Yu ......, don't go......

Hei Zhou was pitch black, and his back image was a gray shadow that would be blown away by the wind at any moment. I chased him after him desperately and called him, but he didn't seem to hear anything, but just walked straight forward, and I only felt that he was getting farther and farther away from me, farther and farther away, so far away that I didn't dare to blink, for fear that in the blink of an eye, he would disappear, and he would disappear ...... ashes. I chased until I fell to my knees with all my body, and watched in despair as the gray gradually disappeared into the black fog, and let out a heartbroken cry......

House......

As if waking up from a nightmare, I opened my eyes sweating profusely, and Xiaohong said in surprise: "The girl is awake." A room of people immediately gathered around, Hongye, Yueniang, Chu Yan, and a white-bearded old man, the white-bearded old man caught my pulse, diagnosed it for a long time, and said with a smile: "Okay, okay, the girl will wake up, there is no big problem." ”

I wanted to sit up with my body propped up, but the white-bearded old man stopped me and said, "The girl's fetus is unstable, and she should not be too big in the future. ”

I looked at him inexplicably: "What is unstable?" ”

The white-bearded old man smiled: "The girl has been pregnant for more than a month......

What nonsense is he talking about? I raised my eyes and swept the expressions of everyone in the room, Hongye was happy, Xiaohong was surprised, Yueniang was worried, Chu Yan looked unpredictable, all of them had complicated expressions, but none of them showed suspicion, it seems that the white-bearded old man had already said it once before I woke up. As if someone had been slapping me on the head, I excitedly grabbed the white-bearded old man's hand: "What did you say? What is pregnant? How can I get pregnant? You are talking nonsense......"

The white-bearded old man was frightened by my reaction, and Chu Yan stepped forward and hugged me tightly, stopped my crazy move, and said to the people in the house: "You guys go out!" ”

I struggled in his arms, but I couldn't break free of his brute strength, I was shocked by the news just now, I cried and beat him, beat him, and grabbed him: "Let go of me, you die, you die, why don't you die when so many people die......" He hugged me tightly, let me beat and scold, neither spoke nor moved, I was tired, my whole body suddenly softened, I could no longer control the fear and panic in my heart, and cried heartbreakingly: "Why? What am I doing wrong? Why did God torture me like this......"

He hugged me tightly, as if he was going to rub me into his body, and I felt extremely desperate, why? Why am I pregnant, why am I pregnant with his child, and why? No, I can't have this child, this unpopular child, his father hates his mother, his mother hates his father, he will grow up in an environment without love, why let a clean life suffer in this red dust of all evil?

I stopped my tears and said indifferently, "I don't want this child." ”

His arms tightened, and I repeated indifferently, "I don't want this child, I don't want to give birth to your seed." ”

"Cher......" he whispered, with a hint of embarrassment and begging in his voice. This is the first time he has called my name like this, every time before, he has a cold look, calling back and forth by name, I sneered, what is this? Gestures? Begging? Why do you ask of me?

"I'm tired, you go out." I spoke coldly.

He let go of me and frowned at me, I lowered my eyelids and didn't look at him, he stood up in silence and turned to go out. I suddenly collapsed on the bed, and I felt that all my strength was exhausted.

Little Red entered the room and sat at the head of the bed to guard me. I silently looked at the top of the bed, my hand slowly touching my lower abdomen, and my heart ached. There is my only relative in this world, I'm sorry, baby, you didn't come at the right time, how good it would be if you were born in the love of your parents, I will definitely love you like a jewel, but why did you choose to come at this time? Mom can't protect herself, how can she protect you? What would you become if you grew up without love? Will you become the second Chu Yan?

I remember once chatting with a friend on the Internet in my previous life, and I didn't know how to get involved in the psychological tolerance of children, so I told him a joke I had when I was a child. When I was five or six years old, I was misdiagnosed by a doctor with a congenital heart condition. One day, the neighbor's child suddenly stopped playing with me, and told me very seriously: "My mother said that you have a heart condition, so I should not play with you." ”

Depend on! Heart disease is not AIDS! Ignorant women and children! But I was so sad and had very, very low self-esteem. Because of the child's expression, it seems that I am a poisonous bacteria. This inferiority complex has been low for many years, until I know what heart disease is, and my inferiority complex has seriously affected my surname and made me timid and cowardly.

Very sad joke. A child is a very vulnerable animal, and who knows where and what he will be injured? So, I said to my friends, how dare you raise a child? You don't just give birth to him, you have to bear the responsibility of raising him, and you must be responsible for his food, clothing, housing, transportation, moral character, and mental and physical health...... It's just a living debt collector, why do you have to let an ignorant life come to the world to be wrapped in mud and put in a pot of oil?

My friend listened to me and said, "I won't raise a child with someone I don't love." At that time, I laughed at his simplicity, saying that in fact, having a child has little to do with whether you love or not.

I laughed, is it okay? Ye Haihua, what are you sad about at this time? Sad for what? It turns out that it's really easier said than done. Xiaohong was frightened by my chuckle for no reason: "Girl, what's wrong with you?" You okay? ”

I glanced at her and said softly, "Xiaohong, please do me a favor." ”

"What did the girl say, what did you tell Xiaohong to do." Seeing me stand up, Xiaohong hurriedly helped me sit up.

I grabbed her hand and said with a firm gaze: "Xiaohong, you quietly go to the pharmacy and grab a pair of abortion pills for me......"

"Girl......" exclaimed Hong, "how can this be done?" Mother Yue told me to take care of you, and I can't let you have a little damage. ”

Dare to love Chu Yan really want this child? Do I sneer, or does he want to grab a chip that controls me? If this child is really born, I will really be entangled with him for the rest of my life.

"Xiaohong, I beg you, I can't have this child." I grabbed her hand, and my heart was desolate, "I really can't want him." ”

"Girl......" she was struck by my mournful tone. I looked at her sadly: "Xiaohong, I beg you. ”

She bit her lip and finally nodded: "I promise you, don't be so sad, girl." ”

I looked at her gratefully, "Thank you, Red. ”

She went out for a long time before she got the medicine back. I said to her, "When you boil the medicine, avoid people, don't let people find out." ”

"Got it." She went out in response, and it was a long time before she sneakily came in with a bamboo basket with a lid. This girl is careful. I smiled at her, "Stay up!" ”

"Hmm." She took out the medicine, hesitated when she handed it to me, and hesitated, "Girl, do you really want to drink this medicine?" This medicine is very damaging to the body......"

"Give it to me." I quietly reached out to stop her from talking.

Xiaohong's hand trembled, and she trembled as she handed me the medicine bowl. I took it, and a bad smell of Chinese medicine came to my nose, and I felt sick to my stomach and almost vomited. After hesitating for a moment, I pinched my nose and brought the medicine bowl to my lips, just as I was about to take one bite of it, the door opened, and before I could react, the medicine bowl in my hand was swept to the ground with a "snap", shattered into pieces, and the brown medicine juice splashed hideously on the ground.

I raised my face, Yueniang looked at me with a pale face, turned her head to look at Xiaohong, and said sharply: "Drag this girl out for me and lock her up!" The two turtle slaves who followed her immediately set up Xiaohong and dragged her out, and Xiaohong cried: "Mother Yue, you spare me, you spare me......"

"Stop!" I was shocked and angry, and wanted to get out of bed to stop the turtle slave, but Yueniang reached out and clicked on me, and my body suddenly stiffened on the bed, unable to move, and said angrily, "What does Yue's mother want to do to Xiaohong?" ”

"This girl is disobedient, I let her know who is the master of this Yihong Mansion." Yueniang snorted coldly, turned her head to the turtle slave and said, "Drag it out, give me ten whips, and then lock it up in the firewood room!" ”

"Don't!" I screamed, "I told her to buy the medicine, it's none of her business, don't hit her." ”

"Girl, there are rules for leaning on the Red Mansion." Yueniang looked at me coldly, "Don't say that she was whipped ten times, the mistake she made today is not an exaggeration to kill her, drag it out!" ”

"Girl, girl, save me......" I watched Xiaohong crying and being dragged out of the room by the turtle slave, glaring at Yueniang viciously, how could she despise other people's lives at will? I was so angry that I couldn't speak: "You ......"

"The girl sees that I am too indulgent to you, so I have to make such inches?" Yueniang didn't care to meet my angry gaze, and said coldly, "Girl, don't forget, my connivance with you is measured, not boundless, if you continue to mess around like this, don't say that Xiaohong's life can't be saved, even the girl's surname is also a problem." ”

"You can kill me!" I said angrily, shocked and angry in my heart, this time Zi Yueniang was indeed too good at talking, and everything went according to my heart, so that I despised her. She is not only good at martial arts, but also secretly helps Chu Yan do things, how can she be a kind person? With the power of life and death in other people's hands, so it seems to be more generous than ordinary people, and being scratched by a little person like me is not a serious thing at all, maybe he is laughing at me in secret, right?

"If the girl lives well, Xiaohong can live well, and the girl will do it herself." Yueniang said coldly.

"Mother Yue, is this a threat to me?" I bit my lip and hated.

"Whatever the girl says, the girl will weigh it herself." Yueniang snorted lightly.

"I think it's strange, every time I come back from the General's Mansion, doesn't Mother Yue bring Chongxi soup over in a hurry? Since you don't want me to get pregnant, why do you blame Xiaohong today? "I'm going with the flow, calm down, calm down.

"Because the child you are pregnant with is Chu Yan's, not General Lonely's." Yueniang said in a deep voice, "Since Chu Yan didn't say that you don't want this child, you have to give birth." ”

"If you want me to give birth, I will give birth?" I sneered, "Mother Yue, didn't you hear the doctor say that my fetus is unstable, if I don't want this child, how many times do you think you can stop me?" ”

Her face changed, and I continued to sneer: "Why do you think that I will give birth to the evil seeds of the enemies who destroyed my family, just because you have Xiaohong's life in your hands?" You're underestimating me. ”

"Shut up!" Yueniang glared at me angrily, "I never wanted to tell you, but you are so paranoid, Chu Yan didn't kill you at all, he just kidnapped your father and daughter......" She stopped suddenly, I looked at her in surprise, so what? Even if he didn't kill the slaves, cats and dogs in the Prime Minister's Mansion, everything he inflicted on me was enough for me not to want this child. I chuckled mockingly, "Mother Yue, will you tell me next that it was my hallucination that he forced me to kill my father?" I was thrown into the green building by him is my hallucination? Even if I'm pregnant with Chu Yan's evil seed at the moment, it's also my hallucination? ”

――2006、9、27――

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Idol...... Waterfall Sweat ...... They're really smart. Even the front said so lightly, everyone guessed that Xiaoka was pregnant with a baby...... Idol...... Wall...... In this case, let's talk about this baby...... Khan one crawls away......

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