Inheritance, absorption, transcendence

——Talking about the new attempts and new achievements of Chinese painter Du Ruo

In recent years, many young and middle-aged painters, in order to make Chinese painting, which has a long history and fine tradition, more brilliant, and make it stand forever in the world of art, have the courage to break through the ruts, make bold attempts, and deliberately seek innovation, and there is no shortage of people who have made achievements in this regard. And I think that the young painter Du Ruo is one of the best, and he is a trendsetter on the road of innovation.

Du Ruo came to the depths of Bashan as a teenager and worked as a road maintenance worker in a small mountain station with only a dozen people. Du Ruo's representative works are "Morning", "Shepherd Girl", "Golden Autumn", in these works, he integrates his personal concepts and pursuits into his works, he puts the special feeling in Bashan, the broad artistic conception of the unity of man and man, expressed on the picture, his works, indeed a blockbuster, impressive, so "Fine Arts" magazine, "Gongbi Painting Album", "Selected Contemporary Youth Paintings" and so on have selected his works, and give high praise.

Today's "Art World" published Du Ruo's masterpiece "The Girl by the Stream", this painting is mature from the content to the form, all those who have seen this painting are highly respected, and has been widely praised by the art world and society, from this painting, we see both his pious inheritance of Chinese painting, but also see that he does understand what is worthy of inheritance and development, at the same time, he boldly put the world art, skillfully absorbed into Chinese painting, although it feels like Chinese painting, but the connotation is rich, The artistic conception is far-reaching. I believe that Du Ruo's ambition to make modern Chinese painting surpass that of his predecessors will be realized.

China Times - Introduction of the artist

Wonderful pen Danqing to create chemical skills

- Remembering the young painter Du Ruo

Du Ruo is good at freehand flowers and birds, on the basis of inheriting the traditional techniques of freehand flowers and birds in the Song, Yuan, Ming and Qing dynasties, he concentrates on pondering, deliberately seeks innovation, and gradually forms his own unique style. His works are novel in conception, rigorous in discipline, simple and vigorous, chic in pen and ink, both form and spirit, and vivid in charm. While emphasizing the interest of pen and ink, we strive for lofty artistic conception. He does not simply seek to please the audience's senses, but pays more attention to enlightening the reader's soul and achieving the purpose of pleasing the eye. Among his many works of flowers and birds, pine cranes, eagles, and cold plums are particularly powerful. He learned from the strengths of many families, absorbed new painting methods, and created batches of innovative works, especially his "Girl by the Stream" was well received by the calligraphy and painting circles.

"Yangtze River Newspaper" - work appreciation

- The rhyme of dot painting

Remember the railway painter Du Ruo

At night, it was late, drinking tea and listening to the rain alone. Tea is far away, and the autumn rain is thick. The world, soaked in an emotion. Approaching those pictures again, I try to interpret the truth and remoteness that the young painter Du Ruo's pen presents.

Du Ruo exiles nature with a transparent and flexible heart, looks at the world with his eyes, and paints the world with his brush. It can be seen that in the process of learning from the law, Du Ruo's wise eye captured the accumulation of "dots", a perfect combination of form and meaning, and he realized that dot painting is more suitable for the expression of people and scenes. He believes that the continuation of the dots is a swimming line, and the convergence of the dots is an infinite surface, each ink dot, faint and thick, fine and fragmented, constructing each painting and the dream of each painting. It is precisely because of the contrast of many brushes and ink dots that Du Ruo's simple picture flows with the rhythm of sound, and a layer of thought spreads on the concise composition, and his "Water Girl by the Stream" has this kind of charm.

"People's Railway" - railway painter

It's almost time to reach the top of the slope of the Daihuang Highway.

Du Ruo stood on his heels, pulled the towel tied to the handle of the cart, wiped the sweat on his forehead, bent down to pull up the full car, and walked out of the slope to the top of the slope. At this time, the sunset has sunk in the vast sea of clouds in the western sky, and the cloud belt above the top of the slope is like a painted mountain peak, and the fragrance of pine leaves and cypress is very strong. In the past six months, Du Ruo has been incognito, alone in the Jiangcheng Hanxi Railway Freight Yard as a porter, although lonely, tired, and without any life security, but a month, he can earn more than 100 yuan. Every twenty-five days, Du Ruo always cleans himself up, gets a haircut, shaves, changes into a white-washed suit, and goes to the post office after receiving the money, sending living expenses to Honglian's mother and son, sending living expenses to Sang Chen's college education, and not forgetting to send festival expenses to his hometown during the New Year's holidays. It was only on this day that Du Ruo felt that he was still an individual, and he could still fulfill his obligations and responsibilities as a person. More often, Du Ruo feels that he is a dog, the dog still has a nest, and he can fill his stomach with three meals a day, Du Ruo always sends more money with all he has every month, and it is fortunate to leave a fraction of it for himself. He slept in a bathhouse, just to save a night's accommodation and help other boilermen add water and coal in the middle of the night; He slept in the cabin and helped the boatmen look after the ship's cables just to save a few days of accommodation. He once explained the calligraphy and paintings on the Yellow Crane Tower to people on the Yellow Crane Tower without a grain of rice for a day, and was fortunate to mix a bowl of instant noodles to eat; He once commented on the story of the guqin platform on the guqin platform without drinking a drop of water for a day, and was fortunate to win a bottle of mineral water to drink. Sometimes he was so hungry that his eyes were dazzled, and he wandered all night at the head of Parrot Island in order to relieve hunger, and he also wanted to learn from the poet Immortal Taibai to sink into the river and fish for the moon under the Chengling Rock, but when he thought of his son who had never met before, and the red lotus who had lived so much for him, he resolutely dispelled the idea of suicide, and mustered up the courage to live again; Sometimes he is really sick and his legs are weak, and he spends all day on the Yangtze River in order to drive away the disease, he also imagines the poet Lao Du traveling west in a flat boat on the edge of the Xiangjiang River, but when he thinks that he has been sinking with the dog for half a lifetime, and his wife is separated and his reputation is ruined for painting, he resolutely gives up the idea of being world-weary, and has strengthened his confidence to fight again. He walked hungrily through the streets and alleys of Jiangcheng, just to find some work; He searched all over the construction sites in Jiangcheng with dust on his face, just to be able to do odd jobs. Later, he found a job to help people deliver goods in the railway freight yard more than ten miles away from the city, at first he used a flat pole to pick it up, and then he used a board car to deliver it, and at night he stayed in an abandoned duck shed more than a mile away from the freight yard. When there was no work to do on rainy days, he went to the Academy of Fine Arts to listen to lectures, went to art museums to copy, and at night went to the city library to read books rain or shine, and went to the antique bookstore to pottery books. I tensed my nerves like crazy all day long, listened to this lesson, listened to that lesson, read this book and read that book; For a moment or three, he pressed his needs low as if he was stupid, and he did not care about the world or himself. The only consolation is the imaginary portrait of his son, who hangs at the head of the bed in the duck shed and can be seen every morning when he opens his eyes.

Du Ruo suddenly felt that the cart was light, and when he turned his head, he saw someone behind the car pushing a bicycle with one hand and helping him push the cart with the other. Du Ruo smiled gratefully and increased his pace to pull up the slope. Kankan pulled to the top of the slope, Du Ruo put the cart on the side of the road, and took out a bottle of mineral water from his bag. The man parked his bike in the back of the car and looked back with a smile. Du Ruo's face changed suddenly, his fingers couldn't help but tremble, the mineral water fell to the ground with a bang, and he hurriedly pulled up the cart and was about to walk past the man.

"You go, you have the ability to never recognize me, you Du Er pole who can only escape from reality!" Ren Yan grabbed the handlebar, and looked up with a surprisingly red face, her eyes fixed on Du Ruo's face.

"Eldest sister, you ...... You've mistaken someone, I'm ...... I don't have the surname Du, I'm just a cart! Du Ruo lowered his head in pain, tears blurred his eyes instantly, and he was incoherent for a while, like a patient who was not healing.

"If you don't recognize me, it's okay, I'll only say three words, it's up to you whether you listen or not!" Ren Yan hated it for a while, and couldn't stop her angry tears, "Your painting "The Girl by the River" won the award, the first prize of the all-road art competition, and the road bureau sent it to the exhibition!" Seeing that Du Ruo was still indifferently pulling the handlebars, looking at the ground with a dull gaze, Ren Yan snorted hatefully, "Honglian was kicked out of the house by her in-laws, and now she lives at her aunt's house, this is a photo of your son!" ”

"You...... What did you say! Du Ruo's heart was shocked, a wisp of tears flashed in his suddenly dilated pupils, he put down the cart with a bang, snatched the photo from Ren Yan's hand, and cried with a handful of snot and tears.

Ren Yan was bitter for a while, with a bitter taste in her throat, and took out a handkerchief to wipe away the tears on her face, "I just came back from the mountains, and in order to find you, I ran all over the mountains." You are so ruthless, you are in Hanxi, but you went to Wuchang to send money, and I have been looking for this for half a month. I also looked for the duck shed where you lived in the morning, and I knew it was you when I entered the door. Fortunately, I have worked hard for most of the past half a year, and I have not lost my paintings, and we have not lost the hardships and sins we have suffered with you. The Road Bureau wants to transfer you back to the city and work in the Bureau's Literary Association, you can clean up and report with me tomorrow. As soon as you disappear, you will be more than half a year, and you will not care about all of us, and you are not afraid of going to hell after death! ”

"You...... Aren't you opening a store? The store is not open? Du Ruo raised his head hesitantly, his heart pounding in hesitation, and tears the size of beans were still pouring out of his eyes.

"Aren't you surnamed Du, and you still care about our life and death! The store has been sold a long time ago, not long after you left, the little evil skin went to Macau to gamble, owed a butt of gambling debts, the gambling company wanted to destroy his people, Fen'er cried bitterly, the little evil skin was a shareholder in the store, Red Lotus sold the store righteously, and I also sold the house in the city to help him pay off his gambling debts. Do you know what we have lived for most of the past six months, my orphans and widows live in the railway shantytown, and the orphans and widows of the Red Lotus are under the fence. It's good for you to suffer a little sin, to suffer a little humiliation, to hide in the city alone and enjoy the blessings, and you still want to deny me. I'm really blind, I've been unlucky all my life, and I've been anxious for you for so many years! Ren Yan was heartbroken for a while, and the idea of donating a lifetime of shame threshold was intertwined in her heart like Xianglin's sister-in-law.

"Ren...... Teacher Ren! Du Ruo sobbed his mouth, opened his eyes in fear, and added a worried cloud to his face in the gloomy mist that appeared one after another, "......Thank you, thank you!" This ......, in this life, you still treat me as a person! ”

"Du Ruo, as long as you know, don't encounter a little setback, you will become unrecognized, we are born as women and we really have no choice but to suffer!" Ren Yanbei came from it, with big tears in her eyes, looking at Du Ruo's disheveled clothes, her hair was unkempt, and her face was as black as charcoal, but she was heartbroken and picked up a wet handkerchief to wipe away the tears on Du Ruo's face, "Let's go, go back, even if the past is over, the good thing is still to come, my son is almost four years old, and I haven't seen you yet!" ”

"You're doing Ma Daha again, you always have a mouth to say about others, but no mouth to talk about yourself, to be precise, your son is three years old, eight months and eight days, how do you do a mother, you can't even figure out the simple count of your son's birthday?" Du Ruo pretended to hold his head high freely, trying his best to break free from the sad and desolate state, and a miserable smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

"You...... You remember it so well! Ren Yan was inexplicably sad and happy, and suddenly felt that he often gathered in the bottom of his heart for fear that he would forget all about the past, and a smile suddenly bloomed from his face, and his eyes couldn't help but stare at Du Ruo.

"What's wrong with you, I don't remember, it's the umbilical cord I cut for your son in the mountains, the first time I took your son out of the full moon bath. It's a pity that my own son hasn't seen it yet, and he doesn't know if he can talk and walk, and he doesn't know if he recognizes me? Du Ruo turned his head gloomily, trying not to let the tears in his eyes roll down his cheeks, and sighed remorsefully.

"What's so difficult about this, it's so sad, in a few days, when things in the city are settled, I'll go back with you, Sister Lian sees you, I don't know how happy I should be, and I won't let you see my son!"

At night, the two of them rode a bicycle and came to the railway shantytown at the foot of Snake Mountain, which was still the workshop left over from the construction of the Yangtze River Bridge in Jiangcheng in the fifties, the most famous slum of the Road Bureau, a house of more than ten square meters squeezed three generations of old and young is a common thing, and there is no lighting, no ventilation, no windows, it is as hot as a stove in summer, and it is as cold as an ice cellar in winter, there is swill and dirt everywhere, and the front of the house is full of debris like a pigeon cage.

"You're staying here all these times!" Du Ruogao pushed the bicycle with one foot and one foot low, and the potholed road under his feet made the wheels jump and jump, and there was a dim street lamp from a long distance.

"This is still taken care of by the leader, it's good for me to be a single woman to have a room to live in, it's good when you come, double workers, see if you can give us a unity household!" Ren Yan held the items on the back seat of the car with both hands, and her steps were twisted and twisted, and she also greeted acquaintances who passed by from time to time.

"What kind of house is divided, I won't buy the house in Hankou again!" Du Ruoshu walked forward with shame, a heavy sense of guilt in his heart groaned, and he rushed out a proud word.

"You're crazy, how can you get more than 200,000 yuan, and now there's money there?" Ren Yan exclaimed, staring at his figure as if he was looking at a visitor from outside the sky, and laughed again when he was young, and the joy of dying jumped on his eyebrows. Turning a street corner, she almost flew forward, pushed open the door of a room with a bang, and turned back with a flying eye, "Son, come and see, who's coming!" ”

Du Ruo parked the bicycle, untied the items on the back seat of the car, and just walked into the house, he saw a little boy staring at him on the bed behind the black door, staring at him with wide eyes, and when he was young, the little boy cheered, and ran towards him with his arms outstretched, shouting one after another, "Daddy, Daddy!" ”

Du Ruo was stunned, and hurriedly picked up the little boy, and glanced at Ren Yan with a blank gaze, "Dad, where have you been in the past few years, why did you go home, my mother is lame in order to find you, and I am also obedient, waiting for my father at home every day!" ”

"Son, tell Dad what your name is!" Ren Yan eagerly tilted her face, her eyes staring at her son's face with anticipation.

"My name is Du Ruoxu, my father's name is Du Ruo, Dad, my name is one word more than yours!" The little boy pursed his lips proudly, and his chubby, ruddy face like an apple showed a great color.

"Why do you bother, I am already a calamity, and I will bring bad luck to my son in the future!" Du Ruo hugged Xiao Ruoxu with a smile on his face, and threw it up and down a few times like throwing a ball, causing Xiao Ruoxu to giggle, and then grabbed Xiao Ruoxu's legs, put him on his shoulder, and bowed down to run back and forth in the house like a big horse.

"Is it easy for me, he has already turned out our wedding photos at that time, and has been asking who you are all day long, children raised in single-parent families are prone to autism, and I don't want my son to grow up and not be talented. Besides, I have to shout a dry word, so it will be a score, anyway, I have to be single for the rest of my life, and the surname will be wrong, and it will be an explanation for my son. Now it's okay, you don't have to hide it anymore, you two have a good time, I'm going to cook, I have prepared a bottle of good wine, and I won't get drunk tonight! ”

After a while, Ren Yan leaned against the bed and propped up the folding table, and placed the dishes and chopsticks on the table in the smoke. Du Ruo saw that there was almost no place to stand in the room, but there were stacks of his paintings next to the bed, and there was not even a decent piece of furniture in the room, but his paintings were trimmed and decorated one by one. Du Ruo was ashamed, his eyes were covered with remorse and self-blame, he put Xiao Ruoxu on the edge of the table and sat down, and went to the kitchen with smoke to help serve the dishes. At this time, the night moon outside the window is bright, the bright moonlight flows like mercury pouring into the city, there are occasionally a few whistles of the river ship berthing in the distance and the roar of the train when it crosses the Yangtze River Bridge faintly, on the street where people come and go in front of the Yellow Crane Tower, the lights and colorful neon all the way constitute a gorgeous picture, and the towering TV tower on the opposite bank highlights a bright color in the night sky with thousands of miles of frost.

"Come, Calamity, this is your order, take a good look, just for this piece of paper, how much have you suffered, the family is not easy, I will toast you first!"

Du Ruo hurriedly stood up, took over the order with both hands, a layer of shame rose on his grateful face, he picked up the wine glass and touched Ren Yan sincerely, and poured the glass of wine down his throat with his neck up, "How can I say it, if I want to say thank you, it will be too outward, not to mention that I don't want to go in my heart, it's not that you are running around in front of me, I can't imagine that I can be transferred to the city, maybe I will nest in the railway freight yard for the rest of my life, and work hard to pull the car!" ”

"If only you knew that!" Ren Yan took a sip of wine, raised her head with a smile on her face, a look of joy appeared on her tattooed eyebrows, and thousands of soft silks suddenly appeared in her embroidered shadow lines, lingering on Du Ruo's body, "From now on, we will work in one unit, you have to be careful when encountering things, don't say what you shouldn't say, and don't do what you shouldn't do." People in the city see and see a lot, and there are many flowers and intestines in their stomachs. It's not bigger than your slap in the mountains, everyone looks down and doesn't look up, there are not so many rules, there is not so much attention. To put it mildly, don't look at people who look at you with a smile, a pot-bellied Maitreya like enthusiasm is burning people, in fact, you still look down on you in your bones, after all, you grew up eating red lotus in the mountains, you are a stupid hillbilly, born with a layer of separation from you, but for a while and a half can not find a reason to make fun of you. If you don't believe it, let's go back and see, if you don't behave properly, don't pay attention to your words, and make a mistake from time to time, people don't think you are a human being one day, two days when you are a ghost, three days pinch you into the water, count me salty and eat radish and take it lightly; If people don't drown you with a mouthful of spit, and don't make you psychologically shorter than them from now on, count me as a big fuss and use an embroidery needle as a mallet! Think about it, how much suffering you have endured and how many sins you have suffered in order to have a job in the city, and now you are in your thirties, and there is no woman with you to ask for warmth, let alone an innocent and lively child Cheng Huan. Life in the world, a flash through three winters, three times a world. What do you think you can do? What's the future? You have what others have, and you have what others don't have, isn't this a happy life! When you go out, you are greeted by a smiling face, and when you go home and have a hot meal, this is not considered a successful career! You are really ready to live a life like this wild and uninhibited, knowing that there are tigers in the mountains, and you prefer to go to the tiger mountains! For those unseen and untouchable fame and fortune, contributed youth, and then contributed life? Tell me, who can understand this, and who can give a good word? You keep saying that you have read a lot of books, and you can do everything in literature, history, and philosophy. I ask you, who in history is lamenting 'a handful of bitter tears full of absurd words'? Who is sighing, 'Endure the floating name, and change it to sing in a low voice'? Let's talk about Giorgione, the Italian Renaissance master you admire the most, was not a wooden man with a stone heart during his lifetime, he was destitute, and his famous painting "Venus Sleeping" was completed with the help of his student Titian after his death! Having said that, I'm not asking you to give up drawing, just get by and be a fool in the unit, you still have to show yourself when it's time to show yourself, and you still have to draw the pictures you should draw, but everything has to be done step by step. When you are familiar with the people in the Literary Association, the relationship between your superiors and subordinates is good, and you are well-known in all aspects, then I will support you in painting with one heart, and then try my best to help you hold an art exhibition. After all, I was born in the city and grew up in the city, and many teachers and classmates eat this bowl of literary and artistic rice, and I guarantee that you will show your face when the time comes. Only in this way can you and I get acquainted in vain, in order to have today's day, you and I have walked so many bumpy roads in life! ”

Du Ruo's heart was rolling for a while, the corners of his mouth couldn't help spasming, and his face shone like a layer of oil paint. Seeing Ren Yan leaning over slightly, he was also in a happy and relaxed mood, and after taking a few sips of wine, his ruddy cheeks were rippling with layers of happiness. Du Ruo's face couldn't help but show a shallow sorrow again, the surging enthusiasm gradually turned cold, and he didn't know how to face the sorrow of this bad fate gathered in his mind, so he picked up the wine glass in front of him and drank it all.

"It's a dream to think about so many things now, and I thought that this wrong love song we performed at the wrong time and in the wrong place would be scattered with the passage of time, and would leave only a faint melancholy when we dreamed back at midnight. At that time, none of us laughed at you for being a shell mantis crawling on the books—pretending to be a showman, and a dog biting your head—didn't know that the sky was high and the earth was thick, and even our girls were funny and scared to each other or scared after getting up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet, we would use you as a psychopath to threaten you, saying that Du Ruo, a famous man from the fighting party, was here; If someone talks to someone who falls apart or who is too picky and picky to find a friend, or someone pranks you when you are a street rat, saying that you have to pick and choose again, I will introduce you to the artist Du Ruo next time. People who laugh are really laughed at now, and people who are laughed at are really laughing at people now. You may not believe it, but since the art contest was organized by the whole road a year ago, I quickly realized that this was the time for you to get ahead. I went to the leader of the road bureau twice in three days, and the leader said that I heard that there is such a person, who is quite talented, but he was hit a little bit in the first two years and left his post, but it doesn't matter, as long as there is a grassroots recommendation, there are works to participate in, we must report. I hurried to the work area, and after all the good things I said, I finally got the recommendation form, and I went to the red lotus again to bring the "Girl by the Stream" back to the competition. One day, when I saw the news of your award and the full-page art review and character introduction in the Railway Daily, I was dizzy with joy, and all that flowed out of my heart were respect and admiration, and I was really surprised and happy, anxious and hateful for a while: what surprised me was that you had a bad fate, and there were always so many sad and bitter things entangled with you; The joy is that you have finally succeeded in your career, and the emperor has lived up to his hard work; The urgency is that if you leave for more than half a year, I am afraid that you will forget about me, an enlightened person, in the back of your head; What I hate is why I am so short-sighted, and the world is cautious to find good men, and as a result, good men always pass by me! For several days, I was undecided and unprepared, and I was always stunned by our wedding photos at the bedside. My son opened a pair of bright eyes curiously, Mom, why doesn't Dad want us to go to Sha, where did he go? I said proudly, silly son, why doesn't Dad want us? Dad is a painter, and he went sketching! My son was puzzled at once, his innocent face was full of dazed and ignorant weirdness, Mom, Dad went to sketch, it won't be a few years, isn't it coming back soon? I was speechless for a while, thirsty and withered heart like a sweet rain that had not been seen for a long time, and the eyes that had been dull for a long time were like a bright rainbow and shining, I said silly son, don't ask if you shouldn't ask about adults, maybe your father is really coming back soon! My son was so excited that he flipped a few times in bed with his hands and feet, ah, my dad is coming back, my dad is a painter, and the painter is older than the principal, Mom! I couldn't help but burst out laughing, and my son smirked as well. I vividly remember that this was the first time that our mother and son laughed proudly since returning from the mountains, the first time they had the most carefree and heartfelt laughter. Within a few days, I heard that the Road Bureau was going to set up a literary association to recruit talents who have made achievements in literature and art! I immediately thought of you, I think this is the best opportunity for you to transfer to the provincial capital, this is the best time for you to stand out from the ravine, and this may also be the best turn for our love that only blossoms but does not bear fruit to bear the most beautiful and bright fruits!

"One night when the moon is falling in the middle of the moon and the sky is fragrant and the clouds are drifting out, I took your painting and walked into the door of the old secretary of the road bureau with my teacher, the old secretary and my teacher are old classmates, and they have nothing to do but go to the Three Treasures Palace!" Oh, you're a busy man, the world is full of peaches and plums, what wind blows you here! ''Alas, let's laugh, Fanglin new leaves destroy Chen Ye, the front wave of flowing water makes the back wave, old, useless, can only do some embarrassing things to build ladders and pad shoulders, this is not at the expense of the old face, to recommend a talent to you! ''Hey, look at what you always say, since ancient times, the jade of Jingshan and the song of Nanshan are a good story for recommending talents, and you are also a talented young talent, right? Who do you keep talking about? Du Ruo, alas, this is really a pot to say a pot, a can to say a can, we have already decided him, he is the designated talent named by the Road Bureau, and he is ready to elect him to be the vice chairman of the Literary Association, but some time ago we did not do a good job, so that he suffered a little blow, encountered a little setback, it is said that he has been off the post for several months, you can rest assured, we will send people to find it, after all, everyone has the heart of talent! After that, I ran to the personnel department every once in a while, who knew that a few days passed, I didn't hear any news from you, a week passed, I didn't find any movement from you, half a month passed, you were like a yellow crane, gone without a trace. At this time, I immediately felt the seriousness of the problem, and I felt that creation was so deceptive to me! People are suddenly like a flat boat caught in the turbulent waves of anxiety, and the little long-cherished wish that has grown in their hearts with great difficulty has also come to naught. I don't think I can just be so helpless, I can't just be helpless and resigned to fate! This opportunity is only possible once for you, and this opportunity is also difficult for me to find iron shoes, maybe there will be no such shop in this village! I will do my best to find you, and I will do all my best to find you, and I will do all my best to find you, even if you are poor and falling, I will know where you are hiding!

When I stepped on the rugged path in the mountains, my eyes were suddenly filled with tears, and I saw that the surrounding plants and trees were still tender and green in the light singing and dancing, and the birds and insects were still singing and singing lightly, and the blue sky was clipped by the dark mountains, and a very familiar scarlet cloud was flipped out of the blue sky, and my heart suddenly seemed to be crawling with thousands of ants! Who is like me, looking forward to love, praying for happiness unforgettablely, and in a blink of an eye, he is almost the age of, and he still relies on landslides and waters, just for a little hypocrisy and foolishness, he hypocritically abandoned a love that should have belonged to him, and ruined a happiness that should have belonged to him to pieces! I wiped away the tears of sadness from the corners of my eyes, resisted the heavy regret in my heart, and came to the office of the small stationmaster, who was leaning down on the desk, and his highly myopic eyes stared at him from the top of his glasses: Ho, the distinguished guest is here, needless to say, it is for the sake of Painter Du! The stationmaster smiled and put down his glasses, and stood up with emotion, "I received a call from the Road Bureau, I immediately sent someone to find it, on the railway line from the mountain city to the river city for thousands of miles, which one is not like combing a comb, combing it two or three times, who knows which family of wind this Du painter is, which one of the evils, he is hiding from the smoke and extinguishing the fire, and he doesn't even see a ghost!" The stationmaster clicked his mouth and reached behind his glasses to pick out the eyes that were still a little sleepy after lack of sleep. 'You can rest assured, the instructions of the superiors, there is no opinion to do, there are opinions and reservations, not to mention that we were comrades in the same trench, together through ups and downs for more than ten years, there is no emotion and friendship, there is no friendship and there is a side of the elegance, look at the Du painter breaking the wall and taking off, look at you stumbling and finally become a family, I am not also short to watch the play with the cheers and cheers of the people, bald head followed the moon all the way to borrow blessings, and then went to the city for a meeting to study a business trip or something, There's also a place to have a glass of wine! I felt a bitter feeling of compassion spread out in my heart, and at the same time there was a great deal of pity, sin, and indignation, and I pretended to be silent, trying to hide the unhappy look on my brow, and trying to hide the look of unhappiness on my face, and with a hope more heartbreaking than sorrow, I rushed to the house of Red Lotus in the dark.

However, Honglian had already run away from home with the child. Red Lotus's mother-in-law blocked me at the door with one foot in the door, and her skinny face showed a disgusting look of anger, and after a long day of froze in the dull atmosphere of mutual suspicion, she suddenly scolded in a scathing tone, and she was angry and out of control, and finally developed to the point of scolding: 'What a stinky bitch, she is not a person in my house for a long time, her ancestral grave for eight generations has not been buried, and her grandmother grew up eating shit, I gave birth to such a shameless goods that sold the top and sold the bottom, this stinky bitch didn't have a serious image when she was a girl, in order to make a few stinky money than her mouth addiction, in order to wear a few torn clothes to swagger through the market, she actually took off her pants and bare ass to let people touch and pinch her painted body, her belly made people bigger, she couldn't cover her ugliness, and she came to coax my son nonsense, my son is the same as her who cuts his nose and eats it, and doesn't want a skin face? Is our home, like hers, a toilet hanging on the eaves, a notorious portal? We have already driven this stinky bitch away, she is now on the market to set up signboards to buy and sell, we can't fool her door, she will lie on the road with sores and maggots, we blind dead children have no eyes to see! ’

I didn't dare to delay for a minute, and walked more than ten miles of mountain roads overnight to reach Honglian's aunt's house, when a bright moon hung obliquely on the treetops in the courtyard, sprinkling mottled broken shadows, a few wind whistles and a few water sounds outside the courtyard escaped on the infinitely quiet mountains, and it seemed that the courtyard was cold and lonely outside the courtyard. I raised my hand to knock on the door, but suddenly I hesitated and started to be stunned, my whole body trembled involuntarily, I hesitated in front of the door for a long time, a strong desire to see you was torn into pieces by the embarrassing thought that I could not face when I saw the red lotus, and finally I could no longer be distressed and bored to the point of staying still, and mustered up the courage to knock on the door. Honglian hurriedly put on her clothes, and a few locks of bangs on her forehead were scattered on her sleepy-eyed eyelids, and after a moment of surprise and confusion, she pulled me into the house, "Oh, Sister Yan, how could it be you, this night when the black light is blinding!" After that, we lit the pine lanterns in the mountains, closed the thick curtains, and sat around the bed with each other's hearts on each other. I said, 'Red Lotus, do you know, the organization wants to transfer Du Ruo to the city, but there is no one in the four roads, I don't know where he has been hiding for most of the year?' Red Lotus sighed, got up and took out a few remittance slips from the drawer and handed them to me, I saw that there was no address on the remittance slip, but when I looked at the somewhat vague postmark, I immediately knew that you were in the city. I wept with joy like vertigo, and a source of supreme and luscious happiness surged rapidly in my heart, and the sorrow and pain that had been tormenting me all this time in my mind disappeared at once. I said, 'Red Lotus, Du Ruo is in the city, you have been alone with a child like this, why don't you want to get back together with Du Ruo?' Honglian sighed lightly, lowered her head slightly, and looked at the diagonal lattice silently for a long time, with a look of confusion in her eyes, "Alas, how is this possible, Sister Yan?" I left him at the most difficult time, so that he lost his job and his career, and he was alone in the city without relatives, and now he is a painter, and you also treat him as a person in the organization, and you have to transfer him to the city. You said that this is a matter of being condescending and respectful, burying bones for thousands of years without being ashamed, how can it be enlightened, I'm afraid that I am willing to kneel on the ground and beg him, maybe he really wants to say that he is ashamed to die, and he will not even lose a good face to me! I was stunned for a while, and I didn't feel a smile of mixed regret, and I said, "Honglian, I can't imagine that you are such a quiet person, and your mind is full of feudal thoughts, you are like my sister, looking at your family's happiness, I will be happy and happy, I will go back to the city at dawn, as soon as there is news, I will notify you immediately!" ’”

Ren Yan said this in one breath, the face that had been immersed in grief and sadness suddenly turned into a kind and soft smile, and the eyes that had been soaked in tears also seemed to break free from a deep despair, warm and lovely exuding a soft and flirtatious female charm. Du Ruo suddenly felt his heart sinking, his whole body trembled as if he had been electrocuted, and even his breathing became rough and rough, seeing that Ren Yan just flashed his eyes affectionately at him, the corners of his mouth full of provocative thoughts were flattened at first glance, and his bright and dazzling face turned to the dim light and shadow on the other side of the table, Du Ruo breathed a sigh of relief, reached out and wiped away a layer of cold sweat that suddenly appeared on his forehead, and the difficult color of Ren Yan's tenderness appeared on his face, making him raise the wine glass in his heart and swallow it all.

"After returning to the city, I didn't care about putting down the luggage, so I went straight to the secretary's house, saying that you are in the city, the old secretary suddenly smiled after a moment of surprise, and his face suddenly rose in his heart A stone fell to the ground of the stretch and suitability, when I solemnly took out a red lotus collection of oil paintings from my bag, said that this is your painting before the pen, its value is no less than your famous work, please the secretary smiled, and hope to advise Luo! The old secretary is even more smiling, the corners of his eyes are a sincere smile that can't be hidden, since Du Painter is in the city, which can always be found, tomorrow I will notify the personnel department to send an order, this is also respect for knowledge, respect for talents! I came out of the old secretary's house with a happy heart, and I don't know when it was raining lightly on the street, and I saw the streets coming and going or covering a small umbrella, and my couple or husband was walking in front of the wife with an umbrella and following the affectionate couple, I was stunned with bitterness, God knows how long I hadn't been on the street, and in my spare time I always tied myself to the lonely and lonely cicada clothes, and imprisoned my soul in the shackles of sorrow. I thought that this life would be so unsatisfactory and unsatisfactory for a day, and I thought that all the emotions in this life would be wiped clean by the eraser of past repentance! Who admits to the endless road of heaven, in the blink of an eye people to middle age, this narrow ghost-like heaven, actually sprinkled a way of flowers and birds in my boring years, and actually rippled a ripple of spring on the heart of my ancient well without waves, so that I can also enjoy the ups and downs of love freely like the red men and green women on this street, so that I can also feel the joys and sorrows of the world like the loving couple on this street freely!

"And yet where are you? Where is the vast sea of people looking for your lost soul? Where is the huge river city where you can hide! You are like a bamboo shoot, buried in the frozen soil of society for a long time; You are like a hiking camel, carrying the weight of public opinion for a long time. Don't look at you on the surface you are very easy-going, optimistic, and kind to others, but in fact, you are very restrained, arrogant, and self-righteous in your bones. Your tragedy lies in how you should not be stupid in the morning and twilight to get out of the frozen soil, and your foolishness lies in the fact that you should not dream about when you will be able to enter the upper class in the light of day! If I had taken the liberty of making a little of your sorrows and joys public, and had published a search notice in the newspaper, I might have sprinkled salt on the wound that had scabbed over you; If I Meng Menglang announced your experience to the world and went to the TV station to advertise the missing person, I might have drawn an incurable scar on your dilapidated personal dignity! I can only be like a meek and virtuous wife, admonishing her stubborn and stubborn husband, and can only use endless smiling faces and endless tears to trap him; I can only be like a girl who is just beginning to fall in love, admonishing her lazy and stubborn lovers, I can only use careful coquettishness and painstaking anger to remind him of self-love! The next day, when the morning mist was curling and the morning sun was rising, I took a photo of you enlarged and drove to the riverbank. I first searched in the city square, street parks, and asked if I had seen the young people in the photo, and then I went to the streets and alleys, streets and alleys to look around, hoping to try my luck and find you a little hidden figure, after I did not hold out any hope, I came to the river embankment tired, and saw that the red decay and green were declining, and there were only a few old people fishing on the long river bank who were still alone under the embankment of the willow shade. Such a day passed in the middle of running around, and when I dragged my tired body into the dark door of my house with the wind and dust on my face, I couldn't help but cry bitterly with tears streaming down my face. The next day, when the morning light was faint and the breeze was clear, I stood at the entrance of the vegetable market and the free market with a sad sigh like a resentful woman with a collapsed pillar of the house. I was like an idiot with no grudges and no worries, leaning against the door of the shopping mall and labor market, and the man with a few hot faces smiled slightly and asked about the situation and shook his head helplessly and left. Later, we asked all the men, women and children you may associate with in Jiangcheng, and found all the people in Jiangcheng where you may stop and rest, and then I suddenly had a heart, and I couldn't help but laugh out loud for my own smart life, I was like a fool looking for a needle in a haystack, I was almost a fool waiting for the rabbit, why didn't I think you were a famous nerd is a sour show talent who swept the floor, I thought that when I was in the mountains, every Sunday holiday, you lived like a fly with a pinched head, If you have nothing to do, you always have to go to the Xinhua bookstores in the city, and now that people are in the city, they are not constantly like hornets that have burned their nests, and they are not running around to visit the library and the reading room, which is called surprise! With a sense of urgency and happiness, I ran through all the Xinhua bookstores, libraries and workers' cultural palaces in Jiangcheng for several days, but my knowledge of people is also far-fetched, you are so silent that you can't hear a sound when you fall into the night pot, and you can't see a trace like a pine caterpillar in the snow! ”

Du Ruoru sat on the chair on pins and needles, Xiao Ruoxu played noisily for a while, and fell asleep in his arms with his head tilted. Du Ruo patted the child gently, listening to Ren Yan like a resentful couple who wanted to reunite in the mirror, and the little gratitude in her heart for her help was gone, and the gratitude for her rescue came to naught, and the regret of one wrong step and a hundred wrong steps sprouted in her mind, as if she had made a beautiful trap, just waiting for herself to drill into it; It's as if she's dug a bright trap and just waits for herself to jump in. He stood up as if he were fleeing, and forced himself to calm down, and slowly laid the child on the bed.

"I was anxious, worried, and restless, and when I dragged my tired body listlessly into the Hanxi Railway Workers' Cultural Center, I didn't expect that the miracle that I had hoped for for a long time would happen right in front of me. When the service lady took the photo with a smile, nodded and said that she knew, she was surprised to open her good-looking eyebrows, oops, this person is very strange, don't look at him dressed in tatters, but he is taking our work permit on the railway, don't look at him living sloppy, his knowledge is quite profound, all the books he borrows are antique children's books, he works as a temporary worker in the railway freight yard every day, and several times I have seen him shine shoes in the area of Sanyang Road! Immediately I felt a kind of sadness that wanted to cry freely in my eyes, but there was an endless happiness in my heart that was rapidly spreading, so that I was so excited that I could not speak, and I saw that the handwriting on the library card was indeed a handwriting that I was no longer familiar with, and I was still in half-believing thoughts, so I firmly believed it. Later, I walked out of the cultural center with a thousand thanks, and returned home all the way, and when I saw the photo on the bedside table, the pain and misfortune were like an iron plow, and I couldn't help but cry with mixed joy and deep humiliation. It turns out that you are so ruthless and ruthless, you have stayed in Jiangcheng for half a year, and you don't even want to meet me, you would rather live in a duck shed, pull a cart, and shine shoes for people, rather than ask me to help you. Am I just a lucky woman who has no virtue, no deeds, no mercy and no righteousness, I am worthless in your eyes, I am really a frivolous slut who likes the new and hates the old and picks up the prosperous place! I wept for a while, and the unbearable resentment and shame of shamelessness scorched my soul in turn, and made my whole body cramp and tremble. Later, I found the clothes I liked the most comfortably and put them on my body, and pulled out the cosmetics that I had discarded for many years, and I couldn't help but put on makeup with joy and taste. Look at the green silk in the mirror mixed with a few gray hairs, and look at the faint yellow that appears on his face that is no longer young. Old, I don't apply fat powder to the years, past, I like a dreamlike flower! A little cute and pleasing Ran Ran Yan has irretrievably passed, and a little eye-catching grace is gone, no wonder people want to abandon it, when you are like stinky shit, lest you avoid it; No wonder people vow to sink into the predicament, the dog sits in a sedan chair and does not accept people to carry, it turns out that you have already been old in the spring, it turns out that people have long been strangers to you, and they are already incompatible......"

"Okay, you Rory said so much, aren't you tired! Don't you just say that you have endured hardships for me and contributed to it, without you Ren Yan, I would probably still be working as a temporary worker in the Hanxi Railway Freight Yard, so that I can be grateful to Dade and accept your love and understanding for the rest of my life? Don't worry, I'm not the kind of incorruptible and shameless person who doesn't repay his kindness, Shiyun: People have no honor, what is it to not die? I will repay you with my heart for your kindness, and I will tie your mother and son to my heart for the rest of my life! But I am an ominous person, I have been ruined and discredited to nothing, I have lost my soul and my will to do nothing, my wife is still suffering in the mountains, and my son is still under the fence in the mountains. You say, do I still have the heart to live with you, and have the face to tie my body to your trouser belt? If anything, I will not be a clay god with an empty human face; The plague god is in the lower realm, and it is not the heart of a human being! Don't you have to open your face to make people spit and pout your ass to make people chew your tongue? Your love for me can only be repaid in the next life, and I will be a loving husband and wife with you in the next life! Du Ruo pushed away the wine glass in front of him in a daze, and stood up with emotion, as if the distress and resentment that had been suffocating in his heart for a long time rushed out to the sky, making him unable to stand against his will, and his fingers could not be suppressed.

"You...... You're drunk! Ren Yan also stood up suddenly, her face was full of shame and indignation, and a few tears appeared in her eyes.

"I ...... I'm drunk! Du Ruosuo pretended to be crazy and stupidly snorted, pretending to be drunk and leaning on the back of the chair, raising his voice while breaking the jar, "You don't know, I'm a notorious drunkard!" Three hundred and sixty-five days a year, soaking in the wine vat every day, drunk in the land of nothing! I will be so drunk that I don't know who is going to sing a long song of hatred at someone else's wedding banquet, and I will be so drunk that I don't know it, lying in the shade of the ancient vines, watching the girls in the mountains take a bath! I, such a scoundrel, a scoundrel, and a bloodless two-pole who kills without seeing a knife, how dare I take care of Teacher Ren, who is holding the shelves of people in the city and talking at the throat? How dare you alarm the luck of Miss Yan, who is squinting at people with a cultural person's head! You can also say with a smile like in the mountains in the past, please don't come to me if you have nothing to do in the future, and you can also walk by as if you were transferred back to the city in the same year, occasionally bumped into on the street, and immediately deflected the donkey's braincase and pretended not to know it! Why do you have to put so much effort into paving the way for a person you look down on, why do you have to dwell on past grievances and grievances, and continue a pathetic relationship that lacks consensus, foundation, and virtue! Didn't you say it quite well in the past: Don't worry about the road ahead without knowing yourself, no one in the world knows you! Didn't you do quite well in the past: you would rather eat a bite of fresh peaches than half a basket of rotten apricots! As the saying goes: it is difficult to return a horse out of the cage, and it is difficult to collect it when it is exported! You are such a smart person, do you want me to guide you, you are so educated, can you not even understand this minimum truth! I have been so flat that my head is smooth and my heart is oily, and I have been discouraged to the point of slackness and numbness! I am by no means the young talent you think of as a blockbuster, and I am by no means the soaring young painter you imagined! We are all almost thirty or forty years old, we have never eaten pork, and we should have seen pigs run, why are you still like a seventeen or eighteen-year-old girl with a spring girl, to cling to an unrealistic dream, and then stick a knife into each other's hearts, so that they can be together and dispersed, and they will be gathered and separated, I will remember your kindness, and I will not forget your great kindness that guided me back from the wrong path twice! ”

"I ...... I knew you hated me! Ren Yan's eyes opened with tears, and his angry face was filled with an awe-inspiring and inviolable solemn look, "I can't forget that I have embarrassed you and humiliated you, and I have made you unable to raise your head in the surrounding environment." But why don't you think about it, when was I a female college student in the city, you are a mountain road maintenance worker who has not graduated from junior high school, no matter how good my eyesight is, no matter how good my mentality, I will not think about falling in love with you. Men are towering trees, and women are vines that climb trees. What is wrong with me refusing you, and what can I blame when I am looking for someone in the city! You don't say that you are brainless, stupid, and dog meat, but blindly blame me and hate me! You're so good, how many women in the city are there in Xiaozhan besides me, why haven't you seen any of them want to marry you? You are knowledgeable, talented, there are so many people in the small station, so many people are going to study, not all of them are gold-plated gangsters, and they almost all patted their butts and left the ravine, why are you still a road maintenance worker in the mountains? You don't have to turn your face ruthlessly, you can't listen to the words in the garden, and you forget that you eat a few bowls of dry rice! Without me, you wouldn't be able to get along in the city for a day, and you really think that you rely on your ability, ability, and a few fart paintings of your ghost to draw peach charms, it's really a hell of a life, and it doesn't make people laugh out of their big teeth! You know how much effort I put in behind my back, how many good things I said, and I don't know how much money I gave to people! I still don't want to be good for you, I think we have a lot of life in the first half of our lives, you have broken a lot of hearts for me, suffered a lot of sins, in the second half of my life I want to make up for you, so that your wish can be transferred to the city, there is a home, there is a woman who knows the pain and knows the heat and knows the truth can snuggle! You're good, clenched into fists, dogs look down on people, and before the river has crossed, they want to tear down the bridge. You don't want to think about it, no matter how cheap I am Ren Yan, I won't be cheap to the point where the jade is broken and changed to white, and the bamboo is burned to the point that the festival is burned, and you are a road maintenance worker in the mountains who has passed in the chicken coop and is full of holes, so I twisted my eyebrows to make my face deliberately find some embarrassment and uninteresting to show you, look at you, you are fortunate to have the time, the shell Lang has changed, one step to the sky, and I want to beg for a bargain crying and shouting that I have to marry you! Is this how I Ren Yan is, isn't this a shameful stretch out your left hand to hit your right cheek! If you keep violating me, you will soon become an old woman with goosebumps. I'm almost thirty years old this year, most of my youth has passed, and most of my beauty has passed, but no matter how bad I am buried, I am a hundred times stronger than that stubborn wife in your mountains! Besides, is she your wife? She is the woman she is marrying, her marriage is protected by the national marriage law, and has she ever loved you? She's not just flying by herself when you come in a big disaster! Why don't you hold a grudge against her? Why don't you linger? I didn't know that there was a shame in the world, and I sent her money every month! You don't belong to a dog, you only remember to eat and not to fight, only smell the smell but not the fragrance! All you know is to rebuke me, to be harsh on me, to put bricks into my heart. Compared with her, I am really worthy of you, I can be regarded as your confidante, at least I dare to tell people, you once pursued me in search of death and life, and people shamelessly said that I am your wife, if I am willing to put my face down, now the children are half a table high! Am I sorry for all this I have done? Can't erase the hatred in your heart! Tell me for yourself, what's so good about her, and how much better is she than me! You are so caring and considerate, you want to go back to the mountains and stay with her for the rest of your life! It's amazing that she gave your daughter body, and she is still there stubbornly guarding, I am a broken shoe, and I am a discarded mouthpiece, if you stick to this, I can't help it, once you stumble into a thousand years of hatred, please hurry up and go out, never step into my house, from now on, as if no one knows anyone, no one will be sad for anyone! ”

"Good...... I'm leaving! I'm leaving! I didn't expect to touch your light and trust your blessings! It's a big deal that I can't get along in the city, so I will go back to the mountains again, and then I will be like a despised toad, a frog and a toad, and I will jump in the mountains for a lifetime. What's so great about this, I've wiped people's shoes, I've pulled carts, and what else can make my face can't be wiped off! I have to beg for food in the city for food in the city against your dead face, and I have to hide it under your eaves, and beg for a cup of water from the spring in the city to drink! Speaking of slapping a swollen face and being fat, I'm really not afraid of suffering twice, suffering two sins, and most afraid of suffering from beauties! Put away your two lines of fake crocodile tears, and don't cry and pretend to be pitiful in front of me! I can't stand it and I can't hold it! I still want to be a white lady crying and breaking the bridge in a demonic manner, and I don't forget the appearance of the old love to confuse me, and I also want to pretend to be a fairy Cui Yingying to send Lang, a sad and indescribable pretty image to deceive me, that kind of thing is long gone, not to mention that you are still a wilted and defeated half-old who can't be defeated anymore! Du Ruo scolded pretending to be angry, and then kicked away the chair with a pretended resentment, took the bag on the bedside table, and pretended to be top-heavy and walked straight out of the door.

"You...... You give me back! Ren Yan raised her eyes and saw that she had the courage to fight all her body in a hurry to block the door, and for a moment of bitterness, desolation, and despair penetrated her atrium like a piece of red-hot iron, making her cry unbearably anymore. Her whole body trembled violently in humiliation, her eyes condensed with extreme panic and stared at Du Ruo's face steadily, so that she burst into tears in a hurry, "You...... You scold me, I shouldn't have made you angry, why didn't I remember my surname for a long time, and I counted you down for one night like a long-tongued woman, I originally wanted to persuade you to turn back, stand firm in the city, and be a cultural person with a head and face, and it is not in vain that you have suffered so much on this day, nor in vain what many sins have been suffered by Sister Lian for you, nor in vain my infatuation with you! You...... Just scold me, really, I'll never make you angry again! ”

Du Ruo was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help but be stunned, but there seemed to be hundreds of jade dragons flying in his heart, making him dizzy and cold. He wanted to pull her away, but he didn't give up for a while, he wanted to reach out to help her, but his mind was blank. At this time, he suddenly felt a dizziness in his brain, and a breath of wine in his stomach suddenly surged, and it was unstoppably approaching his throat in a short time, Du Ruo hurriedly turned sideways, and in an instant, a large piece of wine with a pungent smell rushed out of his mouth like a tide, and the disgusting filthy juice was extremely foul and smelly all over the ground, splashing Ren Yan's face, "Yes...... Sorry! ”

Ren Yan sighed sadly, walked quickly to the kitchen to bring hot water, twisted a towel, and handed it to Du Ruo hesitantly, "Or, you lie down for a while, and I'll wipe it for you?" ”

Du Ruo shook his head, one hand trembling and trembling on the wall, and the other hand swayed a few times weakly, "You help me to the bathroom first, and if I vomit for a while, I will be fine." Alas, what's the matter, I didn't drink much today, why am I still drunk like this, and let you see the joke again, when I came, I repeatedly warned myself, don't be greedy for a cup, don't be greedy for a cup, or uncontrollably drunk. I always can't raise my head in front of you, and I always have an incorrigible lack of self-confidence, this is not psychological inferiority and what is it, this is once bitten by a snake, ten years afraid of the well rope! Hey, funny, funny, funny. Li Baidou has a hundred poems about wine, drunk and sleeping in Chang'an City, the Son of Heaven can't get on the boat, Ziyunchen is a fairy in wine. Ha, ha, ha......"

"Don't be crazy like this, it's okay, people feel as uncomfortable as a cat scratching, you're good, and you're dancing and starting a drunken madness!" Ren Yan sighed sadly, helped Du Ruo to sit down by the sink under the kitchen, and kept taking hot water bottles, mixing bath water, and looking for slippers, and was so busy for a while that he didn't even bother to wipe the large foul-smelling juice on his body.

Du Ruo was stunned, and suddenly felt a long-lost warmth from the bottom of his heart, so he couldn't help but take Ren Yan's hand, and said in a kind tone that he couldn't believe, "You also wash, look at the dirty body, how can you bear it with such a clean person!" ”

Ren Yan's heart jumped wildly, she pulled out her hand very unnaturally, walked to the edge of the pool like a cover, stretched out her hand to test the water temperature of the basin, and squinted at Du Ruo who was clumsily taking off her clothes, looking out of breath, and unbuttoning it with great difficulty. Ren Yan couldn't help but feel pity again, and hurriedly calmed down his mind, and bent down to unbutton Du Ruo's clothes.

Du Ruo's whole body was hot, and a stream of gratitude and extreme joy quickly poured into his heart, making him suddenly stunned by obsession. Look at Ren Yan's thoughtful and intimate feelings, her delicate and white face is still rare and ruddy, and her flower-like eyebrows and eyes still have the appearance of the past. Time passes like water, the years are like the wind and frost sword, Ren Yan is still so young, so beautiful, and so beautiful. The ** that once stimulated Du Ruo's enthusiasm is still as strong as a peak, and the buttocks that have made Du Ruo toss and turn sleepless for countless nights are still like the moon. Du Ruo sighed deeply melancholy, as if he wanted to hold on to a broken dream, he subconsciously reached out and stroked Ren Yan, "Alas, it's really a creation and a trick, two bitter gourds that are about to grow old, but they can't bear a vine!" ”

Ren Yan was shocked when she heard this, opened her eyes that became very delicate in an instant, staring at Du Ruo's face in a strange way, and there was a little docile smile on the corner of her charming mouth, "You are still not satisfied like this, do you really think that I am old, dragging a broken flower and willow body and still uninterestingly like sticking cow!" ”

Du Ruo wanted to speak and stopped, a smile froze on his face, and he yawned unconsciously, and lowered his head even more distractedly.

Ren Yan was secretly startled, a cool breath suddenly rose from the bottom of her heart, cold and resentful with jealousy and hatred of her own turmoil, which made her shudder, she was stunned and unmoved, and the lamentation of the cold and warm human feelings and the cold feeling of the world came to her mind, like a machine that was about to be scrapped, and the deafening noise stirred up the faint pain. She was very frustrated and frustrated for a while, and a strong desire to grasp something in her heart was very tenacious, accompanied by two crystal tears in her eyes quietly overflowing, making her suddenly become extremely firm as if she had changed someone, she stood up resolutely, tore off the clothes on her body three or two times, and then stood up with the body of the frost and snow, with a pair of infatuated and infatuated tears, with a face of hope and anxiety soaked in the light of the melting room, looking at Du Ruo affectionately, "You...... Take a good look and see if I'm old, if I'm the kind of tofu scum woman you imagined! ”

Du Ruo was taken aback, his blood suddenly boiled as if he was boiling, and even the faint capillaries in his chest opened all of a sudden, making him feel like he didn't know where to go for a while. Look at Ren Yan's cowardly and shy jade standing in front of him, his naked body is slender, and the ** on his chest that made him lose face in the past and lose all his worth and don't know what it is is is now so unabashedly naked, and the grass under his abdomen that he wanted to cultivate and sow in his sleep and dreams in the past is now unguarded there. In the past, he was blinded by her in order to see her more, and her hated eyes are now charming with a fiery **, and in the past, he was swept away by her cold in order to stay with her for a while, and his cheeks are now even more enthusiastic with a wisp of wake-up flush. The humiliating sense of cultural superiority that had made him climb to the top of his guns in the past was gone, and the provocative pride of the female surname that had made him desperately want to possess it regardless of his face in the past was gone. She is now naked like a shell that has lost her soul, and what she wants to dedicate to him now is just a lustful thought that has not disappeared and the heart of the flower is still there**, she is like a flower when she is beautiful and has been ruined by others like crazy bees and honey, she is like a very spring sultry when the quality has long been conceived by others The mountain alliance and wild oath have changed to the morning clouds and twilight rain, and now the empty branches have long been fragrant and green to the point that only a few branches and leaves are left, and now the empty valley of spring has long been lost to the point that only a few lonely flowers remain. However, she was not ashamed but proud, and even whimsically wanted to give this kind of decadent branches and leaves to him as a golden jade, and she was even brazen to dedicate this lonely bonus to him as a blessed land. To put it bluntly, it's not the subconscious high-minded civic complex that is worshipping, she is a city person, educated, and loved by everyone; Du Ruo is a countryman, cheap, it's not too light to give a chicken feather, it's not too heavy to give a grinding plate, maybe he will be a pile of shit and a pile of glutinous dumplings!

Du Ruo suddenly felt angry, and a resentment that was dormant in his bones also surged quickly around his body at this time, making his face red, his hands trembling, and his eyes were red as if spewing fire, he quickly jumped up from the edge of the pool, and took off his naked upper body without caring about himself, and slapped his palm towards Ren Yan's left face where the tears were still stained, "I call you cheap, I call you cheap, you are such a shameless person who spoils his most sacred things and uses his best youth as a tablecloth!" ”

Ren Yan was stunned for a while, tears suddenly rolled down the corners of her eyes like trickling raindrops, half of her red cheeks burst into a smile unexpectedly, and a circle of sweet laugh lines appeared on her lips even more coquettishly......

Du Ruo was shocked for a moment, his raised palm hung down again, he swallowed his saliva hard, rubbed his bloodshot eyes, and a thicker and heavier feeling of contempt and hatred in his abdomen rushed to his head like a tide at this time, making his face tense again, staring at his eyes without pity, and slapping his palm towards Ren Yan's right cheek, "I make you laugh, I make you laugh, you are such a ruthless and unrighteous slut who grows his eyes on the back of his head, and has no virtue in his armpits!" ”

Ren Yan exclaimed, and Ren Yan's tears flowed over her lips that kept twitching, but when she was young, her whole body shook violently, and her red and swollen face was filled with a sad and heartbreaking resentment, and she struggled to pounce on Du Ruo's body, "You fight, you fight, I'm shameless, I'm cheap, I'm the most shameless, this should always be your will, as you wish!" ”

Du Ruo opened his mouth to speak, but his lips were firmly blocked by Ren Yan's breathlessness; Du Ruo withdrew and wanted to leave, but Ren Yan clung to her body like a puddle of mud; Du Ruo struggled in vain for a while, his brain began to be confused, the blood around his body began to flow, and there was a feeling of itchiness and numbness that began to wander away gradually, making him suddenly feel that his whole body was extremely comfortable, extremely Tongtai, and he was like a fairy. Look at Ren Yanxing's eyes slightly open, the eye shadow is as bright as May flowers, look at Ren Yan's face is flushed, her cheeks are as bright as the fire in July, look at Ren Yan's skin is white, and her whole body is as fragrant as a plum in the winter moon. Du Ruo's nerves, which were on the verge of collapse, slowly eased down again. At this time, he only felt that the worries that had been in his mind began to be dispelled, the doubts that had been stuck in his state of mind began to be removed, and all the suspicions and doubts that had tormented his emotions and sickened his heart for a long time were also swept away. He bent down and picked up Ren Yan, who was clinging to his body, gently put her on the bed, pulled up the quilt and covered her, and then knelt on one knee at the head of the bed, holding Ren Yan's palms tightly with both hands, and looked at Ren Yan's eyes that were looking at the ceiling silently as if he was stupid:

"Teacher Ren, I will never forget your love for me in this life; Your love for me will never be forgotten in this life. You are the goddess in my heart, and the guiding light that I can make a difference. But, Mr. Ren, you put yourself in my shoes, I went to work in the city peacefully, got some wages on the spot, and then my wife and children lived a peaceful and stable life, is this my ideal! Is it the Chinese dream that I have been chasing for most of my life? Am I really so vulgar, I have spent most of my life struggling just to get a city hukou? Am I really so shameless, putting most of my life's emotions in exchange for a stepping stone to the city? We are not all in our thirties, and there is nothing we can't see, we have to stick to the private affairs of our children, and we have to love to death in the same bed! In fact, in my heart, I have long regarded you as my intimate lover, a life partner who can cry at you, scold your mother at you, and slap you. No matter how faint I am, I can't forget my first love; No matter how stupid I am, I can't forget what you have done to me. I have dreamed back at midnight, I think of you, and I have many successes and failures, and all I think of is sharing sorrow and happiness with you. I know that you have worked hard in the city to bring your son alone, and I am the one who is waiting; I know that you are plain-faced, rejecting all temptations, and you can't forget our love in the mountains. But in the world, people have to do something, they have to be a little ashamed, they have to have a sense of honor and disgrace. I read the books of the sages, and what I have achieved is the cause of fools, and I have to have lofty ambitions and lofty goals in my life, and I can't lose my ideals because of the difficult road in the world, and I can't lose my spiritual support because of perseverance. If I stop writing here, first of all, I can't stand you, and I can't stand your kindness in guiding me on the journey of art; Secondly, I can't live with Red Lotus, and I can't live with her grace of abandoning worldly prejudices to help me climb the peak of art. Zi said: 'Be faithful in words and respectful in deeds', 'What is the courtesy if people are not benevolent?' People are not kind, how can they be happy? 'I will only crawl under your pomegranate skirt in this life, and do my best to make you live the most healthy and prosperous life, never double-hearted, never-ending!' But now I can't be with you, I can't be in love with you in the same bed, I can't go against my conscience! We have been living in such a state of resentment for more than ten years, and we still care about this day and two days! ”