achieve positive results in this life, her heart is too uneasy about the status quo, she wants a vigorous love, she advocates the love of life and death, and she can fly like a butterfly, just as she likes the strong mellow aroma of spirits, not the light and tasteless of beer. She owes too much to Zhou Kai in her heart, but she can no longer use her youth and body to repay it.

This year, a series of changes began to take place in the unit, all places are engaged in optimizing the combination, some people began to wait for the post, two partners in her group left angrily because they were dissatisfied with the leader's arrangement, and when everyone got together, more topics were the way out in the future. Because of his good performance, easy-going, thoughtful and rational, Ran Ran was regarded as a good seedling by the leader and was promoted to the business department a month ago. There are only four people left in Mei Ying's home appliance group, and the large and small household appliances are also integrated. As more and more large shopping malls were built in the surrounding area, their eight-story building was no longer standout.

The increasingly fierce competition has made the company's efficiency also slide, and people have been laid off, or assigned to work in guest houses, all migrant workers have been dismissed, and in order to survive, many people have to sweep the floor, wash bed sheets or guard the carport. Mei Ying decided that she couldn't wait any longer, she had to go ashore before the big waves came, she was not used to water, and she didn't want to be a drowning person.

On this day, she came to the office on the fourth floor again with her resignation letter.