My body is getting better, but Yun Zheng is sick again.

Yun Zheng passed another month, and this night, everyone was worried, and the old man took An Yuanxi on a special trip to the mountain. I didn't know about Yun Zheng's situation in the room, and I was even more anxious, and the Stygian Flame had been with me in the room. Finally waited until dawn, when Yun Zheng returned to the room, he walked back by himself, not being pushed back in a wheelchair, I was so excited that I couldn't help myself, I hugged him and shed tears of joy, his Gu poison was deformed, his Gu poison was finally deformed.

The old man was also very happy. I saw that Yun Zheng was in good health, my confinement was over, and I was about to pack up my things and go back to the Hou Mansion, I was really worried about the baby. The old man said that I had just finished confinement, my body was still weak, and Yun Zheng's body was just fine, so I should recuperate on the mountain for a while, so as not to go back to the Hou Mansion and have to be distracted by people coming and going.

Although I am a little unhappy in my heart, I am not too disobedient to the old man. Unexpectedly, the old man was really right, Yun Zheng began to have a low-grade fever on the second day, and he kept coughing, and this time the matter of the Hou Mansion was delayed. Mr. Fu said that Yun Zheng had been suffering from Gu poison for many years, and his internal organs and spirit had always been on alert. He explained that I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, remembering that in my previous life, I often worked overtime and was in a state of tension for a long time, but every time I went on a long vacation, as soon as my body and spirit relaxed, I immediately caught a cold and fever, as if I was hoarding my illness and leaving it for the holidays to raise.

Some time ago, it was Yun Zheng who took care of me, and now it is me taking care of him. I am careful and thoughtful everywhere, but Yun Zheng's condition has come and gone, and I have only seen better today, I don't have a fever or cough, and I also have the energy to get up and walk, and Ming'er sleeps groggily for a day. I was worried and anxious, and I couldn't think about it, so I had to take care of him carefully according to Mr. Fu's instructions. The old man sent someone to send thousand-year-old ginseng, deer antler, gastrodia, blood swallow and other tonic supplements, and even after Shen Shen went down the mountain, he also sent someone to send some pills to Yun Zheng, saying that it was some body tonic medicine made by him, it seems that they all know that Yun Zheng will get sick after solving the Gu.

Yun Zheng took the medicine and fell asleep again. He also had a very poor appetite and ate very little, so I asked the kitchen to change the meals to medicinal foods, which were not very good for the body, although they were replenished. I wanted to see if I could make it as tasty as possible. Walking into the courtyard of the kitchen, I saw Yun Ze squatting by the well to draw water, and there was a wooden basin on the ground, not knowing what he was washing. When I took a closer look, I saw that it seemed to be Yun Zheng's handkerchief in the basin, stained with suspicious red stains, Yun Ze saw me in the water, and was startled, so he quickly grabbed the handkerchief in the basin, turned it behind him, and said in a panic: "Young lady......"

"What's in your hand?" I looked at him quietly, "Show me." ”

"Less, young lady, no......" Yun Ze's face turned red. I held out my hand: "Give it to me!" ”

He bit his lip and looked at me for a long time without moving, I didn't shrink my hand, my eyes were staring at him, and he snorted nervously: "Young lady, young master said that he couldn't let you know......"

"Give it to me!" I interrupted him lightly, "Do you want me to come and get it myself?" ”

He hesitated, stretched out his hand, I took the towel in his hand, unfolded it, and gasped, and suddenly there was a red stain of blood on the towel. An ominous premonition rose in my heart, and I looked up at Yun Ze, with a trace of coldness in my eyes: "How can there be blood on the young master's hand towel?" Is it the young master's cough? You are so bold that you dare to hide it from me! ”

He was frightened by my sharp gaze, and stammered, "Young lady, yes, it was the young master who asked us not to say it." ”

"When did the young master start coughing up blood?" My heart is getting more and more uneasy, no matter how bad Yun Zheng's body is, he has never coughed up blood, how can his body be worse than before after detoxifying the Gu poison?

"I started coughing the day before yesterday, and the young master asked us to hurry up every time, saying that we don't want to be seen by you, young lady......" Yun Ze saw that my face was getting more and more ugly, and he didn't dare to say anything more. I handed him the hand towel, took a breath, and said, "Wash it for the young master, don't say I already know." ”

Turning around, I walked straight to Mr. Fu's courtyard, and just turned out of a lush plum forest, I saw the old man hurriedly stepping in with Yunde. The old man is here? Why didn't you go to see Yun Zheng first, but ran to Mr. Fu's place? I was full of doubts in my heart, and quickly followed, the old man had already entered Mr. Fu's room, I stepped on the steps, stood outside the door, thought about it, and put my ear close to the wooden door.

At first, I couldn't hear what they were saying, but after a moment of getting used to it, I heard the old man say, "Is there really no way to cure it?" ”

"Fu is incompetent." Mr. Fu seemed to sigh, "If Young Master Zheng doesn't cough up blood, there is still a glimmer of hope, but he started coughing up blood the day before yesterday, and Fu is really ...... and has no power to return to heaven......"

My head "buzzed", what are they talking about? Are they talking about Yun Zheng? How could Yun Zheng's illness be incurable? So the terrible Gu poison has been cured, how can it not cure his current illness? What are they talking nonsense? What nonsense? I couldn't listen any longer, so I slammed the door open and stepped into the room. The three people in the room looked at me in astonishment, and when they saw that it was me, they took a breath, and the old man said in a sullen voice: "Ye girl, why are you ......?"

"Grandpa, what did you just say?" I walked up to him, glared at him, and said, "Are you saying that Yun Zheng's illness cannot be cured?" Isn't it? ”

The old man had a hint of weakness on his face, and he was silent with his eyelashes down. I looked at Mr. Fu and Yun De, both of whom turned their faces away and were silent. A fire broke out in my heart, and I screamed: "Tell me, you are all hiding from me one by one, that is my husband, I have the right to know what happened to him, you, why are you hiding it from me?" ……”

Tears welled up, and I sat down in my chair, holding my face and crying bitterly. The old man sighed and said, "Mr. Fu, tell her." ”

I lifted my face and wiped the tears from my face, but I couldn't help sobbing for a while, waiting for me to calm down a little. Mr. Fu said in a low voice: "Young Master Zheng's Gu poison has tormented him for more than twenty years, and his internal organs have long been unable to bear it, just relying on a will to support it, even if he solves the Gu, his body has already been corrupted, coughing up blood is a sign that the oil is running out......"

I sat numbly and listened blankly. Running out of oil and running out of lights? Running out of oil and running out of lights? Is he saying that Yun Zheng has run out of oil and dried up? He is not yet twenty-two years old, how can he run out of oil? This is not true! This is not true! Why? Why did God do this to me? What exactly am I doing wrong? Why every time I think I've had happiness? He's going to take it away mercilessly? Why?

"Don't say it, I don't believe it, I don't believe it......" I interrupted him sharply, stood up suddenly, knelt down in front of the old man, and said incoherently and flusteredly, "Grandpa, find a doctor for Yun Zheng again, find the best doctor, I know you can, you can find it, I don't believe it, I don't believe that Yun Zheng's illness can't be cured...... Yun De, go find Shen Zheng, Shen Zheng will definitely be able to save Yun Zheng's ......, by the way, I will go to the palace to ask the queen mother to let the imperial doctor come to diagnose and treat Yun Zheng......"

"Ye girl!" The old man pressed my shoulder, "Calm down!" ”

"I'm calm, I'm calm......" I took his hand, "Grandpa, you save Yun Zheng, you save him......"

"Girl!" The old man's eyes flashed with deep sorrow, "Zheng'er is my grandson, the grandson who I raised with one hand and raised Chengren with the other, if I can save him, do you think I won't save him?" Zheng'er's illness has gone deep into the terminal! ”

I sat on the ground weakly and looked at him in a daze, the pain in his eyes was real, the sorrow was real, and the credibility of this pain and sorrow outweighed Mr. Fu's words just now, and I felt that I was about to suffocate. The old man said bitterly: "A Gu like Zheng'er has been in Gu since he was a child, although some people try their best to suppress his Gu poison, but the Gu poison will still damage his internal organs and increase the load. A year ago, Mr. Fu's body began to fail. Even if you solve the Gu, whether you can survive depends on luck, if Zheng'er is lucky, there are thirty percent of you who hope to live, but some time ago you couldn't wake up, he was overly worried, sad and sad, and his body was so tossed that he was already powerless. ”

It turned out to be me, it turned out to be because of me, Yun Zheng coughed up blood. I laughed miserably, got up from the ground, turned around, and walked out the door. It's because of me that Yun Zheng can't live, who else can I blame?

Who am I to blame? Blame Qiluo for poisoning Yun Zheng like this? But when she died, she had long since rotted into a handful of mud. Blame the old man's exploitation? But marrying Yun Zheng is something I am willing to do. Blame you for giving me hope to despair again? But you all say it's for my good. Or is it because Yun Zheng is too beautiful and good, and I can't help but fall in love with him? It's like being hollowed out by someone? Tears slipped out of the corners of my eyes, and I walked forward unconsciously, dejected. "Sister, be careful!" A figure emerged from the merlin and grabbed me violently, and I came back to my senses only to see a thick plum branch in front of me, and I almost bumped into it. "Stygian Flame!" I grabbed him, like grabbing a piece of driftwood for survival, "You save Yun Zheng, you save Yun Zheng, they can't save him, you must be able to, you are a fairy, you save him......"

"Sister, what are you talking nonsense?" Stygian Flame's eyes widened, and I shook my head desperately: "I'm not talking nonsense, you are an immortal, how can I save him?" How can you recover your memory? Do you want this piece of black dragon jade? Take it off quickly......" I desperately pulled the black jade on my neck, but I couldn't pull the rope constantly, the rope broke my neck, but I didn't feel the pain, and grabbed it like crazy: "You quickly help me take it off......" My head buzzed, Venus scurried in front of me, my head was heavy and heavy, I fell softly into Stygian's arms, and before fainting, I grabbed Stygian's arm tightly: "Save him......"

When I woke up, I was already lying on the bed and found myself sleeping in Yun Zheng's arms. I raised my eyes to look at him, his eyes were originally closed, but as if sensing my gaze, he immediately opened his eyes: "Ye'er......"

I looked at him stupidly and hugged him tightly. The moment we met, we knew that fact. The old man can't hide it from me, how can he hide it from the smart Yun Zheng of Bingxue. He stared at me deeply, for a long time, and said softly: "Ye'er, I have suffered from illness since I was a child, and death is not a fearful thing for me......" My body trembled, and I hugged him tighter, but my eyes looked at him, and I was reluctant to move away for a second. He caressed my face with pity, and his voice seemed to float from nine heavens away: "Really, sometimes, death is also a new life. I used to think that if I died, it would be a pleasure to turn into a breeze and travel the world, but now, I am reluctant to leave you. ”

"Then don't leave me." I looked at his crystal pale face stupidly, "You turn into a breeze, take me with you." ”

"Silly girl......" He kissed me gently on the forehead and said gently, "Even if I turn into a breeze, I will not leave you, I will be by your side, whenever and wherever you feel the wind blowing over your face, you know that I am watching you and accompanying you......"

"I don't want you to look at me and accompany me, I want to accompany you." Tears slipped from her eyes one by one like beads with broken threads. Yun Zheng's voice was unreal: "Silly girl, if I take you away, then who will accompany our baby, our Nuo'er?" ”

"Noel?" I sobbed, not getting it. Yun Zheng gently wiped the tears from my cheeks and said softly, "Yun Nuo, it's the name I just thought of giving to the baby. Ye'er, even if I turn into the wind, I will always be by your side, this is my promise to you. ”

I cried aggrieved like a child. Yun Zheng, I understand what you mean, you want me to live well and take good care of the baby, you are afraid that I will be sad, coax me and say that you will not leave me even if you die, I understand, I understand. I listen to you, I won't trouble you anymore, I won't worry you anymore, I promise you, I will live well, I will love the baby well, and when he grows up, I will tell him that his father is the best, gentle, and most loving person in the world.

I will love you desperately before you leave, I want to accompany you to see all the plums and snow in Yuxue Mountain, I want to record every gentle smile and look you have, and engrave your appearance in my heart. Yun Zheng, dear Yun Zheng, I won't cry anymore, I won't have a surname anymore, I will keep laughing until you quietly turn into the wind.

Yun Zheng was getting weaker day by day, and he was sick all day. Even though I knew that his illness was incurable, I still asked him to take the medicine at a regular time, hoping to keep him for a longer time, but we never mentioned his illness, his life and death, and his promise to turn into a breeze. I didn't want to leave him for a single step, and I couldn't tolerate anything else in my eyes. When spring was about to come, the last heavy snow of this winter fell on Yuxue Mountain, and I woke up in the early morning sun, with no one on my side, startled, and turned over and sat up: "Yun Zheng ......"

"Young lady!" Ning Er hurriedly came in, "The young master went to the Octagonal Pavilion. ”

"Is he feeling better today?" I was a little surprised, so I quickly took the brocade fur handed by Xin'er, didn't care about freshening up, and ran out of the door. From afar, I saw Yun Zheng sitting in the octagonal pavilion and stroking the qin, just like the first time I met him in the Cangdu Lifang Courtyard, the breeze stirred his clothes, his posture was peaceful and quiet, and his pale skin was illusory and crystalline.

I stopped running and walked towards him. His slender fingertips exuded a simple and distant piano sound, as if from the wild years hundreds of millions of years ago, with the breath of the past life, déjà vu, which calmed me. Everything in the world peels off layer by layer in his heart, and his piano sound is like holy snow water, washing away the troubles of the world and returning life to eternity. I suddenly understood that this was Yun Zheng, the last swan song in his life.

He raised his eyes, stretched out his hand, and smiled faintly at me, his eyebrows were picturesque: "Ye'er." ”

I walked up to him reverently, leaned against him, and looked at the snowy scene outside the pavilion, and there was a warm sun in the high sky. He clenched my hand and frowned, "Hand is so cold." I smiled and closed his hand, which was bitterly cold: "It's snowing again, and this is probably the last snow of the year." ”

"It's going to snow again next year." He smiled and said in a low voice, "Ye'er......"

"Huh?" I answered him softly, and he said gently, "I want to see the plums and snow of Yuxue Mountain every winter." ”

Tears slowly moistened my eyes, I closed my eyes to prevent it from rolling out of my eyes, I said that I would not cry in front of Yun Zheng again: "Hmm." ”

"Ye'er......" his body became colder and colder, "It's been a long time since I've heard you sing, sing a song to listen, okay?" ”

"Okay." My head rested lightly on his shoulder, and I felt his increasingly tired heartbeat, and I opened my lips and sang softly:

If the heart is tired, the tears are dry, and this affection is difficult to give up.

I used to have it, and I don't see you anymore, Twilight and Chaochao.

This love will always be difficult, and I hope I can embrace it again in the next life.

I don't know how to love someone, how to stay until I am old, and how to face everything.

Recalling the past, I can't forget the painful lovesickness, why do you still come to stir my heartbeat.

How can I love you, you should know tonight, fate is difficult, love is difficult.

His heart beat slower and slower in a soft song. I turned my head to look at him, and with a serene smile on his face, he leaned beside me and slept quietly. The warm winter sun was shining in an instant, and Yun Zheng's body turned into a faint golden light under the bright sun, flickering and jumping, for a long, long time, those jumping lights passed away with the wind little by little. I know that my beloved has turned into a breeze and roams between heaven and earth.

A tear slipped out of the corner of my eye, and I smiled, raised my head, and looked into the distance. The clouds are vast, and the snow-capped mountains in front of you are quiet and deep, as if they can contain the whole world. The breeze swept across my face and ruffled my hair, and I faced the wind and whispered, "Goodbye, Yun Zheng!" ”

――2007、3、8

Silk silk; Volume III; Fenghua Chapter; End (I know that I will be stoned to death, so smash it.) I'm going to take a few days off and write the fourth volume. Let's take a few days off. ）

A list of lyrics quoted in the third volume of "Silk Silk".

Serial number/chapter/song name/lyricist/singer

1/Chapter 121/"My Hand Through Your Black Hair"/Luo Dayou/Luo Dayou

2/Chapter 129/"Write a Song"/Junko/Junzi

3/Chapter 134/"I Only Have You in My Heart Without Him"/Chen Dieyi/Laurafygi

4/Chapter 140/"Winding Mian Game"/Lin Xi/Peng Ling

5/Chapter 149/"Laughing Rivers and Lakes"/Lu Zhiming/Fan Wenfang

6/Chapter 165/"New Love"/Huang Yu/Wan Fang

List of citations in the third volume of Silk Silk

Serial number/book, article name/author/source

1/ Book of Sui; Zhi VI; Etiquette VI / [Tang] Wei Zheng et al. / "Twenty-four History"

2/ "Dali Temple", "Imperial Examination", "Obsidian"/? /Baidu Encyclopedia

3/"Wu Zhuangyuan in History"/Hu Xingjun/Original Ecological Website

4/"Decryption of the Process of Worshipping Ancestors in Lian Zhan: Entering the Door to Drink Sweet Tea and Worship Ancestors"/Year/China News Network

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