An'an Baby:

Hehe, I know, when you see this title, you have to pout helplessly, and say to me, "Mom, I'm not a child anymore, can you stop calling me that", but Mom still wants to call you that again, this is really the last time, so, forgive Mom!

Maybe this choice of mine is cruel to you, but you are a man, you should have to bear more, so let your mother be selfish this time.

Others say that I am the happiest woman, with an excellent husband, an excellent son, a rich life, and I can have the life I want without hard work. I also feel that I am living in a fairy tale, and it is a fairy tale without bad people and tribulations.

But I have always known that the happy endings of fairy tales are not necessarily the final ending, and those endings are not necessarily happy.

I got married with your father under the arrangement of two parents, and I don't know what your father thought at first, but I know that after having you, he is really for this family. For so many years, he has been a good husband and father, he wants to give me a stable life and give you a good environment to grow up, for this, he has been working hard, and I ...... I can only try to take you well and not bother him.

I don't know what this kind of life looks like to others, but I envy my sister, who is Yiyi's mother, who can work hard with her husband and do her best for this family together, and can say to the child who will be born in the future, "Everything we have now, I and your father have worked together"

Everyone's lifestyle is different, and I've always remembered this sentence, so I know that what a happy person like me can do is to be so happy all the time and pass on this happiness to others, including you, baby!

Your grandparents agree with me as a daughter-in-law, after all, I was the one they agreed with at the beginning, and I am very glad that there are no other family's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law problems between us, so that I have always been very happy in this family.

So, when I have all this, I don't know if I have become fragile and cowardly, and when there is a crack in these happiness, I choose to turn a blind eye, so when the crack is big enough to shatter, I don't want to bear it.

The first time I learned about the existence of that woman and child, I heard someone mention it, and I didn't believe it. So, when your dad said again that he was going on a business trip, I followed him and followed him to another city. At the station, seeing the happy appearance of their family, I wanted to go up and ask him why, but all I did was quickly buy a return ticket.

When you come home and pretend you don't know anything, I cowardly thought, so that you will have a beautiful home, a complete home with a father and a mother.

I have reminded myself countless times that people are not for themselves, and God and earth will be destroyed, I am just for my children. But in the middle of the night, I clearly remember the crisp and immature child's voice when the child called his father, you have grown up, you can live well without your father, but for my own sake, let him be an illegitimate child for life?

After all the struggles I've done, I've decided to have a showdown with your dad. Your dad panicked and explained that he didn't want to abandon this family and abandon us.

He was just in a low period, I couldn't help but meet him, in my concept, there is no woman who can really live in that gray world regardless of her name.

However, that woman just did it, she didn't ask your father for a name, and even when the child was so old, she didn't mention asking your father to divorce me and give her and the child a name.

I can't complain about such people, and I can't hate them. Out of my pitiful pride and empathy, I decided to divorce your father anyway.

Your grandparents resolutely disagreed, I still remember the words that touched me very much, my grandmother said, "With you and An An, I will have a son and a complete family, if you are divorced, then I will have a daughter-in-law, a grandson, and no son!" ”

We are still secretly divorced, divorce does not leave home, in the Li family, I am still their nominal daughter-in-law, on the other hand, they can also be together in the name of righteousness, the child...... You can also have a father, a father who can pull out to meet people.

However, I miscalculated, I didn't think about how difficult such a day would be. On weekdays, I want to weave you a lot of reasonable excuses for your father's absence, at grandma's house, I still have to show affection with Ah Yuan, how painful that kind of pretended affection is, only I know.

A few days ago, there were a lot of things at home, your aunt's grandson got married, Ah Yuan and I were going to attend, your grandmother died, I was going to wear filial piety with Ah Yuan, and I was often together in and out of pairs, maybe it made her uneasy, she came to the house the day before yesterday.

She is beautiful and always has a gentle and soft tone. She said can you please me try to let her integrate into the Li family, since she has married Ah Yuan, she doesn't want to be on the edge of his family all the time, she will work hard to be a good daughter-in-law, to honor his parents for him, she doesn't want to see me bear this pain for them, my difficulties, pain...... She can understand that she wants to let me live my own life and have my own happiness.

What she didn't know was that now I -- I had a lot of unbearable, and I didn't want to announce the end of my fairy tale life, looking at those sympathetic eyes; I don't want my elderly father to know the other side of this son-in-law he fancies; I don't want to face my son's disgust at his father when he finds out; I don't want to see the little happy light that Yiyi sees, and finally it is extinguished; I don't want to see my husband's betrayal made known to the world.

In fact, having said so much, it's just an excuse, and it's human nature to want to escape if you can't bear it.

Don't blame yourself for not saving me, people who really want to die can't be saved, just like those who jumped off the building and were rescued, it's not that people found out early, they just want to have an outlet, as long as you find a high-rise building, go up to the top of the building and jump, no one can save it, isn't it?

I liked the clothes that Yiyi gave me, so I took them away, I always wanted a daughter, but unfortunately it didn't work. Yiyi, I have always regarded her as a daughter, that child is too autistic, you have to help her more, enlighten her, and you will support each other in the future, and when you each have a family, tell me, and my mother will be very happy.

Don't blame anyone, don't hate anyone, in this world, whoever is without can live, I can live without your father, I understand all these truths, but I am tired and tired.

He~ What a thick letter, writing this letter, my hands are so tired.

Finally, although I am not qualified to say so, I still have to say that no matter who it is, I don't want to see anyone follow in my footsteps again, and in the future, no matter what happens, please join my courage and live bravely.

Love Your Mother: Wen Jing Absolute Pen

17:30 on X/X/XX

There was not a single word of resentment in the four pages of the letter, even if it was sadness, she gently carried it, even at the end, she did not forget to note the time, telling herself that no one would come at this time at that time, and she would not be saved.

It's just that she also has her own unwillingness, otherwise she wouldn't have taken off the ring that has never left her hand.

Li Jinan didn't know how he should react now, even if he cried, there were no tears, all he could do was make a few phone calls and inform the people who should know to take care of the future generations.

He put away the thick letter and the ring, he didn't want others to see it, it was his mother's last pride and pride. I don't want Li Shiyuan to see it, he knows that he will blame himself in this way, so let him blame himself, someone should always pay for this.

A lot of people came to the house one after another, and he just sat on the sofa and sat still. He knew that Su Mo was coming, and later, his father also came, and he said that his father-in-law was old, so let me know at dawn, and then, he sat next to him. Someone was talking about the cemetery, the funeral, who to notify, in short, a lot of things. Later, Li Shiyuan was also pulled to make the final decision.

At dawn, my grandfather and uncle came, and Li Jinan heard their crying, and Li Jinan nodded in response to their comfort, but there was not a single tear that allowed him to vent his emotions.

In the afternoon, Li Shiyuan, Li Shiyuan's mother, Li Jin'an, Su Mo, Wen Jing's father Wen Yutang, younger brother Wen Jiahang, and some other relatives took Wen Jing's body to the crematorium.

The moment the body was sent in, the cry shook the house, and Su Mo and Li Jinan, who had not been able to cry, also burst into tears. Su Mo even thought that this was probably not to cry when he saw the coffin, because only then could he believe that the closest person would never be able to see it, and he would never ...... What a heartless two words.

By the time Wen Jing's posthumous affairs were finished, it was already 3 days later, Su Mo's mood had basically calmed down, but he was a little worried about Li Jinan, it took him a long time to accept it, but Li Jinan kept saying that he was fine, and he seemed to be in good spirits, so Su Mo went home.

There has been no one at home for more than 3 days, there is a little dust on the desktop, and Su Mo can't manage a lot, these days, I only feel physically and mentally exhausted, in Su Mo's world, only sleep is the best healing medicine.

This sleep is a day and a night, Su Mo is not stable in her dreams, she has been dreaming, there are many people in her dreams, she can't keep them when they come and go.

In the end, I was really desperate, so I shouted, "You all go・・・・・・ you all go・・・・・・ don't come back if you leave, I don't want to see you."

The voice was hoarse, and for a moment, Su Mo felt that he was really roaring out in reality, weren't those things already in the past? She didn't want to be like this, like a wounded little beast, hiding in a dark corner and licking its wounds, it was not good, she knew it. It's like this every time, when she is injured, she hides in her dreams to heal, and then, she is still the strong Su Mo.

But this time it seemed a little different, in that colorless dream, she felt a trace of warmth, a smell of food, a kind of homely warmth, just like before, when the family was still together, she finally fell asleep with peace of mind.