I wiped the tears on my face and bought some fried candy for my mother in a small shop on the side of the road, which is a kind of small strip-shaped snack that my mother loves to eat.

When I got home, I saw that the TV was still on, and my mother fell asleep on the couch. I went over and woke her up, poured her a cup of hot water, and brought out the snacks for her.

My mother was hungry, so she didn't care about drinking water, so she reached out and grabbed her heart to eat.

I sat next to my mom and watched her eat, and my mom ate for a while, turned her head to see me looking at her, and took out a snack and stuffed it into my mouth.

"Mom," I called her, "do you want your home?" ”

My mom ignored me and just ate to eat.

"Shall we go back to that house? You can also raise chickens and grow vegetables, what do you say? ”

My mom stopped, looking at the dim sum on the table thoughtfully, as if thinking of something. I thought about it for a while, and then I ate again.

Now, I seem to be my mother's mother, no matter what I do, I will think of her, come out of the hospital in the morning, stand on the side of the road and look at the rolling traffic, I really want to close my eyes and pounce, clean, a hundred, but I die, who will care about my mother?

My mother went back to the house to sleep after she was full, I went to the toilet to take a bath, I felt that I was polluted all over my body, dirty everywhere, after taking a shower, I threw the changed underwear into the garbage basket, pasted a sanitary napkin on the newly changed underwear, found a clean sheet and spread it on the sofa, and found a new quilt from the bottom of the cabinet to cover it, I didn't want to enter the bedroom of Su Jianjun and I again, I felt that there were invisible germs everywhere, filthy.

After a morning of tossing, I was really tired, my whole body was sore, I couldn't sleep for a long time when I closed my eyes, and the discomfort in my lower body made my heart go up and down, and I knew that those germs were eating away at my body.

Jianjun didn't come back, I don't know where to go, thinking of Jianjun, my heart stinged, this is the boy who boarded the tricycle at the station to pull goods? This is the relationship I've been waiting for for so many years?

I know that people will not remain the same, but I always feel that some innate things in the bones will not change, Jianjun was once the same as me, so that my mother-in-law knew that Jianjun could not give birth to children, and once discussed with us to raise one from my hometown, Jianjun was furious at that time: "You bring you and you raise!" ”

The mother-in-law was yelled at by Jianjun and cried at that time, and sued his wife, Jianjun's father said to her: "Jianjun is right, no, no, what kind of child are you holding idle, messy, you know where the private child came from, you can throw away your own flesh and blood, what kind of good thing can it be?" Can the child be good? ”

Although the mother-in-law and father-in-law are ordinary, they are both people who do their duty, why did Jianjun fall to this?

I can't imagine what Su Jianjun can take off his clothes and go on a blind date with a strange woman, what is that scene like? Like with me? The thought of this makes me feel sick.

I heard movement in my mother's room, as if my mother was getting out of bed looking for slippers, and then, my mother's door was gently pushed open, and my mother walked out.

I didn't want to speak, squinted my eyes and pretended to be asleep, quietly watching my mom's actions.

My mom walked very slowly, the slippers landed very lightly, not like the usual kick and tap, she walked to the coffee table and stopped, stood for a while, and then walked a few steps to the TV, stood for a while and came back, she went back and forth several times, and finally, as if sure that I was asleep, she walked to a pot of spider plants placed on the side of the TV and squatted down, reached under the flower pot as if to touch something, my mother turned her back to me, I didn't know what she was doing, I thought about it, and I was afraid of scaring her.

My mom paused for a moment and stood up, looked back at me, and then tiptoed back to her room and closed the door.

After a while, there was no movement in my mother's house, and she probably fell asleep. I got up quietly, went to the edge of the flower tray and lifted it slightly, and saw a key under the flower plate, I don't know where my mother got it, I put down the flower plate and went back to the sofa to lie down.

I thought Su Jianjun would hide out, but I didn't expect that my mother and I would come back after dinner in the evening, with a strange man, in his thirties.

"This is Brother Wang, a doctor at the municipal hospital, today I asked Brother Wang to see the test sheet and come to the house to have a look."

Su Jianjun introduced someone, and I coldly wanted to avoid my mother's house, but when I heard this, the blood all over my body suddenly rushed to the top of my head.

"Brother Wang, you sit." Su Jianjun beckoned to someone to come.

Dr. Wang, who was very good-looking and gentle, sat down on the single sofa opposite, put the bag in his hand on his lap and opened it, and took out two soft-packed injections from it, as well as an iron box with several bottles of injections.

My mother saw someone coming from the house and came up to her and asked, "Comrade, where are you from?" ”

Jianjun hurriedly grabbed my mother's arm and walked into her house, and said as he walked: "Mom, I'll go back to the house with you, Xiao Nan is sick, the doctor will treat her, let's not disturb her." ”

My mother obediently followed Jianjun into the house, and I heard my mother close the door and asked, "What's wrong with her?" Where did that doctor come from? ”

In the living room, only me and Dr. Wang were left, Dr. Wang prepared the medicine on the coffee table, got up and lifted the hanger at the door, hung the infusion bag on it, and then took the infusion needle and asked me: "Okay, come, see which hand you are playing?" ”

Dr. Wang was standing next to me, his clothes smelled of disinfectant water in the hospital, and I had a clean feeling for this stranger.

"Doctor, I don't want to treat." I said in a hoarse voice.

"It's okay if it's not cured, no matter what happens in the future, the body is your own." Dr. Wang's voice was soft and earnest, as if he had seen everything.

I involuntarily reached out and asked Dr. Wang to tie the hose and put a needle on the back of my hand. At this time, Su Jianjun came out of my mother's house.

"Brother Wang, sit down, I'll get you some water." Jianjun greeted Dr. Wang.

"No, no, it's going to be over soon, I can't sit still, I'm on duty tonight."

Dr. Wang put away the things on the coffee table, pointed to another bag of injection hanging on the side and said to Jianjun: "When the fight is over, you can change it for her, right?" Open it from here, pin it, open this one. ”

Jianjun said: "I will change, I will." ”

Dr. Wang glanced at me and whispered to Jianjun: "Your result is out, in my office, so let's come to the house, no matter how the conditions are not good, I am on the night shift this week, you and your younger siblings go to the hospital to find me at night, you have to beat too." Su Jianjun peeked at me with an uncomfortable face, and I twisted my head to the side.

Su Jianjun politely sent Dr. Wang downstairs, and I sat on the sofa and watched the clean and translucent liquid in the infusion tube flow into my body drop by drop. (To be continued.) )