"Chenchen, study hard abroad, be a returnee, and return early!"

This is a sunny day in September two years later, the autumn of Jiangcheng is high and cool, the Han River is charming, the first few flocculent white clouds of the Yellow Crane Tower are swimming leisurely on the blue sky, and the surging river of the Qingchuan Lord is like a yellow band running mightily towards the vast sky. The two mountains of turtles and snakes are full of flowers, the empty water is clear, the flowers and trees are blooming, the clusters of bright and magnificent golden chrysanthemums are showing, the bees are flying among the flowers and grass with the wings of song, and the birds are wandering on the green branches and green leaves in the festive costumes. Everywhere are red men and green women looking for spring, everywhere are leisurely young and old, and even the somewhat sullen air by the river is also filled with a hearty and pleasant atmosphere......

Du Ruo stood in the waiting hall of Jiangcheng Airport, looking at Sang Chen's figure checking in, and finally reached the satisfaction of Sang Chen's willingness to study abroad. Du Ruo remembers that it was the night when he returned to the railway site in Daba Shanli from Dongguan. When he entered the house, he lay down on the sofa, and after days of running and exhaustion, he couldn't help but close his eyes.

"Hey, is there such a thing, I won't wash it!" Sang Chen put down his luggage and went to the room to get a blanket to cover him, "Why don't you sleep for a while, I'll go boil the water, and then call you when the water is boiled!" When Sang Chen finished taking a bath and dragged him up from his snoring sleep, he was even more sleepy and tired and couldn't open his eyes, "Take a bath, this adult is still like a little lazy worm, and I want to tell you like a serial cannon that the water has been mixed and the clothes are placed behind the door!" ”

Du Ruo yawned and walked to the bathroom, hurriedly finished taking a shower, and suddenly found that the pajamas he had bought behind the door. Du Ruo put on his body with novelty, and walked into the room with self-pity, only to realize that Sang Chen, who was standing in front of the dresser and drying his hair, was actually wearing pajamas of the same color and style, "Ho." When I grew up, I bought my own clothes, and I didn't forget to buy a set for me! ”

Sang Chen turned his head and glanced at him, a sweet smile appeared on his pink and white face, "Say that you are old-fashioned, and you are not convinced, this is called the joy of life, and now there are few sets of couple outfits in that couple's family!" ”

"It's good, it's just a pity to wear these good clothes to sleep, it looks like Chen Huansheng went to the city. I'd rather sit in a guest house for the night than spoil the quilt in the city, it's a bit petty-bourgeois! Du Ruo couldn't help but joke, looking down at the marks sewn on the waistband of his pants.

"There are two suits and a few shirts I bought for you in the cabinet, you can try it to see if it fits, I don't know what to think, I was still dressed in previous years, and I still have a little demeanor when I wear it. In the past two years, I have worn a railway uniform every day, dressed myself as a half-old man, and swayed all over the world, which is not ashamed! Sang Chen sighed faintly. A slightly complaining gaze swept across his face.

Du Ruo opened the wardrobe suspiciously, took off his suit happily, and was taken aback when he saw the trademark. It is still the earth-shattering "Jinlilai, a man's world" that is advertised on TV. His eyes suddenly widened suspiciously, staring at Sang Chen in disbelief. "You have convulsions, so much money from you, shouldn't men become bad when they are rich, and women will be rich when they become bad!"

Sang Chen smiled instantly, and his red lips pursed into a look of disgust, "You have just become bad, I am working as a tutor while going to work, more than ten hours a day, tired and tired, I received a salary, I bought clothes in a row, I just want you to see, there is no bald daughter in the world who can't get married, without you, you can't live, maybe you can live freely!" ”

"Yo, I really don't know Taishan, I only knew that you were a stingy bag, but I was still a careful eye!" Du Ruo grinned in frustration, and saw Sang Chen's hair coiled behind his head with full charm, his body in pajamas became more and more graceful, and the white and tender skin on the neckline was like silk with a soft luster.

"What's the matter, it's okay, do you have an aesthetic eye, you can't see that the girl in the mountains bought it, right?" Sang Chen walked over as he spoke, and Yingying's body overflowed with beauty.

"You're still a girl in the mountains, you've already stepped out of the mountains!" Du Ruoqiang calmly looked away, and his legs inadvertently took a step back, "You are born with the good-looking appearance of the girl in the mountains, and the good-looking figure of the girl in the mountains, it is not an exaggeration to use the handsome bird in the mountains on you, and now I have read a belly of books, filled with new tricks in my head, believe in life, understand life, it is really jade is spiritually difficult to be clean, snow is easy for muscles and bones**, than those city girls who have an empty urban hukou, I don't know where to go, saying that you are a stunner among women, a dragon and phoenix among people, That's just as good as that! ”

"Coaxing people again, am I so good, I close my eyes and talk nonsense, it's so good, why am I still a leftover girl, I'm afraid that Sister Honglian was also coaxed like this at that time!" Sang Chen pursed his lips and smiled disappreciatively, and looked Du Ruo up and down, left and right, "People still need clothes to set off, people want clothes, Buddha wants gold clothes, it's not bad at all, as soon as this clothes are worn, the temperament comes out, and he looks like a painter who can't paint anything, his hair needs to be blown, it's not a few wet, and he is ready to lie on the bed!" ”

Du Ruo couldn't put down his suit, walked to the dresser with Sang Chen, looked at her in the mirror with a smile, holding the hair dryer elegantly, and drying his hair seriously. Hit the luck with the spit on your face, and there is such a happy time! ”

Sang Chen felt the same for a while, and subconsciously struggled to break his body, and at the same time, there seemed to be a kind of candied fruit melting in his heart, so he let him hold himself, "Besides, I can't figure it out, the world is not full of phoenixes, when I come here, my heart is attached to others, and it is like an inch of acacia and an inch of ash, like two rails on a sleeper, which can not be screwed together, and people still push back and hinder not as good as people's wishes!" ”

"Oh, I don't understand people, I don't know that people's hearts grow upwards, and people's eyes look upwards. I am like a thankless farmer who has worked hard to plant a field of seedlings and worked diligently for a season, but the rice fields have grown unsatisfactory seedlings. Or simply the barnyard that backfired, and the ardent expectations of the year were all in vain. At that time, we laughed at Teacher Ren, who was willing to have a good future, and did not take the bright road, but had to rely on marrying someone to go to the city to find a job, and relying on his face to find a job in the city. Do girls want to change their fate and live happily. There is only one way to get married, and there is only one way to laugh? This is true in the city, and it is also true in the country. Teacher Ren relied on marrying someone to become an official wife, but she was afraid that she would step into the land of fortune and wealth, and pile up gold and jade; The younger sister became a rich wife by getting married, and I am afraid that in the future, she will also be blessed and prosperous. But I still don't want you to take this path, girls should have self-esteem, self-improvement, self-reliance, self-love, and rely on marriage to climb the ladder. Relying on hue to rely on the dragon and the phoenix is always a bit disgraceful. Besides, you are different from them, you are studious, hard-working, and strong, and you have the fighting spirit honed by the poor years since childhood. There is also a positive heart that is unwilling to sink in the face of adversity. It would be a pity to say that if you fall and you can't get up there, you will be thrown there and survive there for the rest of your life. Besides, what kind of stumbling you are falling is due to national policy. It is the result of the state's policy of distributing the children of peasant families to come and go after graduation. So you have to listen to the knock of fate, accept the challenge of fate, and experience the baptism of fate. So as to defeat fate without leaving a little regret. Therefore, you have to muster up the courage and calm your mind, and use all your time and energy to prepare for the graduate school entrance examination and prepare for the TOEFL test to study abroad. At that time, you will have a reputation and face, and we will talk about marriage again, and then you just need to say that I want to be your woman, not your sister, and I promise to hold the most magnificent and heroic wedding in the world, and marry you into the door in the most affectionate and righteous way! Du Ruo tried her best to suppress the layers of love that surged in her heart, and her mind seemed to be submerged by a monstrous tide of love, but the firm belief that she must help her realize her life ideals also took root in her mind like a mainstay.

"It's not going to be coaxing people again, the front foot coaxed me out of the door, and the back foot went to find a confidante in the mountains, and then said that people are more than half of the thirty months, and after the thirty and half of the time, I want you to be more than thirty, and you are still patiently guarding me, and I can't go in my heart!" Sang Chen's face sank, and her heart turned her mind countless times, not believing that this person would be resolute, but it also made her look up as if nothing happened.

"Hey, the more you talk about it, the more considerate you are, with your words, don't say that it is a few more years of singles, that is, silk is used as a cocoon, binding one's body, or chickens and eggs are beaten, and nothing is gained, I am also willing!" Du Ruo's heart suddenly brightened, and his joyful eyebrows were like a flowing spring of warblers singing and dancing, and the boundless spring color that fulfilled people's wishes spread out from there, "Have you thought about it, the reason why I did this is all for your good." It's not fair to you to get married right out of college, have children at the age of flowers, and spend all your life doing housework. If you marry someone, like Teacher Ren, a man has public power, lives a life of wine and food all day long, and lives a life of dogs and horses, wears gold, wears silver, eats delicacies from the mountains and seas, and lives in a villa, which is not in vain; Even if she is like a younger sister, her husband has tens of millions of assets, but he lives a day of BMW incense cars, brocade clothes and fine food, and he graciously walks around shopping malls and shopping malls with his puppy during the day, and sits in dance halls and nightclubs leisurely with a small bag at night, which is also the state of life. And I am a common man, neither the life of an official, nor the luck of making a fortune, you marry, it will only make you like a housewife, running for food and clothing all day long, worrying for livelihood, three meals a day around the three-foot stove, this is very different from the ideal I pinned on you. To be more realistic, if you don't even want a job, then you can only come to me as a family member, like the old foreman's lover, you can only do a family worker for the rest of your life. Think about it, how can you survive this long day, where the finch does not make a nest, and you stay at home alone with nothing to do? So I still hope that you will go back to your hometown for a shift first, and after a year and a half, I will find a way to transfer the work to the leader. If you really love me now, and you have to sprout on my dead tree, then we will go back to our hometown to get engaged, invite Teacher Ren and Boss Lian, and hold an engagement in a pompous venue. ”

So they got engaged, and held an engagement ceremony according to the simple folk customs of the countryside. It was a day when kapok was in full bloom, and the crescent moon seemed to be particularly bright that night. Sprinkled to the east mountain a piece of white and painted the west water with a layer of dream-like bright color, that night the mountain full of red, green and green winged birds laughed, chirping on the drum beat to welcome the relatives and sang a harmonious song, that night the village full of flowers and flowers to tie the branches are also happy, condensed with a bright smile twisted up the graceful waist branch to dance a song of joy. That night, Du Ruo's gate hung the double happiness lantern of "Engagement Celebration", and the two sides of the door were pasted with the big red couplet of "Mian Shize is not as good as accumulating virtue and doing good, and the sound of Zhenjia is still reading and being a person", and the lintel of the wing room is pasted with the horizontal couplet of "The son is home", and the two sides of the door are also pasted with the festive pair of "A good fate is in the same place for a long time, and a hundred years of good couples are long". Chenchen was dressed in bright red. The bright red flowers on the chest came over in the company of the bride and the accompanying children, the firecrackers tore the night darkness all the way, the gongs and drums sounded all the way to the mountain road, and warmly announced the arrival of the kissing team in front of the village entrance house. The old man looked at Chenchen with a smile: This girl is virtuous and reasonable, the Du family has burned high incense in her life, and she has cultivated such a good daughter-in-law who is literate and hyphenated! The girl happily hugged Chenchen: Sister Sang, the blessing is not shallow, Brother Ruo is only afraid that he will not move the shopping mall in the city back, Sister Sang, when will you be happy. At that time, our little sisters must not spare Du Ruo! The child was annoyed by Chenchen: the little daughter-in-law was seventeen or eighteen, she got married before she opened her face, and when she met someone eating meat at night, she was so scared that she desperately called her mother! So the laughter and laughter floated around. When Du Ruo gently led Chenchen. Crossing the threshold covered with red silk, walking through the door of the house covered with flowers, and coming to the parents; When Du Ruo hugged Chenchen tightly, he squeezed through the crowd rubbing shoulders. Walk through the band beating gongs and drums, and walk to relatives and friends; When Du Ruo quietly led Chenchen, in the singing of the master of ceremonies. The jade-encrusted engagement ring was gently placed on Chenchen's hand. Chenchen glanced at him so affectionately, so earnestly, and so delicately, and at this time, Du Ruo's heart was as if honey was melting, and it suddenly surged to his mouth and spread all over his face. Death, no serious! Is that you? Dear Chenchen! Du Ruo only felt that the people around him burst into laughter, and saw that Chenchen had already grabbed the joy and joy, ran into the wing room quickly, and forced the difficulties and hardships out of the door. So the young men from the four towns and eight villages did not follow, knocking on the door, pushing the door, banging on the door, singing, dancing and playing the guitar. Chenchen turned to sing, the crescent moon in the sky squeezed through the window lattice, Chenchen emerald sleeves danced widely, the swaying green grass in the mountains and fields, and the writhing flowers and branches outside the house were a little embarrassed, some followed the long wind and walked quickly, and some timidly lowered their heads. Oh, yes! This is Du Ruo's true lover in his dreams, and it is Du Ruo's morning of loving and trying his best to be quilted! Yes, Chenchen should live between civilization and development, and there should be sunshine, rain and dew, green grass around her, and flowers, cypresses, and endless applause should always surround her. And this Du Ruo did it, with only his slender hands and weak arms, Du Ruo built an edifice of hope on the ruins of a soul, and Du Ruo opened up a small world of civilization and development in the ignorance and scarcity of the mountain village.

However, who would have expected that Chenchen was still unhappy and unhappy, and he still closed himself in the wrong path of frustration and couldn't take a step. In the middle of the night, when the people scattered, the stars were so sleepy that they blinked their eyes. Du Ruo couldn't resist the passion and greed and kissed Chenchen tightly in his arms, but Chenchen came reluctantly and melancholy, looking at the red decorations in the room and sighing softly, alas, how good it would be if all this could be in the city! Du Ruo's body was shocked, his heart was mixed, and he couldn't help but let go of his arm and walked to the window alone. At this time, he knew that what Chen Chen wanted was really powerless at this stage, Chen Chen did not want to be vain, rich, and pampered, she just imagined that she was a city person, who could live in the bustle and hustle and bustle, who could leave a shadow on the noisy road and in front of the chaotic movie theater, and who could spare herself for the child who was divided into a house for gas. And this is not forcing the dumb to speak, driving the rooster to lay eggs, forcing yourself to do the impossible. Du Ruo had just been a talent, sitting in a position in the city and living in a hut, but he was cleared back into the mountains in the name of reform, making his reputation worse than dog shit inside and outside the road; Du Ruo was once high-spirited, put aside all worldly prejudices, forbearance of the will, carrying the monument of shame of destroying the future, and doing the act of virtue and sincerity, to accept the world to learn from the chest, to spit out the love of the world at the end of the pen, but the yellow bell was destroyed, the clay kettle thundered, the slander was high, and the wise man was nameless. Every step of life ideals is ridiculed, every step of human dignity is trampled upon, and now he is insulted as a human being, up and down only as if he has one more breath than the dead. At this time, go and ask the people in power to take pity and help solve personal problems, that is not a dog who eats does not know the smell of, and slaps himself in the face; At this time, go and ask for the mercy of the powerful and help mobilize personal work. That's not wearing new shoes and stepping on the pile of, giving people a short and long laughing stock out of thin air!

Du Ruo stood in front of the window with a gloomy expression, and a solemn sense of despair rose in his empty heart, and then he deeply felt that there was an irreparable rift between them, such as personalities, habits, and contradictions between the two places. After that, Chenchen walked over quietly, bent her bare snow-white arms, and gently surrounded Du Ruo, her eyes were so cowardly, so panicked, so confused, and she said Ge Chenchenruo is sorry for you. You have to forgive Chenchen, Chenchen is an ignorant country girl, she won't do anything but be angry with you! When Du Ruo heard this, tears suddenly flowed in his eyes like Tang Woxue. He hugged Chenchen tightly, wishing that time would let them be in love like this forever: Little girl, I love you! I will make you happy, and I will live up to you in this life. I know everything you think in your heart, and you only hate me for being incompetent, and I was born as a road maintenance worker. No matter how hard you try, you can't earn a stepping stone to change your fate. Stay up for two years, strive to be admitted to graduate school, you can only change your fate with your own hands, and you can go to the city with your studies, I also work hard, that is, the wind hits the head, the rain hits the face, a drop of sweat, a drop of blood, and I want to make more money for you to study, don't you still want to go abroad for further study, I think about it, if there are still obstacles, and there are thorns in the road, we will leave our hometown, go to a foreign country to reunite, to realize the ideal we should have realized! Chenchen smiled, laughing at Du Ruo's clumsiness, laughing at Du Ruo's stupidity, laughing at Du Ruo's kindness to quench her thirst, she said brother, from now on Chenchen will be your wife, you are so bad, before I have made up my mind, you just want me to be your woman, remember, that day was at noon on the bank of the Mei River, alas, how can I not remember such a memorable day, it can be seen that there is no true love, I don't care at all that it will only drag down your little sister in the countryside! My big fool, look at your stupid head, maybe our children will be such stupid in the future! Du Ruo no longer had any scruples, the nervous and strong impulse overflowed in his limbs, and the agitated ** surged up from the depths of his heart, so arrogant and so arrogant, so justifiable and confident, he hugged Chenchen in his arms, Chenchen shook his body slightly, pursed his lips and smiled shamefully, and extinguished the electric light. So in the flame of candle shadow shaking red, Du Ruo saw the delicate stamens, the tender white water lilies, and the faint grass and flowers. Du Ruo suddenly felt that he was walking in the fairyland again, but the high faint green mountains and the low faint green water no longer had the enthusiasm and lingering in his morning and evening thoughts. Du Ruo felt that he was a hero who walked through the swamp, but looking at the vast grassland, there was no more bumps and mud than he thought, and the flowers and weeds in the surroundings were also decaying. It's over, my love! It's gone, my wild pleasure is very clear and very nostalgic! Du Ruo was momentarily disheartened and cold, the anger and pathos caused the blood in his veins to flow rapidly and rapidly, and the uncontrollable sorrow and irrepressible pain made him tremble all over his body, and he couldn't help but let go of his hands at once, letting the tears flow freely over his twitching cheeks and violently shaking lips. Alas, I'm cold to you, I really didn't mean to, I really damn it, I can't be interested at all, looking at the green mountains outside the window, listening to the stream under the eaves, the whole person is like a piece of ice cold, don't you care, you must be alone in this life, and the ends of the earth are also your clean daughter......

In the following years, Du Ruo broke his heart into two halves, half sketched and painted, and half tied Sang Chen. Du Ruo ran all over the mountains and rivers of Qianliba Mountain: in the middle of winter, Daba Mountain was cold, the peaks were steep and the water was dangerous, the cold wind was like a sharp knife scraping people's skin, Du Ruo was indomitable like a snowman and climbed the main peak that was revered by the locals as a god. The eyes were covered with snow and frost, and the thousands of peaks and mountains shone with an endless silver light. The mountains on the mountain are like crystal-watered mountains and mountains arching to guard the peaks of Qiongdui jade, and the deep ditches and long streams below the mountains are like the Milky Way hanging upside down, towering the snow-covered mountains and rivers. Du Ruo suddenly entered the world of ice and jade in a trance, and the feeling of being a natural teacher in his heart arose. It is not a little pretentious and vulgar everywhere, and there is no little strange dust that moans without disease. The mountain springs flow in the stone streams on all sides, the songbirds spread their wings on the side of the snow line, the strange peaks and strange rocks covered by the ice and snow cover in the eyes, and the waterfalls and flying springs that rise in the waves. It's really a strange show, Mo can be extremely poor, skillful and wonderful, and it is clear that Huaisu heard the Jialing River at night and calligraphy Yijia, Zhang Xuguan Gongsun Auntie danced the Xihe sword weapon and cursive Yijun. Nature really teaches people tirelessly, a wrinkle. A point, a hook, a cut, all have the intention of the law.

In the middle of summer, Daba Mountain is hot and hot, flowing gold and stones, and the sun is like a raging flame scorching the human body, Du Ruo persevered like a savage to come to Shennong Creek, which is regarded by the locals as a heavenly river, and see that Shenxi has infinite charm. The demeanor is in all directions, like a brilliant and magnificent sapphire inlaid on the eternal snowfield, full of sparkling, clear ripples, thousands of ravines and thousands of rocks are sanitated by a vast sea of green. The clear water surface by the stream reflects the emerald shadows of the snow peaks. The dark green grass beside the stream floated with the glow of the stream's clouds and rolling waves. Ruoyu seemed to have entered the verdant Penglai Wonderland in an instant, and the emotions in his heart were full of enlightenment. Birds are singing by the streams, and butterflies are flying among the flowers. In the distance, rainbows shine on the clear blue sky, and white clouds flutter between the cliffs and canyons. The polar eye is a snowcock and antelope with red feathers and green feathers. The head is the Qihua and Yao grass that stretch the branches and leaves. It is really a fictional realm, and it must be sought from nature; The law of construction must be based on the law of nature. Zheng Banqiao said: Fanwu paints bamboo. There is nothing to learn, and there are many red windows, pink walls, sunlight, and moon shadows. His unique six-and-a-half-minute calligraphy is not just a copy of the various calligraphy of his predecessors, but it is enough to form on the basis of the false and the true; Mi Fu said: the heart of the storage, feel free to put the pen, all natural, prepare its quaint. His self-produced rice and water landscapes are not just taken from all the strengths and summed up. Why don't you love to see the moss marks of the ancient temple, and are used to writing about the barren cliffs and tree roots, painting to the place where the love god floats, and there is no truth and a true soul......

Du Ruozhou tirelessly ran the thousands of miles from the work site to his hometown, taking a train to Jiangcheng overnight, then taking a car to his hometown for another day, and then walking more than ten miles of mountain roads to Sang Chen's school. Spring goes to autumn, cold and summer are changing, the wind of his hometown has blown away the dirt of his journey, and the clouds of his hometown have brought him the coolness of his journey. However, Du Ruo never thought that since Sang Chen failed to take the graduate school entrance examination, he obviously became reticent as if he was suffering from depression, the letters came less, and the tone was not affectionate, and the whole article seemed to be a false story and perfunctory. Du Ruo was worried, confused, and restless, and wrote four or five letters in a row to persuade him, but all of them were mud cows into the sea and there was no news; Du Ruo was frightened, panicked, and anxious, and sent two or three telegrams in one go, but they were all lost in the sea and there was no response. Could it be that Chenchen was sick again, the anxiety of not being able to go to school and the extreme poverty of rural life made her body sick again, or something happened, the loneliness of being alone at home for many years and the sorrow of not seeing a way out made her no longer able to bear the double pressure of work and family, and put herself in danger of human life.

That night, Du Ruo couldn't stand the torture of worry, and hurried back, and as soon as he stepped on the path of his hometown, he was greeted by the ding dong of the spring water outside the four sides and the crow of the rooster. Looking at Chenchen's somewhat hazy and dilapidated window in the twilight, Du Ruo's heart was like the most thriving and most barren grassland, and the grass suddenly swept away, and for a while he felt a sense of guilt and a kind of peace like home. Chenchen opened the door a little overwhelmed, and his cheeks, which looked particularly pale in the morning light, looked a little haggard and a little tired, "Yo, it's really rare, I'm back, and I know that I have a home!" Du Ruo's body trembled, his heart was like tormenting on the fire in an instant, and he grabbed Sang Chen, he wanted to kiss her and kiss her well, and comfort the pain of longing and the infatuation that was difficult to return after a long time. However, Sang Chen broke free in annoyance, lowered his eyebrows and lowered his face, and coldly dropped a sentence, "If you go, you won't come back, and if you go back, you will bother me!" ”

Du Ruo suddenly seemed to be drunk by someone and fell into the ice cellar, could it be that in the past years, some slanderous rumors in the countryside that do not know right and wrong, some evil words that do not know why in the school, and some boundless gossip in the society, tore a crack in their hearts; Could it be that in the days of parting, nightmares and frightens in the night, good dreams in the daytime, and countless worries and fears all the time, all became a reality at this time. Du Ruo was stunned for a moment, his chest ached as if he had been hit with a stick, and he couldn't help but lower his head.

"Come in, my man. It's a no-frills inn, so you can always come and go whenever you want! Sang Chen was indifferent as if facing a wax figure or an insignificant stranger, and Leng Sensen's words fell on him mercilessly like hailstones.

Du Ruo raised his head in a daze, his face shrouded in pessimism and disappointment. It's so humiliating, it's like a leper dog who has broken his backbone, waiting for a little handout, as if he is a toad that can't last a few days, begging for mercy. This is also ridiculous, although Du Ruo plays the role of being insulted and damaged in life. Criticized everywhere, buried by people all the time, the dignity of normal people has been externalized to the lowest point, but he does not think that this is the inferiority of his personality and the humility of his character, on the contrary, this is a noble dedication, and it is a moral sentiment of doing something and not doing something. If Chenchen also looks at himself from a worldly perspective, he doesn't understand his career and doesn't respect his pursuit. Then how can he talk about love, there is only a carnal position in the world of the two, just holding hands and looking at each other with tears just to live, which he can't do. Nor is it the philosophy of love that he believes in. Du Ruo lowered his heart, with a deep regret that flowed from his bones, picked up his bag, turned his back and walked towards the door.

"You're leaving. Go far, I don't need you to worry about whether I'm dead or alive, how wonderful the outside world is. If you go out, never come back! Sang Chen was angry in an instant, and couldn't help crying with tears in his eyes, frantically grabbed the textbooks and books on the table, and threw him all over his head.

Du Ruo stopped suddenly, his internal organs were torn apart, and he couldn't stand up, this is the little sister he has held in his hands since he was a child, and it is Chenchen who he has devoted all his strength to care for and pamper with all his heart. Du Ruo was heartbroken for a while, he couldn't believe his eyes, seeing Sang Chen crying like rain on his face, his lips trembling in anger, he sighed with pity, and tried his best to extinguish the burning anger in his chest, and the chilling frustration instantly enveloped his whole body.

"You go, why don't you go, you coward, you want to escape if there is a little problem! You don't want to think about it, you have a hard life, and I suffer with it, why is this? I'll give you a look, give you anger, and give you cold words, isn't it to maintain our family! Hello, I'm happy to see it, you look like a wreck, wearing a hat and pretending to be a wretched all day long, you are an unlucky person in the world, how sad I should be, how hopeless, I can't find the courage to live a little! Sang Chen wiped a handful of tears with hatred, then bent down silently and picked up the books that had been thrown on the ground, the kind of sad and helpless back image was a dark and boundless turbidity current, which suddenly drowned him to suffocate, and he couldn't help squatting down, and silently followed to pick up the debris on the ground.

After the two of them looked at the tears and tears, and the broken intestines looked at the broken intestines and snuggled together, Sang Chen tiredly raised his distracted eyes, and struggled to move his pale lips, "You, you are so selfish, you only forget poor Chenchen for your own career, Chenchen really can't stand it, Chengtian is also looking forward to twilight, but what I look forward to is angry and bickering, when is this day a head, listen to me, don't paint, I don't want to be a noble lady with abundant food and clothing, I just want to live a plain life and live a peaceful and stable life, You have been struggling for half a lifetime, who understands, what achievements, a mix of thirty years old, youth is no more, face is no more, after the age of thirty, the wife and children are together and beautiful, you can't live together in the east and west, a little salary is spent on the road, a family of three is busy on holidays, your family is like the king of the stove to the sky, there is no spark in the chimney, I suffer with you, it is my own choice, I can only tears flow into the stomach, but you don't want to think about our future children, I can't bear to let him stay in the countryside, and like us, thousands of troops and horses squeeze the single-plank bridge, in case he can't squeeze through, he is not a peasant facing the loess with his back to the sky all his life, you should be realistic, don't patronize yourself to become famous and become a family, patronize how much contribution you have made to mankind, you should also take back your heart, think about home, think about your parents, think about your poor Chenchen who is still eating chalk ash in a rural middle school! ”

Du Ruo sighed, a wisp of sadness and frenzied through his mind, looking at Chenchen's bright eyes covered with a layer of shadow, crow's feet crawled on the corners of his eyes, his long black hair was also yellow, and his sideburns were decorated with a few silver threads that should not be there at all, "Chenchen, I'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to listen to you, I have to hang myself on a tree, think about what other way I have to go, I'm just a road maintenance worker in the mountains, no power, no door, no way, only by taking this road, we can have a good life, can go to the city and be a city person with taste. Didn't you say to do a good job, the sun will come out of the west, do a good job, one day from a slave to a general, let's just look forward to this day, there is a little hope to have a head. If you can't pass the graduate exam, you can't be so discouraged, when the cow and horse still lose the battle, we don't have the ability to catch the fox, so we won't mess with the fox, and see if we can study abroad, if the public is not good, we will pay for it, I don't believe it, you will stay in the countryside for the rest of your life, if this road can't go, can't you still sell paintings with Boss Lian, or can you establish a foothold in the city. At this stage, you can be wronged, one day at a time, forbearance is to raise happiness, love is to support the family, aren't you also a little rich woman now, you don't save money in the bank, you can spend how you want, you can go there to play if you want to, dress yourself up beautifully, decorate your home comfortably, isn't it also a beautiful way of life, you have to limit yourself to a small world, you see yourself as inferior, in fact, change the environment, change your fate, that is, change your mentality, change the angle of looking at the problem. Lin Yutang said: The most brilliant philosophy of self-preservation in the world is to use muddy and clumsy and obscure as a weapon in life. Because only when the amount is large can the blessing be great, and the road is wide when the heart is wide, why should you be like a fool who can't get out of the tip of the horns. Don't cry, look at you crying, my heart is broken, you don't know, I have all my mind on you, a heart is counting on you to live well, as long as you are good, I don't want to do anything, what kind of suffering I don't want to bear! ”

Sang Chen shook his head weakly and weakly, and a miserable sneer floated at the corner of his mouth, "You can't be the master of the instrument, why doesn't the country set up a Q Spirit Award, just like you, a spiritual victory method, if you don't hold a gold cup, you have to get a first name, that's weird!" After Sang Chen spread out the quilt, spread it on the sofa and fell asleep, Du Ruo leaned on the head of the bed all night without closing his eyes, looking at the morning breeze with a faint bright color, little by little to drive away the ink black of the branches, lifted the curtain covering the mountains, the scenery of the mountains and rivers outside the window gradually became clear, Du Ruo walked out of the house bored. (To be continued......)