My mind is still not clear, and I am always wandering in my dreams. Because my concubine can't have children, I have been by my uncle's side since I was a child, that is to say, I passed on to my uncle. But my son is always dissatisfied with me, I feel that I am hugging * raised, not close at all, listening to the adults in the village said, I was very naughty when I was very young, my concubine is not to beat me, or to scold, sometimes beating and scolding together, is to see me unpleasant. When people see me being beaten and scolded, they will say this, it seems that it is not okay if I am not my own. However, it is the same reflection in my eyes, I get goosebumps all over my body when I see her, and I see my scalp from a distance.

When I was a child, she had a good time with me, that is, she led the man to my house, at that time my uncle was not at home, went out of the house, I was still young at that time, I didn't know anything about the world, but, with my life instinct, my memory is very good. I didn't like the man when I saw him, and I was very annoyed when I saw them together, but they also acted unnaturally.

One day, I came home from playing outside, and they were performing kung fu in bed, and it was ridiculous to see them panicked, and that very scared look, and that unnatural look. They asked me what I saw, I knew, if I told the truth, I would definitely not have good fruit to eat, I don't know where the spirituality came from, I lied to them for the first time, pretending not to care, I shook my head and said, "I didn't see anything" They saw that what I said was innocent, just that children didn't know about adults, they were obviously satisfied with my answer, and I said to me that I would give you a piece of candy, go to the east gable to play, and you will come home for dinner later......

I obediently took the candy cube and left, pretending to be happy, but I knew that he had brought a green hat to my uncle from now on.

There is also a deep memory of goodbye, at home I found a cover, that is the person and my concubine used, I saw others use this thing as a balloon blow, I also blow, I saw that uncle came to my house, snatched the cover, three times five divided by two to throw the gas into the toilet, and warned me, not allowed to play with this thing, remember?

When I was a child, I didn't have a few playmates, they were all bullied by people, in the happiness of adults, I was like that poor dog, by the way, not as good as the dog in the rich family, people's dogs have food and drink, there is a place to live, someone to see me, what do I have? People say that this child is a wild child, trained from a garbage heap, and this child will definitely have no future prospects.

When I reached the age of going to school, my aunt refused to let me go to school, saying that the family's economic conditions were not good, and that it was better to help the family farm than to study. At that time, I wanted me to help others herd sheep, and I told others that I was about to herd sheep for others, but my uncle disagreed, saying that the child was still young, and found enough reasons to convince others, just like that, the matter was put down.

Afterwards, when I heard people talk about this incident, I realized that my uncle was still good to me. It turned out that he had done this through the work of the concubine.

He said to the concubine: "You don't let you go to school, what do you think of us?" Let's just do it and show it to others, so as not to let others say that your aunt hates you, how bad is it to say this? Let's talk about it on the other hand, don't let others say that our baby doesn't know a word, in the future, if there is something in our family, you can also let him remember something for us, just like a few years ago when we went to the ground, we are the same as other people's families, but in the end it is a lot worse than others, and I don't know what's going on when I suffer a loss, and I have to pay for others if I am fooled. ”

In this way, my aunt was cleared, and I did my aunt's job well, and I went to school like all my peers.

In that revolutionary era, there were only two broken classrooms, in an environment where there was no fixed teacher, I finished primary school, even if my life's studies were completed, at that time my learning was quite good, the teacher often praised me, and placed hope on me, if the conditions permitted, I could continue to study, but, because of my aunt's reasons, let me do housework early, and let me fight for the family, since then, I followed my uncle to repair the earth in the vast world of the countryside.

When it comes to going to school, it's not that I brag about myself, I was very smart when I was young, I wrote the words in the textbook well, and I remembered the content of the textbook. The teacher said that I worked very hard, other people's children couldn't finish their homework, I finished it early, and I could go home for dinner, which is my honor.

When I was a child, I often had to let the old people in the village tell stories, sometimes the ghost stories I told made me afraid to go home, sometimes I told the stories of past characters, and often told stories in history, especially the stories of the Three Kingdoms, and I liked to listen to them. The wise Zhuge Liang, the righteous Guan Gong, the spear-wielding Zhao Zilong, and the cunning Cao Cao...... I have listened to these stories over and over again, and I often go to the theater with the adults, especially movies and the like, no matter how far away from our village, I have to run to watch them with the adults.

I came from the impression in the past, and I didn't know what Fan Jin was like at the beginning, but I clearly felt that there were two heavens in life. When I thought about the past, it was too long, I thought of the past, I felt so desolate, I thought of the past things were so ridiculous, and I don't think about the headache now......