Chapter 5: Difficult Wild

―― Du Ruo's lover is born, and it is said that he is still a fat boy! ――

The blessing of the painter is not shallow, I didn't see it, I was happy these two days, and my mouth was not in place! ――

Recent news, that fat boy is not like four! ――

Hey, before you laugh at others, you don't look at yourself first, don't look at the heat in the pot, your own greed, you can't wait for the maggots not sewn! ――

Believe it or not!

This is a warm and cold day in the winter month.

The morning sun stands early on the verdant peaks of Bashan, half tender yellow and half green mountains, and a few wisps of mist are scattered at the bottom of the peak. The four sides of the small station are close to the water and mountains, reflecting each other, and the painting is as fresh and pleasant......

Early in the morning, the descendants of Du Ruogong District gathered in twos and threes. Some of them are pretentious iron buddies with three sticks supporting a thin shoulder, and they believe in the philosophy of good birds and trees: it was said that a few years ago, looking at Du Ruo's palmistry, just by the wide and long love line, I knew that Du Ruo must be a toad and eat swan meat in the future. Now my sister-in-law Fengqi ravine, forget, disaster, hard drinking, fun, dark drinking, don't drink it today, one Buddha was born, two Buddhas ascended to heaven, I can't live our buddies dream hard garden season with a pillow as a dance partner's kindness.

Some people also think that Du Ruo is a toad jumping on the pile of cow dung, and he doesn't know how thick the sky is, and he often wishes that Du Ruo's nerves are wrong or that he is too weak to make a metaphysical fugue under the guidance of the god of wine, and look at the mountain woman's chest is high and want to pinch it, or how knowledgeable he is to carry himself with a flat shoulder in the crotch, how good it is to plant peonies on his chest and brag about his own paintings, get some peachy news and make some romantic affairs, and the lonely and unbearable mountain years are hip-hop. Now this kid actually crooked his neck and bears fruit on the tree, his wife and son sleep in one bed, who knows who is a good girl who has been deceived and abducted, if he doesn't knock him with a stick to let him bleed, and don't pour decoction medicine in his navel, so that he is not convinced, otherwise the world is really smarter and more clever, and the more confused he is, the more he enjoys the blessings of confusion.

There are also members of the Chess Association, the Card Association, and the Singles Association with Du Ruo, and they are often comrades-in-arms in the same trench. The stars were shining brightly, and their pink faces were full of smiles that made these mountain men spend a thousand and eight hundred willingly. The work area is busy, but I can always take one day off once a month. The stars suddenly dimmed, like a gust of wind blowing away the brightness on the face, you sit sorry thank you, a good marriage that the descendants have thought about countless nights is so good. Now Du Ruo, this kid is not a real person, his wife is beautiful and beautiful, and he is a college student who is knowledgeable, which is not better than the little scratchers who say thank you with their lips. No, we must treat Du Ruo as a guest, with the public, the college students in the city marry the road maintenance workers in our mountains, and we feel better when we go to the city, and a golden phoenix flies in the ravine, and I am sad that the phoenix will not come in groups; By selfishness, Du Ruo, this kid is full of feelings, he doesn't care about three glasses and two thin wines, he thinks that Du Ruo was buried in the dung heap like a pearl in the night, and the little girl who was assigned to the work area was first moved, first offering paintings, poems, and affection; Later, he offered sorrow, beauty, and generosity. Who knew that the little girl was a cold-blooded animal, not for Du Ruo's talent, wealth and love, but a flower was inserted in the cow, married someone else, Du Ruo was sad, angry, with a smile that was more ugly than crying, saying that he would not find a girl in his life, but also marry a wife who is a college student. It's not that the good members of our association share the same hatred, yes, the little girl's skin stone head is weighed with a heart, her eyes are long and her nose is low, she is dead-hearted, and she lacks vision......

However, it was past noon, and all the guests in the work area had come, but Du Ruo's lover was still nowhere to be seen!

Du Ruo stood alone at the door of the house, his heart was like the fallen leaves flying in front of the station, looking at the bleak foothills on the field of vision, the valley was lonely, and the sadness of being left out went straight to his nose. He didn't know whether this room full of joy was a blessing or a curse for him, and he didn't know that this auspicious celebration that had come in a row had unexpectedly turned a fake into a reality, whether he was doing a good deed or a stupid deed. Look at the big red happy words posted in the four places, the big red ribbons hanging in front of the house and behind the house, and the gilded plaque inlaid with his paintings and specially inscribed with the words "good couple is natural" sent by the station leader hanging on the hall house, he is even more frightened and panicked. He didn't know that his momentary kindness would cause such a big deal of right and wrong, and he didn't know that his whimsical whims would have such a big repercussion inside and outside the station.

When the little brothers in the station had their faces on their faces, with a mysterious smile on the corner of their mouths, they asked who Ren Yan was in doubt, Du Ruo was just out of his heart's yearning for love and his long-standing secret feelings for Ren Yan, half joking and half boasting that Ren Yan was his daughter-in-law; When the enthusiastic mother and mother-in-law in the neighborhood stacked wrinkles like a mountain flower after the autumn, and asked Ren Yan suspiciously, Du Ruo only thought about covering up the enthusiasm he shouldn't have and sheltering Ren Yan from the frustration he shouldn't have, half prevaricating and half perfunctory saying that Ren Yan was his wife; And when the female workers of the small station carried colorful condolences and smiled, with a smile that was warmer than the warm sunshine of Xia Yue, and asked who Ren Yan was suspiciously, Du Ruo was only a little panicked and ashamed at that time, with a stiff neck and a hard belly, pretending to be a gesture of sacrifice for Ren Yan's name and determined to carry out the wrong enthusiasm to the end, half arrogant and half high to say that Ren Yan was his lover!

And when the small station sent him a plaque in the name of the party, government and work group, saying that he was an example of "standing in the ravine and loving the station like home", saying that Ren Yan was not only famous, not profit-seeking, dared to put aside secular prejudices, abandoned the urban civilization that everyone yearns for, and married a road maintenance worker in the mountains, it is a model of modern love and a model for the cadres and masses of the small station to learn from the mountainous areas. Du Ruo was panicked and embarrassed, and then he felt that he had lied too much, and the disaster was too much, and he couldn't get into it in an orderly way for a while.

When a group of little sisters known to Ren Yan chattered into Ren Yan's room, Du Ruodun was like half of the sky falling, busy and stiffened, and said with a cheeky face that Ren Yan was weak after giving birth, sick and unwell, please don't say what you shouldn't say, please don't ask what you shouldn't ask, people have faces, trees have bark, and after the child is full moon, she must be in charge of the phoenix and dragon, and then talk about the sisterhood; When Ren Yan knew her mother-in-law and mother-in-law, she carried baskets full of eggs and skewers of chicken, duck and fish, and said when she entered the door, girl, you are finally back, I haven't seen you for a few years, my aunt misses you! Du Ruo suddenly spit on his face again, neither entering, nor retreating, as if serving his mother, with the most humble but the most stubborn tone, said that the aunt came to say that Fang Chang, you are sympathetic to the mood of the girl, the boy understands, I hope you don't say anything superfluous, don't ask about superfluous things, people have ambitions, bamboo has festivals, wait for Ren Yan to get out of bed a little, a family of three must come to thank you, and you will live up to your old longing!

And when the secretary of the Youth League Committee of the small station, he led a large group of men and women, talking and laughing to send Du Ruo a big red couplet of "There are men and women with love, husbands and women with marriage". Some people say that Du Ruo wears glasses on his feet and neck, and the beauty is not a place. Some people also say that Du Ruo beat the radish of spring and set up the melon of autumn, which finally has the moisture of love, and the taste of a person and a dog has changed. Others say that Du Ruo is the sun at twelve o'clock at noon, and the brilliance of love finally shines on his head, there must be articles and twists and turns, and he has to put a mirror on the bridge of his nose to say anything, broaden his horizons, and introduce the love process with Ren Yan.

Du Ruo suddenly pretended to be a king and dragged under the buttocks, looking very embarrassed and embarrassed, busy stacking up twelve points of spirit, accompanied by a hundred times more careful, while using the most heartfelt and the most lazy and rude language, said that thanks to the patronage of Peng Shenshi, helpless small tofu body, can not withstand the toss of Lian Yue, cheap in bed, can not withstand the heat of Lian Yue, if there is Yaxing, it will be a clean bottle waiting for the light, sweeping the bed, and hope to come, it is a great honor!

Du Ruo smiled bitterly, and there was a very embarrassed and indescribable look gathered between his eyebrows, looking at the scene, Ren Yan would not come, and the full house full of joy that he had spent a lot of time and money to build for the sake of poor self-esteem and pathetic vanity did not seem to last long. Du Ruo suddenly felt that he was stupid, and the moles that grew from his eyebrows were generated, although a person's clothing reflected a person's values and cultural literacy. Du Ruo is dignified and personable, just for the geographical suspension, the difference between urban and rural areas, the mountains are the mountains after all, and he is still a clumsy mountain road maintenance worker. Even if Du Ruo gets ahead again, has a good reputation, has a superior socio-economic status, and has abundant personal aesthetic tastes, he can still only marry a girl in the mountains from door to door, and go around the mountains like a bantam all year round, looking at other people's wrong love songs, failed marriages, Du Ruo's world is that there are no beautiful women to enter and share the sweetness of love and the happiness of marriage with him. is no better than others, born in the city, grew up in the city, has a lifestyle and personal dignity that he can't imagine, no matter how he gives up on himself, he is not a in a sparrow's nest, a bodhisattva in a broken temple, and a city person who is a few levels higher than him. For him, he can only be the dew on the tip of the grass that he can't keep, and the osmanthus tree in the moon that he can't climb. In the past month, he has no big or small things, no matter how big or small, so that he is like a woman who enjoys love and happiness in the confinement by meticulous care and love, why did this come about, he kicked away the bitter and smiling face, abandoned the honor to accompany the careful, so that she is like a plum blossom in the wax moon, Si Wei on Bashan has been widely respected and courteous inside and outside the work area, reputation is not damaged at all, behavior is not blamed, what is this for?

Du Ruo suddenly felt that if he had not shown kindness that night, and had not come to the aid of the moral compassion of mankind; If he didn't feel pity for her later, and didn't use coal as powder, he said that she was his lover; If he didn't make full moon wine for his son wishfully today, and didn't slap his swollen face and put up a banquet for a fat man, then Du Ruo wouldn't have to bear this heart and be afraid, and he wouldn't have to have a hot face to stick to other people's cold buttocks, and he would be embarrassed and embarrassed.

Now Du Ruo is shorter than the later generations, once the paper can't hold the fire, she really pretends to be elegant and disdains to go out, even if Du Ruo's face falls into the crotch of his pants, the future generations don't let him be a rare visitor to the day, but also treat him as a pig who eats and sleeps with too much belly oil, and is confused, maybe he still treats him as a psychopath, and pitifully says that he wants a woman. How will Du Ruo be a person in the future, who else can afford Du Ruo, and choose trees to perch with Du Ruo, and who else is willing to take care of Du Ruo and pick a spoon in a pot with Du Ruo!

Du Ruo closed his eyes in pain, his face was covered with a layer of white frost, as if he was full of grievances and grievances in his heart, but he didn't know where to start. Why is she so unkind, unwilling to give him a little dignity and affection, and even disdains to do it with the help of holding the child to participate in the wine banquet, although it is difficult for a strong man to make a full moon wine for her son without her consent, but there are customs in the mountains, and everyone has compassion, at least the reason on the scene still has to be said, it is really the girls in the city who are superior to the road maintenance workers in the mountains.

Du Ruo felt that the anger of his conscience being betrayed and the shame of not being able to repay his kindness swelled in his chest, and a sinister sneer appeared on the corner of his mouth, so he rushed back to the bedroom to slap her a few times, scolding her for being a bloody forester. However, even if you beat her up and scold her for being raised by a bitch, what's the use. If people regret themselves, they will regret it, in a word, they are still Du Ruo, they can't beat the fox and provoke irritability, they can't marry a beautiful woman, and they want to make a little scratch on a beautiful woman, how can a toad eat swan meat!

Du Ruo was extremely depressed for a while, and his heart was full of five tastes—disappointment, melancholy, doubt, shame, and sadness, which hit his heartstrings wave after wave. Forget it, why can't you eat grapes and say that grapes are sour, this boil will come out of pus sooner or later, and the stones in the pickle bucket will have to be moved away sooner or later, so I will go and explain to the younger generations, saying that she is a broken shoe, and she has been made big in the city, and she has no face, and she runs to the mountains to seek death, I am a fool......

Du Ruo remembered that it was a rainy morning in autumn, and the express train on the Sichuan-Han Line came out of the big bus mountain, lying on the track of the small station with water droplets hanging on its body, humming and panting. Du Ruo had just gotten off the night shift, and his legs that had walked dozens of miles of the railway line were swollen and paralyzed, and the little evil skin rolled up a biting cold wind and broke in Shinto. Oh, you still have the heart to prepare for the corpse! Your beauties in the city are leaving, and you won't go and see them! Du Ruomeng was stunned, his heart was as if someone had inserted a knife, the top door was also like someone had hit a hammer, a gold star appeared in front of him, and he finally held on to the wall to stabilize his body, and his head was spinning and about to burst. I'm really embarrassed to say that no one at the huge station went to give her a ride, compared with the lively scene of pulling banners and sticking slogans, setting off firecrackers and beating drums in the station when she came that year, it is really a world of difference! The stationmaster said that she was a decent person with a beautiful shell; The secretary hit the nail on the head when he said that she was a victim of the decadent ideas of the petty bourgeoisie; A group of buddies at the station were indignant, saying that she was a bare-ass and a gown - a decent slut on the outside and dirty on the inside! No, it's almost driving, and her luggage is still piled up in the house, and no one will help her carry it!

Du Ruoqiang endured the swelling and pain, grabbed a piece of clothing and put it on his body, and ran all the way to the station. Du Ruo climbed over the entrance of the station, rushed through the iron fence, jumped on the car desperately, and found the first section from the end section to the end section in a hurry, and then found the last section from the first section, and no one was seen before and after. Du Ruo felt an indescribable sense of relief at this time, and couldn't help but let out a long breath. However, after a while, Du Ruo inadvertently found her again, through the crowd full of people in the trunk - it was really her! Du Ruo involuntarily raised his head, and his inner world was so miserable for a moment. He opened his mouth slightly, staring in that direction, could it be that the girl leaning back in the chair and staring out the window was really her? He said indignantly, Is it her! Later, she whispered slowly as if suspicious, is it her? At last he said in a hateful and distraught voice, it was her, yes, it was her! It is still the posture of the gentle and elegant cultural person, the dignified and pretty city people's dress, the face like a spring flower when gazing into the distance, and the voice like a spring stream when talking to people. For a while, Du Ruo was like a frosted eggplant, and in his grief, he remembered the clear moonlit night, the cold dusk, the two loves, and the two didn't know...... Is it all fake? It's all a passing mess!

Du Ruo sat down on the seat with a buttocks, a thousand feelings of sympathy surged up to his nose, the feeling of life and death swallowed his heart little by little, a drop of water rolled into his mouth, he didn't know whether it was sweat or tears, he only felt bitter, and he kept bitter from his mouth to his heart......

Du Ruo remembered that it was the spring season of the coming year, and the Road Bureau held a meeting to establish the Literary and Art Workers Association. At that time, Du Ruo's family also moved, from the crowded single dormitory in the station to the abandoned patrol room behind the station; At that time, Du Ruo's house was also renovated, more than a dozen square meters of rooms, and the old foreman made a row of large bookcases and a large desk from the discarded wood in the station; At that time, Du Ruo also paid attention to beautifying the environment, in front of the door is a newly planted nesting plane tree, and behind the house is a newly split flower garden with a pleasant surname. At the same time, I stopped smoking cigarettes, and the money I saved bought books one by one; I didn't drink anymore, and the time saved was to apply for three correspondence courses in philosophy, Chinese, and history; Not to mention the women's pile, I am busy reading, painting, and making bonsai all day long. At the same time, the teacher-student relationship with the female teacher Tianshang Rén also spread inside and outside the station, every Sunday, when I met Du Ruo walking on the way to the work area with a large bag of mountain goods, people always greeted warmly and got out of the way in a friendly way; When he encountered the holiday and saw Du Ruo sweating back from the work area with a wide-sided and narrow frame, people were also sincere and helped him with a few words. On that day, Ren Yan, as the official representative of the cultural propaganda of the work area, had already returned to Jiangcheng with both public and private interests, and Du Ruo, as a literary and artistic activist in the work area, also held an unprecedented meeting in Shangjiang City that day. When Du Ruo took the train all night, at dawn, his hair was combed, his leather shoes were shiny, and his heart was itching and hard to scratch. From a distance, I saw Ren Yan waiting at the exit like a fairy, and that kind of expectant look was different from the couple who picked up the station at the exit of the station. Du Ruo saw how charming Jiangcheng was for a while, and the bustling flow of people outside was a strange and lively atmosphere that no one in the mountains had ever seen in his eyes, and the colorful street scene in his heart was an urban civilization that people in the mountains could not think of, and even the huge slogan of "holding high the great banner of ** ideology and building four modern socialist powers" in the square in front of the station was also more eye-catching and majestic than the work area.

When Du Ruoshan entered the city, everything seemed fresh and strange, and he followed Ren Yan to the Road Bureau Guest House every step of the way, and had just completed the sign-in procedures. Ren Yan looked up at her face irrationally, and said in a tone as cold as ice, that she asked someone to contact the Academy of Fine Arts, don't you usually complain that you haven't seen Western paintings, and that the work area does not organize visits and studies, and today I will take you to see and open your eyes, and I want you, the turtle in the mountains, to know that there are people outside the world, and there are heavens outside the sky! Your level is like a Shu dog barking out, leaning on the jade tree, rare and strange, and pitifully low! Du Ruo hurriedly nodded respectfully, hurriedly yawned to restrain the sleepiness of a sleepless night, hurriedly cheered up and dragged his hungry body, and followed Ren Yan through the streets and alleys to the Academy of Fine Arts on the edge of the Yangtze River.

However, when Du Ruo stepped on the steps of the Academy of Fine Arts with vigor and stepped into the gate of the Academy of Fine Arts with pride, the doorman did not let him enter. Du Ruoniu angrily took out the membership card of the Road Bureau Literary Association, and handed it to the doorman with great style, the doorman didn't look at it, grabbed the phone and was about to call the college public security. Ren Yan didn't fight angrily, and hurriedly begged the uncle on the left and the teacher on the right for a long time, and then scolded a few words with a cold face, and finally entered the gate of the academy. Walking on the road where the flowers and trees were sparse in the school, Ren Yan pointed at Du Ruo's nose angrily, "Do you know why the doorman stopped you, look at your clothes, you are not careful, you live like a young man wandering on the street." I am a worker, I don't have to dress casually, I have to pretend to be a cadre, I have to wear a suit, I have to wear a tie in a suit, I have to wear a shirt, I don't have some rags and I put it on my body, you think that the wood in the mountains carves a human face is a person, and the Bodhisattva of the broken temple has become a god with a little gold! Still embarrassed to hold this membership card in front of people's eyes, who do you think you are, painter, noble status, access to high-end clubs, real painters, this book is issued by the China Art Association, you are still 108,000 miles away! It's really a toad in a well - I don't know how thick the sky is; Throwing photos in the clouds for a long time - shame people don't know the depths! Wait a while in the art exhibition hall, you have to be at ease, don't show your true appearance as a mountain person, make noise with your throat, talk at the top of your throat, where is the place where cultural people gather, don't let people drive them out! I really can't help you, I'm so tired of associating with you! I can't learn it by picking my eyes all day long, and I can't teach it by pinching my ears! If you do a little bit of results, you will be embarrassed, and if you get a little glory, you will show off, it is really shallow, boring, and embarrassing to throw home! "It's shallow, boring, and embarrassing!"

Du Ruo swallowed his steps, his face was filled with a layer of shame, looking at the various paintings that are usually rare in the gallery, he also turned a blind eye and didn't bother to look at them; Looking at the various sculptures that were rare to see, he was too lazy to look at them. However, when Du Ruo walked into the art hall, for the first time in his life, he stood in front of Leonardo da Vinci's "Mona Lisa", staring at the mysterious smile of the Mona Lisa with reverence, and what was even more puzzling was that no matter which angle she looked at, she seemed to be gazing at you affectionately; For the first time in his life, he stood in Michelangelo's "David? Copperfield, intently gazing intently at the young and handsome statue of David, the flesh-and-blood body seemed to emerge from the cold stone; For the first time in his life, he stood under Giorgione's "Venus Sleeping", and looked at Venus's soft and round [***] with fascination, and the crystal-like transparency that filled his body. Du Ruo couldn't help but glance at Ren Yan who was lingering in the hall with pleasure and convincingness, and felt a warm air of gratitude to Dade in his heart, it was she who opened a door for him in the lonely years in the mountains, sowed the seeds of cultural knowledge in his barren heart, and opened a window for him today, so that Western civilization bathed him like a spring breeze and rain. This affection cannot be repaid by a few simple words, and this kindness cannot be repaid by a few vulgar gifts! There is no doubt that she is the idol of his soul, the guide of his art, the Venus of dreams who loves but can't, hates and can't!

Later, the two took a boat back to the guest house of the Road Bureau. Ren Yan held on to the railing and stood on the aft deck, the warm midday sun shone on her body very brightly, and the river breeze caressed her black hair, editing her slim posture and the fading river scenery on both sides of the strait into a very beautiful pattern. Du Ruo stood listlessly on the side, his two stagnant eyes staring at the river emptyly, crumpling a suit into a ball and carrying it in his hand, and his upper body, which was only wearing a garden collar lining, trembled slightly under the blowing of the river breeze. Ren Yan pursed her lips and smiled in surprise, and restrained the look on her face that was rejecting people thousands of miles away, "Great painter, good as flow, cold or not, how do you feel in the morning, it's worth the trip!" ”

Du Ruo took a few steps closer when he heard the sound, his dull eyes flashed and sneaked a peek at Ren Yan, and stopped at the side of the boat one meter away from her, "Teacher Ren, don't say strange things, I know you look down on me, but I don't blame you, what you said is for my good, you are as noble as a fairy in my mind and cannot be desecrated, we are two cars running on the road, hanging from each other like clouds in the sky and dirt in the ground." I was a muddy mountain road maintenance worker, I never thought of getting ahead, it was you who changed the trajectory of my life and pointed me in the direction of progress. Today, I am not afraid of losing face and losing face, and I do not hesitate to quarrel with others, and take me, a mountain person, to see an art exhibition and experience the Western civilization that I have never seen before. In this life, I will only be grateful to you, respect you, worship you as a bodhisattva in my heart, and will never ask you for a little cheapness, saying that you are not, even if you die, I will not forget your great kindness! ”

"What are you talking about, nervous, like a mountain alliance and a sea oath!" Ren Yan's face turned pale, and his face turned stern, and his tone was cold as if he had come out of an ice cellar, "It's my job to help you study; Taking you to see the exhibition is the duty of the Propaganda Department of our work area. You don't have to take it to heart, as long as you study hard and paint hard, it is the best reward for us! You have a problem, and your only strength is that you are honest and loyal, like a blank piece of paper, and you won't bend around! How about it, let's try to compete, you paint, I make people, and see whose achievements are greater! ”……

Du Ruo wiped a handful of tears from his face, left his seat with a heart, and sat down at the junction of the last carriage of the train. Most of the good things are not strong, and the clouds are easy to scatter and the glass is broken. Life is like a dream, the world is like chess, and there is a certain number of gains and losses. More than 2,000 years ago, the sages earnestly admonished: The skillful work and the wise worry, the incompetent have nothing to ask for, and they are full of food and swimming, like a boat that is not tied. If Du didn't study, he wouldn't know the female teacher; If Du didn't paint, he wouldn't have a relationship with a female teacher. Du Ruo was originally an incompetent person who had no pursuit or demand, but he was fortunate to recognize the female teacher, so he became a clever man and a wise man, and embarked on the road of arduous artistic pursuit. The female teacher is in his heavens, and there is no room for accusation; The female teacher is a god in him, and there is no room for the slightest blasphemy. If it collapses today, God falls, and the mountains and rivers of Miao, where is the place where he fights in the face and mentions his life? In the vast Shenzhou, where is the season when he is like cutting and learning, and pondering? …… (To be continued.) )