Du Ruo remembered that it was the night when the hibiscus dew fell in the summer and the willows were sparse in the middle of the month. At that time, Du Ruo's paintings were published one after another, and Du Ruo's name appeared in newspapers and periodicals every now and then, and Du Ruo was widely praised as a typical self-taught talent. The road also began to be famous, and all aspects began to emerge, and they also began to appear as literati and artists. At that time, Ren Yan was also deigned to call him Teacher Du by the high-ranking female teacher, and at that time, Ren Yan had already been demoted from an unsmiling ice beauty willing to respect him as a Du painter, and at that time, Ren Yan had already transformed from a cold light when he often looked at him into a smiling face.

That night they came back from a meeting in the work area, and watched Yue'er jump on the gravel at the bottom of the stream, and the wind crumpled their reflections, and then cast them into the dark green weeds, and then reflected in the clear water. Ren Yan smiled and chatted all the way, while intentionally or unintentionally picking the petals of wild lilies. She said that Du Ruozhen can't see it, you really have a spiritual surname, and you have become famous and a family in just two or three years, what are your plans in the future, find a way to transfer to the city, or do you want to be a mountain road maintenance worker here for a lifetime? Du Ruo was speechless for a while, and the words he had never heard before were in his ears, and he couldn't help but lower his head in a daze. "Alas, you are really a dou who can't be helped, the cone is in the bag, when you think about it, people must have ideals and ambitions in the world, a little success will be tasted at a glance, or just a giant who is keen to make speeches, a dwarf who acts, who will never enjoy the fun of creating a life, and realize the true meaning of life in personal struggle!"

Du Ruo had never heard of it for a while, and a strange feeling that was close to enchantment was all over Manyan, and he couldn't help but walk a few steps in a daze, close to Ren Yan's side.

Ren Yanwan smiled, four mysterious and affectionate eyes reflected each other, and both of them shook slightly, "What's so good in this mountain, you can't find a lark in the dead trees, people live here, even if they are trampled for a lifetime, as the saying goes: three inches of qi are used in a thousand ways, once impermanence, everything is off." You should go one step further, use your talent and fame, and find ways to transfer to the city, and display your talents in a broader environment, so as to bring happiness to you and your family. Tianxingjian, a gentleman should strive for self-improvement. Why can't you do what others can do? ”

Du Ruo blinked his eyes in confusion, a fire ignited in his heart, and a leisurely and sincere expression made his face shine even more.

Ren Yanyun smiled, and seemed to be reminiscing about the past for a moment, and raised his hand to sweep down a few locks of hair scattered on his face, "You don't know, I was born in Jiangcheng, and when I was five years old, I went to the northwest with my parents. I always remember that when we moved, I cried and refused to leave Jiangcheng, and finally my grandmother took me to the children's park, and when I saw the elephant, I hugged it and cried all morning. After that, day after day, year after year, I stayed in the ravines and ravines of the northwest so bored, sometimes the night was really boring, I counted the stars in the sky, imagined the night view of Jiangcheng, and bought woolen clothes on Zhongshan Road. Ten years later, my father retired, and my family was able to return to Jiangcheng. I can't remember what Jiangcheng looked like when I was a child, everything felt familiar and cordial to me, I went to the park, the night market, the concert, and the mall alone. I think that in the future, I will be a city person, and I will be able to spend a day in this ten-mile foreign field. Unexpectedly, after graduating from college, I was assigned to this mountain again, and I went around asking for a relationship and going through the back door, begging my grandfather to tell my grandmother, but I still didn't escape this straightforward doom. As soon as I got off the train that day, I felt that everyone was a lot shorter, and I saw your firecrackers shaking the sky and drums shouting warmly to welcome, and I could be considered to have tears on my face. ”

Du Ruo was flattered for a while, this kind of romantic heart-to-heart conversation made him go crazy, and there were bursts of undisguised surprise and joy on his face, "I can't imagine that you are such a flowery person, and there are so many unsatisfactory things!" ”

Ren Yan was stunned when he heard this, and a long-lost pleasure of being complimented vaguely rose in his heart, and he hurriedly took a step to the side in a shy answer, and opened a distance from Du Ruo, half a day later, he raised his head calmly, and continued to speak as if nothing had happened, "This is the result of you being trapped in a ravine, lonely and unheard, out of sight, out of mouth, deaf, and upset, don't you nag me all day long, there are more beautiful women than me in the city." Zhuangzi said: The well fish can not speak to the sea, and it is confined to the void; Summer insects can't talk to the ice, and they can't talk to the time. Don't look at your current fame, there are also some benefits, you can eat a heart, have a good time, look very proud, in fact, you are far from the real sense of the famous name! At best, it is nothing more than sharpening iron on the tip of a needle and scraping oil on the legs of a heron. Zhang Daqian's shrimp can be sold for tens of thousands of yuan, and Xu Beihong's horse can be exchanged for an imported large color TV, are you okay, do you have this ability. It's not that I mean to embarrass you, to say that I look down on you, but now you are like a carved beam built on a sand dune, and you are in danger of falling apart in three moments at the slightest moment. Therefore, if you want to truly achieve a career, strive for fame, and break out of the world from hardships and hardships, you must study hard, and you must be literary, historical, and philosopherical, omnipotent, ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign, and omnipotent. Truly do not make a sound, a blockbuster, if you do not fly, it is enough, a soaring sky. Of course, this is very difficult for you, and it is not easy for you, a road maintenance worker who has not graduated from junior high school, to get to this point. But I still sincerely hope that you can do this, relying on someone else's gatehouse to pass the day will never have a day to get ahead, what difficulties I can also help you, after all, idle is also idle, can carry the feet to send the Buddha to the temple in the leisure season, ferry people ashore, why not! ……”

Du Ruo was in trouble for a while, and his steps beside Ren Yan couldn't help but slow down, he blushed again and again, and wanted to refute a few words with reason, but he was afraid of incurring Ren Yan's disgust, saying that he hadn't read the book for a few days, but he had learned to carry his mouth, and taking a step back would be regarded as advice and good deeds, but Ren Yan's words were too much, and his thoughts were also excessive, isn't this ** naked preaching personal struggle? Promote the idea of personal pleasure to make a fortune! No wonder it's a monkey, I can't sit still in the mountains, I always think about the big color TV of the people in the city; No wonder the hedgehog imprisoned his feelings in the thorns and thistles, so that he could change to the spring color of Fengcheng in the future. This is not a reflection of the current fashionable Western philosophical trend in her mind, and this is not the negative impact of the scars that have swept through China now.

"If you have anything to say, just say it, look at this red-faced and red-eared person, I don't care, I'm Bole, you are a thousand miles of horses, how can anyone in the world compete with horses!" Ren Yan smiled softly, but she didn't feel that she slowed down, and she was so cold that she glanced at Du Ruo with a sense of superiority.

"I want to say two words, but you're a teacher, I'm afraid you won't be able to erase it. You can't be angry if you say something wrong, just treat it as a fart. You care too much about the environment, and you completely cut off the relationship between man and nature. Yes, human beings are products of nature, and the regions in which they live are different and the achievements of human culture and material civilization they enjoy are also different. But this is not a factor in determining the surname, it is not confined to the freedom of the heart. People must first adapt to nature, and then they can transform nature, and people living in a specific social environment or historical environment will inevitably be affected by tradition, public morality, and customs, and the supernatural that is divorced from social practice does not exist at all. It's like if you take a ladder and want to go to heaven, the immortals must live better than mortals, but you have to take it, the meaning of life lies in the process of you building, not how you enjoy it after you build it. I feel that you are already on the tip of the bull's horns, hiding in the comfort of the city and not being able to get out, and all the egoism that starts from the individual has corroded your mind. John Dewey, the master of Western pragmatist philosophy, said: Thinking is a tool, truth is through utility, and whatever has utility is truth. Sartre, the philosophical master of existentialism, also said: existence precedes essence, and what exists is reasonable; The world is absurd, life is painful; Man has absolute freedom in choosing his own actions. In fact, they are all based on the observation of the sky and the sea, which is seriously detached from social practice and are all idealistic epistemologies. People still need to read more Marxist-Leninist books and refine a kind of historical materialist world view, so that you can be down-to-earth, make use of the existing natural and social environment around you, and absorb everything that will help you form a value experience, without thinking about what is wrong. What do you say is wrong about you here? The leader values you, the employees respect you, the female cadres who enter the agency are spotless, and the work area is a female teacher who responds to every call, and the value of life has been fully reflected. But thou hast forsaken this place as thou hast walked away, and thou hast been sent back to the city with all your heart. What are you doing in town? If you don't have a name, you don't have a profit, and a month's salary is not enough to buy fashionable clothes. You yourself say that there are more women in the city who are more beautiful, more magnificent, and more educated than you, but when you go is just a drop of water from a mountain stream that melts into the vast sea, you can't even turn over a bubble, and you will be a mediocre citizen for the rest of your life. Maupassant's "The Necklace" and Flaubert's "A Simple Heart" are not all true portrayals of the little women in the city who love vanity and pursue pleasure. Of course, it is not that cities are bad, after all, cities are the gathering places of modern civilization and concentrate the greatest material wealth of mankind. But you have to do it right. With the strength of the good wind, send you to the clouds. Relying on marriage to get a place in the city to sit and sit in the city, and to do things to others, you can get a few good things, and you don't feel at ease. The heads and brains in the office building of the Road Bureau, which one of them did not work step by step from the grassroots level! Therefore, you have to seek truth from facts, go to what mountains and sing songs, watch what dishes and eat. The state trains you to go to university, assigns you here, you have to adapt to the environment here, have a hot glow, contribute your wisdom and wisdom to the fiery life, actively participate in the construction of the cause here, from me to a simple heart", are not all true portrayals of the little women in the city who love vanity and pursue pleasure. Of course, it is not that cities are bad, after all, cities are the gathering places of modern civilization and concentrate the greatest material wealth of mankind. But you have to do it right. With the strength of the good wind, send you to the clouds. Relying on marriage to get a place in the city to sit and sit in the city, and to do things to others, you can get a few good things, and you don't feel at ease. The heads and brains in the office building of the Road Bureau, which one of them did not work step by step from the grassroots level! Therefore, you have to seek truth from facts, go to what mountains and sing songs, watch what dishes and eat. The country trains you to go to university, assigns you here, you have to adapt to the environment here, have a heat and a light, contribute your wisdom and wisdom to the fiery life, and actively participate in the construction of here, starting from me, from now on, so that you can be worthy of the country, worthy of the family, worthy of the people who respect you and respect you! ”

"You are really a Du Erpole, you have only been reading books for a few days, drawing a few pictures, and you are like a dog and a college questioner!" Ren Yan was annoyed and angry for a while, and she couldn't imagine that this road maintenance worker, who was usually unsuccessful, would actually bring out a bunch of big truths to teach her a lesson; I can't imagine that this amateur painter, who has never been talented, dares to make some right and wrong with his mouth full of feces to belittle himself, "I can't go back to the city, it's your business!" I eat bran vegetables, what do you have to do with it! I want you to teach me a lesson with red mouth and white teeth, and I want you to meddle with a mouse! Do you see that the sky you hold up is a place for people to stay? You're stepping on a piece of ground like a dog kennel! You don't know if the sun in the Ming Dynasty will pass in front of the door, and you will be full of frost on other people's tiles! Pulling the broken broom as a curtain all day long, and passing through the holes in his body, he didn't know that there was shame in the world, pretending to be a serious person and pretending to be a moralist! It's really shameless to give the face, and if you give three points of color, you will open a dyeing workshop! You get away from me, the dog skin plaster that can't be shaken off is dangling in front of my eyes, I am disgusted when I see you, I am really blind to know you! ”……

The train wandered for a day, and finally entered Jiangcheng Station in the twilight, and all the people on the train were like the tide of opening the gate, rushing to the door at once, and after a while, they were scattered in the brightly lit fork in the square in front of the station.

Du Ruo followed Ren Yan from a distance, looking at her long and jade limbs reflecting a beautiful silhouette on the light-recognizable ground, listening to her high-reaching heels hitting the smooth road surface with a nice crisp sound, looking at her long black hair fluttering in the warm and warm evening breeze, and the butterfly-shaped small satchel on her back was also swaying under the light and shadow neon lights. Yes! All this will be lost, as soon as Houmen enters the deep sea, Xiao Lang is a passerby from now on. As soon as she goes, she is someone's balcony**, the bright moon and the breeze; That's all, she is her own mud cow and fire moth, and she will be like an unknown life for the rest of her life! Du Ruo's hair was dizzy for a while, his eyes were black, and his whole body was like a piece of rotten wood that had been bitten by insects and ants. He crossed the tunnel silently, stupidly out of the station, just came to the square in front of the station, and suddenly from the black crowd that picked up the station, a middle-aged man with a roe head and a rat led a half-table-high child walked intimately in front of Ren Yan. Du Ruo's heart was beating wildly, and the hot blood suddenly surged to his face, and he hurriedly hid in the dark. Look at the man pushing the bicycle, carrying the luggage one by one, the smiling eyes are full of surprising warmth, listening to the child timidly hang his head, and call his mother in a very unnatural voice. Du Ruo only felt that a sharp knife was stabbing at his heart viciously, and his eyes immediately turned red, his face turned white, and even the roots of his hair were terrifying. Look at the three of them talking and laughing with their luggage, all the way affectionately dissolving into the haze of lights and shadows on the opposite side of the square. Du Ruo felt a huge shadow flying towards him again, overwhelming him, and the pain of biting his heart and the bitterness of devouring people pulled his heart beating violently, so that he could no longer stand and shook his body, and fell to the ground crookedly......

Du Ruo left the station in a daze, like a night wanderer, believing in the reins of the horse on Jiangcheng Avenue. A few young women in dresses, high heels, and hair permed like a chicken's nest walked by, and he turned a blind eye; A few young men in flowered shirts, bell-bottoms, and loud voices swaggered through the streets, but he didn't hear them. He frantically walked through shop after shop, wandering in front of the colorful windows and glass windows with Hong Kong stars; He walked through the streets in a demented manner, sighing in front of the colorful streetlights and neon signs printed with colorful advertisements. He walked across the Shouyi Square, which had a billboard that read, "Concentrate on construction, and wholeheartedly seek development," crossed the Yangtze River Bridge, which was hung with a warning sign that read, "Shift the focus of the whole party's work to the track centered on economic construction," stumbled up to the top of Guishan Mountain, and looked at the scenery of the three towns with thousands of lights at his feet. He suddenly found that Jiangcheng has been walking on the road of reform and opening up in a phoenix nirvana, the fashionable on the market is the hedonistic consciousness of chasing pleasure, the street is popular with all kinds of rich and luxurious goods, people's living conditions have changed from the poverty and old-fashioned of a thousand people to a competitive surname, adventurous spirit, people's sense of dress is also liberated from the same blue ants, yellow ant clothing. Du Ruo, Du Ruo, you are a fool! You can't keep up with the times, you can't withstand a little blow! You are still stuck in the old era and look at yourself and pity, your home is like a kennel, your clothes are dressed like a flower child, and you naturally have no chance with a beautiful woman! Your living environment is like a pigsty, your economic status is like a sand dune, and nature has nothing to do with love and marriage! What good will it do you if you weep and you are depressed? In the end, it will only harm yourself, how can you give in in the face of setbacks! You're like a madman, you've been following her ass all the way, why are you here? What are you running here like a fool for? The times have advanced, people's values have changed, and the jungle principle of natural selection and survival of the fittest has begun to take root in the hearts of the people. The pursuit of material enjoyment is human instinct, and everyone has the love of beauty and admiration. It is a political, economic, and cultural center formed by the alienation of human labor for thousands of years, and concentrates all the scientific achievements of mankind. In contrast, the poor countryside of Daba Mountain, your ravine, has been shrouded in ignorance and backwardness for a long time, and there are essential differences in production level, economic income, and living conditions. The city - the countryside, on one side is the prosperous land of flowers and willows, and on the other side is a barren and barren village. You can say that the value of life is not different from the environment, obtained, contributed, people living here are prosperous and honorable, enjoy a high degree of material civilization and spiritual civilization, and live in the political, economic, cultural center, concentrated all the scientific achievements of mankind, there are endless paradises, there are endless fashions, there are endless urban scenery. In contrast, the poor countryside of Daba Mountain, your ravine, has been shrouded in ignorance and backwardness for a long time, and there are essential differences in production level, economic income, and living conditions. The city - the countryside, on one side is the prosperous land of flowers and willows, and on the other side is a barren and barren village. You can say that the value of life is not different from the environment, obtained, contributed, people living here are prosperous and honorable, enjoying a high degree of material civilization and spiritual civilization, while people living in the countryside work hard all year round, but they can only be like spring silkworms, spitting silk and eating leaves. Go back, confident that after 200 years of life, you will be able to hit the water for 3,000 miles. If the time comes, with your courage and wrist strength, to achieve a career, struggle for a future, must be born I will be useful, when the time comes, borrow Shandong Yanshui Village, to buy Fengcheng spring, ** less than a beautiful woman in the city! Go back, Xiongguan Mandao is really like iron, and now it is stepping forward from the beginning. Life is not just like the current river, rushing all the way forward, the back waves push the front waves, although on the way to the rush, you will also encounter rocks, reefs, but the river out of the rocks and increase its momentum, water over the reef and increase its fierceness. Not necessarily your world is always in a bleak wind and rain, not necessarily your emotional life is always covered with a layer of gloomy clouds, walking through a black hole before dawn darkness, showing in front of you is not still a warm breeze, eyes swaying sunny day! ……

Du Ruo's lover is here!

Du Ruo raised his head, and on the platform, Ren Yan walked over with the baby in her arms, surrounded by a group of women. Du Ruo hurriedly stepped forward, a wisp of gratitude and guilt swept across his eyebrows. In the cafeteria, there was a lot of noisy playing bridge and mixed points, rubbing mahjong for time, and people who were impatient with cold words all rushed out at this time. The old man looked at Ren Yan from a distance, and said that this girl is really knowledgeable, Du Ruo's ancestral grave in that life has been developed, and she has cultivated such a good daughter-in-law like a fairy; The girl looked around Ren Yan with a smile, saying that Sister Yan is so blessed, Du Ruo is just afraid that she didn't take off the stars in the sky; The child pestered Ren Yan back and forth, saying that the little daughter-in-law's red buttocks were like potatoes, and the hair that was conceived and born before she passed the door was as big as a cow. Immediately, laughter and laughter floated around.

Du Ruo hurriedly stacked the smiles on his face, plucked up the courage to hug the baby, and then grabbed Ren Yan, who had put the slight timidity and shyness on his face, and walked into the door of the cafeteria in a big way. Suddenly, firecrackers exploded in the mountains, Yaoming platform, and inside and outside the house, enthusiastically announcing the sweetness of Du Ruo's love and the harmony of the family!

With Du Ruo's lame frog and the blind chicken's buddies, he was so happy that his mouth was not in place at this time. All of them bloomed with the most touching smiles, showing the most charming demeanor, and everyone shouted sister-in-law to Ren Yan one after another. Said that he is a magpie, good at climbing high skills, looking forward to your sister-in-law, just like looking forward to the sprouting of fried beans and the flowering of iron trees.

Determined that Du Ruo was a buddy who crawled onto the books and pretended to be talented, at this time, he was like Wang Ba who went ashore and encountered hailstones, and everyone shrank their heads and shrunk their heads, and they were remorseful in their hearts. Du Ruo, this kid is grinding his eyes and pushing porridge, pretending to be confused, cooking dumplings in a dumb bar, and knowing it in his heart. At this time, I want to hang a broom on my eyelids, sweep (shame) the old face sleeve, arrange flowers between my teeth, and sincerely express my enthusiasm for finding something to say. I was afraid that Prime Minister Du Ruo would not be able to hold the boat in his belly, and he would pull out the valve core halfway, and he was always sorry. At that time, it was said that other people had a bad string in their brains and often took the wrong medicine, and the good interest of watching the capsized boat on the Yellow Crane Tower was gone. Seeing that others were smiling brightly, he also looked like a single person, shaking the stiff muscles on his face, and laughed dryly.

With Du Ruo, who is a good member of the Chess Association, the Card Association, and the Singles Association, he was so happy that his tongue turned out of his cheeks. How many months on the willow tops, people about the beautiful moment after dusk, the mountains are also in pairs, and the birds are also in pairs. Walking on the thousand-mile railway line, the lonely figure crosses the world in pairs. When the moon will also lead us to the red line, there is also the happiness of this flower and the sweetness of the bird. Now there is, although she is Du Ruo's lover, a flower in the thorn bush, and she can't be close, but after all, it is a magpie returning to the nest and the phoenix returning to the nest, and the years in the whiteboard-like mountains finally have a wisp of bright color. Looking at her dream-like hazy eyes and smile brighter than flowers, looking at her beautiful buttocks and arms that are whiter and tenderer than fresh lotus roots, the good members are like snow lions to the fire, half crispy, a heart almost jumps out of the throat, and like a rooster who has lost a fight, drooping his head, his heart is surprised and happy for no reason, but there is an indescribable taste......

Du Ruo held Ren Yan in his arms, and everywhere he walked happily, there were endless smiling faces and endless compliments, and all the frustration and anger that had been stirring in his chest before were swept away. In a trance, he felt that he was the happiest person in the world, a proud son of heaven who realized his personal potential and value, and had a beautiful flower and a bright future. In recent years, I have broken my teeth and swallowed in my stomach, broken my head as a fan, and all my pursuits and intentions seem to have been realized at this time. He held the baby more carefully, with a pious and smug smile on the corner of his mouth, and the room was full of boiling voices congratulating him on the double harvest of career and love and the candle shadow symbolizing his success. It seems that his revolutionary heroism that night regardless of the pros and cons was right, and later he was not afraid of gossip and whimsical to say that she was his wife, and today he died begging Bai Lai not to avoid disgust and suspicion, and it is even more right to make her son full moon wine. Life in the world is originally to have fun, every scene, why worry about the face of the moment, stick to the name of the moment, regardless of the fact that she used to be the mistress of the man in the city, and then the wife of the man in the city, the world is happy for a night, and the pride is a moment, and this moment is enough to wish, what favorite hope and the most brilliant dream are just flowers in the mirror, the moon in the water, what a gentle and beautiful wife, a lively and lovely son, is just a pink skeleton, a ruined family, and a young ......

Du Ruo wanted to laugh and cry for a while, and looked around the enthusiastic people who were more enthusiastic, and the unenthusiastic people were enthusiastic. Du Ruo suddenly felt that all this in front of him was a dream—a dream that no one could think about and no one could not think about. Du Ruo suddenly felt that he was acting in a burlesque - the protagonist in the play was funny, and the audience was also funny. He suddenly looked up to the sky and laughed wildly, pushed Ren Yan away in an irritable mood, threw the baby in her arms, opened the door, and ran out of the door in a trance, with two self-deprecating tears falling involuntarily from his eyes...... (To be continued.) )