Chapter 144: The word love hurts the most
The queen is full of black lines, is she still the queen? It's a chick! The national teacher is the old hen who guards the cubs!
āā¦ā¦ Got it. The queen covered her ears, "You're too wordy! ā
She blushed a little and didn't know how to answer, so she had to hide in Chengyin's arms.
Seeing her embarrassed appearance, Cheng Yin reached out and took her into his arms and let her hide, he turned to the national teacher and said, "You said it so bluntly, the queen will be shy." ā
Ernar also felt that her face was a little hot, although she was a playmate of her childhood sweetheart, but after all, she was now the queen, and she was a national teacher, and she even had to ask about the queen's little things at night, which seemed to be a bit too much.
But this matter has to be mentioned, he doesn't want the queen to do something shocking on the spur of the moment, in the Jade Fuling Country, unmarried pregnant women will be despised.
In fact, Enar also knows that Mr. Chengyin has always grasped a degree.
If the person who came to Chengyin didn't refuse, something would have happened a long time ago.
"Okay, it's late, the two of you have said the same thing, then, it's time to go back to the palace." Cheng Yin took her hand, nodded to the national teacher, and said, "Mingzhi will naturally send it to the mountain pass, and I will send you to the outpost." ā
Of course, the national teacher knew that Cheng Yin was not simply sending him, and there should be some things to explain, so he nodded and sent the two out.
At the door, the queen hugged Ernar again; One; Root; Read; Novel yb+du said: "I will recite it silently a hundred times a day, and Enar will return safely!" ā
Ernar opened her mouth with a smile and asked, "Really?" You can't do it once, you have to count it well. ā
"Okay, okay......" The queen dug a hole for herself, and had to bite the bullet and agree.
It's a big deal to carve on the wood chips every day, and read it again and again.
Seung-yin took the queen's hand and walked up the stone steps in the dark.
"Brother Chengyin, I think...... Ernar seems to have matured a lot. The queen shook Chengyin's hand and stepped up the stairs step by step.
"Hmm...... He was five years older than you, and now he is an adult, like you are still a child. Chengyin pulled her and watched her play like a fawn.
"I'm not young anymore, and when this winter passes, the snow melts, and spring comes, I'll be fifteen years old." She retorted.
Cheng Yin squinted, he couldn't see his expression clearly in the dark, he looked at the flames jumping from the brazier guarded by the guards not far away, and sighed: "By then, it will be eight years......
"Hmm." The queen turned around with a smile, hugged Chengyin's waist, and asked with a smile: "Brother Chengyin, you came here at the age of twenty, and you will be twenty-eight years old next year!" You...... You ......"
She swallowed, endured and endured, and asked in a low voice, "You...... Ever thought about it, in, in, here...... Got married? ā
The voice is as thin as a mosquito.
Chengyin wanted to pretend that she didn't hear clearly, but when she saw her pursing her lips and tilting her head, waiting for an answer expectantly, she couldn't bear to make up for her response.
"I'm an outsider......" he said.
"Stop fooling me with that." The queen pouted, "I know you don't want to. ā
She kicked the steps with her hands behind her back and muttered, "You don't know how many women adore you, and if you want, they are willing to be your wives, but ...... But I don't want you to have so many wives. ā
Cheng Yin smiled and did not speak.
"Brother Chengyin." She hugged the man's waist again, soft and glutinous, "Because there are not many people here, everyone acquiesces that there is only one partner in life, except for Wang Ke, there are two or three, and everyone else is basically only loyal to their own partners, and my father Khan only has a woman, ...... Ana."
"I know that men in the Central Plains can have many wives and concubines, if ...... If...... You also want to have a lot of women, and I don't mind, really. ā
"As long as you become my husband, I can learn anything from the women of the Central Plains! If you want to be a Great Khan, you can also become a Great Khan, and my father Khan became a Great Khan after marrying my Ana. ā
She softly told her affection, and Chengyin's heart ached a little when she listened.
Love is the most **.
The word love is also the most hurtful.
Maybe it's happiness if you don't know anything.
Living in an illusion, will it hurt so much that the truth is revealed one day?
She is a simple girl, but she is not simple.
That little thing between men and women was known as early as when he was thirteen or fourteen years old.
The queen was a little discouraged when she saw that he had not spoken for a long time, she had expressed her thoughts more than once, but Chengyin basically did not respond to her.
Even if there is an occasional response, it is a rejection or perfunctory.
Chengyin saw her stomping her feet in the night breeze, waiting for her answer, raised her hand and stroked her cheek, and said, "You are a child, I am not, do you think I don't know the taste of lust like you, and I like what I like?" ā
"Do you like me...... You didn't say it once. The queen asked dissatisfied, puffing out.
Cheng Yin sighed, took her hand, put it in his heart, and said: "Some things, some feelings, just put them here, as long as you understand, what difference is there between saying and not saying." ā
"You women here will choose a husband at the age of sixteen, and then talk about it......"
The queen looked at him and did not speak.
Refused once, twice, three times, four times...... She didn't even know what Cheng Yin was thinking.
To say that he has no affection for himself at all, it is not like that, he is so tolerant and doting on himself, and there will be occasional kisses and hugs.
But why has it been and has not responded positively?
And not only did he not respond, but he also had a faint sense of rejection.
āā¦ā¦ Brother Chengyin, are you inconvenient to say something outspoken? The queen bit her lip, stood in front of Cheng Yin, and said seriously: "I can read other people's hearts, but ...... I never dared to remove the veil from my eyes in front of others. ā
"From a very young age, I knew that if I could easily know the true intentions of others, then no one would want to stay with me and be disgusted by others."
"Ana told me that sometimes, there are some answers, it is better not to know, she is with her father Khan, so affectionate, and never test her father Khan's heart...... I've always listened to Ana, and I've never used this ability on anyone else. ā
"I ...... I've been wondering, is the woman in the Central Plains really that good? We are a small country and a widow here, and there is no woman you can look at...... And that includes me......"
She sniffled, very aggrieved.
When she was very young, Ana died, and there were no close female relatives around her, and she didn't know how to express her feelings tactfully.
The two stood on the stone steps facing each other, and the queen stood on the top of the steps, but she still needed to look up at the man.
She has been looking up and admiring.
Ernar can grow to be as tall as him, but no matter how long he grows, he is still a child in his eyes.
Cheng Yin looked at her with a faint smile, leaned over and took her hand, put it to his lips and rubbed it gently.
"Yes, sometimes, I wish you could understand my heart......"
I think you get the idea.
I'm afraid you know.
Cheng Yin sighed, he has sighed too much recently, so much so that the queen will be frightened when she hears his soft sigh, she is afraid that Cheng Yin will tell her after the next sigh, I don't love you, I want to leave.
āā¦ā¦ I was in the Central Plains, and there were many women, not two or three, but ten, twenty, so many that I couldn't remember their names...... Now I can't even remember what I look like. Cheng Yin said suddenly.
The queen was stunned, she had never heard Chengyin talk about her affairs in the Central Plains, no matter how she asked before, he just smiled and said that he was nosy, but now when he opened his mouth, it was such an inexplicable sentence.
"Brother Chengyin, what are you talking about this?" She asked.
Cheng Yin smiled, looked at her and said, "Don't you want to know, do I have a woman who can be eye-catching?" ā
He paused and continued: "Many years ago, I knew a lot of women, and I also had a lot of women in my family.
"Later?" The Queen's eyes widened.
"Later, I left home, came all the way to the border, and then came here again, and lived here for a long time......," he said with a smile, "I have almost forgotten about the women in the family, and I guess I left and stayed, and I don't know how many are left." ā
The queen lowered her head, these words were not too surprising, although when she heard them, her heart still hurt very much.
She bit her lower lip, raised her head for a while, and whispered, "Brother Chengyin, IāI don't mind...... If you want them, take them over, and I can let them all live in the palace and I will give them the best things! If you're going back to see them, I can wait for you to come back, just ......"
As long as you're my husband.
The queen's voice also became muffled, and she herself felt aggrieved, but she really didn't mind giving them the best things, because compared to these, she couldn't stand Chengyin not being around.
This is the desert in the yellow sand, the scenery here is only snow and gravel, the weather here is only hot and cold, here is only a corner of the quiet, conservative and kind residents of the city.
She didn't have any capital to leave Chengyin, and she didn't give up all the courage to follow Chengyin.
She was born here, and she can only die here, this is the fate of her bloodline.
Cheng Yin felt that his eyes were a little sour, his smile faded, and he narrowed his eyes slightly.
He felt like his heart was being grasped, pinching it little by little, squeezing out his blood little by little.
"I have a wife."
He heard himself.
"Ming Media is married, eight sedan chairs, born in a famous family, virtuous and virtuous, as long as she does not commit the seven crimes, no matter whether I am at home or not, even if I am no longer alive, she is also the mistress of my family."
"The other concubines in the side room, it doesn't matter, but her status can't be shaken, this is the law of the Tang Dynasty and the reason of the Central Plains."