"Chenchen, look at what you are wearing, do you look like you, what is the difference between you and the escort lady!"

Du Ruo stood angrily on the alley on the side of the street, with a dark cloud of love and hatred on his face, and grabbed Sang Chen, who was about to enter the factory gate. In the past few days, Du Ruo has traveled to more than a dozen towns in Dongguan and searched for large and small electronics factories, but there is no trace of them everywhere, and there is no figure in every place. That day, Du Ruoshen was tired and wandering on the cross street, and suddenly there was a small and low country voice from across the street. Du Ruo's mood was lifted, and he hurriedly made great strides to trace the past, and it turned out that it was two working girls from his hometown who were talking and laughing and shopping. Du Ruo hurriedly took out Sang Chen's photo and handed it over, gasping and asking in his hometown dialect if he had seen this person. The working girl hesitantly took the photo, one said no with a slight head on her head, and the other said with wide eyes, ouch, this should be a little girl who lives in Chang'an Town. Du Ruo heard the sound of heaven in an instant, and he didn't even have time to ask if the little sister was working in an electronics factory, so he hurriedly asked for the address, so he hurriedly went to Chang'an Town to find it.

Du Ruo rushed to Chang'an Town non-stop, it was already noon, and the streets were full of people in a hurry. Du Ruo took a taxi to the upscale community in the center of the town, and when he got out of the car, he was dazzled by the luxury and luxuriance outside. Looking at the huge advertisements of Hong Kong and Taiwan stars, and listening to the sound of boiling traffic, I was in a trance for a while. Du Ruo blind man rode a blind horse and walked forward, the more the mystery in his heart became thicker, until he finally found a place to live, it was surprisingly quiet, surrounded by rockery pavilions, and the small bridge and flowing water were split, and he walked downstairs with seven bends and eight turns, and was blocked by the access control and did not let him in. Could it be that Chenchen couldn't resist the temptation and went to the evil road, and was also supported by the golden house, Du Ruo didn't leave for a while, and he didn't stay. It was like pressing a sharp stone in my heart, and I was paralyzed by my head, and it took half a day to muster up the courage to press the house number, and then a female voice came from upstairs looking for someone. Du Ruoyu hesitated and said that he was looking for a fellow girl, and the door opened with a bang. Du Ruohu took the elevator suspiciously and just got out of the entrance of the building, and a graceful and luxurious woman on the opposite side stood in front of the door of the unit. Du Ruomeng thought that he had gone down the wrong floor, and couldn't help but be embarrassed and inexplicably wanted to turn back. Unexpectedly, the woman smiled coquettishly, and her face bloomed with joy, "Oh, isn't this Brother Sanniu, what." I don't know each other, Chenchen and I are high school classmates, and the three of us have watched movies together! Du Ruo stood on his feet in surprise, couldn't help but stare at it carefully, and immediately a smile of joy bloomed on his face, "Hey, it's really a little girl, no wonder that fellow is Chenchen, you two look like each other." You can, live in this upscale community, and I'm still suspicious and worried along the way! The little sister pursed her lips disapprovingly, and reached out to take Du Ruo's bag. What can you not do, eat youth rice, what's wrong with Chenchen, didn't she graduate from college this year. Could it be that he also came to Dongguan? Du Ruo walked into the room with her little sister, and saw that the room was decorated with gold, the walls were luxuriously furnished, and the floor was covered with a white woolen carpet. Yo, little sister, you are completely living in the nest of wealth, living in the blessed land of Langyuan like a fairy, and the life of the legendary noble lady is only like this! The little sister shielded the smile on her face, and generously helped Du Ruo change her slippers, and looked at Du Ruo walking into the house as if Grandma Liu entered the Grand View Garden, everything was surprising and fresh, and she couldn't help but smile, "I'm not afraid of your jokes, my husband is a Taiwanese businessman, and he has a factory in Dongguan, I am the second wife that people often say, but it's nothing, a country girl, who she marries is not all childbearing!" Du Ruo was slightly stunned, and suddenly felt a secret feeling of mourning his misfortune and shame for his misconduct jumped into his heart, and couldn't help but sit on the sofa, "Chenchen graduated early and was assigned back to the township middle school as a teacher, she didn't want to go back to her hometown to eat chalk ash, she had to stay with me in the mountains, I couldn't complain about her a few words, I was angry, and I ran to Dongguan alone, this is not afraid that I will find her, and I don't even leave an address!" The little sister took the envelope with a smile, looked at the left and right carefully with her eyes, "Ouch, this little girl is very ghostly, Dongguan is a big place, you go up there to look for it, but look at the postmark, it seems to be in Dalang Town, there is an electronics factory that produces computer health disks, you rest, have some dinner at my house, I will drive you to find it in the afternoon, we will also bring the fine red girl, in our hometown, the three of us are the best little sisters!" ”

When the little sister drove a red BMW and found the fine red in the suburbs at the junction of urban and rural areas, it was already past noon. Du Ruo looked at Xiao Hong'er, who was dressed in black and black pants, her hair was dyed yellow like a loofah, and her snow-white skin was almost all exposed. When I came to know from the mouth of the fine sister, the fine red came to Dongguan to work hard for several years, earlier in a factory, and later due to the stumbling situation, the personnel were bumpy, and started to sit on the stage, who knows that the disaster is not a single line, just earned a little blood and tears money, but was targeted by two hooligans, one night, the knife was on the neck, the dagger against the waist, forced her to take out all the bank deposits, the fine red was desperate, I hated to jump the Pearl River, but the family wanted to build a building, and the younger brother wanted to go to college, The most annoying thing is that I don't know who went back to the hometown and chewed her tongue, and when the building was built at home, her younger brother graduated from college, and the family didn't recognize her, thinking that she had lost the face of their ancestors for eight generations, and couldn't raise her head in front of five relatives and six relatives. Xiao Hong'er squirmed and sat in the car, and immediately a strong smell of cheap cosmetics filled the car. When she got into the car, she smiled at Du Ruo in a twisted manner, and said loudly in a teasing voice, "Hey, fellow, the idea of Chenchen is here, you men are all so virtuous, and eight out of ten want the old cow to eat tender grass!" The little sister took a sip when she heard the voice, and quickly interrupted her, "Hey, don't talk nonsense, Chenchen has been happy with Brother Sanniu since she was a child, you don't see it, when she was at school, the male classmate accidentally touched her, and she was anxious with others, as soon as they met, they hugged and hugged." I'm afraid that Chenchen's little secret has already fallen into his eyes, and the two of them are just short of getting into the same bed! Scarlet burst out laughing like a madman, and her bare shoulders shook violently. Du Ruo coughed quite reservedly, grinning disapprovingly, "I'm not afraid of your jokes, I came to propose to her, whether it's a childhood sweetheart or a withered poplar, marriage is the last word, so I hope you two will become successful." When the time comes, you will definitely be invited to drink at the best restaurant in your hometown! ”

Du Ruo held Sang Chen's wrist very firmly, and the more he looked at it, the more he felt like he had a big pimple, he really followed the Qilin to learn Jingxing, followed the squid to learn the turtle, a good pure and beautiful girl, she learned to be so debauched and uninhibited within a few days of coming to Dongguan. Right now, Sang Chen was bare-backed, his silky hair was draped over his shoulders, a bra-like shirt was tied on his chest, and the skin on his upper body was as tender as mutton fat and white jade. The lower half of the body is not like pants, and the skirt is not like a skirt, and the clothes are tightly wrapped around the body, revealing a slender thigh and round buttocks sexyly. The whole body is full of the gaudy sense of revealing his true colors and stimulating the senses, "Come back with me, so that I can talk and discuss, you look like this." If you stay in Dongguan any longer, it will be ruined, why are you not ashamed at all! ”

"It's beautiful, you don't understand it. You are an old eight-year-old man, full of feudal remnants, do you think that a woman showing a little white is color, and it is terrible to show off your figure? The models all over the world are Pan Jinlian, all of them are self-deprecating in order to seduce men, and they have read so many aesthetic monographs! Sang Chen tried his best to break free, but he couldn't break free, so he tried his best to break it, and he couldn't break it, and he couldn't help but stomp his feet angrily and anxiously, "Are you okay to let go, I'm going to work soon, I'm an assistant in the public relations department, and the size is a head, and being late has a bad impact!" ”

"Yo, you still know that the impact is not good, and you are still a little ashamed, I still think that you don't know how to hide thieves and smelt and obscenity!" Du Ruo was unmoved, still firmly grasping her wrist, and from time to time avoiding the pedestrians watching the excitement on the road.

"What is a thief, what is a? Only a person like you who eats the ancients can use this dark psychology to speculate about people! It's been the eighties of the twentieth century, and human beings are advocating universal values, how can there still be a Mr. Science like you! Sang Chen couldn't stay when he saw it, he couldn't leave it, there were more and more people working at the factory gate, and he couldn't help but be so anxious that tears rolled in his eyes, "You let go of your hands, you really have to go to work, it's not easy for me to find a job, if I am copied squid, you raise me!" ”

"What kind of job do you call this, the assistant of the public relations department, to put it nicely, in fact, you want to use women to please people, use your looks to win the favor of others, and then sign a contract, and the two sides tacitly share a piece of the pie, what is the difference between this and the courtesans in the past!" Du Ruo suddenly felt compassion, the look of disgust and regret on his face faded, and he sighed uncontrollably, "Don't do this kind of work, it's completely used by others as a tool, you don't want to think about it, you are a literate person, highly educated, can you be like the working girls on the street, then your books are not read in vain, then why don't you come out and break into the world after graduating from junior high school, you have to live a tasteful and temperate life, live with dignity, be a person who is beneficial to society, it is really difficult to find a job, Just go home with me to study in graduate school, even if it's to study abroad, I can't let you be a vase for others, just sink like this! ”

"Do you think I don't want to, I still want to study for a doctorate, isn't it that some people don't like to eat idle meals and don't give a good face, and now they are talking about people, I knew today, why bother in the first place!" Sang Chen's eyes widened with tears, his face changed into a look of anger and resentment, and he couldn't help but turn away angrily.

"Okay, okay, I wronged you, as long as you work hard and don't go astray, I promise to be your strong backing, don't frown when you are deceived, who told you to stick to me like a slug since you were a child, and you can't blow it off!" Du Ruo let go of his hand, and the heartstrings that had been tense were also relaxed, and he couldn't help but breathe a long sigh of relief.

"Who sticks to you, look at this smugness, it's you weasel guarding the door of the chicken, you didn't have a good heart at the beginning, and now you are cheap and good!" Sang Chen burst into tears, stroked his red and swollen wrist, and couldn't help but look up at him with a sneer.

"My little sister is also here, I looked for you in Dongguan for a few days, and I found her house by mistake, I didn't have any points at all, and I was still a girl in the mountains who blushed when I joked when I was a student!" Du Ruo felt very lucky, with a pleasant smile on the corner of his mouth, he walked to the corner where the little sister parked first.

"Really, I haven't seen her in four or five years. I heard that she is very angry now, the village built a hope primary school, a shot is more than 100,000, the first person on the merit monument is her, it is really better to learn well than to marry well, if I have this blessing, I don't have to be angry with you! Sang Chen jumped for a while, the look of frustration and disappointment on his face vanished, and he also trotted all the way to follow behind Du Ruo.

"Ouch, look at the two of you guys. I didn't forget to raise my eyebrows when I quarreled, I really became a double butterfly and a pair of mandarin ducks, which is really shocking, and there is a love party like a fairy in these years! The little sister jumped out of the car, and the little red jumped forward with a shout, and the three of them hugged each other like crazy. Du Ruo chuckled in his heart, a warm stream of heat rose in his eyes, and his thoughts unconsciously floated to the bank of the Mei River in that month's hometown......

"I used to be twenty years old, and I was in the peaks.

I'm thirty today. Haggard and lying in the river city.

He is not only ten years old, but he has suffered with all.

Today, with the intention of ascending, there is no return to the former ......"

It was a Sunday evening in October in autumn, and the moon was white and breezy on the Meihe River. The river is deserted, the moonlight of the distant mountains is like water floating and the dark green reckless peaks and peaks, and the river water hidden in the sparse forest under the feet is like a white silk cut from the sky. Hanging in the mountains and streams, the vast stars in the sky and the dark mountains are reflected in the depths of the quiet mirror-like river, the river banks are clustered with mountain flowers that bloom in the white mist and the bamboo that looks slim in the moonlight. Shake in the ripples of the riverside breeze. What can not be heard on both sides of the strait is the sound of the mountain and green stream, the shore is inexhaustible is the vermilion and vermilion pink Yaocao red spring, the birdsong echoes in the mountains and forests, the flowing water is whistling in the river valley, the waterfall is noisily flashing with silver light, echoing on the cloud-filled mountain cliff, and then it is like a jade dragon that is fluttering and flying, setting off countless white water foams and splashing in all directions......

"Hehe, it's ridiculous that I have a hollow belly, crookedly chanting Xiangshan Jushi Wen......"

Du Ruohaha smiled, met Sang Chen's playful gaze, gently pestled her flower-like smile, stretched out her hand to take the mat, and walked to the depths of the forest with a smile, "Hey, Chenchen, I will go to the city tomorrow to carry my luggage, and then go back to the mountain, you have a good rest at home, report to the school in a few days, and be a middle school teacher with peace of mind, don't have those nonsense ideas, in the end it will harm others and yourself, I don't toss enough, I tossed in the sea of bitterness for half my life, as for the current name, I don't get it, I don't get it, I don't get it, Woke up after a fall and was still alone, who called us the children of the farmer, the road up is full of thorns and mire, like walking in a dark and boundless tunnel, and I can't see the sunshine at the end of the tunnel, so it's better to stay at home and eat a bowl of Ansheng rice. ”

Sang Chen was happy, turned up her eyes that were as bright as the night moon, and looked at Du Ruo with a plump and sharp eye, "What do you enjoy or not?" I just want to go to the city to get a food book, find a unit to put a desk, a lifetime without walking on the dirt road is enough, I have not also read more than ten years of books, which point is worse than the city people, this straight to the mountain, out of the river days, I have not been interested! ”

"Look at your death-defying appearance!" Du Ruo waved his hand disapprenorantly, and his face suddenly turned into a warm smile, "Say that you are ignorant, you are so good at the threshold, say that you are stupid big sister, you are a college student who has just graduated, the world has been dying for a thousand years, you still hold on to the old emperor's calendar, now you have the right not to read, you don't know how to read and have money, you have someone to recommend, and your heart can reach the sky!" If you are as poor as Lu Xun's Kong Yiji, and you eat a fennel bean, then no one asks in the downtown area! If you have a lot of money like Fan Liuyuan in Zhang Ailing's book, you are so graceful that you don't know what you are, you sit in an old car all day long, live in a concession hotel, and even raise a dog of a famous breed, you see, if you have money to make ghosts grind, you will be developed by the stars and the moon, and the dog crumbs that you never dreamed of will follow you and wagging your tail and begging for mercy, saying that it is the gray grandson you got with his second aunt in your previous life, and the godson of your aunt who can't beat you with eight poles! ”

Sang Chen smiled, like the cheerful sound of the wind blowing the pine leaves, which provoked the birds on the branches to also brush, and flew to the jungle opposite in pairs, "In this way, the difficulty of Shu Road, it is difficult to go to the sky, I have neither money nor power, I can only stay in the countryside and eat chalk ash Luo for the rest of my life!" ”

"Not necessarily!" Du Ruo shook his head disappreciatively, and the corners of his mouth couldn't hide a look of expectation, "Don't work hard." It is difficult to get close to the world's wealth, you can go to work and take the postgraduate entrance examination, squeeze the single-plank bridge again, and you will definitely be able to enter the city after graduating from graduate school, and then you will be able to enjoy all the life freedom of a modern woman in the city happily! ”

Sang Chen hesitated for a moment, then walked a few steps forward shyly, then turned back and leaned against a tree, his eyes staring at the faint moon shadow in the pool, "So you want me to take the graduate school entrance examination." Aren't you afraid that it will drag you down in the future? Will it make trouble for you unreasonably? If I can't pass the test, are you willing to watch over me regardless of the gains and losses? I'm afraid that at that time, I was hooked by some merry widow and confidante and took my heart, and I will remember me, the little sister next door who is not good-looking! ”

Du Ruo was speechless for a while, as if a basin of cold water was dripping on his feet, and the full of joy and pride that had just been aroused disappeared without a trace in an instant. He drooped his head in embarrassment, didn't look at Sang Chen, and walked quickly to the hillside, now that the moon was clear. The mountains and rivers are quiet, a few kingfishers are flying in the depths of the black and flickering forest, and a few springs and melodious rhythms are whispering at the end of the white stream, Du Ruo's heart is refreshed. Dead wood is still reappearing in spring. No one is twice a teenager. In the blink of an eye, he was not confused, and the passionate years of his classmates' youth had long passed. The leisurely warmth that stopped by the babbling stream, the lively business that stood in front of the bustling waterfall had long since disappeared with the passage of Shaohua. Once upon a time, he didn't swallow the bitterness and bitterness in his stomach, and his eyebrows were cold to the faint green mountains. How can poverty move the heart of the white head; Once upon a time, he didn't throw away the frustration in his heart, laughing and scolding the green water. The poor do not fall into the ambition of the clouds. However, time passes like water, a group of old friends who point out the country and promote words, people who are officials, Shangcheng who are in the city, the most poor husband and wife sing, the small life is sweet and sweet, he is so hungry and unbearable, a mistake into a thousand years of hatred, success is not famous, and he is still a worthless mountain road maintenance worker. As the saying goes: once you are bitten by a snake, you are afraid of grass rope for ten years. With such a thorny livelihood, such a bumpy and bumpy fate, how can he have any leisure and leisure, and then play this ethereal love game! How could he have anything to gamble on such an unattainable future! Rather than envy the fish in the abyss, it is better to retreat and close the net. Du Ruo already knew that since he couldn't rise to the top, he could enjoy the fun of being a man at a high level of society; The name can't soar, but also a wife and son, so that the family can enjoy the happiness of life. It's great to paint a few pictures, move a nest, save some insignificant fame, and earn something that is ashamed to export. Compared with those dignitaries and nobles who eat half a year's grain at a meal and sit in a building, isn't this a small thing, and compared with those peddlers and pawns who go out with bright lights and wine, and enter with beautiful wives and concubines, how can they not be beggars and dragon kings. If he is unconscious and complacent, he will have nothing to do, give the truth, give people a laughing stock, and become the target of people's spit; If he is ashamed to be curious, and the master uses his own vision for a hole, and often puts on a score, and shows a pair of late bloomers and full of ambition, then what is the same as asking for his own death, and the grass on the grave will be three points shorter than others in the future. As the saying goes: from the fifteenth day of the month to the fifteenth day, there is little light, and everything is off when people reach middle age. Du Ruo had already smoothed out the water chestnut and oiled his head, and the great practice of suffering losses and blessings could no longer arouse his enthusiasm, and the lofty ideal of quenching his thirst could no longer radiate his fighting spirit, because what is useful is the truth, and what is useless is the fallacy of self-deception. Du Ruo will no longer chase hard for some of the illusions and dreams of the pyramid created by the heart, and know that he can't do it, Du Ruo will never put aside the happiness of the world, leave the enjoyment of life, go to the boat, not jump into the river, not see the coffin, not shed tears, Du Ruo has already repented and lost his way, his current philosophy of life: is to be a person with a head and face in a plain atmosphere, and his current program of action: is to realize the value of life and pursue the ideal of life in a safe and stable situation. If you want to pull up a flagpole and throw him like a monkey without being in the east or west, and then look at him behind his back and laugh, that kind of day will blow early; If you want to set up a trap with a fire in the east and a cigarette in the west, and then trample on his human dignity, laugh at his moral ideals, and insult his existence as a person, that kind of Chenguang will also be dispersed. Now Du Ruo's door is full of green trees and fruits, and he doesn't have to worry about the phoenix not flying over; Now Du Ruo's back of the house has turned red and purple, and he doesn't have to worry that there is no bee and butterfly to make him come to find the fragrance. Now I can still be guilty of being angry for a yellow-haired girl who is not in the flow, and then I can experience the bitter taste of a lovelorn person with compassion, and I can also take off my pants and fart for a poor college student who has not yet debuted, and then build my beautiful love on a flashy sky pavilion......

"Hey, I'm angry. No, if you're really angry, my little sister will pay you compensation! I don't know when Sang Chen has quietly walked uphill, looking at Du Ruo's face from a distance, like the night sky where the clouds move the moon at the top of the slope, the gloomy clouds cover the moon shadow for a while, and the clear clouds scatter the moon for a while, so he carefully wandered a few steps, and his eyes squinted at Du Ruo uncertainly.

Du Ruo smiled vaguely and walked to Sang Chen's side with concern. Carrying the mat on his shoulder: "Chenchen, go back, why are you getting more and more childish, it's getting late, my grandmother will not worry!" ”

Sang Chen was slightly stunned, his eyes flashed in disbelief, and then a cool breath came up from the bottom of his heart, this person was really angry, and he was no longer the brother next door who cared for her and protected her. If you don't agree with her, she will abandon her, and the tears of desolation almost burst out of her eyes: "If you want to go, you go." If you can't crook your neck to speak, if you don't have the right mouth, I'll die in the mountains. Don't worry about it. I knew that when I got out of this mountain, you would turn your face and deny people, not to mention that there was a merry widow with stinky skin and stinky meat in the city, and there was a confidante with dog skin wrapped in dog bones in the mountain. Still care about me, a country girl! ”

"Chenchen, what do you mean by this, this is a little too presumptuous!" Du Ruo was displeased. A roar of fury surged through his veins, as if the wound that had been healed in his heart had been rubbed with salt again, as if the regret that had long been hidden in the depths of his soul was pulled out and tortured, for a while he only felt that his head was cracked and his eyes were dizzy, and his fat face was burned into a fire because of his anger, "Chenchen, people must speak according to their conscience, and if they chew their tongues like seniors, there will be no good results." What do I do to you, you know in your heart, I have not taken advantage of your youth to deceive you with bad intentions, nor have I taken advantage of your danger to blackmail you unreasonably! My intentions for you can be seen by the sun and the moon. When I was a child, you called me uncle, I was sweet and agreed, and when I was older, you called my brother, and I accepted it happily, after you went to college, you didn't shout anything, I really couldn't wipe my face, just 'hey' a false response story, I didn't change my face and never complained. You grew up watching me grow up, and you are really closer than my sister in my mind. When I was young, I wanted to run all over the mountains, and after picking it back, you didn't look at it, so I rubbed my little temperament, and I wanted to take you all over the mountains to look for flowers, until you laughed more than the mountain flowers. After we were thousands of miles away in middle school, I thought that our friendship would fade with the change of time and space, but I never forgot to buy you some books, pens, and beautiful flowers, and you didn't bother to reply to a letter, and finally hoped for a letter, not more than 50 words. I think you are right, thousands of miles of embankment, collapsed in the anthill, now we are like duckweed on the water, rootless, bottomless, helpless, I can't be unreasonable to affect you, neither can I turn love into your driving force, let alone drag you down, become a stumbling block on your journey. You are at a critical juncture in your life, once you are distracted, lose your will, and can't squeeze into the single-plank bridge of the college entrance examination, you will cry and wipe your tears back to the countryside. How can I see Chenchen, who is like a flower branch, lost the most beautiful face and the purest feelings in the big ravine where the sun does not see the light of day on all sides of my hometown, how can I bear to go out of the nest like a milk swallow Chenchen has not seen the world outside the mountains and has not yet appreciated the urban civilization, so he has broken his wings and broken wings, and he will never be able to get out of the barren mountains and mountains where there is little food and clothing in his hometown. I hide my good affection for you, put away my good intentions for you, and send money to your family every once in a while, I said that Chenchen is like a tender grass that needs to be cared for, and a young pigeon that spreads its wings for the first time needs to be carefully released. And the text of being a brother can't refer to a shortcut, and martial arts can't be supplemented by a smooth road, only do this little bit of effort, but don't tell Chenchen. I care so much about you, and yet you don't care in the slightest. Do you still remember, that year, when you came home from summer vacation after the college entrance examination, I was so ecstatic with poetry and books that I forgot to ask for a vacation, and I took a train for a day and a night and rushed to your home overnight. I wanted to offer your most beloved clothes to listen to my most beloved Chenchen, and to be able to call me brother affectionately like when I was a child; I wanted to give you your favorite gift, look at my favorite Chenchen, and be able to sprinkle a coquettish voice in front of me, or play with some little guessing gadgets. However, you just said hello to me lightly, poured me a cup of tea coldly, and intermittently busied yourself with your business. Look at your intimate chatting and laughing with your neighbors, and listen to your enthusiastic play with your companions. I can't say how sad I am, it turns out that as you grow older, our childhood family has passed away with the wind, and with the improvement of your knowledge. The friendship of our youth has long since dispersed. I sat in your house late into the night, and I forced a smile on the faces of your family. Later, when I walked on the mountain road home, I regretted that I had smashed all the unspeakable gifts and threw them in the stream, and I regretted that I had tore up my unspeakable clothes and threw them on the cliff. Later, when you really went to college, I was happy for you from the bottom of my heart, and I also sent you a congratulatory gift that I thought about again and again. In my life circle, everyone knows that Du Ruo has a childhood sweetheart's cousin, and the photo of his brother's eighteenth sister and ten years old is still grandly placed at the bedside. And you ate a Hades palace in one bite. The yin and yang weirdness in his stomach turned out to be like a yellow crane, and he was reluctant to send me even an eight-cent stamp to report peace. I was helpless, but more deeply sad. You have grown from a self-extinguishing thorn grass in the mountains to a noble frost branch, and you have grown from an ugly duckling in the countryside who has no one to cheer for you to a beautiful white swan. And I am trapped in a corner of the grass and trees, the mountains are still in the mountains, and I have been desperately jumping for more than ten years, but I still can't jump out of this square sky in the mountains. So I had to hide my love for you in my heart helplessly, and I was very embarrassed to put away my unfulfilled love for you in the four roads. Now the years are gone, and the past is like smoke. You don't ask indiscriminately to accuse me, and you're embarrassed to distinguish between right and wrong, when I am the wrongdoer. In the morning, the human heart is full of flesh, and it is unacceptable to spit in the well where water has been drunk or to sprinkle lime in the pot where the rice has been served; Talking nonsense with your eyes closed, and getting a look at ten and ten out of a hundred, it will not work. People are creatures with feelings, money is like dung, and benevolence is worth a thousand gold, not to mention that you have read books for seven or eight years more than me, and you should understand this truth better than me. You should be better at understanding this human physics than I am! ”

Sang Chen lowered his head slightly, his heart was like a knife, and he was uneasy for a moment. But her body froze as if it was stiff, and the uncontrollable coldness seemed to be flowing. She tried her best to pull out and want to leave several times, but she couldn't move her legs, she tried her best to open her mouth several times, but she couldn't open her mouth, so she could only listen to him turn her heart over and over again, and torture her soul unscrupulously. Back then, she wasn't as bright as the sprouts of the leaves, when she was on a sunny day, stepping on a piece of grassland, the lakes and mountains in the countryside left her happy laughter, and the many dance pavilions in the city recorded her beautiful when she was beautiful. In the summer, the light red shirt penetrates the skin, the water pavilion is empty at the beginning of the sunny day, there is nothing to do alone by the railing, and the water breeze is cool to read the documents; In winter, the warm weather is like spring, and the cold plum is full of slopes, and a branch of cloud sideburns is broken with a smile, and people are asked who they look like? However, when graduation was approaching, a stone was thrown into the calm water, the four-year quiet college life was disordered, the value system of knowledge that was the power that had been painstakingly established for more than ten years collapsed, and the students were like ants on a hot pot, trying their best to make the last bit of effort and strength. The family has a good father and mother, and he drove a car with firecrackers all the way to the government office; There are godfathers and godmothers at home, and they also went to the public institution all the way with a wine banquet and a wedding sticker; Only a poor middle peasant like her, who has nothing but hard work and no money, wants to set up a desk in the city to save some living expenses, or wants to put a bed in the city Simmons to have a few nights of ordinary dreams, which is really more difficult, more difficult, more difficult! A few classmates worked hard to dig out the books that were shelved in the high cabinet, ready to embark on the road of no return to the graduate school entrance examination as if they were dead; A few classmates broke the jar and broke it, pinched off the lofty ideals, extinguished the good beliefs, anyway, the countryside is a vast world, and there are great achievements there; There are also those who are not in good spirits, unwilling to be reluctant, and later generations have wiped away their tears again, covered their faces, used their academic qualifications as stepping stones, and used their talents as talismans, and tried their luck in various talent markets, vowing to carry out their job search to the end; What's more, he mourns more than his heart, uses his reputation as a tablecloth, uses beauty as a vase, scratches his head and poses to take more than a dozen photo albums, bare-chested and bare-backed, and gets more than a dozen sets of fashionable clothes, and various companies go to deliver them, vowing to bet on tomorrow with youth. So she also panicked and embarked on the road of job hunting. She used to be like a working girl going south, wandering the colorful streets of the south, looking at the magnificent buildings and beautiful faces beside her in a hurry, she no longer had the courage to throw her humble figure and the lowly application letter in her hand into those revolving doors guarded by beast-faced people; She used to be like a female drifter in the north, shy in the quaint city of the north, looking at the surrounding buildings more than a simple building and a more luxurious vehicle than a dizzying speed, she no longer has the courage to put her shallow talent and the ridiculous recommendation letter in her hand into those high-gate mansions with armed police standing guard. She also wanted to retreat to the second, just begging for a sip of water to drink in a small county town in the countryside or mixing a bowl of rice in the township to eat, but in the face of this fee of 8,000 yuan at every turn, she was like falling into an ice hole, and her whole body was half cold, and she did not eat or drink for five years of voluntary labor, not to mention, the salary of 300 oceans a month in the future, I am afraid that in the year of the monkey, the horse month will not be able to get rid of poverty, become rich, and take the broad road of development. At that time, she felt that she was the most unfortunate person in the world! Unfortunately, I was born in a peasant family, and I can't be like a peasant girl who has been carefree around the three-foot stove all her life; Unfortunately, I grew up in the city, and I can't be like the city girl who has been unrestrained all her life in front of the three-foot dresser. I didn't change my confidence at all, and I couldn't bear to read books for more than ten years, which was not as much as the money that the little sisters in the village saved in a month; A little ideal is not extinguished, and he has spared no effort to learn the culture for more than ten years, but he is not as good as the female classmates in middle school who marry well and return to his hometown. Forget it! The world belongs to others, and it is not something that her, a country woman from a poor family and a single family, can change; The sun belongs to someone else, and it is not something that a soft-spoken and shallow female college student can bathe in. Forget it! As the saying goes: dragons give birth to dragons, phoenixes give birth to phoenixes, and mice give birth to burrows in the ground. She is a girl in the mountains who knows nothing, and it is not as normal as going back and forth from the mountains to the mountains and then to the mountains; She is a yellow-haired girl who is incompetent, she is lucky enough to read a few sentences of books and a few sentences of foreign literature, and she wants to get ahead and eat hundreds of meals and drink hundreds of waters, isn't it as funny and inexplicable as putting out a fire and burning herself; Forget it! Everything is not taken care of by others, and life is a fateful arrangement. She honestly packed her luggage, let go of her dreams sincerely, returned to the countryside peacefully, and then was kind and welcoming to be a good female teacher in a mountain village who ate chalk ash or a good female rural technician who walked in the fields and watched the flowers, who called her not to do good deeds in her previous life, and who told her to be born in the wrong life in this life, destined to exhaust her youth, wear out her life, and lose her faith and enthusiasm in the ravines

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