"Dad, to be honest, I used to resent it." Finally, I couldn't stand it anymore and took the lead in breaking the silent and oppressive atmosphere. However, as I spoke, my eyes remained unblinking. I saw a look of self-deprecation and relief on my father's face.

After a little relief, I continued, "But, you're my dad anyway. There is a good saying: 'Father and son have no overnight feud'. No matter how much I resent it, I can't change the fact that we are 'father and son'. Therefore, in the end, this father-son relationship will inevitably overcome the fleeting resentment. After a pause, I continued, "So, now, I really don't hold a grudge at all!" ”

Listening to this, my father's face became complicated. From my father's previous words, I could hear that he thought that what he had done before was a little unfair, and that it was right to incur my resentment. If I really resent my father, then my father would feel better. But now, I told my father very clearly that I did not resent him at all. Then, the father, who has long regretted his injustice, will blame himself even more in his heart. However, regardless of my past suspicions, my emphasis on the relationship between father and son inevitably moved my father's heart. Under the conflict and blending of many emotions such as regret, self-blame, and emotion, the father's inner world will inevitably fluctuate violently.

After a while, my father finally calmed down. "Do you know why I've been helping your brother?"

Seeing that my father didn't dwell too much on that sensitive issue just now, I suddenly felt a sense of relief in my heart. Actually, I can guess some of the reasons why my father blindly helped my younger brother, but now, can I still deal with my father? So, I had to shake my head in disbelief.

"Perhaps, you would think it's because of his young age. Of course, this is one of the reasons, but it is not the main reason. The main thing is actually because your brother doesn't have the ability to do it. I am a father, and you two are like the palms and backs of your hands in my eyes. I hope you two brothers are doing well. However, if you are young, your brother will not be as good as you. I'm not blind as a father, can't I see the contribution you made to the whole family before the separation? It stands to reason that I'm supposed to help you. However, you are already better off than your brother's family, if I help you again......" At this point, my father stopped, and he looked at me with straight eyes. After I gave my father an understanding look, he continued, "It's not that I'm ruthless as a father, it's that I have to balance. Your brother is not as good as you, so I can only help him so that he can catch up with you. Besides, I can't live a long life, I always have a time when I 'kick my legs' (in tongues, meaning the end of life). While you still have a breath, don't help your brother with some property, once you close your eyes, can I put my mind at ease? ......" As he spoke, his father's voice choked up.

Actually, I understand my father's feelings now. My father was so angry - he didn't admit his mistakes! I know that the more my father stresses this, the more he blames himself. When I was by my father's side, was he still thinking about how to gain my understanding and forgiveness? My father was a wise man, and he knew that if I didn't understand and forgive, I would never do it. Therefore, my father's explanation of some uncontrollable emotions was not so much to seek my forgiveness as to seek his own forgiveness. Of course, this also includes absolute trust in me. In my father's opinion, I didn't need to worry about him at all.

"Dad, don't do this. No one blames you. The younger brother is the eldest, and as a parent, he is used to being the elder, which is a normal thing. Really, no one will blame you! "I was afraid that my father's love would get out of control and become out of control, so I hurriedly spoke out to comfort me.

"No, I help your brother, not because he is the eldest!" When my father heard this, he immediately defended himself excitedly.

Of course, I understood the meaning of my father's words. However, in order to make my father's heart feel better, I think it would be better to comfort him from the perspective of common sense. After all, common sense is the most easily accepted by the public, so it is also the most convincing. Who would have thought that at this moment, my father would actually drill the tip of the horns.

"Yes, yes, yes! Dad, you help your brother, mainly because their family is not busy! "At this time, can I not follow his old man?

After listening to my explanation, my father's expression gradually calmed down. "So-and-so (the name of my nickname), if your family is not busy, I will also help you!" My father held back for a long time before he spit out such a sentence with some guilt. Seeing that I didn't react, my father asked in an impatient tone, "Don't you believe it?" ”

"No, no, I believe, I believe!" At that time, I was feeling that my father was a little abnormal today, and it seemed that there were too many words, so I was inadvertently a little distracted, "But, Dad, it's not easy for you to bring up the five of us sisters." In fact, after we start a family, we no longer need your old man to do anything. Therefore, it is not very important that this gang does not help anyone. Anyway, it's still the same sentence, no matter who you always help, but you are always the father of our five sisters, which no one can change! "The more I spoke, the more excited I became, and the more I spoke, the more firm my tone became.

As the father listened, he became excited again. My father may not have known what the other four were thinking, but he could clearly sense that my words were definitely from the heart. Otherwise, the son in front of him would not have served almost inseparably after he came back from the examination. What is the easiest thing to impress people in this world? There is no doubt that it is "true love"!

Father closed his eyes. I saw a little tear in the corner of his eye. Is it moving? Maybe. From my father's expression, I felt that there should be something more than moving! In the father's life, among the many children, the youngest son is the best. At that time, who did not have the idea of "patriarchy". Therefore, for this kind of partiality of the father, the three daughters who have been married like splashing water will never say anything. In the eyes of the world at that time, it was natural to be good to his son. If a father had only one son, he would never feel guilty now. But, by the contrary, the father had two sons. It stands to reason that now that the father is bedridden, the little son should rush to take care of him. However, in fact, it is the eldest son who really takes care of him! At this moment, my father will inevitably feel a little sorry for me. Therefore, the tears that fall from the tick also contain a little guilt