My eyes were spicy, my throat seemed to be blocked by something, and I couldn't say anything when I looked at Su Jianjun who was squatting on the ground with his head in his hands.

After a while, Su Jianjun's mood gradually stabilized, he blew his nose, wiped his face with his sleeve and stood up, "You wait for me for a few days, I'll go out to collect the money, don't do it, there are two or three hundred thousand outside, you take half of it back." ”

"I don't want it."

"Yes, the money is earned by the two of us."

"No one earns it."

Su Jianjun looked at me with red eyes, "Xiao Nan, you can't just care about everything, you don't care like this...... Xiao Nan, you look at me. Su Jianjun put his hands on my shoulders and grabbed my shoulders, and I looked at him.

"How can you reassure me like this,......" He took me into his arms and hugged me tightly.

I leaned obediently on his body, my heart rejected him for thousands of miles, I used to wander in the middle of the night in the small courtyard, my parents and me, and the chaotic scene of Jianjun reappeared one by one, as if I had lived two lives, the price of my mother's life of stubbornness, made me afraid, sometimes I even think that the reason why Jianjun is like this is also because I am too dedicated, too focused on something, it will be distorted and deformed.

If you are calm, you will have a lot less pain.

"Xiao Nan, I was wrong so many times, you didn't say a word to me for 100,000 yuan, this time, I beg you to forgive me, I will take back the money, the two of us will do something else, we will not be paid, okay?" Su Jianjun whispered to me.

I lay on Su Jianjun's shoulder, and I didn't know what to say.

"Xiao Nan, let's start again and have a good time." Su Jianjun whispered in my ear.

"Xiao Nan, you speak, as long as you don't get divorced, I will promise you everything."

Soft Nuo's warmth gave birth to an evil thought, which slowly grew in my heart, I pushed Su Jianjun away, looked at him and said, "You really promise me everything?" ”

"Hmm."

"I ......" I couldn't open my mouth.

Su Jianjun took my hand, "Let's sit down and talk." He pulled me over to the couch and sat down, "I'll promise you anything." ”

"Then I ask you, no matter what, you answer."

Su Jianjun thought about it and nodded.

"When did you start **, and when was the first time?"

The expression on Su Jianjun's face froze, and I said: "I'm really curious, I'm with you every day, I don't know at all, you tell me, I want to see if there are any clues at that time, or there is no abnormality at all." ”

I looked at Su Jianjun, he lowered his head and said, "Say something else, I don't want to talk about these bad things." ”

"But I'm really curious, you can just say it, now I'm not angry, we will have nothing to do with tomorrow after we go through the formalities, how can I have any reason to be angry with you again? I'm just curious, I can't figure out, why do I have to sleep with different people to be satisfied? What kind of joy is that, not even afraid of being dirty? As I spoke, tears slowly flowed from my eyes.

Su Jianjun hugged his head with both hands: "After talking for a long time, you still want a divorce." ”

I took one of his arms: "Why don't you leave?" You don't even want me anymore, why don't you leave? ”

"I didn't want you."

"How many times a month do you want me? Every time, I still count it to have a child! What do you think of me? ”

Su Jianjun pulled out his hand to hold his head, and I pulled his arm away again.

"Look at me and say! Is it to be with me, just to fulfill your obligations, to be happy with those young ladies? ”

Su Jianjun hung his head deeply.

"If you are good to me, you tell me, wait until I get married in the future, if there are any clues, I will be on guard, don't wait until I get infected with dirty diseases to find out."

"I'm sorry ......"

"Why say you're sorry? You're not wrong, what's wrong with you in the pursuit of happiness? I just want you to tell me why, is it because I'm old? Or am I ugly? ”

“…… Neither. ”

"So it has to be something, right? I divorced once, I can't get any lessons, I leave in a daze, what if I get married again, what if I leave again? ”

"Don't push me, Xiao Nan."

"Why did I force you? Is it that hard to say? Oh, I see, you don't think I know how to serve men! Right? I've lived for so many years, and I've only seen a man like you, so it's understandable, but you have to tell me where I can't do it, and I'll change it. ”

"Xiao Nan ......"

"It's that I'm not taking the initiative, am I? The book says that men like sluts in bed, is that true? ”

I stood up, unbuttoned my shirt one by one, took off my jacket and pants, and threw them on the ground, leaving only my bra and panties on me.

Su Jianjun looked up at me and was startled, "What are you doing here?" Cold. He hurriedly got up and picked up my clothes and draped them over me, which I ripped off and threw aside.

"Xiao Nan, I promise you a divorce, you put on your clothes."

"No, you have to tell me why? I really can't figure it out. ”

“……”

Su Jianjun bent down and picked me up, walked into the bedroom, put him down on the bed, and pulled a quilt over me to cover, "Be careful of freezing!" ”

I seemed to be possessed by an evil god, and my strength was surprisingly great, I struggled to push Jianjun away and sat up, "Su Jianjun, you must say today, why don't you want me to go?" Why? ”

"You are obedient, cover the quilt and I'll tell you."

I looked at Jianjun and lay down, and Su Jianjun pulled the quilt over and covered me.

"Men and women are different...... In that environment, as soon as the young lady took the initiative, she ...... It's hard to ......."

"How did they take the initiative?"

“……”

"Say!"

"That's it...... Sit on your lap...... That's it. ”

"Which one?"

“……”

I lifted the quilt and sat up, Su Jianjun sat on the edge of the bed, I put my feet on his legs, raised my buttocks, and sat in his arms, "Is that so?" ”

Su Jianjun hugged me and didn't speak.

"And then?"

I started kissing his face, kissing his lips, and he dodged away.

"Miss, kiss you, do you hide too?"

I sat on Su Jianjun's lap and stripped myself naked, and began to undress him, "You taught me to serve men today, I have benefited immensely in my life, and I have to thank you!" ”

Su Jianjun was a little embarrassed, avoiding and fearing to provoke me further, he stripped off one by one, he covered the two naked bodies with a quilt, I touched him with my hand, and he whispered: "I'm not clean." ”

"If it's not clean, we'll die together!" ……

The thrill of revenge came with sensory discomfort, and I knew that I had ruined everything, and that there might have been ruins and ruins, but now there were no more tiles left.

Just let everything be ruined completely!

I hugged the quilt and cried bitterly, I thought I could be detached, I didn't know that the pain was always in my heart, all the time. (To be continued.) )