Chapter 104: Two "Li Hao"? under
Li Hao continued to look at it again.
"July 10th.
It may be that I haven't been in a very good state lately, and the people above have noticed my anomaly, and they have removed my experimental work, and what they have thrown me is just a job to check if the subject is dead. To be honest, I felt my body tremble as I watched the mountains of lifeless baby corpses pile up around me...... Oh my God, so many lives, after the death of those of us...... Will you go to hell...... I'm so scared. I want to meet my son. ”
Seeing this, her mother's handwriting was scribbled, like fallen leaves flying in the sky, and every word revealed her horror and fear. Facing the corpses of some dead babies all day long, smelling the ugly smell of decay, mother, she should be about to go crazy......
Seeing this, Li Hao only felt that his heart was like being cut by a knife.
The diary continues.
"1 January 1992.
It's a new year again, and when I think back to the previous time, I don't realize it...... I've been in the association for almost five years now. In the past five years, I have witnessed the birth of many lives, and many more, the withering and withering of life. Life is such a fragile thing that at the slightest touch, life will pass away. I will never forget the desperate eyes of those poor beings who failed before they died. It's a guilt!
I am a woman, and when a woman is in pain, she always thinks of her son. Now, I miss my son so much...... Hao, it's a new year again, how are you doing there, forgive Mom...... I can't be with you right now...... I'm not a good mom. ”
"April 6th.
I was disheartened and didn't have any strength in my body. My husband, Wang Ting, he ...... He actually took our son ...... I sent it to the test bench!! When the people in the institute took Hao'er away, Hao'er cried, crying very loudly. And I'm ...... I could only sit on the ground in despair, watching my son being carried onto the experimental table...... I know what that means - Hao'er's chances of survival are close to zero!! Then I fainted and woke up feeling as if the world was so dark that no one, anything, could make me smile anymore......
My sustenance is gone...... Gone...... Nothing left...... So what is the meaning of my life in this world? ”
"On the evening of April 6.
Three hours after Hao'er was taken away, I woke up from a coma, and I confronted Wang Ting and asked him why he did this. He said, "This is an order from the head of the association, and I can't disobey it."
I was stunned, is this still the gentle gentleman from the past, Wang Ting, who loves me deeply! He is not worthy to be my husband, let alone Hao'er's father! ”
Seeing this, Li Hao closed his eyes and shed two lines of angry tears. The hatred in his heart erupted like a volcano again, and he remembered the dream he had that day when he and Angel fell down the hill, cut Angel's veins and fed blood, and then fell unconscious...... It turned out that the dream was real...... I was actually experimented with by those brutes! And it was received and sent by his own father!
Then Li Hao's hatred disappeared and turned into a deep worry...... The last sentence of this diary...... Like a mother's last words.
Li Hao didn't dare to turn over again, he was afraid of ...... As soon as I flipped through it, the diary was blank!
Luckily, though, there is also a diary.
"April 15th.
I recovered a little bit and I became numb...... All life has lost its color. Luckily, my son didn't die...... After the experiment, Hao'er's breath of life was still there, but this breath was very weak. I have taken Hao'er's vein, it is very weak, and it will be broken at any time...... I couldn't do anything but hug him tightly. I hope that my arms can bring a little warmth to Hao'er...... I held my son all the time that night. My husband, on the other hand, didn't look at our son. I even wonder if Hao'er is his child after all! ”
"May 3rd.
Hao'er is one year old, and I feel very guilty that I didn't protect Hao'er and let him suffer so much...... If I could, I'd rather go to the experiment on behalf of Hao'er! I immediately realized that here, no matter where Hao'er was, was dangerous. As long as Hao'er is sent out of here and to the outside world, Hao'er can be truly protected from any harm...... I begged four, that she would get my son out of here. Unfortunately, even though Four is a good friend of mine, she is very loyal to the Society. I knelt in front of her department for three days, and she had no choice but to agree to take Hao'er out.
I'm relieved that my son ...... It's finally safe. Maybe he won't have a mother in the future, I'm sorry Hao'er, from beginning to end, I haven't fulfilled my responsibilities as a mother. In the outside world, Hao'er is lonely...... In the future, when he grows up, he will hate me and hate me for why my mother is not by his side. But I'm not afraid, as long as Hao'er can live well, all the hardships are worth it.
Hao'er's mother, Yuemei, has been dead since the moment Hao'er was sent to the experimental table. ”
"October 6th.
I haven't kept a diary for almost five months. opened the previous diary, and it happened to be Hao'er's first anniversary. On that day, the only gift I gave to Hao'er was freedom and security. That's the only thing I can give him.
I haven't seen Hao'er in five months, and he's going to be doing well in the outside world. Hao'er ...... I miss you so much. ”
"October 22nd.
These days without Hao'er are really like years. Prompted by my longing, I created two more lives. One man and one woman. The boy was made exactly in the image of Hao'er, and the girl was made in my image. Maybe the old gentleman doesn't know, but I have thoroughly mastered the method of making life -- all living things are made up of molecules and atoms, and my ability is precisely the decomposition of molecules. As long as it is reversed, life can be made.
Seeing the new 'Hao'er' and 'Xi'er', I am very happy and satisfied. Oh yes, 'Xi'er' is a girl's name, and it's nice, isn't it? I won't be alone in the future. ”
"October 31.
I was a little disappointed, although the new 'Hao'er' was created by me, but I was very disappointed to find that 'Hao'er' has no heart. This alarmed me, so I checked Xi'er's body, and she didn't ......
How can they have no heart, without a heart, it means that there is no real satisfaction, the joys, sorrows, sorrows, and expressions that people have, 'Hao'er' and 'Xi'er' will not have...... If I could, I would like to give my heart to my children. ”
Li Hao was shocked when he saw this...... After the mother asked the four to send herself to the outside world, because she missed it too much, she created another 'self'. Suddenly, Li Hao recalled his previous dream, could it be that this created 'self' was the unintentional boy in the dream?
"My place is empty."
"I don't have a heart."
At this time, the two indifferent voices sounded in Li Hao's heart again, making his body tremble, and this time, the coldness and indifference contained in the voice became even stronger......
Li Hao felt uneasy...... According to what is written in my mother's diary, then the world is ...... Have two of yourself?!
Li Hao thought about it, and cold sweat began to appear all over his body......
These two people, one is their true self, and the other is made......
He has no heart!