I came out early in the morning, and when I went back, it was already dusk. The long streets and alleys are deep and lonely, just like my mood at the moment. Occasionally, passers-by who returned late passed by, and scattered footsteps were scattered. I closed my eyes, feeling a little tired, my mind was empty, I didn't want to think about anything, I didn't want to think about it. I just hope that nothing will disturb me, no matter where this sedan chair takes me, it will give me a little time and space to lick my wounds alone.

But God has a grudge against me, and that's what I already knew. The soft sedan chair suddenly stopped, not a normal rise and fall, as if suddenly being thrown to the ground, I sat in the sedan chair was swayed from side to side, accompanied by Xiaohong's exclamation, I ignorantly opened the curtain on the car door, the sedan chair driver did not know which corner to hide, in front of the long street, a black-clothed masked man with a long sword, and I looked at each other.

It's him? I recognized his eyes. The man in black who assassinated Yu Gongzi, the man in black who saved me from Jade Die'er. Since I was fascinated by Jade Butterfly, I have been lying on the bed, and there are always people coming and going in the room, and I have never stopped, and I have never seen this man in black again. I don't know what his intentions are when he comes to me several times, he saw me lift the curtain, and said to Xiaohong: "I want to take your girl away, I don't want to hurt you, you go." ”

I was stunned, Xiaohong was frightened, and stammered: "Uncle, why do you want to ......, you want to take my girl, my girl is a good person......"

The black-clothed man's long sword flickered, drawing a sword flower, and the cold glow of the sword frightened Xiaohong's face, and I hurriedly said to Xiaohong: "Xiaohong, do as he says!" ”

"Girl!" There was panic and fear in Xiaohong's eyes, I got out of the sedan chair and smiled at her soothingly: "It's okay, obedient!" ”

The man in black rushed over, grabbed my wrist and ran forward. At this moment, a coquettish voice came from mid-air: "Leave someone behind!" ”

Two colored clusters of one pink and one purple swept through the air, and fell to the ground, it turned out to be two beautiful women, I took a closer look, and found that these two women were somewhat familiar, and then saw that the woman in the purple shirt "dang" pulled out the short sword in her waist and rushed towards the man in black, I suddenly remembered who these two women were, they were the two pretty girls I saw when I first came to this world, the one in the purple shirt, it seems to be called a purple kite. No wonder Yueniang is so relieved that I go out, it turns out that these two maids have been staring, and I am still smart in vain, thinking that those two palanquin men are the ones who monitor me.

I only heard the man in black sneer and said, "Just because you little girl wants to stop me?" Hum! As soon as the words fell, the light in his eyes was bright, and when he stepped a little, the person was like a meteor and shot out of the air. The body was whirling like a dragon in mid-air, the sword body was full of purple gas, obviously the sword penetrated the internal force, and met the short sword of the pretty girl purple kite, only to hear the two crisp sounds of "dangdang", the purple kite used the sword against the long sword of the man in black, and was forced back a few steps by him. The black-clothed man sneered, the long sword roared like thunder above the nine heavens, the purple lightning went wild, and with a "click", the purple kite was injured by the internal force on the black-clothed man's sword, and actually spit out a mouthful of blood.

But I saw the woman in pink rushing over, raised her hand and threw out a pink ribbon, and attacked the man in black with a fragrant wind, the man in black avoided her and was as flexible as a snake, but with a ribbon of Gangfeng, and said in a deep voice: "I don't want to hurt people, if you force me again, don't blame me for being unkind." ”

The woman in pink took the ribbon, held the purple kite, and said with a smile: "This uncle, our sisters, although we can't stop the master, but it is not so easy for the uncle to take people away from our sisters." As he spoke, the ribbon in his hand flew out like a poisonous snake spitting out a letter.

"I don't know what to do!" The man in black said angrily: "Then don't blame me for being unkind!" After speaking, the momentum of the long sword was like a rainbow, and it was approaching the two pretty girls, the sword qi carried the gangfeng, accompanied by the sound of the silk tearing of the "Zizi", and the ribbon was split into hundreds of pieces under his sword, flying in all directions, like colorful butterflies falling from the sky. The man in black was getting closer and closer with his sword, the two maids did not dodge or dodge, a strange smile appeared on the face of the woman in pink, and when she saw that the man in black was about to rush in front of the two, her figure suddenly shook, and the man in black staggered back two steps with his chest, stretched out his hand and counted it urgently, raised his head suddenly, and was shocked and angry: "What a despicable girl, she actually poisoned me!" ”

The pink-clad woman smiled proudly, and generously admitted: "The uncle's martial arts are much higher than the little woman, and if he doesn't poison him, how can he stop the uncle from robbing the people's daughter?" ”

"What robbed the people's daughters...... The man in black suddenly closed his voice, covering his chest, it seemed that the poison was spreading extremely quickly, the man in black did not dare to delay any longer, glared at the two women viciously, turned around and ran towards the alley on the side, and disappeared into the darkness in a blink of an eye. The pink-clothed woman wanted to chase after her, but was blocked by the purple kite, and said in a deep voice: "The master didn't ask us to do anything else, don't make any extraneous branches." ”

The pink-clad woman paused and snorted coldly: "Fortunately, that person runs fast, if he delays for a while, he can't run if he wants to, next time I will definitely ask him to taste the power of falling into my Lan Zhi's hands." ”

It turns out that this pretty girl who poisoned and made her bad was called Lan Zhi, and she really looked like Zhilan, but her heart was like a snake and scorpion. Xiaohong came back to her senses and hurriedly ran to the two pretty girls to thank her: "Thank you two girls for saving us today." "I laughed helplessly in my heart, Xiaohong, Xiaohong, you really mistook the bad guy for the good guy, I will teach you another day, the bad guy will not have a "bad" word engraved on his face.

The two women didn't look at Xiaohong, they only stared at me coldly, with an arrogant look on their faces, and turned away without saying a word, leaving Xiaohong, who was confused, walked towards me at a loss, and looked back: "Girl, did Xiaohong say something wrong?" The two girls didn't seem to be very happy. ”

I smiled, called the sedan chair man who was so frightened that he was hiding in the corner to carry the sedan chair, got into the sedan chair, and then said lightly: "Xiaohong, not everyone has to thank you for 'saving', you just treat those two girls as chivalrous and righteous, and don't ask for anything in return." ”

It's really funny, I'm a weak woman with no hands to restrain the chicken, and I have attracted many coveters. In order to lure the man in black out, I thought he would at least deploy a little action, but I didn't expect it to be Chu Yan's people to settle it; Chu Yan made it clear that he was holding on to me and wouldn't let go; What did the man in black do to contact me several times? Even trying to kidnap me? Azure Snow, Azure Snow, your body has caused a lot of trouble.

In front of the Red Mansion, Yueniang had been waiting in front of the gate for a long time, and when she saw us coming back, she breathed a sigh of relief and said with a smile: "The girl was frightened on the road." ”

Well-informed. I smiled faintly, didn't answer her, and walked straight back to my room. Xiaohong waited for me to wash and change clothes, just changed clothes, heard someone knock on the door, Xiaohong went to open the door, and after a while brought a bowl of steaming Chinese medicine, and said in a low voice: "Girl, the Chongxi soup sent by Yueniang is for you to take." ”

I glanced at the bowl of decoction, smiled disappretently, and said to Xiaohong, "Pour it out." "After the last time I took the stage, Yueniang also asked people to send a bowl of this "Chongxi soup" over, it is said to prevent the girl from getting pregnant after picking up customers, and I secretly poured it out, I didn't pick up customers, where will I have a big belly? I don't know if there is any negative effect after drinking this soup.

"Girl......" Xiaohong hesitated, "This is not good, if Yueniang knows......"

"General Lonely didn't ask me to serve him today." I frowned, "Hurry up, I don't feel comfortable smelling this medicine." "I'm afraid of taking medicine when I'm a child, not to mention Chinese medicine, it's a Western medicine that is easy to swallow, and I have to drink water several times before I can swallow it, and sometimes I still swallow it to my stomach.

When Xiaohong heard this, she hurriedly took the medicine and left, and after a while, she entered the inner room, her hand was empty, and I asked with a smile, "Where is it?" Don't let the moon mother see and say you. ”

"Rest assured, girl, I'll mix it in the toilet water and throw it away, Mother Yue won't find out." Xiao Hong said smartly, seeing me sitting in front of the dresser, she cleverly leaned over, "I'll serve the girl to comb her hair." ”

When his hand came to my head, he said "Huh", and said strangely: "I just forgot to ask the girl, why did the girl's hair curl up?" ”

I was stunned, put my hand on the bun on my head, and looked at the pale face of the woman in the mirror, and felt a pain in my heart. Gently pluck the hairpin on the head, and the green silk on the head is like a waterfall hanging down. I picked up the hairpin and looked at it in amazement. It is a peach hairpin, the hairpin head is carved with a blooming magnolia, the carving is not fine, the simple lines are simple and rough, and the delicate and warm temperament of the magnolia flower is completely incompatible.

It was such a simple hairpin, which broke my golden bell jar, making me confused and unable to do it myself. Is it that I have been lonely for too long, lonely for too long, so his unintentional action of carving hairpins and curling hair, but it happened to be the right time and place, which made me realize the dream I had always had in my previous life. In this time and space where the years are quiet and the present world is stable for others, for me it is full of dangers and frightening steps, which can make the soul peaceful or make ** escape, except for alcohol, only love is left, right? That's why my heart is moving, and I am so fast and so fanatical, so no matter who gives me a warm embrace, I am always greedy for it. A wry smile appeared on the corner of my lips, it turns out that after living for thirty years, I still don't understand the thing of love. Am I no longer suitable to love someone, when trying to "hold the hand of the son", when learning "my heart bandit stone", when passing through "three thousand weak waters", when feeling "winter thunder and summer rain and snow", I have always found the wrong person.

This is not a suitable era for my love to grow, and he is not the person I am suitable for love. For him, I am just a girl in a green house under him, an object of drama on the spot, it is easy to delusion, it is easy to entertain, it is easy to betray, and it is easy to forget, what reason do I have to ask him to treat me equally, why should I ask him to reciprocate? I forgot who I was, I forgot my situation, and I thought that if I gave it, I would ask him to pay the same, which was ridiculously stupid, so I ended up unhappy and awkward.

That's it, from now on, just treat him as an ordinary benefactor. Life is just a dream. When I came to this time and space, it was more like a dream, and now I don't know what to say, and I should be happy in time, so as not to walk in this world in vain.

The hairpin is still there, but the heart has gone through all the vicissitudes of life. Yu, although I also know what whiteness and persistence are, but your wandering, your hesitation, or a trace of cowardice and a hint of falsehood, make me too weak to dare to embrace love truly. I raised the hairpin, half-squinted my eyes, and chuckled: "Hehe, from now on, let's get drunk and dream and die together." ”

Sorrowful eyebrows only complain that there is no joy, the painting building locks the love, reminiscing about the past when Liu was young, and the wine is not afraid of the spring cold.

Three thousand eyebrows, eight hundred Qin Huai, talking and laughing. Who knows how many vicissitudes of the sea, and now it has changed into a mulberry field.

Pull open the bottom layer of the box and gently put the hairpin inside. Lock heart, lock feeling. Yu, the next time you see me, I will still rely on the unparalleled lyrics and songs of the Red Mansion, the bold and flattering Yanji Carmen, the one who once left my heart on you, will never come back.

――2006、9、15

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