Alas, life is impermanent, the years are like frost knives, and people should be at peace with what they encounter and keep themselves clean. "The year after returning is getting younger, smiling, smiling with the fragrance of Lingmei. I asked Lingnan if it should be good, but he said: This place of peace is my hometown. Rou Nu Ben a song girl, living in Kaifeng, moved to Lingnan with the official, returned to Beijing a few years later, but looked younger than before, the style is still better than in the past, Dongpo Jushi Qizhi, then asked: "Lingnan miasma land, the terroir should not be good?" But the slave replied, "This place of peace is my hometown!" "If a man really comes in this way, he should be at peace, keep as big a bowl as he comes, and eat as much as he eats. Optimistic knows fate, pitching up by people, isn't it a choice of life, a kind of cultivation, a kind of realm!

- Master Du is back!

- Alas, why are you going to be sand for most of the year? Don't bring a letter into the house! Honglian is gone, it is said that her father forced her to marry, and asked her to marry in the mountain in the back mountain, I heard that she was married today! Well, this is the doorkey left by Red Lotus when she left, you see, there is something missing in the house. Where to say, what's polite, everyone lives next door, and it's right to take care of each other!

- Master Du, when Honglian left, she repeatedly told her not to go to her after you came back, and told you to live a good life at home, she didn't want the shops you opened in the town and the real estate in the city, and she didn't want to mention the past things, lest everyone tear their faces for something that can't be erased, and their faces are not good-looking!

"Red Lotus—"

Du Ruo stumbled over a mountain, the mountains and fields in the middle of the evening were full of green peaks, streams were singing, birds fluttered their wings in the forest as if sprinkled with a layer of broken gold, and the wind carried the fragrance of wild flowers to gently sway on the grass dyed orange by the sun. Du Ruo ran to a mountain pass in one breath, and in the shade of the green poplars in the distance, a pheasant crowed, but he did not hear it; A hare crawled in the grass, and with a brush, it swept off a cloud of dust, and he turned a blind eye. Du Ruogu stumbled forward, took a sip of the fragrance that might have been left after the red lotus walked on the mountain road, and touched the residual warmth on the mountain rocks that might have been left over from the red lotus's rest. Du Ruo only felt that his heart was cracking, his head was exploding, and the two lines of sad tears in his eyes flowed down endlessly, rolling down to the mountain road that Red Lotus might have walked on and the pile of rocks where Red Lotus might have rested

……

Du Ruo sweated profusely and ran up a mountain beam, and with the deafening sound of a cannon battle, a long greeting team on the mountain road came over. In front of the drum music is blowing suona, beating gongs and drums, playing a variety of musical instruments of the family band, in the middle is a four-person sedan chair decorated with a top cover and tassels, on both sides of the sedan chair there are two bridesmaids hanging red shawls, behind the sedan chair is a dozen firecrackers, throwing crumbs, distributing candy to welcome relatives and friends, the groom is riding a tall horse, wearing red flowers on the chest to walk in front of the team.

"Red Lotus—!"

Du Ruo rushed down the mountain beam with a roll, ran and jumped to stop on the road, and the people who greeted the relatives were all standing by the side of the mountain road after a moment of shock and confusion.

"Red Lotus, I'm back, let's go home, let's go home!" Du Ruofei ran to the front of the sedan car and grabbed the sedan door without saying anything. The groom jumped off his horse with sharp eyes and stepped forward to block the sedan chair. The two stared at each other angrily, and the instantly frozen air was filled with a thick smell of gunpowder.

"Red Lotus, I'm not in prison, I'm not a bad person, not even a contradiction among the people! They just locked me up in a farm in Xiangbei to hold a study class, and I was not allowed to write letters or send telegrams. I know you're suffering, living alone at home. But I couldn't help it, I was forced to shoot holes and blow rocks all day long, and I almost lost my life several times. I wanted to run several times, but I was caught back, I said that I miss you every night, I think you are pregnant, I miss you waiting for me at home. I had to grit my teeth and stand firm, looking forward to the stars and the moon as if I wanted to go home early, but I stood in front of you in a good manner. I will listen to you, and I will never paint again, so I will guard you; Don't mess with any more right and wrong, just accompany you to raise our baby, and I won't have those messy city dreams if I am killed. Let's go home, Red Lotus, let's go home! Du Ruo grabbed the sedan door tightly with both hands, and used all his strength as if grasping a life-saving straw, tears rolled down from his eyes, and even his voice was so sad and sad that he choked. Everyone around them changed color when they heard it, and they all turned their heads involuntarily.

"You go back, it's all up to this, what else is there to meet! Honglian is already a woman in someone else's house, if you are like this again, don't you want Honglian's life to fail! The red lotus cried, and almost lifted the hijab and rushed out of the sedan chair, but after a while, she sat down with tears streaming down her face, and put her hijab very resolutely together, while loudly telling the groom to get up the sedan chair.

"Honglian, let's go home, I really didn't go to prison, I'm really not a bad person, the road bureau came to apologize, and said that I was a typical self-taught person, and most of the year's salary was repaid, and the previous punishment was also canceled. The old lame man died of retribution, and he had a heart attack and howled in bed for seven days and seven nights before he died, and no one in the work area would ever harm me again, and he would never put me to death again. Go home or open a Shu embroidery shop, don't you like Shu embroidery to death, I went to beg grandma, begged her to teach me the technique, I will give you a good pattern. When you go home, if you don't forgive me and can't see me, I'll go to work, and you can't see me for ten days and a half, or I can see you for a year and a half. I begged my parents, and I was willing to break my kneecap. I beg the family that forced you to marry, let's pay more money, pay more care, beg them to have mercy on me, and let my wife and children go. Red Lotus, let's go home! Du Ruo stepped on the sedan chair with both feet, trying his best as if stepping on a life-saving cloud sail, and the feeling of ten thousand arrows piercing through his heart stabbed more and more violently around his body, and suddenly a thick liquid surged in his throat, and he opened his mouth and spewed out a mouthful of blood when he was in danger. The faces of everyone who were about to get up the sedan changed suddenly, and they all put down the sedan chair in a panic and turned away in spite of it.

"You go back, just treat me as if I am dead, the people in the mountains pay attention to good days and auspiciousness, you will not be in my happy day, and you will also want me to be charged with silver!" Red Lotus once again shouted the order to get up the sedan chair, but everyone seemed to stand still as if they were rigid, and suddenly heard a rumbling sound, and a burst of frightened screams sounded in their ears. Honglian suddenly felt bad, pulled off the hijab, stepped out of the sedan chair with a big belly, and now Du Ruo fell down beside the sedan chair covered in blood, and the corners of his mouth were still bubbling with blood, "Brother Ruo, what's wrong with you?" ”

Du Ruo's face was pale, and he stood up with a dying breath, wiping the puddles of blood from his mouth with his hand, "It's okay, Red Lotus, it's okay!" I'm not going to die, I haven't seen our baby born yet. I'm a cheap life, no one has ever cared about me, no one has ever treated me as a person, everyone treats me as a pile of shit, and throws feces on my head at will; Everyone treats me as a scumbag and spits in my face at will. I have walked in this world in white and human skin, and I have walked in this world in vain. It's good to be dead, if you're dead, you won't see this human tragedy, and if you're dead, you'll be out of sight and out of mind! Since I can't add glory to my ancestors, and I can't bring blessings and shade to my wife and children, so that my wife will marry with her belly up, what face do I have to live in the world, and what face do I have to suffer from jealousy! It's better to die, if you die, you won't be jealous, and when you die, you can go back to your hometown and be buried with my father in the ancestral grave! I just don't understand, wasn't the store closed when I was arrested, isn't there still money in your hands, the work area doesn't pay us wages, and we are not people who live on this salary, can it be said that you can't live for a while, you have to get married to get by. Isn't it that you also look down on me and treat me as a bad person, and the public security will break your face by arresting me in front of so many people? If you want to break up, you want to take our unborn child to get married, and I can't stop you, our family has never been up to you. But why don't you wait for me for a few days, wait for the organization to deal with me, and then stab me in the heart so indiscriminately, and abandon me to the Jedi like this. You don't know that you are the meat of my heart and the person next to me, without you, how can you tell me to live in the future, and how to live in this ravine! ”

"Brother Ruo, you just forget about the red lotus, the red lotus really has no face to stay by your side anymore!" Honglian turned sideways, lifted the corners of her clothes and wiped the tears that poured out of her eyes in an instant, and saw that Du Ruo was still wearing the clothes she wore when she was taken away, and the blood stains on her body were so dirty that they didn't look like they, giving people a fishy smell, her hair was unkempt and stained with dirt and dandruff, her chin was actually covered with cheeks and sideburns, and the whole person was so thin that only a pair of bones remained, and she couldn't help but lie on the edge of the sedan chair again, crying loudly.

"Red Lotus, I can't stand you, you have suffered and suffered with me, and you have suffered sins, why should you detain these vulgar rites anymore, bear these false reputations, and abandon me to live with others! If you don't dislike it, I'd rather work than work, let's go far, where the loess doesn't bury people! As long as I have you, as long as I can stay with you, I will pull rickshaws and shine shoes on the road, and I will do everything I want; is to go up the knife mountain and down the sea of fire, frowning, it is not raised by his parents! Du Ruo grabbed the sedan bar to catch his breath, opened his mouth and spit out blood, desperately trying to keep the red lotus's will to support him to stagger to his feet, and his body was crooked in front of the sedan chair like a candle in the wind.

"It's a shame that you can say it!" Honglian suddenly twisted her body, her eyes of love and hatred stared straight at Du Ruo's face, and her face was filled with pain like weeping blood in the thick resentment, "You have deceived me enough by hiding from the gods and ghosts!" You keep saying that you love me, because I can do this and that, I can't wait to hold up the sky with one hand! I have a big belly, and I'm dying of pain in bed, where are you? Aren't you drawing your picture! I'm so sick that I'm dying, I've been counted down by my family all night, and I've been washing my face with tears all day long, where are you? Don't you just say a word or two and don't come to the door of my house for three months! My aunt has no children and no daughters, I went to see her, and gave her some pocket money when I left, and you were not happy. Do you really love me? Are you honestly like me? Don't think that if you read a few sentences of a book and can draw a few pictures, you can hide and play tricks, puff up Lao Gao's tail, and others won't know what you pulled! Are you falling short? Are you a failure? If you really got your wish and really became a famous painter with a reputation, you would still look at me with the corners of your eyes, I would have been a yellow-faced woman a long time ago, and I would have been thrown out of the clouds as a worn ragged clothes and old waste! This square garden is dozens of miles, who knows you, who doesn't know you, who doesn't know that you have great ambitions, and who doesn't know that you want to marry a beautiful woman in the city in your sleep and dreams! Otherwise, you will go to your class and take your money, An Ansheng's daughter-in-law and son can buy soy sauce and vinegar, and it will be my turn to be a yellow-haired girl who is more than ten years younger than you to follow you! You said that you have delayed your age and youth, for the sake of ideals, for art, and for the beautification of life! Let me ask you, where are the many people in the whole work area, they don't have ideals, they don't live for it? I think any of them are better than you! You are the heart of the melon with the bitter melon in the mouth, the gourd in the heart, and the melon in the mouth. There is no money to climb high branches, it doesn't matter if you go through the back door, and you have eyes on your forehead, you think you are superior, and you are not happy to stay in this ravine for a lifetime. That's why I pretended to be a hypocrite who didn't look up to people's snorts and didn't look at people's eyebrows, and only then did I make a look like a scholar who was a gatehouse and a house, and studied hard, which made me treat the faint poisonous weeds as a fragrant flower, and the annoying shit as a flattering golden egg, which was laughed at and ridiculed! ”

The more Red Lotus rushed upwards for a while, her heart sank, the more she thought about the past, the more she surged like a mountain, the more she looked at the eyes, the more heartbroken she became, the more she felt that the resentment accumulated in her chest poured out, and the tears of sorrow accumulated in her eyes were like rain, "In the past half a year, you know how I got through!" Before the wedding took place, you were arrested, and the evidence of the crime was that you painted [***] pictures for me. You are a big man, don't worry, your face will cover up as soon as you blush. I am an unmarried girl's family, naked [***] to model for you, after the spread of the four towns and eight villages, people spit on me with bad intentions, and they are not happy to splash dirty water on our house! I bolted the door and closed my door, not eating or drinking, and cried alone at home for days and nights. I think I'm losing my face now, I'm ugly, and I'm scumbag. I still have something I can't erase, you just sit through the bottom of the prison, the black-haired man sits into a white-haired man, I also want to break the jar, drink the bitter wine I brew by myself, eat the bitter fruit I planted by myself, and wait for you to come back! A group of my classmates came to persuade me, and I said that it wasn't a family that didn't know what to do, and there weren't a few crooked neck trees in front of someone's house! My aunt tears and snot, tried her best to persuade me, I said that a good horse is not worthy of a second saddle, a good woman does not marry a second man, Lian'er was born a member of the Du family, and died is a ghost of the Du family. My father banged the door of our house and smashed our pots and pans to pieces, and I fell to my knees without a word and tears. I said that Dad Lian'er has to fall hard and have a hard job, and if you eat, you have to eat a pile of hard, if you have to force Lian'er to walk out of this house, Lian'er will be killed on the threshold! I was at home desperately observing the festival for you, determined to maintain this family, and where were you? You don't write a letter to your home, you don't hang a telegram at home, you don't even know how to call home! My belly is getting bigger and bigger, and my body is getting worse day by day. One night I suddenly became violently ill, nausea, vomiting, a burning pain in my head as if it had exploded, and my limbs were numb as if they were rigid. I turned white with fright, and my heart was pounding. I wanted to drink saliva, but no one answered when I shouted through my throat; I wanted to go to the hospital, and in the lonely hut of the work area, there was only the sound of wind, water, and the endless chirping of insects and birds. I think I'm probably done with it, born low and died humiliatingly! I didn't regret taking medicine in the world, my parents and family prevented me from taking this path, and my classmates and friends persuaded me to make a mistake and become a thousand years of hatred. They are all kind-hearted, and I treat them as donkey livers and lungs; They are all genuinely good for me, and they have been left behind by my old brain. Nowadays, people are about to die, and there is no one to pity when their eyes are bleeding, so they want to understand these principles of life. This is my retribution, this is the greatest punishment God has given me! ”

Red Lotus said here with blood and tears, and the blood and tears in her stomach made her suddenly sobbed and breathless, and raised her eyes to look at Du Ruo, who had a withered face and looked shaky on the side of the sedan chair, and couldn't help but soothe her tone with pity, and stretched out her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, "I finally survived until dawn, and begged someone to send me to the hospital, the doctor said that it was a pregnancy reaction, which was the result of long-term malnutrition and neurasthenia." The doctor said reproachfully, what about your lover, your family, it is very dangerous for you to spoil yourself regardless of it, and you can't keep adults and children if you don't get it! I smiled bitterly, tears streaming down my face. What can I say, I can say that I am a family member of a prisoner, and that you have broken the law without knowing it, and you have been arrested by the public security organs! I can say that I shamelessly made mistakes, abandoned by my parents and family, and left unattended like a dog's tail. I can say that my life is in danger and I deserve to die, and it is purely unnecessary to come to the hospital! I could only put my fist in my mouth, bite my teeth out and swallow it in my stomach, and let the tears on my face flow down my face......"

Honglian seemed to sigh more and more sadly, and her extremely sad eyes crossed Du Ruo's shoulder, looking at the richly decorated sedan chair behind her, but her sad and mournful voice slowly became resolute, "No matter what you say, no matter how difficult it is, I have to keep the child, the parents are already people are not like people and ghosts, but what is wrong with the child, you can't kill the child's life because the parents are in a desperate place, since I am happy to have him, I will happily give birth to him to the ground." I asked my aunt to come to my house to take care of the store and hand over the store to Fen'er. I never expected that the house leak was even rainy, the boat was broken and the head wind was encountered, at this time the sky was also dark, the ground was also dark, I was not even the legal age of marriage, unmarried and pregnant, a moment of disaster and disaster, human affection, I was in danger! The cadres in charge of family planning in the township ran home twice in three days, saying that I had an unplanned birth, which violated the national policy, and that I would have a fetus no matter what, and one person would be sterilized, and the whole family would be honored; If one person is overborn, the whole family will break the law, otherwise he will hit the muzzle of the gun and punish the superborn household is not a joke! The leaders of your work area also came to the door one after another, spitting and splashing their mouths, saying that Du Ruo was still in the detention center to explain the problem, and the matter had not yet been decided, and if he committed a crime and was sentenced, he would immediately be dismissed from his job and expelled from the road, and he would not be an employee of our unit at that time. You have to move out of the single dormitory as soon as possible, it's not that we don't show affection, the state has a tight grasp of family planning, and the leader's political achievements are a one-vote veto system, and if you give birth to a child in our unit, our responsibility will be greater, and if you can't make it possible, the people in the whole work area will have to follow and walk around without food. You are a virtuous person, be sure to understand our difficulties, be sure to leave, go as fast as possible, don't blame us for being ruthless, don't talk about face at all!

"That day was a cold moon and a bleak night in the mountains. A large group of people from the township, such as family planning, civil affairs, and police stations, came to my house in two jeeps in a menacing manner, and the snow-bright headlights of the car pierced the night sky like two sharp swords, and the sand and dust rolled up behind the car flew like a tornado. They tried their best to arrest me and take me to the village to have a baby. For a while, they shouted loudly like a king, banged on the door like a demon, and more than a dozen people rushed into the house like a gust of wind, and the family planning cadres headed by me took a flashlight to shine on my face, and suddenly the two township cadres quickly grabbed my arm like catching chickens. I struggled desperately, howling desperately, tears pouring down like a torrential rain. My dad hurried to the door, nodding his head like a chicken pecking rice, and he smoked for them, while my mom and aunt grabbed my arms and protected me.

"'Witnessing pregnancy, giving birth with a certificate, whoever does not practice family planning will let his family be ruined!' Two police officers pointed at my nose with electric batons. 'I'd rather have a broken family than a country, I'd rather shed a river of blood than have more than one child!' The family planning cadre's face was gloomy, and his sneer was like the tongue flame of a poisonous snake, which was terrifying and terrifying. 'Lift up your hands and spare my daughter, who is more than eight months pregnant!' My mother burst into tears and snot and almost fell to the ground crying. 'Be kind, and spare my niece, for she is a human being for this child!' My aunt cried and choked up, and she wanted to fall to her knees. 'It's really a toast and no food! How dare you obstruct official business! Dare to resist law enforcement! The two policemen drove my mother and aunt away with their electric batons, and the four township cadres grabbed their hands like wolves and grabbed their feet, and lifted me up and walked out of the door.

Seeing this, my dad was reluctant to block the threshold with his life, and his forehead was blue and purple, and he was covered with blood. My mother and aunt also stumbled to their feet and dragged me to death, not letting me be carried out of the house. I shouted like a pig, scolded Lao Tzu and scolded Lao Tzu, and desperately wanted to keep the child's firm belief that I would sacrifice my life to catch the face of the township cadres and kick the face of the township cadres. At this time, the people who rushed over after hearing the news were filled with righteous indignation and blocked the door of the house, some hated that they could not lift the car of the township administration's axe, and some hated that they could not split the people of the township cadres, and the crowd inside and outside the house was boiling like a fried pot. At this time, the old village chief also rode a motorcycle all the way to rush over, and said that the leaders, misunderstanding, the same bowl of rice, the same pot is my nephew's daughter-in-law, yesterday's marriage certificate, although my nephew is a little stupid, but the inheritance is not ambiguous at all, this is the marriage certificate, the leaders have seen it, although the birth of a child is a little early, but the lotus sister is willing to fine, 10,000 yuan is not enough, 20,000 yuan is OK, the leaders must not look at the monk face to see the Buddha face, my nephew is not easy to get married, this kind of rather demolish ten temples, If you don't break up a marriage, I hope that all leaders will raise your noble hand! The township cadres looked at each other, the villagers applauded, and I was kicked down on the ground. My mother and aunt supported me left and right, and my mother said that Lian'er is your mother's heart, you just listen to the old village chief, push and grind with the wind, borrow the steps and go down, you want to abuse yourself like this without skin and face, Mom's heart hurts! In case there is a three-long and two-short that goes so unexplained, will my mother still survive in the future? My aunt also said that Lian'er, you are a smart person, sensible, can bend and stretch, can be noble and cheap is an old saying passed down through the ages, our two-legged people must not fight with four-legged beasts, there is no shame in eating, drinking, wearing and wearing! My father also looked up with a bloodstained face, and his old tearful eyes radiated a heart-palpitating sorrow and bitterness: Don't tell her so much, just ask her or the people in our house? Yes, she chooses two ways, she wants to be iron-hearted to live with that scoundrel, she has to beat this evil seed in her stomach, our Zhuang family, we have lost enough ugliness, and we can't afford to lose this person anymore, unless she forces our whole family to death! She wants to be confused, drill into the horns of the cow, and leave this evil seed, she has to cut off with this scoundrel, the land in the mountain is very wide, and she will listen to the old village chief and his nephew for a lifetime! I held my hands sweaty, trembled and stood up, wiped a handful of tears from my eyes like a bitter spring, and took the marriage certificate from the old village chief. I said uncle, thank you for saving Lian'er like fire and water, but Lian'er's words have to be explained, Lian'er's red gauze tent is the Du family's people, and the loess is the ghost of the Du family, your family can get Lian'er's heart, but can't get Lian'er's body, Lian'er swore to Guanyin Bodhisattva, this life will be a good life to take care of your nephew, like a brother to take care of him for a lifetime! I knelt down and kowtowed to the township cadres, the bloated body almost suffocated my breath, I said thank you for saving my child's life, the fine will be sent to the township every other day, the great grace and virtue will not forget in this life! I knelt down and moved to my parents again, my knees were full of worn blood, I said Dad thank you for everything you have done for Lian'er, Lian'er eats your food and serves your bowl, Lian'er knows what to do, you let Lian'er go back to the railway area again, clean up there, Lian'er will marry as you wish! The township cadres all left in a sound of frustration and disappointment, and the neighbors also left the house in a sigh of embarrassment. Accompanied by my mother and aunt, I went to the railway work area again, and I put all your books in order, covered the desk with plastic paper, and collected all the pictures you had drawn. I locked the jewelry you bought for me in a drawer, folded all the clothes you bought for me and put them in the closet, and sealed the passbook you gave me in an envelope. I didn't wear a single piece of your clothes, I didn't take anything from you, and the real estate deeds and account books all pressed your pillow down! I took one last look at the door that was locking, and I couldn't help but cry again. I know that I will never be able to step on this door again, I will never be able to look down on the east and west of this house, and I will never be able to enter this sad and desperate place that has given me happiness and pain

……”

"Red Lotus, you said it was all for me! You said it was all for me! Du Ruo was inexplicably sad and indignant for a while, and took a step forward with grateful, his eyes full of tears full of hope and expectation.

"If brother, let's go, you will hate Red Lotus in your heart, Red Lotus is originally from the mountains, and she shouldn't be with you, I will bring up the child. Don't come in the future, the mountain people are grumpy, if you make trouble for this kid pig who doesn't like dogs, Red Lotus will only die in front of you! Honglian raised her sleeves to wipe the corners of her tearful eyes, blocked the front of the sedan chair sideways, and stretched out her hand to stop Du Ruo, who was about to cross the sedan chair, "Brother Ruo, just listen to Honglian's words, hurry up!" ”

Du Ruo was discouraged for a while, and he couldn't help but take a step back, looking at the face of the red lotus, whose tears were still dry, full of unmoved and loyal expressions, and seeing the eyes of the red lotus's tears, there was a stubborn look that was not felt at all, and he sighed sadly, wiped the wet blood and tears on his face, and couldn't help but plop down on his knees under the guilty mentality of the subconscious for a while, "Red Lotus, if my brother kneels down for you, please look at the past feelings, and raise the child Chengren." You should open the calligraphy and painting shop in the town, the house should be left as the property of the children, the things in the small station house, if you see that it is useful, ask someone to move it, if it is useless, please help throw it all away. If my brother listens to you, he will leave alone, and he will go wandering in a foreign land and wandering the world. If my brother can't bear to see you suffer in the mountains, if my brother has no face to stay in this ravine anymore! If the elder brother is still alive, he will send you and your mother and son living expenses. In case my brother goes to Huangquan, please tell the child that his surname is Du, he once had an angry father named Du Ruo, don't forget to light a stick of incense and burn a few pieces of paper in the direction of my hometown every year. If my brother is grateful, I will not forget your great kindness under Jiuquan

......" After Du Ruo finished speaking, he kowtowed three times in a row, then stood up with the edge of the sedan chair, walked down the mountain road leisurely, and finally glanced at the grief-stricken red lotus standing beside the sedan chair with a big belly, and walked out of the sunny grass outside the mountain

……

"Brother Ruo—!"

The past is gone, and the end is over.

Red Lotus, it is you who send me to the apex of happiness, and it is you who push me down the abyss of pain. You weren't supposed to be in my life, and you weren't supposed to be associated with someone of my notoriety. Old man under the moon, why bother to tie our feet with a red rope; Cupid's arrow, why did one arrow make us both. Maybe you didn't offer Aphrodite an embroidered belt, or maybe I didn't swear to the bridge on the night of the seventh of July. It's over, it's all over now, everything

……

The day began to dawn, the night receded quietly on the vaulted roof of the exhibition hall, and the buildings around the square were gradually becoming clear in the biting cold wind of the morning light. Not like the mountains, the morning light lights up at the end of the white stream, the night darkness recedes from the depths of the dark valley, a bird flutters its wings on the hazy branches of the morning mist, and follows the birds in the forest to sing, the mountains are also green, the water is also green, and the mountains and rivers are clear and clear

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Go back, don't be naïve. People have their own trajectory on their own life path, don't be whimsical, try their best to pursue what they can't get, and plan what they can't do. Follow the circle drawn for you by the Creator in the underworld, rise and fall with the world, and society will naturally give you a piece of the pie! Let's get by with the circle of life, work, and social circles! Because there are thousands of acres of fertile land, it is said that food is no more than a bucket; There are thousands of mansions, and the night bedroom is only eight feet. Otherwise, the birds that fly high will die of gluttony; The fish in the deep pool will die of incense bait. Always keep in mind that money is something outside the body, beauty is a pink skeleton, and power is a passing cloud. Otherwise, the wood is beautiful in the forest, and the wind will destroy it; Heaps out of the shore, and the flow will be turbulent. If you risk the condemnation of the world, those who take the wrong medicine and pink eye will rise up and attack them in groups, and you will not give up until your water chestnut is smoothed, the spikes are wiped out, or you even suffer from neurosis. Originally, everyone is picking a spoon in a pot, who should come out first, the rafters are rotten first, this is the lazy surname of society, this is the inferior surname of the people, whether you oppose it or submit it, it has been thousands of years, and it has been endless!

Du Ruo stood up, curled up his paralyzed legs that had been lying stiff all night, glanced at the gate of the exhibition hall that was gradually showing in the faint morning light, wiped the tears on his face that had long since dried up, and walked towards Jiangcheng Avenue like a tree. Some people say that half of a man is a woman, and everyone is looking for half of themselves, since the originator of mankind was forcibly separated, everyone longs to reunite with their other half, regardless of narrow moral prejudices, and regardless of the secular rituals that bind people, people are always people. But where is half of Du Ruo's? Where is Du Ruo's path? Maybe Du Ruo was born to be a perfect person, and there is no other half to look for at all! Maybe Du Ruo's luck has not arrived, and the other half who is dragging his bones and tendons is still waiting for him on the road ahead!

After all, there is a metabolism in personnel, and the exchanges are ancient and modern, and life always has to go on step by step......