From the city to the countryside, it is very strange to me, this strangeness is not an ordinary strangeness, but there is no clue, there are no conditions, and there is no specific action.

I really didn't think of being a director in this rural area, and I didn't expect that the difficulties were so heavy, for me, although the company's affairs have implemented the responsibility system and the company's affairs have been settled, but, as a rural matter, I am like Grandma Liu has entered the Grand View Circle, and nothing can touch the north.

First of all, I didn't expect that the strongest voice of opposition came from Wang Aiying, I don't know why she opposed, but she didn't say it unreasonably, and she really thought about it for my sake, and it was also closely related to her interests.

She said: "Don't underestimate a rural area, there is a small society, what kind of people have, what kind of situation is complicated, for a person like you, you can't fight, you don't have a social background, and you still have to go up, in the past after being bullied by others, after going to the city, although you begged for food and drink, and suffered a lot of sins, but, don't think that if you have money, you will have everything, what do others think of you, do others believe in you?" In short, there are many indescribable things in this rural area, and you have rich social experience in these many indescribable things? In the countryside, they will not be famous, and they will not have any success, some are just thankless, some are just mothers-in-law, and some are just idle and busy. ”

Yes, the countryside is a strange field, from the collective ownership in the past, to the individual ownership now, from the past to the public grain, to the current contract production to the household, the current peasants are no better than the past, and they really can't do anything.

As I spend more time in the countryside, the more chaotic my confusion in the countryside becomes, so that the time I spend with Wang Aiying is getting shorter and shorter, and the feeling of you, you, me and me, and the taste of glue are becoming more and more cold.

That day, I returned home wearing dirty clothes, and was seen by Wang Aiying, the dirt on my body, plus the smell of soil, it was really difficult to explain, at this time, Wang Aiying didn't know where the fire came from.

As soon as we met, I was anxious to see her mood and was beaten by her second monk was confused, look at you like this, it's just the same as a child, I still joke with her, I said, I was originally a child, at this time I only heard her say, if you want me don't go to that ghost place, if you want to go to that ghost place don't want me, the two are selected by you, you want that one, you will make it clear to me now.

If you don't go now, think about what the situation is, what will others say about me, they will say that I am not capable, they will say that I look down on the peasants, that I am not qualified for the work of rural cadres, as for honesty or something, and other aspects, they are the objects they want to talk about. However, I love you very much, in order to catch up with you, I have worked hard, without your days I have no energy, without your appreciation of me, I feel that life is boring, what do you say I should do?

I didn't let you be at the beginning, you just couldn't bear it, others persuaded you to say that you can't find yourself, and don't say a word about such a big thing, I'm also afraid that you can't do well, and in the end, the result of failure can't be faced, listen to me, while it's not going deeper, talk to the leaders of the town, push this position, let people have the ability to do it, you still have so many things in the company now, can you be a person who can share it?

No matter what I told her, she didn't understand me, and at this time, I was really in pain.

This meeting broke up unhappily, and the energy of intimacy, the taste of lovesickness, and the eagerness to need help all made me fall into more pain with her departure.

On the road of love, at the beginning of a career, how do I choose?

I can't help but think of my uncle, if my uncle is here at this moment, I can confide in my uncle, relieve my depressed mood, let my uncle peel off the cocoon from the difficult process, and let my uncle say a few words of relief to me, what a precious thing, but looking at the office of Nuoda in front of me, that kind of lonely heart, coupled with my headache, there is really no place to complain.

Take stock of your own process, if it wasn't for going to the village, if it wasn't for building roads to do good deeds, if it wasn't for me to show myself, what could be the situation?

Just waiting quietly in the office, I don't want to see anyone, I asked the secretary to close the door, I was alone inside, I really said a thousand words.

The countryside does not support watching the excitement, the object is awkward, they are only planning for themselves, when they urgently need her support, she is so incomprehensible, not supportive, and pull back, I am really at the crossroads of life. At this point, neither is the left, nor is the right.

At this time, I thought a lot, why did she oppose me being this village official, and what interests did she involve?

If a person doesn't find something to do, if he can't move forward and retreats when he encounters difficulties, then what big things can such a person become? However, everyone needs a quiet environment and a stable environment, which is also human nature.

When it was time to eat at noon, I called Li Erhou, and I asked her what kind of wine she had received recently, I was going to get drunk once today, drunk for love, drunk for work, drunk for career, and I was going to numb my nerves through the effect of alcohol.