The people in the dormitory were washing, I pushed the door in, and at first glance I saw Xu Fang's angry face, she stared at me fiercely without shying away, and slammed the door with a basin towel and went out, and the others were silent, busy with themselves. I was about to take a thermos to get hot water, and when I mentioned it, it was full, and I turned my head to look at Sun Juan, who was sitting on the edge of my bed soaking her feet, smiling at me.

"No thanks, if you have something to do tomorrow, I'll mention it to you."

I didn't make a sound, put the towel and tooth cup in the basin, and was about to go out, Sun Juan stopped me: "Hey, wait for me, together, I'm going to pour water." ”

I patiently watched Sun Juan shine her feet and put on her shoes, and she carried the basin to the bathroom with her, and walked to the door, Sun Juan blocked the door with her body, gave me a look, and asked me to continue walking, and when I got to the stairs, Sun Juan motioned for me to go down, and we reached the corner of the stairs.

"What for?" I lowered my voice.

"Xu Fang is in the bathroom!"

"What's wrong, she washes hers, let's wash ours."

"You don't know, I've been crazy all night tonight, and if you don't come back, she's going to look for you!"

"What are you looking for me?"

"What? Let's see what you and the squad leader are doing outside! ”

“……“

Sun Juan looked at me excitedly: "Tell me, what are you doing?" ”

"Didn't do anything."

"Didn't do anything? Didn't do anything, and I'm only back now. ”

"I really didn't do anything, I just walked away. Going around the school. ”

"Oh? Just walked away? Sun Juan looked suspicious.

"Really."

Suddenly, Sun Juan's eyes lit up: "Kissed you?" ”

"Don't talk nonsense!" I nudged her with the basin in my hand.

"Did you pull your hand?"

"Oh, no, just walked away."

Sun Juan was confused and thought for a while: "Then did he say he liked you?" ”

I shook my head. Sun Juan: "Then what did you say?" I won't say a word all night! ”

I slowly remembered: "He told me that the results of the internship exam are out. ”

"Really? How many did you take? ”

"Ninety-two points."

"Ninety-two points! You? Sun Juan was a little angry, "You're so embarrassed to say." What about me, how much am I? ”

“…… Forgot to ask. ”

"Who are you!" Sun Juan hit me on the head with her idle hand.

The lights went out, Xu Fang couldn't stop churning on the top bunk, making the bed squeak, and I couldn't sleep, thinking about the squad leader, thinking about what happened this day from beginning to end, it seemed like that, and it didn't seem to be, I never thought that anyone would like me, let alone the squad leader, the person Xu Fang liked. In this case, next time the squad leader calls me again, I will go, and I will be angry with Xu Fang first!

Since that night's walk, I haven't said anything, but I seem to have a tacit understanding, and when I met the squad leader again, when I looked at each other, I really read what Sun Juan said differently, it was a kind of soft warmth. Although the time was short, as soon as there was a change of eyes, he immediately avoided it.

After the internship, we went back to the classroom. The class leader's seat was at the back of the classroom, and every time he passed me, his heart would unconsciously pull up, and he would slowly let go after he passed. There is a group of people around him to play with him, is the largest group in our class, since that day after walking, every afternoon after class, the section of the road to the dormitory has become my heart disease, often I turn out of the foot of the teaching building, their group seems to be waiting there, began to talk about the guitar singing, "I have a little secret buried in my heart......" walked over and sang, "look at the pretty girl in front of ......" for this, Sun Juan did not go with me, I had to take the lunch box to the classroom at noon, and did not return to the dormitory after class in the afternoon, Stay in the classroom and read a book, until the cafeteria opens in the evening, the people on the road are scattered, go directly from the classroom to the canteen, go late, sometimes the vegetables are sold out, buy two steamed buns and go back to the dormitory.

Once, on the way back to the dormitory, I met the class leader, who was standing on the side of the road with a plastic bag in his hand. Seeing him standing there from a distance, he couldn't help but slow down, wanting to wait for him to walk over and stagger away, but he didn't expect him to greet him: "Didn't eat?" Don't just eat steamed buns, I just went out and had something, so I brought you some food by the way. ”

I instinctively avoided it, how could I ask for something from others, "I don't want it." I have food. ”

After speaking, I lowered my head, pinched the two steamed buns and ran away quickly.

The squad leader's home is local. Several local students in the class go home every Saturday afternoon and come back before class on Monday, like Xu Fang and Li Mei in the dormitory. There are only four of us left, sometimes we go out shopping together, and sometimes we sleep and chat in the dormitory when we are lazy. The most talked about is who is doing with whom, who is getting along with whom, and so on. Listening to the discussion, I would silently think in my heart, where is the squad leader now? At home or in a dorm? What are you doing? Since the death of my father in middle school, I have been accompanied by a deep lingering inferiority complex, and the love that I have never even dreamed of has come faintly and caught me off guard. Will the squad leader be the one who carries me across the ditch? Singing and guitar sounds often come from the boys' dormitory opposite, and through the closed window, I would hide under the covers and carefully discern whether there was his voice inside.

My mom sent me a package. For the first time, I probably didn't have enough clothes to wear, the old man in the communication room shouted downstairs, and he was still suspicious on the way to the letter, until the package with my home address was in his hand, which I felt was true, I trotted all the way back to the dormitory with the package, and couldn't wait to open it, and tore the skin of the plastic bag inside, I almost shouted, it was a sapphire blue down jacket, so beautiful, I jumped on the spot while shaking my clothes out, I liked it so much, I hurriedly put it on my body, The people in the dormitory all said that they were good-looking, and this goes without saying, just look at Xu Fang's stinky face. Sun Juan and the others rushed to try it on, it was the best dress my mother bought for me since I can remember. It's getting colder and colder, and I'm worried!

When I was in class on Saturday morning, I opened the pencil case and took the pen, and when I saw that there was a neatly folded small note inside, I hurriedly pinched it in my hand to see that no one was paying attention, and quietly opened it in the palm of my hand: at half past six in the afternoon, go right on the road at the school gate, etc.

At half past six o'clock in the afternoon of winter, it was dark in the morning, I followed the instructions, went out of the school gate to the right, walked along the road, and just turned the corner, I saw that the class leader was already waiting there, with a bicycle on the side. When he saw me coming, he jumped into the car and forklifted: "Come, get in the car." ”

"Where?"

"Go to the movie, the tickets are all bought." ……

"Come, come up."

I sat down in the back seat, and the squad leader kicked the car up and turned back to me, "Hold on." ”

I clutched the edge of the back seat of the car with my hands, and the squad leader bent his waist and rode the car as fast as I could. Looking at the rows of roadside poplars running backwards, I thought what am I doing? Do you want to be nice to the squad leader? Can you see that he likes me, do I like him? Didn't think about it. But I covet that kind of warmth, only for me, and the wind and rain, perhaps, if I refuse, this love will be like fireworks in the night sky, and it will disappear before I have time to remember its splendid appearance.

In the cinema, when the squad leader's hand quietly covered the back of my hand and grabbed it, I didn't hide, but I was so nervous that I stiffened, and I didn't know what the movie was going to do.

On the way back, the squad leader pushed the bicycle with one hand and held my hand in the pocket of his coat with the other, and talked as he walked. Mostly he's talking, I'm listening. One sentence in the east, one sentence in the west.

It was a long way from the movie theater to the school, and the two of them walked together, and they arrived at the school, and they could see the school, and in the shadow of the tree around the corner, the squad leader stopped, put his feet on the side, took my hand, pulled him to him, and said softly: "I like you." ”

“……”

We were so close together that I kept my head down and didn't dare look at him. He leaned in, wrapped his arms around me, and gently hugged me tight. I lay my face on his chest and could hear his heartbeat clearly. At that moment, I was in a trance, I remember playing outside when I was a child, and when I saw my dad coming back from work, I would pounce on it, reach out and hook my dad's neck, hang on my dad, and let my dad carry it back, and lie on my dad's chest like this, listening to his heartbeat.

At that moment, it was warm and down-to-earth. I involuntarily relaxed and clung gently. The squad leader held up my face with his hand and lowered his head, and I was startled and pushed him away.

"I'm going back."

I ran away in a hurry.

That night, I unexpectedly lay down and fell asleep, very down-to-earth.

It felt like a sugar cube in water slowly melting, and the wisps of sweetness were fainted little by little, accumulating, and thickening until the heart was sweet.

During the winter vacation of school, the class leader sent me to the station, and we held hands and were reluctant.

"I'll go see you."

"No, you must not go, my mother, I will definitely not let you."

"Don't let your mom know."

"That's not going to work either."

Sitting on the minibus heading home, I felt melancholy for the first time.