One afternoon after school, I was surprised to find my mom standing at the school gate, and I was startled and thought something was wrong. When I asked her, she didn't say anything, she went home to make a fire and cook, everything was as usual, and she didn't see anything wrong. The next morning, after breakfast, I was about to leave with my schoolbag on my back, when I saw that my mother had already packed up and stood at the gate of the courtyard, looking like she was about to go out.

“？” I looked at my mom suspiciously.

"I'll go to school with you." My mom said.

"You go to school with me?" I don't believe in my ears. "Why?"

My mother hesitated for a moment and said, "Yesterday I went out to buy groceries and saw the eldest son of the Lao Luo family coming back from his hometown and wandering around the street. ”

I remembered the moment I was in the small alley, but I didn't want to show fear: "What's wrong with coming back, what does it have to do with us?" ”

"Anyway, I'm fine at home, I'll go to school with you as a companion." After my dad left, my mother's temper improved a lot, which made me a little unaccustomed, and sometimes I hated to make some mistakes, so that my mother would burst into thunder again, scold me loudly, slap me, and make this small courtyard a little angry, even if it was a quarrel, don't be so silent.

I raised my voice and said, "I don't need it!" ”

If before, when I talked to adults like this, before the words fell, my mother would have opened her mouth and puffed her face, but now no, my mother looked at me and turned pale. After looking at each other for a while, my mother said, "You go your way, I'll go grocery shopping." ”

I put my schoolbag down and sat on a horse in the courtyard: "I'll leave later!" ”

"Can't you understand something? Your dad is gone, if something happens to you again, I won't be alive anymore? ”

"You love to live or not, and you don't care if I die!" With that, I grabbed my bag and rushed out the door. I'm afraid I'm going to run slower, so my mom can see the tears that come out of my eyes. Without my father, my mother has half a life left, like a waste, and I have to be cautious to live like an ant.

I'd rather die! I thought hatefully.

The fear of me and the fear of revenge quickly possessed my mother's soul. She started running. She often goes out, and many times when I come home, the house is guarded by the iron general. I don't know what she's doing, I just know that she's recovering to be a normal person, happy from the bottom of my heart. Once, she came back quite late, it was dark, I forgot to close the courtyard door, and my mother scolded when she entered the door: "I forgot to close the door, and my brain let the dog eat it!"

Hearing my mother scolding me, my heart was hot.

On Sunday, my mother and I were at home, I saw that my mother was restless, the teacups were washed, the tea leaves were placed in the teapot, the courtyard door was open, my mother went out to look after a while, obviously waiting for someone. Who are you waiting for? I was reading in my room, looking at my mom through the window, guessing.

At about 10 o'clock in the morning, two cadres came. My mother greeted me very warmly and called me out, and my uncles and uncles called me one by one, and then they talked outside, and I read in the back room.

"Xiao Nan is so tall, it's only been a few years! If you want to meet on the street, you really can't recognize it. ”

"With her father, just grew a big man."

After a while, the conversation got to the point.

"Sister Ma, what you asked us to ask, all asked, that is, there is no good job now, there is a construction company dignitary, tired, the advantage is in front of you, you can come back at noon and night, there is also a textile factory, a car stopper, but a girl's work, is a little far away from home, in Zhoucun, you are right, what do you like?"

“…… If you don't go to the textile factory, it doesn't matter if you're far from home, isn't it a matter of time before the child grows up, you have to go. ”

"Sister Ma, have you thought about it, the child is less than fifteen, it is considered child labor, are you willing to do it?"

"There is still a year to graduate from junior high school, let's be early, now while the old comrades are still in place, I can help, arrange a unit for the child, in a few years, if the child finishes high school and graduates, when the time comes, the old comrades will retire, and I will go to someone from a woman's family."

"You didn't talk to your child?"

"What to discuss, no!"

"It's better to discuss with the child, lest the child grow up and complain."

"No, she knows what."

"Then, if that's the case, we'll decide. The matter of age cannot be ambiguous, Sister Ma, you can handle this matter, you are more familiar with the Public Security Bureau than us. ”

"Okay." ……

I sat in the back room, listening, and felt my heart slowly harden cold.

When the two of them left, I listened to my mother shouting at me to go out and send it off, but I didn't even move. After a while, I heard my mother close the courtyard door and walk briskly into the house. I opened the door, and the man stood in the back room, looking at my mother with his eyes, and said coldly, "I want to go to school!" ”

My mom was bending down to clean up the table, and the teacups collided with a crisp and pleasant sound. My mother looked back at me and said, "What's wrong with joining the job early, after a few years, it's even harder to find a job." ”

"I want to go to school!" I suppressed my anger and raised my voice.

This time my mom straightened up and threw the rag on the table: "Up! What are you using, your dad is gone, my job is gone, who will provide for you? ”

"I have my dad's pension for me, and I don't need your money!"

"What do you say?"

"The fourteen yuan was sent to me by my father's unit to let me eat and go to school, not to support you, so that you can be a big living person, and you don't work at home......"

Syllable! I got a slap in the face.

My mother was so angry that her face was red, her eyes were shining with tears, she pointed her finger at my head, and said hatefully: "Do you think that if your father is not there, I can't control you, you say it again and I'll listen!" ”

"Good! I repeat, give me my fourteen dollars! I'm going to live on campus, and it doesn't matter to you whether you live or die! ”

"You! You...... Get the hell out of here! ”

"Get out of here!"

I slammed the door and left. I have never seen this kind of mother in the world!

I wandered around the street for a whole afternoon, there was nowhere to go, this is a small town, and it is not prosperous, the so-called commercial street, there is a three-story department store, and then there are sheds on both sides of the road, and there are small shops divided into one by one, selling cloth, clothes, and buns. On Sunday, there were a lot of people, bustling, and I mixed in with the crowd, following the flow of people, shopping from house to house, thinking about things at home in my head. Suddenly, my eyes lit up, and in the women's clothing department on the third floor of the department store, a beige corduroy jacket hung high on the shelves, and I was immediately fixed there. It's so pretty! It's not as dazzling as the pure white, it's a very soft and clean, I think I must look good on it, and the lapel, which I like, the more I look at it, the more I like it, I don't think I leaned forward and leaned against the cold glass counter, at this time, I saw the price tag hanging in the corner of the jacket, fourteen yuan and nine corners. I felt a sadness in my heart, which was nine cents more than my monthly living expenses. It's a desperate like. I looked at the jacket greedily, reluctant to leave for a long time. If it had been put aside, this might have been a wish that could have been realized, but now, it must never be possible. My father's death has completely changed our lives, we never thought about how much a piece of clothing cost, how much a bowl of food is, now my mother and I have to divide the 21 cents of pension every month into many cents, this bowl of food is more, that bowl of food is less than a centi, every penny has its use. Clothes, since my dad died, not a single one has been added, the developing body is still growing at its speed, my clothes are smaller, my mother quietly let go of the edges of my clothes, the cuffs and trousers, there are obvious creases, and the color is not the same.

I wandered the streets until it was dark, my stomach was rumbling with hunger, and I had not eaten at noon, and I walked aimlessly, wondering where I was going. I don't want to go home, although I have food to eat, but I have to obey my mother, go to work as a child laborer in a textile factory, I still want to go to school, at least I have to graduate from high school, take the university entrance examination, give myself a chance, even if I can't pass the exam, the diploma of high school graduation is better than not graduating from junior high school. Who can convince my mom now? I immediately thought of Aunt Guan.